"Confirmed!"

"Confirmed!" 

I didn't check my mail yesterday in the mailboxes, but there was a mail, Paula came with my mail this morning. Recently it can happen that I forget something when it's hectic with the moving, I forgot to check the mailbox yesterday, cause the whole week my mailbox was empty, and post on Saturday is rare. Anyway, the mail, the mail was from my loan and it said that my loan is confirmed! Yay!! Eeeek! I will have to check my bank account tomorrow at work if they made the money over, I will have to ask permission at my Boss to have a peek on the computer for my (online) account.  If/when the money is there, then I need to have a plan what to do next, what is wise? I think the best plan is to go right after work to Ikea and buy the laminate and perhaps the matrass. And then maybe the day after laying the laminate or Wednesday, decisions, desicisions.

It can also be that I will get the money on Tuesday, then it will be the same thing, buying the laminate after work and laying it the next day. It would have be alot easier that I didn't had to go to work but, it is like it is. Maybe Reha can come in handy aswell, cause they have tools there and I might get the chance to borrow a van or a little bus. It's gonna be a hectic week, I'm excited, tiny bit nerves ofcource and a bit un-patienced, lol. Tough I had a good sleep last night, I woke up at 8:00, where I thought it was 7:00. Sigh, I hope I won't wake up at 8:00 tomorrow morning, or else I'm gonna be late at work. I need my time in the morning, not only for the waking up but aswellfor  putting my clothes on and making lunch for work. Usually I wake up at 5:30, then I can take it easy and take my time. It's been four weeks since I worked, time to get busy again.

I had a appointment with Paula this morning at 11:00, she was nice and was proud what I all achieved so far. She had good news and bad news, the good news was that someone will guide me after I have been moved from Humanitas to the new house, and the guiding will be on the 7th from September. The bad news was that that someone won't be Paula, it will be a guy, but until the 7th of September I will still have Paula to help me out and guide me. The help from the 'guy' will be that he will help me if I need something, for example with paperwork or other important stuff. Anything what will help me to get settled again with living on my own, anything what will help me to get right on track. Nice! 

Such a rainy day today, I had a nice shower this morning, and I went out for shopping with three other residents in the afternoon. Sometimes there's a special Sunday offer here in the city, most of the stores are open then. It rained hard but we didn't mind, I bought a few things for the house, what made me happy. A water cooker for only 10 Euro's and a few other things, like clothing hangers. There was aswell a beachvolley tournement but the rain was a disaster for the game, but it was nice to watch though. I had a pleasant Sunday. 

This week will be hectic like I said, I will try to keep on writing posts everyday in my blog. That's a must, and I will. It will be different maybe when I'm out of Humanitas, cause of the internet connection. I will have to wait untill my new connection arrives at the new house, the only option will be the libeary. There they have free internet, with lots of computers. I can write my post on wordpad and send it then to my hotmail, and then later on (in the libeary) get the post of my hotmail and copy and paste it to my blog. Good option!

"Can't do much without the internet."

"Can't do much without the internet."

WOW, how internet can be so needed sometimes, it's almost scary. We had no internet the whole afternoon, just when I sent a message back to a guy who was interested at my bid to his fridge. I bidded 60 Euro on his fridge if he would bring it to my house, and he was fine with it. I wanted to send him my adress and a thank you, but then the internet went off. I couldn't reach the guy cause I forgot his phonenumber, I thought I will write that down later after I send him the message. Later on the internet came back on again, and the guy wrote me a message back, telling me that he will E-mail me in a couple of days, then he will bring the fridge.

It felt again like a day off, just like yesterday. Cause off the no internet, I couldn't do much. I counted my saved money from the last month and the rest of the money of the last week,and  it was pretty much. My thoughts were that I could buy already alot of little things what I need, but it's better to keep my money in my wallet. I decided to have a peek at some second hand stores or cheap shops in town, Some stores had some pretty good prices, but some were just expensive. Then I think twice, do I really need it? Will it come in handy? That's what I ask myself when I look at stuff. I should make a list again what I really need.

After peeking at cheap stores, I went back to Humanitas to have lunch and a nap. There was still no internet, so no use in trying that again. After my nap I took Henkie with me for grocery shopping, and I wanted to go back to that store what I saw this morning. The shop is called 'Action,' it's like the Dollarstore but then a bit bigger, they have really nice stuff for a good price. I bought a few little things what I needed or could come in handy at the house. Like a broom, a bucket and a few kitchen tools. I have a feeling it's gonna be a busy week, cause Monday starts work again, back to the wood. In the meanwhile I have to keep an eye on my loan, does it come or not?

When the loan gets on my bank account I will have to drive to Ikea, to buy the laminate and the matras. For the same reason I will get my money on Monday or Tuesday while I'm working, then will have to drive in the evening to Ikea. And perhaps laying the laminate the next day. I have a good feeling that I can arrange something with my boss, for example a few free days plus lending a electric saw, lol. Deadline is the first of September, I think it will go well. Please be with me lord, I have suffered enough the last few weeks! I'm ready for this week, let's get this thing started! Amen.

After the shopping I did my cleaning chores, the livingroom in section red. It was not really my job but okay, usually I clean in section green. But the staff had other plans with the cleaning chores. Although that, I looked forward to the cleaning, how weird am I? It was a hard job though cause I did more that was planned, I cleaned the kitchen in 'red' aswell plus the little hall. When I was done I turned the furniture a bit around, to make it look a bit nicer. I was exhausted but satisfied. I made my dinner, and had a little rest. Tomorrow another day, Sunday. I really look forward to this week, I hope everything turns out well.

"Positive thinking evokes more energy, more initiative and more happiness."

"Positive thinking evokes more energy, more initiative and more happiness."

It seems this week has been a full week for me, and yeah it was. It took alot of energy all the flying from here to there, all the worries and nerves. Today I decided to have a 'day off,' meaning taking my head off the worries and nerves from the moving. Everything what included moving was forbidden. It started out not the way I had planned but later on it went better. 

