"Found a doctor!"

"Found a doctor!"

Finally and unexpected, I found a doctor, and it wasn't even my plan to find one today. This Friday was a productive day, I planned a few things what I usually skip or think, "Ah! that can wait." I wrote two things down what I wanted to do and that I did, tomorrow I will do the same, writting things down again, just a few things. Today I planned to go to the housing corporation for a meeting and a talk, cause I had already a 'sign in' meeting there, but Linda (my counsilor at Humanitas) told me to show your face there a bit more, go for a talk. It's been a while since I have been there so I had to search first, but luckily I found it fast.

I went in and talked to a lady at the desk, I stumbled a few times first while talking, but she got the message. She told me there was no need for a second talk, I had already had a 'sign in' talk. Further she told me that they are working with a so called point-system, I will get every month one point, so, more months means more points means more changes to get a house. I have to have a certain amount of points to get the house you want, or other houses, more points more chances. So, another talk wasn't needed there, but either way I showed my face again, showing I'm interested in there houses.

When I got back I passed  a doctor's office, I thought, "Oh, ah! why not." I went in and spoke to the assistance, and told her that I was new in town, and that I really could use a doctor. I have been searching so long. She told me, that they don't take other patients from other area's. This doctor was in another area from the city where I lived, they only take patients from there own area. She asked me where I already have been searching for doctor's, and what were the doctor's name? I could only name one, cause there were to many where I have been. The assistant gave me a new doctor's adress and name, and told me that this doctor is taking new patients. His name is Dr. Heikens.

I thanked her and went back to Humanitas, I decided to go there after my lunch and nap. I still had some food left from the free dinner from last night, it was stew with meatloaf and lots of green beans, yam! When there's not so many people with the free dinner, you can get some food with you for the next day. After the stew I took a nap, I was tired... as I always am later in the week, blame the three days of work, but a nap does miracles. I washed my face after my nap and went off to Doctor Heikens, I googled the directions and here I went. I forgot to type in google maps that I was on a bike, so the trip took a bit longer, hehe, sigh!

After I asked a few people for the directions I arrived at a huge building, and went inside. The waiting room was huge, I'm used to small and cozy waiting rooms but this one was enormous. I searched for the doctor's assistant and saw a desk but no one was there, I waited a while. Then I saw a sign that made clear that I was standing at the wrong desk, I needed the other desk in the other hall. I told my story to the assistant and half way she giggled a bit and told me, "Yes, we take other patience, but there will be a 'in-take' meeting first with the doctor." 

I was looking at her for atleast 5 seconds and thought, "Is she serious? Do I have a doctor now?" Yes!! I have a doctor, and I didn't even wanted to look for one today. Mission accomplished! I'm happy with it, oh yeah! The 18th of May there will be the 'intake' at 3:00 pm. I asked the assistant if I have to take something with me, she told me that, that isn't neccasary cause you will get some papers with you to fill in. I'm excited already, I have a Doctor!

While I'm here in Almelo, the city where I live now, I have been looking around a bit of what kinda houses they have here. And they are not bad I must say, there all kinda house. I like the small old farmer houses, what people sometimes renovate in to a luxury or modern house, really nice. Then there are the little city houses, penthouses, and the terraced house. To many to write them all down, but either way, I would like to live here, this is a nice city. It won't be like the villa's/bungalow's  I lived in in Canada, but that's not needed. My favorite houses here are the little renovated farmer houses and the little city houses, the terraced houses is a 'no,' If I had to choose.

Some pictures...

The old city houses, nice!

Terrace houses, naah, not my style.

Penthouses aswell in Almelo.

Old renovated farmer's house, nice! 

There are lots more kinda houses, and most of them are nice. Yeah,it's nice  here, I will have to investigate the right kinda neighborhood though, there are some neighborhoods here in Almelo with low life people and that's not the kinda people I would like to live next to. My counsilor Linda knows this city and what kinda people live in Almelo, she will tell me where and not to live, it's all good.

"A single sunbeam is enough to drive away many shadows."

"A single sunbeam is enough to drive away many shadows."

A nice day today, I guess the sunshine makes everything nice. I'm looking forward to the summer, it seems to start this weekend, were gonna hit the 27 degrees Saturday. It's almost insane but anyway, I'm loving it! The heat doesn't bother me that much, most residents complain that my room is so warm and hot. Again, it doesn't bother me the warmth, although I bought some screens for my window, I will put them on tomorrow, so I can open a window in the night when I'm sleeping. I don't like musquitos! Hehe!

Today at work our boss had a new order, some customers needed a sidetable for in the garden. I made one with another guy, that guy works half days, so I had the honour to finnish the sidetable. There were a few little mistakes in the table, but it didn't matter. But such thing can bother me (lol!) I'm a bit of a perfectionist, but only a bit. In the late afternoon my projectleader from Reha called me, she had a (eek!) job for (eek!) me, a paying job that is. The phonecall totally suprised and frighten me a bit, a job? "Now already," I thought. I sure wasn't ready.

