"Cold, colder, coldst."

"Cold, colder, coldest."

It was a cold and grey day today, specially in the morning when I head to go to work. I took my sweater with me, for just in case, I putted the sweater on at work cause it was way to cold. It was a nice day though at work, only the Boss was sick so the second Boss had to come earlier. The second Boss always comes an hour later, around 9:00. She works mostly on the office and guides new workers around.She's a very nice lady, she was the one drove me to Ikea for the laminate, she was a great help.

So, as from today my counselor at work will search for a payed job for me, finally actually,  I'm a bit 'eek' for the new job aswell, although I need it too and kinda looking forward to it. Specially cause I will get payed. That's the main thing I'm looking forward to it, for the rest it's a bit 'eek.' Ofcource, cause it will be 'new work,' new workers, a new Boss, etc, etc. I will have to inform the company where I get my monthly money from too when I get a new job. That company is called a employement agency, that agency gives me money every month. Oh gosh my English, lol. That agency has certain.

Some of the rules are that I now and then you have to search for work and apply, or how do you say that. If there's any improvent in my sickness I need to inform that to the agency too, aswell if I'm going to move or when there's any change in my life situation. Also when I go on vacation I have to inform them, for example when I went to Canada for a long time, lol. (I will never forget that again) So, when I will have a new payed job I will have to inform that I earn money from that job to that agency, and they will take a few procent of that earning, sigh! For example if I will earn 10 Euro a day, the agency will take 3 or 4 Euro of that earning, why? I don't know. Just a rule from our goverment and the agency. 


It's alot of work and lots of filling in papers, but it is as it is. When/if  I will get a contract where I work then, then I will get the full amount of money without the agency taking of so much procent. When I will get a payed job there is first the internship ofcource, to see how I'm doing. It's good for me aswell, so I can see and feel what it's like to work for 'that' new company. If I don't like it or my 'new' Boss doesn't like how I work then I will and can go back to Reha. Then 'they' will just search further for a new job, I like that. I know now already that I can't fullfill a whole week. I work at Reha 3 days and that's enough for me, perhaps 4 day's but that's the limit. 


Today there was the free dinner again, most of the food was self made. Like the apple sauce and the salad, it tasted good. After the dinner I drove towards home with 2 other members from Humanitas, they invited me to visit them at Humanitas, I went with them for a short while. It felt a bit weird comming back, opening the gate, trough the garden and then going upstairs. I visited Henkie, he was siting on his bed watching tv as always. It was okay being at Humanitas, but it felt akward aswell. Akward cause maybe a staffmember will see me and ask me what I'm doing here, visiting ofcource, lol. I shouldn't be worried. Visiting is normal. 


I guess what I'm thinking that the staffmembers think that I'm not the kinda person who will come back for a visit, oh well. I felt a bit of a relief when I returned home, yeah, you heard that good, 'Home!' 
 

Sunday is the day of the week between Saturday and Monday.

Sunday is the day of the week between Saturday and Monday.  

I have no clue what to write, but i'll do my best, eventually I will write till the end of this post.I didn't do that much today, sigh, Sunday's means resting. There were some shops open and there was a little market in the city, but I didn't go. Save's money, lol. Most of the time I will end up buying something what I don't even need. Today I did a bit cleaning up, computering, and napping. I think these last three days I had my rest now, today I took only one nap, yesterday and Friday I took two long naps. After a busy week I need my rest, sure I can go on but in the end I will collaps and fall asleep or get sick.  This week I need to do some blood work again at the hospital, my medication is almost done. I think I go Wednesday, then I will have to wait five days for the blood results, in the meantime I need medication too. But I have enough, I counted them. 

Cornflakes with banana this morning.

Still no sign from my montly income, maybe the sum of money came on Humanitas's account, I will ask tomorrow. Or maybe I'm just a bit un-patience, I don't know, I'm calm though, in such situations. Other people won't even notice when I'm nervous or stressed. It comes from inside. There's another thing what bothers me lately, I should not mention it, but hey, it's my blog and I can write what I want. I always try a 100% not to hurt people or make them black when I mention them. It's about my personal belongings, there still in Canada with Saf. A month ago I wasn't daring enough to ask for my belongings, Saf and I had a deal, Saf could keep my complete computer, if she ship my belongings towards Holland.  It was her idea, and I agreed with it. 

Gotta love rainy Sundays, I do!

Two weeks ago I dared to write her a message and ask if she could ship my belongings, it wasn't easy to write that message though but I managed. I find it difficult to write such thing, I wrote that she could take her time with the shipping, "Take all the time you want." I don't have rush with my stuff, but there will come a day that I have to ask for it. So, I thought  why not now, otherwise I will keep deleting it. Anyway, I haven't heard from her yet, perhaps she's busy with work or has other things to do. Usually Saf writes me back after I sent her a message, but this time no, is two weeks to soon to get nervous or upset? I can think of a million things what can be going on, but I'm not gonna. The last thing I want is argues or fights again, I dislike that. Eventually I will hear what's going on. I'm not worried.

Fresh fruit!

And I hadn't had a clue what to write, lol, and now I'm already here with writing. Alright, just a few more hours and this Sunday is over, I'm ready for a full week. This week 3 days of work, 3 free dinners, Wednesday there will be my new counselor, the blood work needs to be done and perhaps next weekend there's the flea market. I'm ready!

"A penny saved is a penny earnt."

"A penny saved is a penny earnt." 

Today was almost a day like yesterday, I rested alot, took two naps and ated three times. I'm a bit less worried about my money though, but still, I really could use some more of it. My Aunt called last night, and she told me that I should look for some part time work. Just work here and there for perhaps a few hours then you get payed, that's an idea, yes. But my body says no, after a full busy week I'm to tired to do anything. But I will look for part time work anyway, who knows what kinda work it is. If it's only for a few hours or maybe a day, I can give it a try. Ugh, money! I really gotta take easy with my money, atleast for a few months. 

My mind was today with buying curtains or not, I saw some really nice once for a nice price. But I thought naah, maybe next time when my montly money comes. Stubborn I am I took a look anyway in the store where they sold the cheap curtains, and planning to buy them. When I had them in my hands I had doubts, not a nice colour I thought, and are they easy to put on? Doubts made me decide not buy them, I went to another store and looked around there. There they were a bit expensiver, but they were nice, but again doubts, sigh! I didn't know of the lenght, well, I knew the lenght what I should get, but, does the lenght really suited? Will it look nice? The curtains where light brown, and I thought, "Alright no more doubts, I'm buying them." The curtains were 6 Euro more then in the other store, but I didn't mind.