I had a nice sleep but although the nice sleep, I just wish I could sleep a bit longer. Blame the warm nights, it makes my room to hot to sleep. There was a 'meeting' this morning at Humanitas with a few staff members and all the residents, the meeting was was about the cleaning chores in the building. The staff said there was to much mess and it's not clean, how we gonna solve that? I knew already the meeting would be a disaster, cause cleaning chores is always a problem around here, and it's always the same people who cleanb things up. I'm not afraid of cleaning, sometimes I even likedoing  it. For example when I walk to the washroom and I see it's a mess, I will clean it if I have the time and the energy for it. It's the same with the kitchen and living room in section 'green.' Chores or no chores, when I see something is dirty I will clean it, even when it's not in my section. 

The meeting was not really organized, like ussual. Cleaning here is always a subject, but it can be so easy, clean up after yourself, it takes only a few minutes and it saves a lot of work later. At the end of the meeting every resident were getting a cleaning job, I had to clean the kitchen and big livingroom in section red. I wasn't happy with it though, cause I always clean my own section, green. But anyway, I told the staff that I will do it after I did my other important stuff first. First things first, the staff was fine with it. I had other things to do first, and perhaps after that I will rest, it's needed, I planned a day off. After the meeting I took my neighbor resident with me to my house, I wanted to look at the gasmeter, cause I'm sure there isn't one. It was nice having my neighbor with me, he's a nice guy. He's the same guy who always join me when I ride to work. His name is Henki. 


When we arrived Henki told me that I have a really nice place, "This place will suit you well," he said, nice of him. Together we searched for the gasmeter, but there just was not a gasmeter, we looked everywhere. We even asked the neighbor, and he told us that in every house here there isn't a gasmeter. There is one, yes, but it's in one place. That place, automaticly measures the gas volume to the 'technical staff' of the housing corporation. (Horrible explaining, lol) In the end of the year every owner of the 'building' will get a (end) bill. (You still there?) I was kinda lost and Henkiand I  took off, Henki went back to Humanitas, I went to the housing corporation for some explaining. The same lady who I spoke with the last time was there again, I asked her, "Remember me?"  Yeah, she did remember me. I explained her about the gasmeter and she felt sorry for me. 


She called the technical staff for some further explaining, and yes, again she explained me, there isn't a gas meter, I didn't have to sign up for gas, electricity and not for water. It's all included with the rent, I asked her with a smile, "Honest?" She told me, "You heard the technical staff." It was clear for me, and I didn't want to hear a thing about it anymore. No gasmeter! LOL! The only thing I have to do is sign up for cabel television, and that's easy. I went back to Humanitas for a rest, but first lunch.Peanutbutter/honey sandwisches this time. While having lunch another neighbor knocked on my door and asked me to come with him to a huge store, they sell everything what has to do with electronics. I was eating, but I told him that after my meal I will come with him. This guy is gonna help me with the laminate, just like Henki. His name is Mark. 


When we walked to his (little) car a huge rain storm was aproaching us, wow, the sky went black. We were just on time in the car when the rain and thunder bursted loose.It was a 15 minute drive, we looked a bit around, and I saw some tv's that were not even expensive. Mark  a cable for his laptop and we took off again. When we got back I took my well deserved nap, I was exhausted. After my nap I didn't do much, only after dinner I went to a event in towwn with a few other residents. The event was a tour of bikes, with music bands later on in the evening. I didn't make it that late, I wanted to be alone for a while, a 'just me' time. I do sometimes miss that around here, just being alone for a little while. Sure it fun having people around me, I even look up for them when I feel alone. But yeah, just that sometimes alone, isn't bad either. 


Tomorrow I will brainstorm again on my moving, what is needed? What do I still have to do? Etc, etc. having a day off off the moving means also that I was out of focus, meaning I forgot what I still have to do or what I still need to do. There is so much to keep in mind and what I have to remember, it's alsmost crazy, thank god for pens and notes, lol. Mostly I write everything down, what I had done and what still need to be done, what I still need and what I already have. Writing things dowwn keeps my head empty aswell, it's all good. My worries? There becomming less.

"Dissapointment."

"Dissapointment."

This morning started out okay, like ussual. It were the normal little bits of nerves and the little bits of excitment what went trough me, although I felt a bit like I had a bit more nerves then ussual. The first of September is getting closer, and then it's better for me to leave Humanitas, otherwise I have to pay double rent. Still I haven't heard from my "So needed loan," I can't do a thing about it. This morning with the coffeebreak, Paula came up to me and asked right away if I had already heard from my loan, I told her, "Nothing yet." She told me to come with me, straight away to the office, Paula was short in her answers. Was it about my loan? Or didn't she slept well? I didn't know, anyway, in the office Paula called with Elize Wolters who arranges my loan.

I thought, that's no use, cause Elize was still on vacation. Wrong! She was back and she told trough the phone, that my loan will have a extra 'As soon as possible' sign. Perhaps this week or for sure upcomming Monday or Thursday I will have the money. Yeah, I heard that before, I will see. I felt a dissapointment and so did Paula, I could have a extra 300 Euro aswell from 'them' if I didn't have payed for my first month rent at the housing corporation last monday. If I could have showen that I didn't had enough money to pay the first month rent 'they' would have helped me with paying the half of the rent. If, if, if, sigh. Anyway, it's been a long day. I felt down after the short appointment with Paula, I felt lost and a bit anger aswell. 


I didn't feel like doing much today, cause I felt tired and there wasn't much that I could do. The deadline is the 1st of September, then it's better for me to leave Humanitas. If I stay, let's say a few days more, then I will have to pay each day 29 Euro for renting (again) my room at Humanitas. I hope I will get my money tomorrow or the following two days, so I can buy my laminate and matrass, it's a start. Two residents offered me to help putting in the laminate, cause I never did such a thing. They told me that when I buy the laminate, the laminate has to breath for 24 hours, so in short, I will buy the laminate and then wait a day with laying it.