It was a job in a city called 'Rijssen,' that's a city where I worked before, Almelo (the city where I live now) is almost a 45 minute drive from Rijssen with a bicycle. That's a bummer though, it's even further then Nijverdal, my ol' town. The job I had to do is to devide metal, other workers are bringing all kinds of metal inside and I have to devide the metal. Aluminium with aluminium, copper with copper, etc, etc. My project leader told me it's a good job to do and you have a nice atmospher, only the distance is surely a bummer, specially with your energy. "Think about it," she said. "I will," I told her. I just don't know.

Now I know that I have a habbit to refuse work when a tiny little thing already bothers me, and I shouldn't do that, and I don't want to anymore, otherwise I keep refusing jobs. But this 'new' job suprised me and surely didn't expect it now. My projectleader told me a month ago that she will take things very seriously and will be carefull with me, she know what I want and what I'm able off. She told me aswell that it will take sometime to get you a job, you need to get used to working first and adjust being back in Holland after your breakup. And that's what I want, I would like to adjust first and get used to working aswell, cause it's been such a long time I had a job.

I want a job! But I don't want a job that will get me fired after 2 or 3 weeks, or that my new boss will say, "Hey were out off work you can go." Just like in the past, I don't want that anymore. Now I will think about this job untill next Monday, I can ask for a meeting first to have a look around there, that's a good option. I'm not gonna say yes, but I'm also not gonna say no. We just will see next week. The disadvantages are, the distance and I didn't expected the job so fast, I'm still adjusting. The benefits are, I can use this job good to earn some money. I'm going for a meeting first and then I will decide, desicions, desicions, lol!

And now this...

Maybe I shouldn't even write this down and just let it be, but, I don't know. It bothered me so I will write it down, I might get Saf on my roof, but hey, it's my blog and my thoughts and feelings and surely no offence to Saf. Let's just give it a try.

Three weeks ago I sent Saf a mail asking how her Easter was, and I told her aswell what's going on with me. I think it was a week after Easter when she responded back, and there was a line in her mail what made me feel a bit upset and bothered me. Saf reunited with her Mom, she invited her with Easter, (Grandma) they haven't seen each other in almost 2 years. (long story, I was a part of that story too.) The reunion made me happy for her and her kids. It must have been ackward and at the same time emotional.

Saf invited aswell 'her new boyfriend,' for Easter as she wrote in the mail. That's fine with me. but I didn't have to know that and the way she wrote it bothered and me made me a bit mad. 'My new boyfriend,' maybe I take it all a  bit to heavy, I don't know. It felt that Saf wanted to make a statement, like, "I got a new boyfriend",' it sounded a bit childish aswell,  AH! I don't know, it made me upset.

First I wanted to response back, but I didn't, otherwise Saf would write back perhaps, to tell me to stop acting so overreacted, or to tell me, "Stop writting me then. Maybe I am acting overreacted. I just didn't like  the line "my new boyfriend," it sounded, AH! I don't know, never mind. I asked her aswell months ago to stop mention her new lover when she writes a mail. Anyway, on with my proces and my progressing, maybe I should speed up a little bit more. Vrrrroooooom, vrrrroooom! I'm ready! I love everyone.

Note to myself: Don't be so hard on yourself! Stop thinking, and carry on!

Howard Jones "What is Love"

I would like you to...

 I would like you to...

When you wake up in the morning, complete the following statement, "My purpose is to __ today."

Spend more time with people over the age of 70 and under the age of 6.

Try to make at least 3 people smile each day. 

Take a 10-30 minute walk every day and while you walk smile. 

Sit in silince at least 10 minutes each day. 

Each night before you go to bed complete the following statements, today I am thankfull   for ___. Today I     accomplished ___.




I just found the above writting while surfing on the net, nice right? I think I will take each day 'one' and accomplish it, let's see what it does to me. Rainy day today for a change, it's about time. We need rain, actually we need lots of rain, 3 days of rain will be enough I guess. Yesterday I talked about some goals I would like to achieve, one of them was to find a nice house for myself. Now how do you find a new house? Well, not by doing nothing and let someone come to you and tell you, "Hey, I have a house for you." It's not how it goes, you have to look for yourself aswell. And that's what I'm gonna do this comming weeks.


I will be looking online, and I will make an appointment with the housing corporation where I signed in a month ago. Shame on me, cause I should have shown my face there a bit more, I never came back after I signed in. Sorry folks! I will drop by this week for sure. I signed in with 4 corporations, all in different cities. And these cities are all near this city where I live now. Almelo, Hengelo, Enschede, Zwolle, there you have it 4 cities. I'm ready! 