I took two, one of 60 mm and one of 75 mm, when I nearly wanted to pay them I saw they were two different colours. Damn! Doubts again, I putted them back and looked again, after five minutes I decided not to buy them. It's difficult to make a decision what I wanted if I not really know what I exactly want. There are so many ways to decorate a window, lol. Let me make first sure what I really want and think of a way what the cheapest way is to decorate the many windows I have. I think the besrt way is to measure all the windows what I want to decorate and be closed, (what I already did) and then go to a store with the measures and find a nice curtain or whatever decoration there is. I'm sure the guy or the girl from the store will help me out.

I left the store and actually planning to go to another store where they sell curtains aswell, but halfway I decided no to, lol. I bought the second half of grocery for the comming week and returned home. It was quit a bag full with grocery, but okay. It makes me think back at Humanitas, there I was the only one who bought lots of groceries, but cheap. I think I was the only one then who bought, veggies, fruit, or anything what was healty. Most of the residents didn't buy much groceries, and if they bought groceries they bought bread and meat. Or cigarrets, lol, lots of ciggarets. It made me think, do I really need all these groceries? Do I really have to buy this all? Just like today I had a bag full, but do I really need all that I ask myself.Maybe I could/should make it less. 

1 little bag of potatoes (1,89)

Alright, let's go silly, and I will tell you what I bought today for this whole upcomming week....

1 bag of chrunchy muesli (1,29) 7 days a week sandwisches can get boring, muesli or cornflakes breaks the habbit.
1 bag mixed salad (1,09) usually I buy veggies from a can but a nice salad so now and then can be nice too once in a week.
1 Package of fruitbiscuits (0,82) I take them with me to work, at 10:00 with the coffee  break, it's a nice snack.
I package of teabags (0,35) instead of coffee, sometimes.
1 little bag of potatoes (1,98) this is a little bag, just one week I do with them. Such a cutie bag.
1 brown casino bread (1,09) usually I go for the cheaper ones but bread is gone in the supermarket before you know it, I guess I'm not the only one who goes for the cheap bread, lol
1 white bread (0,56) There was just one cheap bread left, and it was white, sigh, but okay.
1 beer (0,80) cheers! just once a week. Sometimes I skip a week.
1 bag of paprika chips (0,45) so now and then in the weekends.
1 bottle of salad dressing (1,12) nice over the salad.
1 baking butter (0,35)
1 butter (for the sandwisches) (0,54)

1 smoked sausage (0,56) the cheapest meat there is, and so handy to prepair. 

4 vanille puddings (0,17) blush, only 17 cents, but hey, there okay.
1 package of sliced cheese (1,56) only for the working days, for lunch, what I use for the weekends.
1 little can of spinach (0,66) something different then always, beans, carrots and beets.

1 little bag of apples (2,00) fruit is good, I never skip.

3 peaches (0,68) one for Monday, one for Tuesday and one for Thursdays, for each working day, lol.

Casino bread, square and cute.

 Well, that's about it for this week, I usually buy the same grocery/products every week. Meat, potatoes, veggies, fruit and something what you can put on a sandwich. Like honey, coconut slizes, peanut butter, jam, aplle syrup, sweet stuff I know, it's nice in the morning, and not that heavy. Thinking of my full bag of groceries makes me think of my money, maybe I should make it less all that grocery, maybe just for a few months. I think I will laugh when I read this post back two or three months later, when I have enough money to pay all my grocery what I want. I can maby buy something extra, lol. I just will see and find out. No worries for tomorrow.

So many questions, so less answers...

So many questions, so less answers...

Today I was worried,  and still I am a bit. I'm worried about my money, Ireally  hope I can pay my usurances and rent within next few months. Although I have one worry less, my 'new' counselor will be comming next Wednesday at 3 'o' clock. I sent a message last night to Humanitas to ask when my counselor is comming, Cause I thought he would come this week. When a resident leaves Humanitas he or she gets help from a counselor or other help, the residents wont be left alone just like that. When a resident lived for a long time at Humanitas and suddenly lives on his or her own again it can be difficult, so all help is needed. Someone from Humanitas sent me a message back this morning, telling me he informed the my new counselor. Within a hour I had a phonecall from that counselor, yay!

He confirmed with me, and he told me he has all my information he needs to know. Well I have a few questions more though, but that can wait till Wednesday. I made a list what need to be taking care off, and I  tried to solve some off what the things what was standing on the list. That was difficult cause some of the things I just have to wait for, I'm talking about my finance. I have to watch more and more often to my bank account, (online) to see what has been payed or what I'm getting in the month, ect, ect. It's a good thing so I can get used to this online banking thing, lol. I already found out that online banking is easier to find out then finding out how a cellphone works, I so dislike cellphones, lol. To many options and to many buttons!I slightly panic when my cellphone rings, or I hear it ring and I have to find out where the phone is! 

Another thing I had to take care of is that every paying or montly income had to come on my own bank account. Otherwise my montly income will come on the account from Humanitas, and that's not a good idea. When I was at Humanitas I had two bank accounts, I had my own and had Humanitas's account.  I already took care of everything though, but I haven't seen my montly income on my account yet. Sigh, I guess I will have to wait till Monday and prolly see it then. Some companies are so slow or they make silly mistakes. Second thing is, Humanitas has stopped my 'extra money,' I was getting the 'extra money' from the goverment of this city, cause my montly income was under the minimum wage. The rent at Humanitas is incredible high, so every resident had to ask the 'extra money' by the goverment.

Now as I live on my own again, Humanitas automaticly stopped the 'extra money,' it's a normal thing to do for Humanitas. But do I have to ask again for that 'extra money'  at the governent? Cause I know my montly income is still under the minimum wage, am I alowed to do that? Is it possible?  Should I wait till Wednesday, so my counselor will tell me what to do? I guess that's what I will do then, wait till Wednesday, cause I don't wanna make mistakes or get into more little problems. I can use the 'extra money, just to pay my rent or usurances. I already getting my 'care alowance,' and next week my 'rent allowance,' I shouldn't complain actually, but still. Roll on September and October!  So I can get used to this stress full money thing. 

I will have to get a contents insurance too, but I will wait with that too till Wednesday. So many things to do, so many questions, in the past I was so easy with such things, I guess time changed everything. Being in Canada I didn't had to take care of that, it sure was different then in Holland with finance, usurances, and many things more.  And being at Humanitas was different aswell, I wasn't living on my own, I lived in a shelter. I needed different insurances, I had also a new income, so much differences made me lost. Now I have to get used to everything again, I need patience and self-confidence. All that will come back I'm sure, I'm not the same person as before I came to Canada. I'm stronger and have more will power. The worries now are normal, I don't blame myself or other ones. It is as it is, things will be solved again, patience! 