Today I found out that I DO have to sign up for gas (Electrabel) and water (Vitens), the housing corporation told me that everything (gas, electricty, water, etc) was on one bill, the montly rent I pay includeS aswell the gas price, electricy price, water price, etc. I told this aswell to Paula but she had doubts about it and decided to call the corporation, and yes, Paula was right. The montly rent included electricity and a few things more, but not gas and water. So I have to sign up for the missed items, gas, water and cabel for if I want to watch TV. Sigh, it wasn't that easy the signing up, actually I'm still working on it. But I had enough of it, tomorrow another day. 

There was a couch for free that I found on a second hand selling site, I called the seller and asked if I could have a look first, that was alright with him. The guy gave me the adress, but I couldn't find the "#*^%&" adress! It was a bit of a ride though, lovely weather aswell. I was searching and searching and even asked a few people where 'Weilre nr. 19' was, (the street where I looked for) After 30 minutes of searching I gave up, sorry seller. I decided to ride to my new house, another long bike ride, but still good weather, it felt nice. How am I doing under all this? It's hectic and sometimes the nerves are getting to me, but I take my rest aswell, IF that's possible. They say sometimes that things happen for a reason, still though I can't find a reason why most of the things go wrong at the moment or take so long.


Why does it go so difficult? It only gives you nerves and worries, I don't want that. Ofcource when you start with almost nothing, you will appreciate the little things later so much more. I think I will be very happy when I can buy the laminate and the matras at Ikea, I think? I'm sure. That's also a thought to look out to, right? And even the thought of living on myself and have enough money again to decorate the house. I will have to struggle trough this moving proces, and I will. I never worked so hard to get this moving all straight, allthough I learn from this aswell. I will be rewarded for sure.

"Waiting and cleaning today."

"Waiting and cleaning today."

There's enough to do today, it seems everyday I come a little bit further, just tiny little bits. I guess it's better then nothing, right? Today I planned another full day, searching for items on the internet, searching for cheap items what I really need. The couch didn't show up yesterday, although it was confirmned, so I'm looking for another couch. I saw alot of them though, I can bid on some of them and I saw one for  free. I messaged the seller for the 'free' couch, and he messaged back telling me I should call him tomorrow morning. Further I saved in my 'favorites' seven couches, way to many I know, it's so harder to choose then. Funny that most of the couch for sale are blue, I so don't want a blue couch, it doesn't match with a red wall. Still I need a fridge, a few lamps, screens or curtains, and yeah, money!


I had a appointment with Melissa this morning at 11:00, she wanted to call 'Elize Wolters' for my loan yesterday. But she was to busy yesterday, Melissa said "Sorry," and she grabbed the phone to make a phonecall right away. After ten minutes she hanged up the phone, and she told me that the woman (Elize Wolters) who arranged my loan, is still on vacation. Great! The 'file' for my loan lays on Elize's desk ' ready to be judged, but she's on vacation. My 'file' has a not on written on it saying, emergency. I will have to wait, perhaps someone else will judge it, or not. You know what? I'm not worried and not even in panic, it is as it is, I can jump high or low or go mad, but it won't help a thing. Things will be fine in the end I guess. 
 

I planned to go cleanall  my windows in the house like I said yesterday, but there are so many windows in the house, I love it though. Before my appointment with Melissa I already went to the shop to buy a few things for the window cleaning, but first I took some rest, lunch and then a nap, it was needed. After my nap I went on the laptop for a few hours, then I took off to the house, I had everything with me what I needed, plus a few things more. I even did NOT  forget my wallet this time. When I arrived at the house I first measured all the windows and wrote IT ALL  down on a paper. Like I mentioned before, so many windows I have. The decisions will be difficult to make with some of the windows, will it be blinds or curtains? Or perhaps both?


There are so many windows decarations, it's almost to hard to make a decision. I think some windows don't even need decoration,  not every window has to be covered. Alright, the windows were waiting for cleaning, firs I cleaned them at the sides where the windows stays in, (English word) There was all paint and dirt, afterwards I used a sponge to clean the rest of the window. Then on to the next window, same procedure. Lots of work but I like to have it clean and perfect, and I had all the time to do it, so. It was 2:00 pm when I started, and between 5:00 and 5:30 a guy will come to bring the gasstove, so time was on my side. At 4:50 I stopped with the cleaning and made myself ready for the delivery guy, first I checked my wallet and....


...I had no money in my wallet!!! What the...?! This time I didn't forgot my wallet, no, but put money in it would be handy, right? It was 5:05 pm and I couldn't go back to Humanitas to get the 60 Euro for the stove, I decided to stay, what else could I do? Maybe the seller will go with me and drive to Humanitas, or I have to go by myself. Within ten minutes the seller arrived and I told him that I was sorry cause I needed to get some money, it was alright with him, he waited in the car with the stove. I jumped on my bike and drove to Humanitas to get the money, it went pretty fast, it was a 20 minute ride back and forth. I payed the seller and he helped me to get the stove to the first door, job done! I have a stove. I was exhausted though and hungry. Some residents at Humanitas were cooking when I arrived, and they asked me if I want some too, so that we could eat together, I told them, "Sure."


Sometimes it's handy when they ask you things like that, next time I will cook. My next appointment was already arrived, at 7:00 someone would intervieuw me. It's a normal procedure when someone is leaving Humanitas, they will get intervieuwed by a company called 'Cito.' Cito is a company who will collect most of your information and answers after the intervieuw, and they will see how your doing outside Humanitas. Do you manage outside Humanitas?  Can you take care of yourself after Humanitas? Do you need help or not now that you live on your own. What does Cito do with all the information? They want to see if people can handle there selves after Humanitas, if you can't, then Cito even can send someone to help you out. They want to look if Humanitas does a good job or not aswell, Cito can see if there has to be changes inside of Humanitas or not, etc, etc.