I sent a card to my Aunt today, (poor Aunt) cause I changed my email adress last month, cause my old email was full of junk. I couldn't open it anymore, so I made the desicion to get me a new Hotmail. I totally forget my Aunt's email adress, she must be mad cause ussualy she bombards me with mails, asking how I'm doing. Sometimes she can be anoying telling me what to do of what she thinks is best. Without knowing what's really going on  with me. Anyway I had a bit of a rest and I sent the card, saying sorry and with my new email adress today. I will wait for response. 


It's the 4th of may today, that's a special day in Holland. It's 'Remembrance of the dead' day.

Remembrance of the Dead  is held annually on May 4 in the Netherlands. It commemorates all civilians and members of the armed forces of the Kingdom of the Netherlands who have died in wars or peacekeeping missions since the outbreak of World war 2. At 8 pm there were 2 minutes of silince. 

"The purpose of fun is to live it."

"The purpose of fun is to live it."

Yeah, I'm so ready to have fun again, if others can have fun then I can too have fun, right? Enough of the sadness, I wanna live! Mr. positivo speaks, I'm ready and I feel better, wow! I almost wanted to write 'happy,' that would be a bit to fast. When will I be happy then? I think I will be happy when I feel happy, and THAT will happen,I'm sure!

I saw someone posting on Facebook about a pelgrim walk, I think I heard of that before. I thought, "Why that's an idea too," not a pelgrim walk, but just grab a backpag full of clothes, perhaps a tent and some food and start walking. Backpacking, it just flashed trough my mind, that could be a nice adventure aswell.  I'm ready to have fun again, my goal is, (like I said before) to travel. I want to see the world, enjoy my life and not sit and wait untill fun and joy knock on my door.

What more goals do I have? Uhm, good question. I would like to have a nice house, (I will achieve that) I would like to have a proper paying job, (I will achieve that) and more traveling,  (I will achieve that too) Do I want to stay single? No, but at the moment I'm just enjoyning my freedom of being single, don't get me wrong, I really liked my last relationship with Saf and I wish we would have saved the realtionship, but for now, I'm good. These are my goals, and I'm happy with them.

It's good to have goals in your life and live to it, specially in my situation. I never would have thought I would accomplish what I have accomplished now already. Sure I had pain and I still have some pain but the pain heals, thinking of Saf hurts less. I can look at pictures of her and just think, 'yeah, good times.' I enjoy sometimes looking at the pictures from Saf's kids when there having fun, it does me good that they have a good time. But  sometimes just that, 'missing them,' moments, but these moments are getting less aswell. Thinking of Tasn, still hurts me, it's like 'beng,' it hits me. She's a sweetheart and I hope she does well.

Back to today, Tuesday, working day. I nearly finnished the 3 wooden lounge couches. There huge, specially the last one, the last one was a 3 sitter. I felt some backpain aswell today, that's been a while, I worried just a bit but I'm good now. Mr. frost knocked on our door this morning, it was cold! I had to knock a hole in the air to get outside. The following days we will have some frost but in the weekend the tempature will rise again towards 24 degrees (celcius) I'm happy with it, I love the sun!

Again I haven't much to write, it was just a nice day, with sunny weather. Work was good, everything is going fine. Slowly progressing, I can spend a bit more money now, perhaps I should buy me something nice. But I prolly will buy something what I really need. I could uses some long sleeves, and hangers for my clothing. I will just see, and wish you now for all (if you go) a goodnight! Otherwise a good day!

"Satisfied."

"Satisfied."

Aaah, that satisfied feeling when your done with a fully day at work, it was a nice day, with a nice atmosphere and being busy. Sometimes a joke and some good music in the background, nice! I worked on some wooden lounge couches for in the garden together with another guy, (Tomorrow pictures) lots of work but it was good. My Boss told me today after our break that someone from Reha (our comercial man) wanted to intervieuw me, and at 10:30 he came. I thought, "Okay, I'm fine with that." The guy wants to make a little story about Reha, and I was the choosen one as a part of this project to be intervieuwd. The intervieuw went good, he asked me a bit about my background and why I was sent to Reha, and if I liked it here. Mr positivo, lol!

I haven't got much to write today for a change, only that there will be a big Spring cleaning on the 9th of May here at Humanitas. It's actually a working day for Reha, but Humanitas agreed that some people have to be here for the cleaning. My Boss wasn't happy with that, but okay. The could have done it better in the weekend, when it's so boring here. Some residents already complained and told each other that they wont show up, I will be there, I don't mind. I think it's all macho talk and in the end they all show up.

Second thing I heard when I got back from work was, Frank isn't allowed anymore in this building for a while, (No wonder!) It seemed there was always something going on when he was around, being agresive and drunk. Some of the residents were suprised and did not understand it, (Hello?) These residents want to put there heads together (As they say) and prolly do something about the 'Frank not being allowed.' There nuts, and in my eyes it's childish, this isn't a kindergarten, right? "Prolly someone has spoken about Frank," said Johannus, I went quiet, cause I told something to Linda my counselor. But I'm sure I'm not the only one.