About my day: It was a nice day, I spent most of my time in my pyama pants, (read: comfy pants) I took two naps cause I felt like it, lol. I relaxed and rested alot, I did some grocery and saw a few nice curtains for a nice price. But I didn't buy it, cause I just don't know about my money yet. It's better to take care of my money, I can live a while without curtains. I'm living in my house now for almost two weeks and I'm managing, I only buy grocery and for the rest I'm handy with managing. 

'Thank God it's almost Friday."

'Thank God it's almost Friday."

It's getting colder, last night I putted on a blanket more cause I was cold. I must have been standing on the market yesterday to long in the cold wind, but it was a nice day. This morning I could sleep longer, cause I took the morning off. I told my Boss that I will come with the lunch break, or a bit sooner. It became a bit sooner, I slept till 7:00 (a nice time) and went on my laptop, took my breakfast, and after that I headed off to work. I arrived at work before 10:00, just before the coffee break.

I guess I like my work and the workers, lol. I started to work on a baby-seat, cause yesterday on the market a nice woman came up to us and asked us to make one. It's been a while since I made a baby-seat, but it went well. I like working with wood. Today aswell my counselor at work came up to me and told me he will get started to look for work for me, payed work. I was getting a bit of a 'yay' feeling but also a bit of a 'eek' feeling, I'm so used to work at Reha, I guess it's difficult then to start somewhere else, but it's what I want, it's what I need aswell.

Speaking about counselors, Paula said goodbye two weeks ago. And I should get s new counselor from another company called CTI, they will guide me and give me help where it's needed. Paula made a end rapport about me, in the rapport was written that I still need help with my finance. I still need to get used to my finance, what are my income? When do I get my income? What has to be monthly payed? And when do I do that? Does my paying go automaticly? What can I buy or what can I buy not? I will have to become used again to what I can give out on money montly or weekly.

I already started to work on 'that,' I wrote down on a paper what I pay in the month at usurances and rent, and what I get in the month. Now this counselor didn't show up yet, or I might have it wrong. Maybe Humanitas told me that the new counselor will show up a month later, I can remember that I will get a message or a phonecall when he or she will come. But why do I keep thinking then that the counselor had to come this week? Ugh, I was lost when I was thinking these thoughts, time for some action. I sent Humanitas a message, asking where my counselor is, and asked to clear some things up.

I had to much on my head lately, work, the moving, saying goodbye to Humanitas, it distracts me so easily. Maybe it's time to write things down again, just to not forget things, I did that in the past and it's so easy. I will never forget a thing again, the last few days I have been busy with work, and I was thinking, "I moved, I'm here now, I'm good and done." But I'm not done yet, there are a few things that have to be settled, one of them is my finance. Second is that I would like to get more under the people, join a club, join a sport, or get a hobby. Paula came up with that too and she offered me help, she wrote it down in the end rapport, so, my new counselor will offer me help with that too.

But my new counselor doesn't have to do everything, I can do things aswell. Last night I looked in Paula's end rapport, and watched what all has to be done, I wrote it down on a paper and I will see what 'I' can do with it. Go Sjon!! I had it done before so why not now.

"The only disability in life is a bad attitude."

"The only disability in life is a bad attitude." 

It's been a nice day, I told yesterday that my Boss and I would go to a market to sell our (selfmade) wooden products. Although all that, I had no clue what kinda market it was and what kinda people I'm going to see and meet. Yeah, I have been on markets a million times, but selling products or items? No. "I just will see what this day will bring me," I thought, I was tired though and riding my bike (again) to work wasn't that a pleasure. I took of at 8:10 am, cause I had to be at work at 8:30 am. It was busy on the street, parents taking there kids to school, office people going to work, teenagers going to college. It was a mixure of bikes, screaming kids and cars, lol. Rush hour in Holland. But I arrived perfectly on time though, when I arrived my Boss came five minutes later after me. He brought a trailer behind his car for the wooden furniture we will bring to the market.

Packing the furniture in the trailer.

The trailer was just big enough for all the stuff we brought, a complete lounge set, crats, flower crats, butler trays, everything just fitted. But what a heavy work, the carying was so heavy, but okay. We took off and headed to the place we had to be, city Enschede. We were going to 'Bouwhuis,' in Enschede. Bouwhuis is a  care center for disabled people in many ways. With many ways I mean there are many sort of disabled people living at Bouwhuis,
there disability may be physical, cognitive, mental, sensory, emotional, developmental or some combination of these. I surely didn't expect that we were going there, I never even been to the place, "I will just see what it is", I thought. When we arrived a friend of my Boss guided us to the spot where were going to stand for today. I knew the guy though, it was a good customer from Reah, he's a male nurse from Bouwhuis, in other words he helps the disabled people, guiding them, nurse them. 

Our spot...

The spot where we will be standing was right next to a huge barrel-organ (sigh!) Sigh, but nice aswell. The Organ was standing left from us, and on our right side there was a gymnastic spot, where people could do gym or dance, ofcource the music was pumpin loud. I didn't mind, I just laughed about it. I saw a nice day ahead of me. We un-stalled our products on our spot, and waited for the customers. Although there was a bit of a cold wind it was nice to look around, I already took my hat of for all the nursers (as I call them for today) what 'they' all do for the disabled people is amazing. It's such a nice gesture towards the disabled people, the market and everything around it was specially for 'these' people. When I was sitting on a iron trashcan (a selfmade chair) I looked around on our spot, and saw all the wooden furniture I made the last 4/5 months. I was thinking, "I made most of this and now I'm selling it," that's a good feeling, also when people look at it and compliment me and my Boss. 

...Our products.

Around 12:00 my Boss treated me on a nice lunch as he promised me yesterday, tomato soup, a healty sandwich, and french fries. I felt a bit guilty, lol, he shouldn't have. But it came right on time, I was getting cold and the soup was doing me good. My Boss was cold too, he didn't take a jacket with him, I did though but was still cold. I noticed that I'm not a market man, lol. Standing there waiting for the customers to buy our stuff, the long standing and the cold wind did it to me. But the atmosphere was good, it was nice being here. After our lunch we were kinda warmed up and went outside again.  But the customers stayed out, ofcource we had lots of people looking at our products, but they were not buying it. I guess you could blame the kinda market it was, it was a fleamarket. On a fleamarket you can buy stuff for under 10 Euro's, our products were a bit expensiver. Our lounge set for example was 475 Euro, butler trays for 60 Euro aswell the flower crats for each 0 Euro. Alot of money, I know. 