My intervieuwer was nice on time, it was a pretty young girl, I guess her age wasn't older then 22. I sure didn't expect that. t. She asked my question about entire life, (my background) and aswell about my situation now, and what I have been true the last nine months. "The intervieuw will take two hours atleast," said the girl, I didn't mind though. I like to be questioned and I like the attention at the moment. Some questions were personal, and some were not, although the intervieuw took long I had a nice time. We started at seven and at nine we were done, I thanked her and she gave me a note and a envelope. On the note stood the date for the next intervieuw, and in the envelope was money! Woot!!

Just like promised trough the phone, I will get payed for the intervieuw, first I thought it was a joke, but no! In the envelope were laying 20 Euro, the next intervieuw will be held in November, then aswell an envelope.  It was a long day, and I was exhausted. Tomorrow another day, busy days ahead. I like it.

"All by myself."

'All by myself."

Still no sign of my loan this morning, I decided to go after it myself. With the coffee break this morning Mellisa came up to me and told me that 'we' have a appointment this morning, but she was to busy with other things for that appointment. She asked me if it was okay that we can shove the appointment to tomorrow, I thought, "Grrrr," but said, "Okay, alright." In the appointment she would have helped me with calling after my loan and second she would have helped  me for signing up for gas and water in my new house (Vitens for water and Electrabel for gas) I thought I'm not gonna wait till tomorrow, I will go after it myself. And so I did, after the coffee break I washed my face, washed my hair, putted my shoes on and off I went. It looked like it would rain, grey clouds came rollin in. But it stayed dry, first off to the housing corporation.(Beter wonen) When I got there a nice (looking) lady helped me right away, I told her that I would like to sign up for water and gas but I needed some 'numbers' what was missing on the 'moving'papers. 

A rainstorm at Humanitas.

After searching for the right 'numbers' the lady told me that I don't have to sign up for gas and water, 'they' already had that arranged. It's all in one "package," she told me. The water, gas,electricity and rent is all in one. when I pay my rent every month I pay right away for the gas, water and electricity. That saves me money whaT I didn't know off, I don't have to pay an extra sum of money on top of the monthly rent. I went on to the City hall, there I will have to ask where my loan is. I was already worried that they would send me from here to there, I needed to stay foccused. I knew where to go, desk 14, it wasn't busy and they aswell helped me right away. After I asked what happened to my loan the lady behind the desk told me that I will have to call and ask for 'Elize Wolters,' (she's the woman who helped me with the loan) "You can call here if you want to," said the lady. There's a local phone in the building, only thing you have to do is pick up the phone and tell the one who's picking up the phone who you want to speak to.

What a huge rainstorm can do....

Ofcource I couldn't find the 'local phone,' so I asked someone, a guy helped me out. He guided me to the phone. When I picked up the phone they putted me on hold for like twenty minutes, after that I hanged up. I had enough for a while, I needed some rest, for my sake I did enough. I will try again later on, and actually, Melissa wanted to call after my loan today, so klet her do it. I was tired after I did a few groceries, the groceries were needed. After my lunch I tried to take a nap but I couldn't sleep, I don't know why. It was alright, I didn't mind. At 1:30 a huge rainstorm bursted loose above the city, before that the sky was extremly dark. It rained so hard that some of the living rooms and hallways here were flooded cause of the rain, even the big boss came to have a look. The rain came out of the ceiling andwas  crawling down the walls. A few residents helped out to get the water out of the rooms and hall ways, I helped aswell. 

It even came down the stairs.

It was alot of work cause there weren't much tools to get all the water out, we used mobs and towels and that was it. I hoped it stayed dry to my next appointment. I planned a early dinner cause between five and seven the washing machine, gasstove and couch will be delivered at the house.  I made a easy pasta dinner, just from a package. It was nice though and it tasted good. At 4:30 I took of with a few bags what I already had packed, just some stuff I didn't need anymore here. First off to the bank to get some money for the gasstove, washing machine and perhaps couch. Ofcource I forgot something, like my cellphone and my wallet. Ugh! Don't you just hate it when your halfway and you forget something you really need. I thought for a few seconds, "Do I really have to go back,?  Yes I did. When I arrived at the house I felt comfy, I putted the keys in the lock in the first door and went inside, then three steps up and trough the hallway looking for number 25. Found it! I went inside and started with unpacking. Feels good.

Don't ask, hahaha!

I found a little bucket where I could sit on and wait, and have a little rest, the waiting took long, and I didn't know what time it was. I had to look trough the window if someone was comming with a washing machine or stove, etc. I don't have a front door, and not a doorbell, so I had to guess when someone would come with something for me. I'm good time guesser though, I can tell time without a clock. While waiting I got a bit bored and looked trough the house, I saw that the windows could use some cleaning, I will do that tomorrow.  Painting was not really needed, perhaps the kitchen walls, hmm, it can wait. The walls in the living room and sleeping room are okay, the red walls are fine, only the otherside I don't know yet. Still I was waiting for the people to show up, the gasstove won't show up anymore, I knew that for sure cause it was already late. The gasstove seller told me he would come between 5:00 and 5:30. I knew it was much later then that.

I decided to go outside when I saw a car driving around slowly, when I went downstairs an old lady walked in front of me and I asked her what time it was. She told me it was seven o'clock, wow! I couldn't believe I waited that long. I was right though with the slow driving car, it was the seller with the washing machine. The guy was friendly and helped me to get it out of the car, it machine had to go upstairs aswell, thank god for elevators! The washing machine was standing in my room within ten minutes, perfect. I payed the guy and thanked him, I grabbed my coath and headed of to Humanitas. Strange though going back there, comparing my home and the area with Humanitas is a huge difference. A positive difference, but I will miss the people there and there noises and voices. 

Later when I got back the guy with the gasstove E-mailed me saying he was on time but he was at number 24 instead of 25, my fault though cause I told him it was number 24, sigh, hectic times. I mailed him back for a solution, wi'll see what happens tomorrow. He can bring the stove though, cause I will be cleaning there most of the day. It's nice being in the new house even though it's empty.