It was just innocent what I told, I spoke about what Frank's beahviour does to me, that it was bothering me. Linda told in the end that it was maybe better that Frank doesn't come here so often anymore in the weekends. I told Linda aswell that I didn't say anything about this, and that I don't want to get in trouble. She understood. From now on, I will stay out of this all, and I wont say a word anymore, I think it's much better. I hope that some residents don't knock on my door for a strike this week, to get Frank back in the weekends, hehe! Sigh! I just see them doing that, and if I'm not willing to joy them they might think bad of me, it's childish! Anyway we will see.

Birthday...

Today it's Ab's birthday, he's turning 4 already. Back when I was in Canada Tasn was my big sweetheart, but most of the time I spent with Abdu, blame Tasn's goings to school. It was nice being with Ab, taking care of him, take him for a nap or a bike ride, youn name it. Ab was the first baby I changed a diaper on, oh the joy of a first diaper. Ab was so clever already, he gave me directions what to do while changing his diaper. Ofcource I had my difficulties aswell with him, he got me angry quit alot with his sometimes Arabic temper, I learned to be calm then and think he's still a child, it helped. (a bit) After along time I got used to him and I (almost) knew how to handle him. He can be naughty, but he's oh so cute, HAPPY BIRTHDAY little man! I love ya!

"If you worry about what might be, and wonder what might have been, you will ignore what is."

"If you worry about what might be, and wonder what might have been, you will ignore what is." 


"Your doing well, I think it's time to look for a place for yourself," said my counselor Linda this early afternoon. I had a little meeting with her today in the office. I was suprised to hear what she said, and I wasn't expecting it to hear that. I'm busy with the things I need to do and in the mean time many things are happening around me here , I'm like a old train that goes on and on. Sometimes I stop to have a look how far I am, but not so often. I'm able now to start with looking for a place for myself, I should be dancing and be happy, happy that I have achieve things, I can be proud of myself. And, I am proud, and most proud I am that I stood trough these last five months and how. But happy? Hmm, yes I am, but aswell I feel these akward nerves. When Linda told me that It's time to look for a house, I asked myself, "Am I ready for that? Can I handle things alone?"


I think it's also the fact that I'm adjusted here at Humanitas, I like it here . And maybe I'm a little bit afraid of letting go, I'm picturing myself already sitting in my own house being alone again. I know, it's not a positive thought, it's not that I don't want to have a place for myself, I guess Linda  just suprised me with her saying. The time went so fast, and I was getting used to that time, and now it's time perhaps for another time, another step forward to my journey. Linda told me that I can do it, I can do the things I need to do, I was ready, she told me. What seemed to me that I have a bunch of huge problems wasn't maybe not even that huge. I solved it, I got my unsurances, I got my income, I'm progressing with my way to a payed job, the bills are starting to get payed. It's all going good. I can even save some money, Linda told me. Still that akward nerves feeling though, oh well, another level higher I suppose, I will get used to that. 

Today was a nice day, the weather was good with alot of sunshine and not that cold. Around 11:00 am I heard someone whisteling loud, I thought it was a teenager being childish. But when I looked trough my windown I saw it was Frank, he must have spent the night somewhere where I don't know where. He wanted to get in the building to speak to Johannus, prolly asking him to bring him back home. I letted him in and he told me he spend the whole night with a friend here in this city, he haven't slept the whole night. Johannus came downstairs too and asked me to come with them while driving Frank home, "Sure," I thought. So, I went with them, and it was a nice ride. When I got back I took a long nap, a well needed nap. 

Today was 'tosti' time aswell, me and Linda made slightly a appointment to make tosti's for every resisdent present this Sunday. I said slightly cause we both didn't  know for sure if we get trough with the tosti's. But we did, and it was nice. I sliced the cheeze, prepaired the ham and made the sandwisches and Linda helped here and there and served the residents. We had ourselves some tosti's too ofcource, they were nice with cheece and ham. After the tosti's me and Linda had the talk on the office.  "My goal is to have a doctor here in Almelo within two weeks," I told Linda. it's about time, cause the difficulty with the medications for my thyroid is a pain. It's so much handier to have a doctor close near. 


While I start this week with searching for a house, I thought of another thing too, I still have some stuff in Canada, ugh! I will have to ask Saf if she will ship it these coming months, sigh. It's not a pleasant thing to ask , but I really have too. We both agreed that my personal  belongings will be shipped by her, and I know she will. I miss some clothing, I miss my music,  most of my music I prolly will sell. I wanted to sell it in Canada, but that was suprisingly hard to do, maybe Canadians have another taste of music. Anyway, I need to get prepaired for tomorrow's work. (yay!) Putting my clothes ready and some lunch. Check!

"One reason I don't drink is that I want to know when I am having a good time."

"One reason I don't drink is that I want to know when I am having a good time." 