Our first customer.

It's the material, and the hours work on the product what makes it so expensive. It is like it is. The day went on and I was getting colder, I noticed that my Boss wasn't much with me. He might have done that on purpose, cause many times he told me today, "Come on sell your/our products," with a big smile. I guess he was thinking that it will makes me assertive, lol, I didn't mind again. Many times customers came up to me and asked me questions about the products, and many times I could answer them. Allthough with some questions I had problems, but then I called my Boss. Cause he's the Boss, and my Boss knows everything, lol. I saw the disabled people were having fun, they were dancing with the gymnastics, and they could take a ride (for the fun) in a firetruck or in a police car, nice. I was still could but I could handle it, a few cuppa coffee's kept me warm. "A quarter before four were gonna pack our stuff and leave," told my Boss, the market last till 4:00. 

Gotta love a barrel-organ..... I did!

It was 3:00 and I had enough, I was done and couldn't wait till we would pack our stuff. I think my Boss had enough too, lol by the look on his face, it's been a long (cold) day. The barrel-organ stopped aswell, I was happy with that cause it seemed the organ was getting louder and louder, lol. And for six hours long the same songs over and over gets anoying too. 
It was time to pack, and we sold a few things aswell, yay! The loungeset, sold! Two butler trays, sold! One crat, sold! My Boss and I were happy, he told me, "We sold it, that's one, and two? We don't have to lift that heavy loungset again in our trailer," That's two wins! I had a nice day, and tomorrow I was alowed to take a half day off. I will start tommorow after lunch, so I can sleep in tomorrow morning. It's needed. Again I having nothing but good for the nurses at care center 'Bouwhuis,' my compliments to them. I saw it's a tough job today, I'm taking my hat of again. 

Ice-scream master Willy!

Just before 5:00 pm we got back at Reah, we unpacked our left products and my Boss wished me a good rest of the day, he thanked me aswell. I thanked him too, I was glad that I went. I was right on time for the free dinner aswell, Marcaroni and meatloaf! A full day, now I'm relaxing and writing this last piece of this post, cuppa coffee next to me. Relaxation has started....

"Some persons make promises for the pleasure of breaking them."

"Some persons make promises for the pleasure of breaking them." 

This is going to be a short post cause there ain't much to say, it's been a day like usuall. Work was fine, I worked hard and steady.  We cleaned one section up today, cause there gonna be changes in our little factory. I have been transported to another section, I will keep making wooden furniture though. In the cleaned up section there will be the delivery and the sawing from the wood. Ear protection is needed! Sometimes I leave my earplugs out, just like some others do, but that's just a stubborn act. If it's getting to loud I will put in ear plugs. I should wear them the whole day I know. 


I was exhausted after work, thinking of tomorrow makes me even more tired. Tomorrow me and my Boss will be heading out to Enschede to visit a market. It's a market specially for factories, we will try to sell our products and try to get more customers. It will be the first time I will spend a whole day with my Boss, it's going to be alright. Only, here goes my resting day, but oh well, just for once, it's okay. I will get a half day off my Boss told me, so Thursday I will start my working day at 12:30 instead of 8:00. 8:30 am tomorrow I will have to be at work and then it's off to city Enschede, I will take pictures of the whole happening.

Just another manic Monday...

Just another manic Monday... 

I woke up last night at 2:30 am this morning, there was a full moon and it shinned right in the livingroom. The full moon shinnend even brighter cause of the no curtains in the house, from my sleeping room I can look right into the livingroom. It was a bit scary and it kept me awake, lol, silly me. I was just waiting for a huge shadow what will apear in the room, booh!! I was thinking if I close my eyes the shadow will apear, so I have to keep my eyes open, lol. Not so easy though when you just woke up and you want to go back to sleep. It kept me awake, sigh! Solution? I grabbed a few sheets and covered two windows so I could not  peek anynmore into the livingroom. But then it was already 5 am, and was thinking, "If I fall asleep now I will oversleep myself," so I doozled a bit and then got up.

I will catch my sleep the next night, I thought. I need curtains! And I will get them this week, lol, no matter what! I think aswell that people who live across me think I am peeking trough there windows, but I am not. So yeah, my mission is to get curtains this week! Another nice day at work today,  before I go to work I ride my bike first to Humanitas to pick up a good friend, Henkie, we ride both together to our work. When I arrived at Humanitas and saw the entrance and the little gate, I had double feelings, thinking of how it was the last months, and that I missed it a tiny bit. Thinking "I was there once." It is just a week ago, I know, but still. Today at work my Boss wanted to invite me to a meeting this comming Wednesday, we will be going to another city just me and him. Were gonna try to sell our products on a factory market. First I thought, "Eeek, naah, I do not really feel to go."

I was thinking to say no but said "Yes I will come,"  instead, lol I thought for a change I will say yes, cause I ussualy say no, BUT I never say no, it´s ussualy yes, when I actually mean no. I had doubts but I already said yes to the invite, I actually did not had a change that much to say no, but okay. The reason of actually saying and meaning no was because Wednesday is my rest day, a really must rest day. I really have to divide my energy over the week, cause of my sick thyroid. I can manage alot but I need my rest aswell, but okay wednesday for a change I will go with my boss to that market, should be fun. I spoke later on with my Boss and explained him that Wednesday is actually my rest day, he knew that. My Boss told me that I could take the next day a half day off. Fair enough! Settled!

Within two weeks I will have to do some blood work again for my thyroid, I´m still on a high dosis of medication, the higer dosis is just to get a good blood level again, cause a month ago my blood levels were kind of messed up. I can not keep taking the higher doses though, otherwise my blood level will go to high. It´s hard to explain it in english, lol, I need a certain balance in my blood for my thyroid, when my blood level is to high, I will get a lower dosis of medication. And when to low I will get a higher dosis. Sometimes the levels are like a jojo, going up and down, with the right dosis of medication I need to get a good balance, and that is not always easy. But I can live with that, I am used to it.

"Oh well, Sunday's."

Let's have a little laugh on this Sunday, I did a few things inside the house and didn't even go outside. The weather was good though, sunny and warm, to warm actually. Ansd when it's to warm in Holland we will get a thunder or a rainstorm. And yeah the rainstorm came in the late afternoon. I cleaned up a few things, I whiped four windows, sweeped the floor in the livingroom. (It's like laminate produces dust, lol) Last thing I did was I emptied the two suitcases with winter clothing. I have space enough for the summer clothing, and the winterclothing. The laundry from yesterday is still drying, it seems it doesn't dry at all, maybe it is time for a wash dryer.