A busy but wonderfull day, we have a lift off in 3, 2, 1, zero, excitment has started!

 Busy but wonderfull day, we have a lift off in 3, 2, 1, zero, excitment has started!

Wonderfull day with loads of sunshine, the morning started with a nice shower, getting dressed, breakfast, getting nervous & excited and the coffee break. While sitting outside drinking coffee the sun was shining in my face and it felt good, I had everything ready for picking up the keys and signing the contract. Within 30 minutes me and Nicole (staff member Humanitas) are taking off to the housing corporation, I was getting excited and nervous, I wanted to go already. Me and the residents were having a little conversation about getting a house with the coffee break, some residents are still searching for a house. I waited and searched aswell, some residents have luck and some don't, I know a resident who has been searching and waiting for more then 18 months, sigh. I hope he gets a house as soon as possible, he deserves it!

Living room.

It was time to go to 'Beter wonen,' the name of the housing corporation. Me and Nicole jumped on our bikes and we were heading off, the sun was shinning and I was more then ready. When we arrived there was a nice lady asking us to wait, we will be picked up by another lady. The other lady picked us up and guided us to her office, she congrated me with the new house and shooked my hand, and I thanked her. The ussual paper work and signing the papers I regonized from the last time I was getting a house, I thought, "Hey, I known this from the last time." I thought it would be difficult to understand all the explaining, but it was quit understandable, easy! After the explaining and signing the lady overhanded me the (many) keys, she shook my hand again and wished me good luck with the new house. Sigh, wonderfull! I felt good! Next thing to do was paying the first rent, I have to pay for the first month and a few weeks, it's quit alot money but that's normal the first time. 

Build in closets in the livingroom and aswell the kitchen.

I had the keys and I wanted to have another look in my house, it was okay with Nicole. I really have to get used to the many keys, there's so many of them. While entering the house I had a good feeling cause the rooms were looking so nice, and they seemed much bigger. To be honest, I like the house even more then when I visited it the first time. And the rooms are still empty and not decorated, I saw a few things what I didn't saw the first time with visiting. I have a electric sunscreen ,(woot) I found another build in closet in the halway and above where the gas stove comes to stand hangs a extractor hood, (google translate?) it keeps the smoke from the cooking and heat away. The paying from my rent I will do automaticly, it's much more handier, I will do it aswell with the other stuff what I have to pay, all automaticly. 

Sleeping room.

The second appointment I had was at 2:00 pm, the furniture project, where you can get anything for free! Last time I went there I was a bit to hectic, and I was soked wet from the rain. Now I took my time and looked at anything what I can possibly need, sometimes you feel a little bit of pressure walking there, like you have a time limit to have a look around. This time I felt no rush, it was actualy nice looking around. The furniture wasn't that nice, I saw one round dinning table but it was to big and the chairs with it were rubbish. Withing 30 minutes I was done with peeking around, I found a few things where I was happy with,  a microwave, three dinning plates, six glasses and three mugs, a ironboard with iron, and a table with two chairs. The little things I took right away with me, but the other stuff will be delivered in September.  

A small balcony

I haven't had time for a deserved nap, but alright, the third appointment was with Paula. I informed her about my first and second appointment from this morning, she was happy how it went. Paula looked trough the papers what I have been giving from the housing corporation and saw there was something missing, I still needed some off the numbers from the gasmeter but the ones I needed were missing on the paper. It was the gas and the water what was missing, I need them to ask for a electric utility (Hope I said it right) I need 'Electrabel for energy, and 'Vitens,' for water. both are companies for electric utility. I will have to call the housing corporation tomorrow between 8:00 and 9:00 and ask for the gas and water numbers, (Or is it volume... Horrible explaining, lol) If I have those numbers then I can sign up for a contract with Vitens and Electrabel. Pfffeeww! 

The bathroom and shower.

After all the excitment from signing the contract and getting the keys the worries started a bit, I need money as soon as possible! Even Paula was worried, she called a few times to the company asking where my money is, but they didn't know. They said, call back in the morning. Me and Mellisa (another staff member) will call tomorrow and hopefullywe  will get things started. The first of September I need to get out of the house otherwise I will have to pay double rent, and that will be impossible. Before next Thursday I will have to have the money where I asked for, then I can lay laminate and buy other stuff I need to get me started, for example a matras.It worries me, I need money for not only this week but aswell for the next month. 

The storage room, nice and big.

I will get aswell have to get used to living on my own again, I mean getting used of the paperwork, the bills, my ussurances,do I have to fill this in or fill that in, take care of this, take care of that. Living on my own and taking care of myself like making food and on time to bed is easy, but I have to take care of my paperwork aswell. I think it's time to make another list, a paperwork list, for example who do I have to pay for my water or my energy? Or where comes my intyernet from? Or how much money do I have to pay for my rent? All these things I should write down, only to get used to these things and learn from it. Aswell I have to get things in order for this week, I already have someone who's gonna come with me to pick up the laminate and other stuff, but how we gonna do that? That someone has a real small car. 

I like the big window between the hallway and the kitchen.

Guess it's gonna be a busy week.... It's all gonna be good, I'm sure. I'm ready!

Oh sleep, sweet sleep."

"Oh sleep, sweet sleep."

I think the nerves are getting a bit on me, I'm feeling tired and have a hearting stomach sometimes . Weird though, cause I have the feeling I don't have nerves, I mean I'm not really worried. Things are going well, maybe there are some invisible worries what I'm not aware off. (uhm) Although I wish I had the moving behind me, I guess two more weeks from now. I have taken three naps today cause I felt tired, and I slept quit long. Everytime I woke up I had that weird feeling in my stomach, they felt like cramps. Maybe I have eaten something weird or it's the nerves, or a bit of both.