What can I say about this day? I was looking a bit forward to it, but it ended not so, hmm, nice? The weather looked good inside from the window, but when I got outside there was a cold wind. I planned to go to the free markets in the centre of Almelo, it's only a five minute walk. I had shorths on and a t-shirt and the cold wind blowed, it was colder then I thought. The market was very nice, it made me think of the Canadian Goodwill store but then outside. People just sit on the pavement with a huge blanket on the ground, selling there stuff what they don't need anymore. It's all second hand, and what I all saw wasn't bad, it was actually nice stuff. I enjoyed it alot. 


But it was cold and I walked a bit faster, I planned to buy some grocery aswell. I thought, I will come back in the afternoon and take then my time looking at the second hand stuff. It was busy already and it will get much bussier later today. After I did my grocery and walked in my room I felt I needed a nap, and so I did. I was exhausted and slept for an hour, I didn't got up cause  I still felt tired and felt I could sleep the rest of the afternoon, I turned around and slept for another hour. (Wow!) I think I broke my own personal record taking a nap, usually I sleep for 15 maybe 10 minutes, and that's it. 

People sell there personal belongings on the street.

I stood up after the long nap and made some lunch, then someone knocked on my door. It was Frank with another guy, that other guy lives here aswell, his name is Daniel, nice guy! I didn't expect Frank cause (Funny thing happened last night) Frank wasn't alowed to spend the night (anymore) with Johannus during the weekend. Johannus asked for it yesterday with the coffee break, the staff told him, "No, not a sleep over,"  Johannus replied, "We will see." And Johannus picked up Frank in the late afternoon. It was around 7:00 pm when Frank and Johannus were getting to hear from the staff that Frank needs to go home after 9:00 pm. 


Angry faces from Frank followed ofcource, but anyway, at 9:00 he was brought home by Johannus. (hehehe!) So, yeah I was suprised to see him again today. Johannus picked him up this morning and now Frank asked me to come with them to the canal, just to sit by the water and have a few drinks. I though, ugh! I planned to go to the market again aswell, and like Johannus told me yesterday, he and his family would come too. "We already went to the market and now it's way to busy," said Frank, after I asked him, "Lets go to the market instead." "Oh well, let's go," I thought, so there were six of us, and it was okay.

Everything is orange decorated.

Me, Frank, Johannus and his 7 year old Son, Daniel, and Harry were on our way, Harry is the oldest with his 55 years of age, he's a nice guy too. We all putted money together and we bought a crat beer, I already had planned to drink not more then two bottles, what the others drink I didn't' mind. Although they drink/drunk alot more then me we all were having fun and had lots of talks. After a few drinks Frank started to get drunk and his behaviour was getting 'macho overreact.' It is not, my kinda thing, but okay. I knew already that it's going to be fine, cause Johannus had aswell other plans to do after dinner. He has to bring his Daughter back home, and perhaps Frank when it's needed. 


The talks were getting opener, or how do you say that, when alcohol is in the body... ah! I think you know the saying, right? I don't like drunk people, and certainly not drunk, agresive people I know and where I live with. I heard a few things what suprised me, what I certainly didn't know of. It was not a thing to worry about though, it perhaps makes clear why some people here act the way they act. I noticed that most of the people here have a 'not so nice' background, or a 'not so' nice past. Maybe it's the fact how they grew up, or in what kinda atmosphere they grew up. Bad parents? Bad Mother or bad Father? Abused? Father drunk, or Mother drunk? I don't know, but to me what I all have heard saying these last 3 months from some of the residents, knowing all that, there behaviour makes alot of sence to me now. 


I don't know if I should feel pity for them or not, I mean there all nice guys, but I can't change there behaviour. Or can I? Ineed to keep my distance aswell sometimes when I am near or with them, I don't want to get in trouble. I really blame the alcohol, it's like poison for them. Some of the guys where I was with this afternoon work with me aswell at Reha. You see totally different guys then, there funny and friendly. After 3 hours the crat with beer was empty and were heading back to Humanitas, it was only a 10 minute walk. Johannus invited us for a small dinner, french fries with burgers, nice of him. The plan was to go eat first dinner  and then back to the canal, and drink some more, Frank's idea, sigh! 


I knew already then that I'm not going, cause I know how it will end. I rather be somewhere else then, somewhere quiet with a cup of coffee, my room! And I'm staying with that. While having dinner we had laughs, talks and the kids played football, Frank was drunk (ugh!) and I so don't like him then, agressive, macho behaviour and loud. I started to know Frank two months ago and he was then a nice guy to everyone, where you could relay on. But now, I don't know, he changed, that's for sure, or is it that I'm now starting to know the 'real' Frank. Dislike! Blame the alcohol! The kids were still playing football but hitted a few times a window, and the staff came outside to have a little talk with Johannus, telling him that there kids have to be a little quiet while playing. 