I had a little 'sad' moment aswell, just a short one though. Being alone isn't that fun, I sure hope that will change. I was unpacking my suitcases, and saw some clothing what I bought in Canada, I saw aswell a few drawnings what Tasn made for while I was with her. Then it hits me ofcource, I thought, I really need something to do the comming months. Like I said before, join a club or a sport, follow a cursus. These are my goals, like I said while I was still at Humanitas. I'm sure I will achieve these goals but I will have to work on them, or better look for them. These goals won't knock on my door and say, "Hey you come along!"I will have to do it by myself, I can do that.

Such lonely feelings aren't fun but actually I should be glad I have them, it means I don't want to be alone or sit on my a.. uhm, bum! What makes me happy is that I still live in Almelo, I lived here now for 8 months, and I know the place, I even know a few people. I still meet some of the residents from Humanitas at work 3 days a week and at the free dinner, so, that's something. But yeah, days like this, (Sundays) ugh, maybe I should had going to that church. Note to myself: I will have a great future!! A new city, new people, new oppertunities, new friends, I'm ready!

I'm still amazed what I reached so far, to be continued? Yes!

"Never forgetting."

"Never forgetting."

Yeah, the attack on the Twin towers on the 11th of September 10 years ago. When it happened I was like 'okay.' I wasn't really realizing it, sure it was very sad what happened and it was a unbelievable tragedy, but really realizing it came later on, months later. I knew still where I was ten years ago when this tragedy happened, I was upstairs listening to my records, like I always did after dinner. My Dad was downstairs watching the news, my Dad watching the news, uhm, well he's a bit deaf and his eyes aren't that well. So Dad looks at the TV but sometimes he doesn't even know what he's looking at, when I came downstairs for a coffee I saw the tragic news about two planes hitting the Twin towers in New York. 

Dad was watching it too, but I thought that he was thinking he was just looking at a war movie. I was stunned and thought that it couldn't be trough what I just saw, two planes full of people hitted the Twin Towers. The news was on all channels, and I tried to explain to my Dad what just happend, after several times of explaining Dad was getting it. The news about these attacks lasted more then months,  still life just continues after all the tragedy, then today, ten years after there is the 'memorial.'  Then you think, "Oh but don't we have that every year a memorial of this tragedy?" We have seen it now, we know it now. 

This morning I decided to watch a special memorial video, it lasted more then 25 minutes. While watching the video it suddenly grabbed me, it touched me. Looking at the Twin Towers and the fire on the top made me realize again what happend, what an impact it brought. Aswell there were also alot of questions being un-answered about this whole tragedy, but I don't wanna go into that. What I do know is that millions of people have been killed without any kind of reason, and that's more then sad. That's why I will never forget what has happened on the 11th of September 2001!

"Weekend."

"Weekend."

Just like at Humanitas there's not much to do in the weekend. Hmm actually that's not true, If I would search for something there will be enough to do. I just don't feel like it now  though. It's been quit a few busy and hectic weeks with all the moving and arranging, I can feel it everywhere in my body, I'm tired, and I will take it easy the comming weeks.  When I will be a few months further, I will search for something to do. I might/will  join a club or maybe even a sport, or become a member of something, I'm 100% sure there's plenty things to do in this city. This morning I wasn't feeling so well, I felt tired, had a hurting stomach and my muscles were hurting. I had some things to do though, I needed groceries, and I planned to go out to a second hand store.

After my breakfast I started to clean the hallway, I decided to clean up the last parts of the house. I will do it in parts though, last week I cleaned the kitchen area, today I cleaned the hallway. Next week the living room and then the sleeping room. I won't do everything in one day, cause I just don't have too, lol. I can take my time, there's no one who will say, "Hurry up." This morning I turned for the first time the washing machine on, and it worked! There was one thing missing though, a dryer or a dry rack. A new dryer will cost me more then 100 Euro, and a dry rack atleast 25 Euro, those things can wait. I hanged my washed clothes in the shower/bathroom on a chord, works perfect for now.

I'm pretty handy in such things, lol. I manage! After my nap I washed my face and went to a 'new' second hand store, the store was in another town called 'Wierden.' My Mother was born in Wierden, as a Family we lived there aswell for many years. It's a nice town but quiet with not much to do, it's pretty expensive living there aswell. I knew sorta where to go to that second hand store, someone told me at Humanitas it's over the railways by the industry area. I thought I just go there to that area and then I will see where land. My intuitions were pretty good, I was thinking I'm going left here and then right, and...there was the store! It's not even a 20 minute bikeride. The store looked kinda closed, but I didn't see a sign it was closed.

The store is called 2switch and inside it looked nice and big, call me a pussy or something else in that genre but I like to look around in second hand stores. Even the old fashion pots and plates or old fasion tea cups, I  like it, and there were plenty of them. I spent one hour atleast in that store, I enjoyed myself. Everything was placed so nice and so looked good, I wish I brought my camera. It was all second hand, but it looked aswell trendy, some items I saw I remember from my youth. I bought three plates and a huge cushion, we call it in Dutch 'poef.' I think they call it aswell a 'ottoman.' I'm using it now actually.

The 'ottoman' was hard to take with me on my bike but I managed, I putted the ottoman infront of me on the stearing wheel and held it with one hand, the other hand was on the stearing wheel. Yeah, I'm pretty handy with such things, lol.What I'm not so handy with is to remember things, I can remember things but mostly I have to write things down. If I have to much on my head or I have to remember many things at the same time I loose it. I remembered today that I wanted to have a look in my mailbox downstairs, I thought the mail wouldn't be much but, oh my! Never seen so much mail, lol. Most of it were just flyers, and a few mails from my internet provider and a few from the cityhall. Old news. 


Alright let me start with dinner!

"The floor is done, the laminate has been layed!"

"The floor is done, the laminate has been layed!"

Yeah, Henkie called me this morning, he had some spare time to lay the laminate in the kitchen. Nice of him, we were done in less then two hours this morning.  And knowing that I didn't even bought laminate for the kitchen is a plus point, I only bought laminate for the living room and sleeping room. The kitchen looks nice now, and even bigger. After laying the laminate I whiped and swiped the floor, just don't know what to do with the one package of laminate what is left. Perhaps bring it back to Ikea? I will see.