I know from myself that when I'm worried I don't show it, I mean you can't see it. I'm not shaking my hands or have big eyes or I feel hyper. But inside I feel sometimes the pain, pain on my chest, or extreme tired. But anyway, on with this day. I didn't do much today, mostly resting and looking on the internet for cheap second hand stuff. I messaged some people who had gas stoves or fridges, some responded back but there's no confirming yet. Aswell today I decided to sign up for a internet-connection in my new house, I think they call it providers? I found a nice cheap one, the first 12 month I will pay 18 Euro in the month and after that I will pay 25 Euro in the month, sounds good to me. 

Within five weeks from now I will have internet on my new adress, I will get a (internet) package with a modem, what I have to install myself, (eek!) I will see how that goes. I can't do without internet, in these five weeks without internet, (I guess the first two weeks I will still be at Humanitas, using the internet) I will have to go to the libary if I want to use the internet. It's free there and they have a bunch a computers there, I think twelve atleast. I'm not worried, but only  a bit, (lol) Such a strange weather today, first there was a nice and cold breeze in the morning. The residents complained already cause the weatherforecast forspelled 30 degrees, but it was way to cold for 30 degrees. I was cold aswell, later on they forspelled a thunderstorm and it became warmer and warmer. 


I changed many times my clothes, shorts on, shorts off. While I'm writing the weather is grey and it looks again like a thunderstorm. By the way, speaking about writing, I'm writing on my new laptop, finally! I hear in the background) My old laptop started to become really annoying! It crashed over and over, not fun while I was writing a post. This new laptop is a relief, but I'm not gonna throw the old laptop out though, maybe I will need it again. I surely have no regrets buying this new laptop, I bought it 2 weeks before I got the news that I had a new house. If I would had already the news of the new house I wouldn't have bought the new pc, I'm  actually happy I bought it before the 'good news.' 


Tomorrow a long day ahead, I'm keeping my fingers crossed for the loan.

"Sjon-shine!"

"Sjon-shine!"

It was a nice warm day with lots of sunshine, it felt nice, more of such days please. I still got one week of vacation left, I like it though, I can use this comming week  for my moving to the new house. The loan I asked for last Monday still didn't come, sigh, perhaps Monday it will. This morning early I had a appointment with Paula, I had two hours to spent with her, so we took our time. Things aren't going as planned but I'm less worried, I know what to do, and that takes the worries of me. Paula and Ilooked on the computer at the second hand selling site 'Marketplace,'we looked for a gasstove and (maybe) a fridge.

I informed Paula aswell what I already have, the two sitter will be delivered this Tuesday, aswell the washingmachine. I saw also a nice fridge on Marketplace, I messaged the seller if they can deliver it for an extra 20 Euro, the fridge is 100 Euro. They messaged me back and they told me the could deliver it, but, this morning I saw another nice fridge aswell. It was not the size I was looking for but I can change my mind. I was looking for a table-model fridge so I can put a little gas stove on top off the fridge for cooking, just like a gas stove what you can pick up just like that. This second fridge I saw was taller, and much cheaper. (35 Euro) I saw aswell a gas stove and it was for free, (woot!) but there was no picture from the stove though, so I couldn't see what the stove looked like.

Paula told that I should visit the  seller and have a look, and message aswell the seller from that fridge. With 35 Euro I could be done, a gas stove with oven and a nice huge fridge for 35 Euro! I tried to call them but the seller had the phone on voice mail the whole the time, I messaged them with a e-mail and aswell the other seller from that fridge. I will have to wait for an answer. It will be a full week this comming week, specialy on Monday, I have three appointments in my agenda. First at 10:00 I will pick up the keys for the new house, I can get right away used to the new keys then. Someone from Humanitas will come with me, hopefully I will have my loan money also then so I can buy the stuff I need. They told me that 'bought' laminate has to breath for 24 hours, I will see.

Next at 2:00 pm I have a appointment (again) with the 'furniture project,' I have been there before, but I couldn't choose then. The furniture project is a project where people with less money can pick up used furniture for free, but not everyone can do this though. You have to proof that your gonna live on yourself or have a new house, Humanitas is a good proof. I will have a look again and see what I need or take with me there, I sure will make a list. Next appoint is with Paula again at 3:30, I will inform her how the above appointments went, and then we will see what all still has to be done. Some people need my new adress, like the Doctor and Dentist and my ussurance company, and a few more. I will have to take care aswell for the electricity, gas and water this Monday, Paula and I will do that together. 

That was the Monday, I'm sure I will have more busy days this week, I already started with packing. Just the clothing and things I don't really need. The moving will be easy cause I don't have much here in my room. The nerves and worries I had are a bit less now, like I said I know what to do now. I'm most worried about 'the loan and the floor in the house, it will be a relief if the 'laminate' floor has been layed. Some residents have mixed feelings when someone has a new house, some are happy for you and some are jealous but there not really showing it. I know a resident who has been searching and searching for so long, still he hasn't  got anything. I guess luck plays a game here aswell, right?

Where is the Summer?

Where is the Summer?

My vacation is almost over, only next week still and then it's back to work. Back to the wood and the furniture, I will be living in my new house then I think. The 28th of August I have to start working again, I'm looking forward to it. The Vacation was so, so, oh wait, no! It was awesome! Cause I found a new house! And I went a day out to Amsterdam, that was nice. But the weather was typical Dutch, nice and warm during working and bad weather with the
vacation. Still no sign of my expected loan, I'm still waiting. I was a early bird this morning, I decided to go early to the hospital for my bloodwork. Around 8:00 I took of on my bike, the weather was grey but not cold at all. At the hospital a few people were before me for the bloodwork, I was done in 20 minutes, nice. Now I have to wait five working days for the results, my Doctor is already back from his vacation,so, that's good.

When I got back I was right on time for the coffee break, though there was tea aswell, I took tea this time. I was tired and took a well deserved nap. Some of the residents have a plan for tomorrow to start a barbecue, we will have to pay each five Euro. That's fair enough, but it depends on the weather if the barbecue is going trough, wewill see. I made a list what things I still need for my house and what I already have, and has been taking care of. The good news is that the couch (a two-sitter) is going trough, next Tuesday they will bring me the couch at the new house. Aswell a second hand washing machine, I asked the seller to bring it, and that was okay with him. A washing machine for 120 Euro isn't that bad, what can I ask more for? I know where I buy my laminate and I know where I buy my matras and maybe a bed. Ikea!! 