Johannus understood and was okay with that, Frank was sure not okay with that and went mad. The staff was gone, and Frank began to talk with Johannus, he disagreed and was shouting and putted his angry face on. Oh dear, his language! Later on just for fun he broke a lamp, and kicked a chair. Blame the alcohol, even the other people who were with us disliked his behaviour it seemed. Why can't we have a good time and have laughs without alcohol? After dinner I stayed with them until they were (planning) heading of again, but now they were  not so sure that they would go again. Frank didn't had a place to sleep (cause he can't stay with Johannus) Johannus can't bring him that late if the plan was to have a drink again. Frank calmed down and called his friends on his phone, maybe they can bring him home after midnight.

More personal belongings to sell.

I helped with the dishes and Frank sat outside, Johannus, me and his girlfriend were talking about Frank's behaviour, "He's to agressive," we all agreed, Johannus told me that he will be responsible if something will happen, he will be the one looked at when Frank does something wrong. I told Johannus, "Frank can be the one who can get us all in trouble, he needs to calm down, I don't want to get in trouble because of him and because of you guys, that's why I sneak out sometimes."  Johannus replied, "I know you sometimes sneak of."  "Now you know why," I said. 


I went later on to my room, and Johannus joined me with his family, they were going to there room. "I'm sneaking of again," I said, Johannus laughed. An hour later Frank was brought home by Johannus. I felt a bit of a relief, I think I need to stand up more for myself and be tougher towards  the guys. I'm a good guy where you can have laughs with, they can take me as I am. I don't drink (that much) I'm not agressive and I like to be on my own so now and then. But being with the guys I like too, although if it's getting nasty or I feel it's going to get nasty then I'm sneaking off. I know what I'm doing and I will never get in trouble (knock on wood) I will be always on my hood.


This day wasn't that bad as it seemed, I had a nice time, but next year I will be going to the second hand market like I planned. I really saw some nice things.

"We wish Catherine and William much love and happiness for the future."

"We wish Catherine and William much love and happiness for the future."

Today was a royal day and tomorrow it will be another royal day, today was 'The wedding' where the whole world will prolly talk about, good or bad.  I saw a few bits of the wedding, the balcony kiss scene was the best. I had a bit of  'oh,' moment when William putted the ring on Catherine's finger, I thought, "Oh dear, the ring doesn't fit." I loved Catherine's dress, I think most of the people were expecting a bit of a 'Prinses Diana flashback' sort of a wedding, but I didn't see that. Anyway, I wish them both the best in life. Note to myself: I didn't even know that Prins William was seeing Catherine and that they were an item, and I didn't even know that they would go mary this Friday until last Thursday. I should watch the worldwide news alot more.

BUT! I do know that tomorrow it's Queensday In Holland, like always on the 30th of April. Queensday  is a national holiday in Holland. Queen's Day celebrates the Birthday of the Queen of the Netherlands and is supposed to be a day of national unity and "togetherness." The tradition started on 31 August 1885, on the birthday of Princess Wilhelmina. Since 1949, after the accession of Queen Juliana, Queen's Day is Queen Juliana's birthday on 30 April. Although Queen Beatrix's birthday is on 31 January, she officially celebrates her birthday on 30 April.

Queen of the Netherlands, Queen Beatrix.

Prince Willem-Alexander & Princes Maxim.

Queen's Day is known for its "freemarket" all over the country, where everybody is allowed to sell things in the streets. Other activities during Queen's Day are children's games, individual musical performances, and music concerts. The night before Queen's Day is celebrated too in most cities, and this is called Queen's Night. The largest celebration of Queen's Day is in Amsterdam, Queen's Night in The Hague and Queen's Dance in Rotterdam. During the celebrations as reference to the colours of the House of Orange Nassau, people dress in the colour, which is sometimes called "orange craze."(Thank you Wikipedia)

So yeah, there's alot to do tomorrow. In the past when I was little I would just stay in my own city or town to see the markets and playing children games, and watch the Queen's day on tv. When I got a bit older, I went alot to Amsterdam with some of my friends. It's huge there and the markets are cheap and it's such a big happening, and extremely crowded. After such a long day you'll be dead exhausted. Nowaday's I will take it easy and I will just see what I do, I might go and see my Dad, but I don't know yet. I have been twice this week in Nijverdal and to go again, hmm, I don't know.

Crowded orange madness in Amsterdam.

The famous Dutch canals in Amsterdam.

Queensday in Amsterdam.

Even pets have to believe in it!

I will for sure have a little peek tomorrow at the 'Free market' here in Almelo. I went in town aswell today and it felt good, it was nice being there. Ussualy I never stay long in town, I rather just do what I need to do and vanish. I did some grocery and I bought two little orange teddy-bears for Johannus's kids, plus I bought something for the musquito's. It's a sort of a screen what you can easily attach to the frame of the windows. I will attatch it tomorrow or Sunday, it's weekend tomorrow so I would like to fill both days. Sunday's a close neighbor of mine from Humanitas reminded me that we might make tosti's this comming Sunday, together with Paula my counseler, nice!