Step by step and day by day I become further and further, I'm taking it easy though. After lunch I took a nap cause I felt tired, I slept more then one hour. I guess I needed it, usually I sleep 20 or 30 minutes, and that's it. Still I need a few things, everyday I bump into something that I could need in the house, like a dustbin, lol. I put my little garbage in little bags for now. I talked aswell to a few neighbors here in the neighborhood, I must say little flat actually. My neighbor under me is a old lady (76) and has a long disease, when she wants to say something she puts a finger on a certain place on her neck and then she speaks. 

Lunch at noon, such a little slieces of bread, so cute!

She sounds almost like a robot, she's a very nice woman. "You can come down for a cuppa coffee anytime," she shouted this morning, nice right?  The second neighbor I met in the shed where all the bikes are standing, someone replaced my bike, and I told it to the neighbor who was just comming in. The neighbor told me that it might have been replaced by someone who has a certain place for his bike, I didn't mind though. Friendly and calm people in this area, there's alot of foreigners living here, Turkish and Arabic people. The female neighbor was standing in the garden when she pointed with a finger to the houses near us and told me, "There lives a foreigner, there's lives a foreigner and there, but there all nice boy, nice and calm." 


I laughed and told her that I don't have to go on vacation then, she laughed. After my nap my Aunt called and told me she might have some curtains for me, my Aunt calls alot lately, but it's all good though. She offers things and gives me advice, it's a nice tought that I still hear from them. There the only people from my Family I hear from so now and then, I don't mind. It will get me more independent, talking about being independent, I managed and achieved alot the last 9 months, I can be proud of myself. Don't I? Sometimes I think back at the last 10 months, or when started this blog, I like it when I can read it all back. 

Nice with cheese and ham!

I noticed aswell that I don't write alot about Saf so much anymore, no I don't write about Saf that much anymore but sure she flashes trough my mind so now and then plus the kids. There much less sad thoughts though,I'm  just thinking then of how they are doing, and yeah sometimes I think of them and miss them, a hug would be so nice then. I feel better about the break up and feel betterthat I left Canada, Saf and I were done. We couldn't go on anymore, it could only get worser. Although I didn't wanna give in, in the end it was better for us. I'm glad that Saf and I don't have hard feelings about the break up, no argues or fights. 

No matter what or how far I am from them, I still care about them, and love them with all my heart. Bless you guys! 

Dutch music, sigh!

Dutch music, sigh! 

I like music, you really can't place me in one kind of music, anything what moves me I like. It can be classical to rock or punk. Dislike a kind of music? Yeah, let's say the kind of music what you hear 24 hours a day on the radio. Mostly it's all the same tunes, ofcource there are some songs what I like, but most of them? Naah, not my cup of tea. There is also the kind of music what is so wrong that it's actually so wrong that I like it. In my case what I find wrong music is Dutch music,but  dutch music has many variations though. Some Dutch bands or singers are nice, but the type of Dutch I'm talking about is 'levenslied.' (Wikipedia explains) 

A levenslied  is a highly sentimental Dutch-language sub-genre of pop music. Typical levenslied lyrics are very sweet, highly sentimental and about subjects such as love, misery and far-away, sunny, exotic holiday places. A typical levenslied has catchy, simple rhythms and melodies, with many pop and folk tunes, and is always built up in couplets and refrains. Essential, traditional musical instruments in levenslied-music are the accordion and the barrel organ. In recent years, many levenslied-artists also use synthesizers and guitars  for their music.

Nooooooo!! (click on the picture to read the text)

This type of music is very popular here in the east of Holland, I like some of it, but I actually like the older songs then. I dislike this type of music sometimes cause I guess I hear it to often and it's so wrong. Some of the workers at work like this type of music too, one worker likes it that much that he turns the radio on a channel where they play this kind of music 24 hours a day. It goes on and one, lol, the chorusses are so simple and anoying catchy. When I hear this kind of music I picture the singer or the band with a huge fake smile playing his or her accordion or the barrel organ, lol. The rhytms are always the same and it's like the singers or bands are 24 hours a day happy. This type of music is nice in a bar or somewhere where they drink alcohol. Today at work the radio was on, and was on the channel I disliked. 

Hmm not really disliked, but when you hear this 'happy, happy' music a whole day at work it might get annoying. Most of the time I don't mind cause I'm at work, sometimes I even sing along or do a little dance when the song what is playing is so wrong. But yeah, a whole day, no thank you. But I managed! I managed it to listen to this type of music a whole day, the worse thing is that the wrong songs stick in your head. At the moment I'm listening to the Rolling Stones and David Bowie, just to recover, lol. Okay enough about music, this day was a nice day, only the rain. Ugh, it rained already almost for  three days now. When will it stop? But I didn't get wet today for a change. 

Some Dutch artists, notice the fake smiles?

I managed to build a wooden lounge couch at work, very nice right? And without the Boss's help, I work (must say) better without the Boss's help. Sometimes he offers me help, but when he helps me he only walks in the way, or he says me things what I already know. He sometimes gives me good tips and gives me the measures of how long or high a couch or table must be. If he keeps doing that it's fine, but sometimes, don't help, lol. After work it was off to the free dinner, and it was a full house. Lots of people from Humanitas where there, some of them asked me how it was living on my own. I answered fine, I told them that I miss them but that I didn't miss the no privacy. Yeah, I like it in my house, I'm looking forward to the three days off weekend.

It can be that Henkie will visit me this weekend to lay the last bit of laminate in the kitchen, I still have 4 packages of Ikea laminate. I hope I manage it with those 4 packages, nice from Henkie that he offers help. I consider him as a friend.

"Raindrop keep falling on my head....."

"Raindrop keep falling on my head....."

So much rain has fallen these two days, last night a rainstorm kept me awake. The wind blew against the windows pretty hard, and the rain kept falling and falling. For a moment I thought the windows would break from the hard wind, but it didn't. This Wednesday was nice, I enjoy my privacy so now and then. I'm planning to clean the house this week, today I started of in the kitchen. While laying the laminate last weekend the kitchen went pretty dusty from all the sawing and hammering. It's clean now, feels good. It really was a nice day for cleaning, all the rain that felt today, ugh, I rather stayed inside. But I had to go out today a few times,I tried to avoid the rain. Mission hardly acomplished.

I had to go to the cityhall to change my adress, I went from the  Ada street number 6 (Humanitas) to the Diepenbrock street number 25 (my new house.) Funny fact was that the woman behind the desk had a formaliar face. Not that weird though cause it was my niece who I haven't seen in so many years! What a suprise! We didn't had time for a nice chat ofcource, cause she had to do her work. I think we both were a bit too suprised. Maybe I had to ask her for a cuppa coffee when I think of it now,  ah, maybe another time. Her Mother was the sister of my Mother, My mother was part of a huge Family, just like my Dad. You don't see those large families anymore it's almost becoming rare. The adress changing was easy and I continued my bike ride to a few stores, cause I was despered to buy a little present for Paula. 