The most worried I am is about the floor, if the floor is done I will feel relieved. I guess it will go fine, I need help that's for sure, I never layed laminate before.  Tomorrow another appointment with Paula, she wants to visit a outlet store what sells furniture and some other stuff, like vacuum cleaners and toasters, etc, etc. I don't need anything there though but having a look doesn't do harm. I saw a nice bed there though last week, but after I visited Ikea I changed my mind. Yesterday the Boss from Humanitas Almelo informed me that he had some pictures for me, 2 months ago a photographer came to Reha to take some pictures for the local newspaper. I always wondered where the pictures were after taking them, the Boss suprised me with them.....

Here they are... 

Me and another worker sawing a piece of wood.

Measuring and thinking, this is what we man do!

Some of the 'Reha' team! 

The famous butler-tray!

Done!

"For I don't care too much for money, for money can't buy me love."

"For I don't care too much for money, for money can't buy me love."

Still a bit worried about my loan what I should be having now, but I haven't, sigh!. I asked for that loan last Monday and they told me I will be getting it in a few days. Paula told me not to worry, you will get it in a few days. Thinking of it makes me angry, but okay I will wait a few days then. This morning I had a appointment with Paula, we planned to go out to visit a few second hand stores in the city, there sell only second hand fridges, stove's and washing machines. It's a small store with a few items only, when we arrived I told the seller my story and what I needed, (for a low budget) The seller told me that he hadn't much items at this moment, he told aswell that I won't find a washing machine for under 100 Euro's here, they were atleast 240 Euro each." He had a nice fridge though, it was a table model, a wide one.

On the left side there was the freezer section with four drawers, and on the right side the cooler section. "For 150 Euro I will clean the whole fridge and then it's yours," the seller told me, he  could deliver the fridge aswell. It sounded good to me but Paula was carefull, "We will wait, and make a decision later in the afternoon, we will call you," said Paula. It was fair enough with me. Paula was carefull with my money, I understood that, cause I still have to pay my first rent aswell this upcomming Monday with picking up the key. I have to be carefull with my money not only for 'that', next month there will be another rent aswell plus the ussual assurances, and perhaps other stuff. So I can't buy everything just like that. I will have to start low with only the things I REALLY need, for example I can do without a washing machine for a few weeks, or without a dinning table. The house doesn't have to be full yet.

The floor is the most important, and aswell a bed and a fridge, and the other stuff can wait for a week or perhaps a few weeks or even a month. I'm handy with such things, its a  must. Paula and I went to the next second hand store, the store was bigger and had more items. But the second hand stuff they had were less, the only thing the store had was a little stove for 100 Euro's. I don't know, I had doubts about the price. Paula said again, "We will keep the stove in mind." Being carefull, taking my time and counting the money I have or what I can spend. We knew enough and went back to Humanitas, there we took a coffee and Paula wrote the items down we saw with the prices. I asked Paula what to do next, I told her that my plan was to visit Ikea this evening. "What can I spend?" I asked her, I won't buy anything expencive cause 'the loan' hasn't arrived yet.

"Just keep in mind what you have to pay this comming Monday, that's enough," replied Paula. I knew enough and went back to my room. (Nr.15) I took my luch and afterwards a nap, it was needed. I took it easy the rest of the afternoon, I visited some selling sites, and answered some emails. I responded on a second hand washing machine for only 120 Euro, I asked them again for delivering the washing machine, cause I don't have a car. I will wait for an answer. I got aswell an answer back from the people from the 'couch,' they were okay with paying after the delivery BUT they want already the 'deliver' money. (20 Euro gas money) It was fair enough with me, I told them I will pay them this comming Saturday. Then I will have the next appointment with Paula aswell.

IKEA your amazing!!!

Ikea was awesome! WOW! What a store! At 6:45pm me and another resident (with a car) drove to Ikea, (only a 20 minutes drive) I haven't been at Ikea for almost four years almost, I was pretty excited you could say. I saw many things I liked, and wrote some of the furniture or other item prices down, I can tell that I know now already what my house will look like in the following years, Ikea style! So much nice stuff and some items were really cheap, ofcource I bought a few things. A lamp for on the ceiling, (so cheap) a bigger cooking pan, (what I really needed) two pillows, (only 50ct each!) I was actually looking for a bed and laminate though, but these small things were to cheap to let them stay. A nice guy helped me with the bed and the matras, I told him that I was about to move and that I needed a bed or only a good matras, I told him aswell that I had a very low budget. I did a matras test and it was amazing, we found a few matrasses for a low price what suited me and I knew enough, the Ikea matrass is in the pocket!

My idea is to buy a good perfect matrass and perhaps a nice bed frame later in the month. I saw aswell a nice couch wich I can fold into a bed, that's a really nice idea aswell. I couldn't even see that the couch could be folded, it was a nice couch for a nice price. I arrived at the laminate section and looked around for a nice color, again nice prices for a nice wooden floor, nice colours aswell. I called a guy and a girl who helped me with the prices, I had a 'floor pan with me from my new house so they could measure it how much laminate I need. They puzzled and they measured and it took a while till they were done, the guy and the girl wrote down the total square meters and the prices of the total laminate plus under floor. It was almost closing time for Ikea, me and the other recident decided to pay our stuff and go home.

I had a nice evening at Ikea, I have been good informed and was happy with the prices. Tomorrow I will try to make a end list, all the stuff I really need I will write down again plus  the prices, sum that all up and see what it all costs. I hope I will get my loan before Monday, that would be handy.

"I want to ride my bicycle, I want to ride my bike."

"I want to ride my bicycle, I want to ride my bike." 