Oh yeah!! Totally forgot! I got my medication, Yay! I was expecting it would be a disaster, but, it went fine. It was a long walk though, more then 30 minutes. When I arrived I had to wait a little while till it was my turn, when it was my turn, I asked for my recepy and the pharmacy assistent looked and there it was. Although the adress wasn't right, cause they had still the adress from the summerhouse where I stayed back in Frebruary, the pharmacy  changed that right away. I pulled my wallet and wanted to pay, but they stopped me and told me that your healt insurance will pay for that. Wow! Ain't I a lucky man today? 

The walk back was another 30 minutes, but the weather was nice, still that akward feeling being in Nijverdal, my ol'town, I nearly passed the grocery shop where I used to almost daily shopped while I still lived in Nijverdal. The shop was a five minute walk from my old house, so easy then to shop. When Saf and Ab were in Holland we used to shop there to for grocery too, the people who shopped there found it funny and a bit akward to hear Saf speak english, but the akward feeling changed in a few days. It was a nice feeling that Saf was with me then, and was a part of my daily to do things. 

When I nearly passed that shop this morning, I didn't want to look at it, and not even want to pass it. Although I needed grocery, I refussed to go there, to many memories, I'm sure it would make me sad, so I avoided it. It would give that feeling of the ol' past again, that same ol' same ol' feeling, I didn't had such a good life before I went to Canada, being in Canada was much nicer, a family around me and much love, The shop would aswell bring back the fun memories I had with Saf while being in Holland. Maybe I'm over reacting, I don't know, but I know I will refuse to go shopping there again. Anyway, there are more grocery shops elsewhere, right?

...A little bit more rain, please!

...A little bit more rain, please! 

It's just to dry outside, although whe had some thunder and lots of rain last night, we still need more. (Hay fever is a pain! lol) I must be Dutch, always talking (and complaining) about the weather, Dutch people seem to start a conversation always with a bit of weather forecast or complain about it. Anyway, my hay fever is on red alert and I don't like it, but work was fun today. We had some laughs, me and my working mate. Just goofing around, and that's needed sometimes, it's alowed aswell. We worked on a wooden lounge couch for outside, atleast some part of it. It was nice work. When it's done I'll take a picture of it. Our boss had a little suprise for us this afternoon, she brough for everyone a meatball with bread and sauces, nice! I was full afterwards, cause they were huge.This day was okay, working does me good, but three whole days is still the limit. 

I'm tired now and feel exhausted, tomorrow I will feel and need my sleep and rest. I can continue though with doing things but afterwards I will be broken. So better not, rest is needed. Only tomorrow I will have a bit of a full and stressy morning, my thyroid medication needs to be re-filled. Last Wednessday I tried my best to get them, but the Doctor's assistant was doing a bit difficult. I couldn't get my medication only if I waited for five and a half hours. The pharmacy gives prescriptions only after 3 pm, and the assistant  needed first make a new file. (about me) and that would take a long while. I told the assistant that I will get them up comming Friday, then the medication will be for sure there and done, as the assistant promised me. Well, we will see, I really hope I get them this time without any stress, cause I need them. I have one more left... Good luck is what I need tomorrow...

I told you about the resisdent meeting from last night, and I promised I will write down some of the rules down in this post. Here they are....

New House rules 2011~ 

1) the personality of every resident living here will be respected . iedereen entitled to his or her own choice in life to fill. Every resident living here hass the right to fill in his own life.
2) The Humanitas building is alcohol and drug free!

3) Each resident receives (when entering Humanitas) a set of cutlery and crockery and linen package. these items you will get to borrow, damage or loss will be charged to the occupier. If you dammage these items from another or from your neighbor you will be charged for this aswell. 


4) Without permission from our staff you can not hang paintings or anything like that on your walls.

5) Humanitas is not responsible for damage and theft. We advise to lock your room door with absence.

6) It has to be reporded at the staff if you stay elsewhere more then one night or more.  


7) You may only with permission of the staff have a stay overnight visit. Visit is only permitted between 9:00am  and 10:00 pm. A visit  must be received in your room, use of other common areas is permitted but only when the other residents are okay with that. Act as a resident host when you have a visit. You are responsible for the conduct of  your visit

8) After 10:30pm your not alowed in other people's room, this is because of the other residents who might want rest or want to sleep. 

9) When there is a resident meeting you are alowed to be present. If you can't be present ask permission at the office and tell them why you can't be present. 

10) the staff is authorized to do a control room, this may occur without notice. We check on  hygene, suspicion of alcohol, drugs or weapons. Or other compelling reasons. The staff is alowed to ask the police aswell to acces to your room. 

11) If you cause serious nuisance within or outside the guest house and/or you show agresief behavior towards staff and/or residents, our staff is permitted to end your staying here . Aswell this will be reported at the police. an immediate rescission of Humanitas may be banned. The duration of this prohibition is determined by reference to the nature of the offense.
  