She will meet me in the late morning for a last conversation or perhaps help, it will be the last time we will meet each other. So for me it's normal to give her a gift, she did so many things for me. After visting two stores I decided to go to the Hema, (It's a store like uhm, Wallmart but then much smaller) I was looking for baby toys or baby clothing, cause Paula is two months pregnant, she will deliver the baby in January, that's far away I know. I thought it would be nice to give her something for the baby, pretty hard to find something though for a baby. What to choose? I bought a small reading book for babies, five small teddybears and a small bag with candy for herself, nice.

When I got home I continued my cleaning, it was almost 11:30 when I stopped, Paula and my Aunt and Uncle could come anytime. Yep, my Aunt and Uncle decided to come too today, they had some free stuff for me.First came Paula and she brought two girls with her, their two new staff members from Humanitas learning the job. I was suprised though cause I thought it would be Paula only, I still had a few questions for her. Five minutes later my Aunt and Uncle came with the stuff they had for me, My Nephew was there too, a Son of my Aunt and Uncle. Full house! Paula had mail for me and some papers I had to sign, but first I went downstairs with my Aunt and Uncle to pick up the stuff out of My Uncle's car. Paula and the two other girls didn't mind. 


"It's alright, we will eat a bit our lunch first," said Paula. The free stuff I got given was nice, they were a coat rack, a hoover and two lamps. Always usefull. After getting the stuff I showed my Aunt, Uncle and Nephew around in the house, I knew they couldn't stay long and I appoligized for being to busy at this moment, they understood and they went home after ten minutes. There always welcome, and I'm sure they will come back. It was nice being with Paula and the two other girls, Paula asked me if I did all the adress changing. I told her I almost did, I still need to do a few. Those are the healt insurance, my doctor and dentist. Very important was aswell the changing from my bank account and the account from Humanitas.


I had two bank accounts when I lived at Humanitas, one from ING and one from Humanitas them self. Most of my montly income went to Humanitas there account, so I will need to change that. Cause I really could need my montly income on my account, it's handy to pay my usurances, rent, etc, etc. It was time to say goodbye to Paula, I overhanded her the 'baby' present and she was very happy with it. "So many teddybears," she shouted. I have to do my 'paperwork' alone now, just like three years ago. Paula helped me with many things back at Humanitas, but now I have to do it alone,  I'm not worried. Give me a couple of months and I'm used to it again. I just need to know what I can spend in the week or month, perhaps a list with my montly payings or income would come in handy. 


I shook Paula's hand and rubbed a bit her back, she smiled and wished me good luck, "You can always drop by for a cuppa coffee at Humanitas," shouted Paula, nice of her. And there she went. Paula doesn't like goodbyes, she told me. I cleaned up further the kitchen and took afterwards a well deserved nap, I was tired. I wasn't done for today though, there was the second free dinner, Three times a week I can get a free dinner. Monday's it's free dinner at 'The Wonne' many homeless people and aswell people with less income join The Wonne for a free dinner. And then there is The Bannier,'  it's the same as The Wonne'but The Bannier is bigger. The Bannier was closed for six weeks cause of the vacation, Today they opened again for the first time. 


I told them I was starving cause I didn't had proper food in six weeks, lol. It wasn't so busy, but the food was good and free. I can't look ahead what life will bring me in the near future, and I don't wanna know too, I'm here now and I will enjoy myself. I already know that things can only get better from here, I'm not worried. I enjoy myself, cause I realized that living at Humanitas wasn't always a pleasure, and living with not much money wasn't a pleasure too. Every little extra I get now will make me happy, and that's not only money. I will be happy when I will join that club what I like, I will be happy with that dinner what I always wanted to make, I will be happy when I get that table or TV that I wanted so much, etc, etc. Things can only get better from here, I will be a happy man.

“Alone, all alone Nobody, but nobody Can make it out here alone” Maya Angelou quotes

“Alone, all alone Nobody, but nobody Can make it out here alone” Maya Angelou quotes

I spend my first night in the house and it went okay, not super, but okay. I slept on a matress, what was fine but the finnishing thouch will be the bed frame, that will come in time. I woke up at a normal time, just like at Humanitas I was early up. Around 5:30 I got up and made my lunch for work and then afterwards my breakfast. At Humanitas I was always sitting making breakfast and lunch, this time I had no chair so I had to stand, that was okay. It's a bit helpless in the house still a bit, but I manage. What I really notice that it's quiet and with flashes the feeling of feeling lonely. I will change that too. 

It was a nice day at work, but sometimes I had that 'different' feeling. It's different when you leave from your house to work and not from Humanitas, aswell making my lunch at home instead of making it at Humanitas. Alot of differences were there this day, aswell the comming back from work, not at Humanitas but home. Henkie waits for me though in the morning, so we can go together on our bikes to work. I pass Humanitas anyway when I go to work, so. I think the 'difference' is  pretty normal when I have been with so many people at Humanitas, 24 hours a day. Aswell my time in Canada, I had a family around me, also 24 hours a day, and we had friends who we invited many times, going out's, etc, etc. 


Although it was sometimes hectic, I absolutly loved it and I miss it. I can say that now, the time in Canada and the time at Humanitas changed my life for sure. I notice that I want people around me, do things, be busy, communicate, you name it. I was taken out of a full Family when I got back from Canada I suddenly had no one around me. Then came Humanitas with many people, that time has passed too and suddenly I'm alone... again.  I think the disliking being alone is positive, right? I have been busy at work, and when I came home I sat down and took a little rest. Flashes of 'being lonely' came passing by, that was the time I notice that I need people around me, friends, or even better a Family. Do I dislike it then being alone now in the house? 

Yes and no, yes, because I miss people around me and no, because I have plenty things to do what I like, and when I look ahead I realize that I still have to decorate my house, that's fun! I look forward to that, when I look ahead I also see that I want to work at myself, achieve my goals.  like I said 'I need people around me,' I will join a club or a sport or whatever. But I will not force myself like, I HAVE to join a club or a sport cause I'm lonely, or I HAVE to get out of the house cause I'm lonely. No, being on myself so now and then is nice too, watching a TV-program or being on the computer or cooking, yeah I want to learn to cook more meals. Gosh, I have so many ideas, I would like to travel aswell, that was one of my goals, remember? 

But first I will have to settle here, and save some money, oh yeah, I will have to take it easy a couple of months.  Tomorrow I will have to do some adress changes, telling important people that I moved, usurances people, dentist, doctor. And Paula will vist me tomorrow aswell, she will update me from last Monday, the signing off. It will be the last time I see Paula then, I sure will miss her. She did so many things for me, she was fun and kind and direct, Paula learned me things aswell, I think a  nice gift will do her good, she's pregnant, perhaps something for the baby she will like. I will have a look.

"It's ooh so quiet, ssshhh, ssshhh, it's ooh so still."

"It's ooh so quiet, ssshhh, ssshhh, it's ooh so still."

Writing a post in my house, yep, I have internet already, who would have thought that? I recived a box with the modem and cables last week when we were busy with the laminate. I putted the box in the closet and left it there, cause I had other things to do. Today after being busy with my last moving and work I decided to have a little peek in the box, just to have a look.  Not even planning to connect the modem and try to get the internet working, cause I thought it would be a hell of a job. But actually  it wasn't, after reading the manual a few times I tried to put the cables into the modem, plugged it in and tadaa! The modem worked, I could connect the laptop with a wire but I could aswell type in a code  for wireless. And that worked aswell! Me was a happy man!

I was a busy day today but everything went well, the saying goodbye and signing out off Humanitas went suprising fast. I knew the signing out would be after 9:00, so I woke up early to grab my last stuff and moved it to the house. It was pretty much though, I thought I was done but, blimey, I went three times back and forth with my bike. I was nice on time back for the coffee break at 9:15, I drank a coffee and talked with a few residents. There wasn't really a goodbye atmosphere, we just talked about how are weeekend was. In about twenty minutes later I got back to my room to get the borrowed dishes and cooking stuff, they have to be delivered back, or I can buy them. I will get aswell a 'room check' to see if everything is clean and everything is on place and not stolen.

I'm not a thief though, but some residents borrow sometimes stuff, and then forget to bring things back. I walked in the office after I delivered the basket with dishes and cooking stuff, somehow it seemed that the secetary and I were kinda lost. It looked like it wasn't going by plan, Barbara (the secetary) asked me if my room wass empty and if I got all my stuff, I told her that I only have to unpack the fridge but I would  get that later. I didn't know how long the signing off would take, so. Barbara didn't understand, so I explained it again, it was so simple though. After the signing off I will have to get in my room to get my food out of the fridge, and then I will leave. Barabara finally got it, and we went further with the signing off. My money on the 'humanitas account' will be transfered to my ING account, that will take a few days.

Barabara had a list for me with what I could buy from what I have  borrowed from Humanitas the last eight months, I bought bed sheets, and three  cooking pans just like I had planned. Not everything was for sale on the list though, it was aswell a list to check if all borrowed stuff was still there, (Eeek!) There's so much borrowing going around at Humanitas, I'm sure I will miss something from that borrowed stuff. What I miss will have to be payed, silly I know, but okay. "Everything will be taking care off, you will hear from us I'm sure," said Barabara, "I'm sure too, it's not really a goodbye," I replied. I can always drop by for a coffee. I shooked some hands with some staff members and that was it, one last time to my room to get my fridge stuff, and off I went. I got my bike and closed the gate, a bit akward feeling though, I didn't even looked back. I was busy and was planning to go to work, just like I had planned. 

It's goodbye to the building, but I'm sure I will meet some old residents again and the staff members aswell.  This city isn't that big. I went to the house for my last moving, just two bags, and then it was off to work. It was still early though, I thought the signing off would take much longer. Arrived at work it was all the same ol' same ol', the same people and the same work. I like it though, nice having work in the same city where I live, same people, it feels good. After work I went not to Humanitas but to my house, akward feeling? Yeah, just a bit. But the quitness and the feeling I could rest whenever I want feels great, I will sure miss them though, the residents, and surely the loudness and the many visits to my neighbors. That's why it nice I can see them sometimes at work or perhaps when we go out.

The first few months it will be like that I guess, but it might be that that will vanish too someday, I don't mind. While writing this post, I realize that it would be nice that I get some nice curtains and lamps as soon as possible. It's dark in here and I opened the bathroom door, putted there the light on to get some light in the livingroom. And curtains? I unfolded a sheet and hanged it in front of the window in the sleeping room. I sure need still some things, but that will come in time.

Lissie & Ellie Goulding - Everywhere I Go (Live in Brighton)

"Be well, do good work, and keep in touch."

"Be well, do good work, and keep in touch."

My last day at Humanitas today, such a weird feeling. Double feelings, on one side I will love to be on myself again, and on the otherside I will miss it here aswell. I think that's pretty normal, I have been here eight months. It feels like eight years almost, I had a great time, I made some friends, I struggled, I laughed, I lived, I been trough so many things. I totally have no regrets that I been here, I still remember my first time when I walked in this building with my huge suitcases. I was searching for my room that the staff picked out for me, room number 15, the building felt like a maze, so many hallways and doors. You have been good Humanitas, 'au revoir.' 


Most of the residents I will keep seeing at Reha, the place where I work three days in the week. So I can't really say goodbye. I will do my greetings to the staff tomorrow morning, I loved them all, Melissa, Paula, Nicole, Sandra, Barbara, Rob, Heidi, and that's all. Today was my last day, I packed my last things and cleaned my room. I tried to do my last laundry, but with twenty people in one building and one washingmachine, that doesn't work so well. Nicole (a staff member) was so nice to help me out with two huge suitcases, we throwed them in the car and drove to my house to deliver them there. It was such a relief, otherwise I would have grabbed my bike or walked wwith them. 


Such a calm day here at Humanitas, there's nothing much to do or going on. I cleaned the kitchen and livingroom in section green together with Henkie, cause it was a mess again. I wonder how it will go this week, I got plenty to do for sure, I don't have to feel bored. Lot's of cleaning and organizing, don't forget the unpacking. I love it though, nice and comfy in my own house. I hope I will get fast used to what has to be payed monthly, so I can see what I can spend and what I can't spend. That will take a few months I guess, I will have to take it easy with spending money. I'm not really worried about that. 

For now I will say, uhm, well, there's not much to say. Tomorrow I will deliver the keys and I will see how it goes from there. My room has to be clean when I'm leaving, I will pack my last things and stuff with me to the house, and then it's off to work. I hope I will get my internet working tomorrow or Tuesday, but I think it will be Wednesday. Such a pity though cause I promised myself to write everyday, tomorrow will be a very busy day, delivering the keys, work and then at 6:00 the free dinner. I don't even know when the libary closes, I have to check the closing times. Okay, I will do my best and hopefully I'll be back soon. Sigh!