12) By the end of your staying you have to deliver your keys at the office and hand it in by the staff after a cleaning controle and a inventory control. If a resident leaves without consultation at the office, within five days your room will be cleared, also with unknown absence the police will be informed. Costs are charged by the resident, not surrendered or lost keys will be charged by the resident. The costs are: Cleaning your room 25 Euro, House-key plus chip 40 Euro (Each 20 Euro) 

13) Pets shall be held only with permission from the staff.

14) All the the rooms are non smoking. Cooking devices are not alowed in the rooms, aswell no waxine lights, candles or burned incence. When there is smoke in the room, windows open. To many false fire alarms will be charged to the polluter. Frying is alowed in the kitchen or outside in a deep fryer with thermostat, in any case in a pan of grease and oil.

There is still more... but that's for tomorrow...

"Tonight's the night."

"Tonight's the night."

Am I not to excited? For the resident meeting? I noticed I am, tonight's the night. It seems I'm the only one who is looking forward to it. I need to un-excite my self, LOL! This morning I went early out of the door, I told myself last night, first I will grab a cup of coffee with the coffee break at 9:15 and then I will take the train at 9:45. Well, I took the train 30 minutes earlier, just to get on time back. That's just me, changing schedule times. This morning I wanted to get some new (Thyroid) medication, cause there were almost done. I needed to go to my old Doctor in Nijverdal to get them, cause I still don't have a own Doctor here. Sigh!

I was prepaired, I brought enough money and setted my mind on long walks, cause it will be a long walk from the train station from Nijverdal to the Doctor and the Pharmacy. The train trip went fine and the long walk too. At the Doctor's it went not so fine, the Doctor assistants were being a pain. After asking them for a new description they told me that it wasn't possible, cause I needed to check my blood first. I thought, "Okay." After she asked me my birth date and year, she found out she had the wrong file from another patient. Fail!! She tried again to get my old file back cause they deleted everything just before I went (for good) to Canada, I asked for that back then.

She couldn't manisch and I thought to myself, "What on earth is she doing and why does she doing it so difficult?" In the end she told me again that it's not possible to give you just like that a new prescription, she  needed to make a new file, "Can you come back with all your data and other important stuff we need this afternoon?" She asked me. I said, "No, I don't have time this afternoon, I just need some new medication and not a new Doctor here in Nijverdal." She replied, "To give you new medication we need a new file first, and that will take a few hours, can you come back after 3:00 pm while I work on a new file, then you can get the prescrition at the Pharmacy." 

"I don't have much time this afternoon, and Thursday I'm at work, Friday morning is that an option?" I had 2 pills left in my room, so that was possible. "I will try it one more time to get trough this then you might get to pick it up in 30 minutes," the assistant replied. But it was a no way, I told her that it was so easy two months ago when I just stepped in here and asked for a new prescription. The assistants then talked to my old Doctor and he gave me a yes. I had to pay for the medication though, cause I didn't had a health insurance yet. And I thought it would go just like that aswell this morning, but no.

The asssistant replied, that it was such a long time since that last time. Well okay, I was done here, and told them that I will pick the medication up Friday morning from the Pharmacy. The assistant asked me if I had still enough pills untill Friday, I told them yes, just enough. "Can I be sure that I can pick it up this comming Friday?" I asked the assistant. "Yes, for sure!" She replied. Then I left, and thought to myself, "We will see." I really need them this comming Friday, I can't do without. I cross my fingers for Friday. I need for sure as soon as possible a new Doctor here in this town where I live.

When I came back there was the second coffee break and I had a few cups, I saw the kitchen was a mess. After the break I decided to tidy and clean the kitchen a bit up. Tonight at 6:30 the meeting will be held here, I'm still excited! lol! I made some lunch and went for a long nap, it rained and the room was cooler, it felt nice. 

The resident meeting. 

After the 'free'dinner, where I went with Johannus and his Family, there was the resident meeting. I asked if he will take the kids aswell to the meeting, he said, "Yes, what else can I do?" The meeting was crowded and loud, everyone was talking to each other, that made it that some people couldn't follow it, including me. Johannus's kids were loud aswell, his girlfriend took them away after 30 minutes. The meeting went fine, the points what botherd the residents we talked trough. And the staff talked about the new rules what they made today. I guess I was to excited, cause it was a meeting that I can call a bit hmm, let's say,I would have done it differently. 

It was to a bit of a mess, the set up was not so well organized. We sat all around 3 big tabbles, the staff and the residents kriss kross trough each other. I will tell you about the new rules tomorrow, cause I'm getting sleepy, lol. It's been a long day. I wasn't talking much, I'm not a guy who will stand up and say my thing, I'm not aa guy who stands on the foreground. Let other people do that, and that happend, thank God! The complains were right, and the staff promised to do something about the complains. But the residents thereself had to do something too ofcource, like keep the good atmosphere, don't steel from each other, keep it clean, and most of all be nice. 


In two weeks we will have a new meeting. There was so much talking, the only thing I said was, let's have a meeting again within a month, to see how it goes then, with the new rules and our behaviour. The staff agreed but made it instead of a month, two weeks.