A slow start this morning, although I had alot to do today. I took it easy this morning, I Googled on my favorite second hand Dutch selling site "Marktplaats," marketplace in English. I was searching for second hand couces, friddges, washingmachines and stove's, I saw many couches for sale, but on many couches you had to name a price, make an offer, I'm not good in offering. aswell I have to ask the sellers if it's possible to bring the couch next week, cause I don't have a car, neither do I know one with a decent car. I asked  a seller today to bring me a couch I saw on 'Marktplaats,' it's a very nice two sitter for only 50 Euro. I asked him if he could bring me the couch on the 23th of August on my new adress, I will pay for the couch then 70 Euro. I had a email back telling me that they will bring the couch for a total price of 75 Euro, if I make the money over to this bank number. They wrote there banknumber in the email. 

I waited and thought to myself, "If I make the money over, it might be that they don't even bring the couch or worser I don't even get the couch."  I emailed them back saying that I will think about it, and will let them know tomorrow afternoon, I have a appointment with Paula tomorrow and I will show her the email. It would be easier to pay the couch sellers by the delivery, right? It was time to get started with my full day, first I took my lunch and afterwards I went. First I had to mail a letter, it had to do with with my income, sigh! The mail will solve my little income problem. Second I went to my Doctor to ask if I can have a paper to do bloodwork for my thyroid, it has been three weeks already after I did my first bloodwork. Upcomming Friday I will get the needle at the Hospital. I was happy the Doctor was there, cause it could have been he was still on vacation, but he was back.

After the Doctor visit the trip went further, I wanted to visit my Dad, on the bike cause the weather was good and I would like to save money, so no train but bicycle. I had the wind against me, read, not in the back but in the front. But it went okay, I was half way and I even thought of 'why not go to my Aunt and Uncle aswell'? I thought I knew a shorther cut but failed big time, sweating and out of breath I ended up at my Aunt and Uncle. It's been a while since I saw them, they helped me alot while being in Canada and comming back from Canada to Holland. My Aunt opened the door and stared for 5 seconds and said, "Hey! It's the lost Son! Come on in! I noticed first that my Aunt and Uncle are getting older, I noticed the looks, there getting pale and thin. We talked alot about my new house and ofcource my Dad, "Dad is getting older," said my Uncle.

I knew this already but, my Uncle said that he's really getting older. Has difficculties with walking and moving,and if he tries to walk he can't walk straight. If he's sitting he has it difficult to get up again, he tries and tries many times, after trying 8 or 10 times he succeeds. Dad is getting difficult aswell in his behaviour, he's becomming rough and violent sometimes in his words. I know my Dad, he has a really good and small heart, in his youth he was rough aswell but with a very small heart. My Dad is the type of guy that would cry with a episode of Ophra Winfrey. My aunt talked further about my new house,she told me tobe carefull with my money. "It doesn't have to be all new and you don't have to buy everything, just start low with less furniture or other items,and then perhaps in a month you can buy more," my Aunt told me. She is right. 

If I have a look in my room now I see a desk and chair and a bed plus closet, and with that I took care of myself for more then 6 months, so why not then when I have the new living? It was time to move on to my Dad, another long bike ride. I felt a bit exhausted but felt further okay. When I arrived at my Dad's place he was sitting outside as expected, I had two reasons why I wanted to visit my Dad today, congrate him with his 73th Birthday and (sigh!) asking him for a sum of money, wich I hate to ask but I really have to cause I'm helpless. I congrated him and he was happy to see me, and yes, he was looking older then I thought. I tried to talk to him about my new house, but it took him almost 20 minutes to get it all trough him. After our talk I wanted to ask him about the sum of money, but I decided not to, cause it was difficult to talk to Dad. I'm glad I made that decision, I would like to solve my problems all by myself. So,I can say in the end, I suffered but I crawled up and managed all of this all by myself. 


I stayed at my Dad's for 45 minutes then I wanted to go, it was already late. I still need to buy some groceries aswell for my dinner tonight, it was time to go. This time I had the wind in the back (Yay!) Though the long bike ride made me tired, I bought when I got back my groceries, chicken tonight is on the menu! I made two portions when I started to made my dinner, one for now and one for tomorrow, handy. In the evening after my dinner I mentioned the idea to go for a walk after dinner while I had my dinner with a few other residents,they were okay with that. But I was tired though, but I went anyways, it was a nice out. While walking I started to think of the comming days and next week, I worries me that I still don't have any news about my loan. No loan means I can't buy anything yet, and tomorrow I planned to go to Ikea with some other residents, planning to buy or order some things aswell. Sigh! 


I could wait till Friday or perhaps Saturday, but rather not. Humanitas wants me out of the building at the 1st of Sepetember, cause otherwise I would have to pay double rent, and I can't afford that. I still have a week and a half. Tomorrow the appointment with Paula, were going to visit a second hand store, they sell only fridges,washingmachines and stove's, with the appointment we will have a talk aswell. Paula works better under stress she told me, so I should not be worried. Bring it on!

"Making a list and checking it twice."

"Making a list and checking it twice." 

Decisions, decisions, I'm almost done with my 'things I need' list, if it was up to me I would already buy some off the  stuff or order them. I know already what to buy at Ikea, it will be at bed, laminate and perhaps some other things. But the bed and the laminate is the main thing at Ikea. The plan is to go on Thursday, and silly I am I was thinking it was already Wednesday today. I mentioned it aswell on Facebook, oh well.

It's been a calming day, I thought everyone is calm around my moving, (the staff from Humanitas) so, then why not me? I have alot of things in my head what I would already like to do, (working and planning ahead) but the staff members are telling me to wait, they always want that I wait. I'm calm though, it's just I like something to do while I'm getting a new house. I saw a lovely couch for such a nice price, but I have to wait. Yep, I tried some couches today, and they all seemed so hard to sit on, or is it the fact that I forgot how a couch sits. 

I don't have a couch in my room, and here at Humanitas there ain't couches either, only a few comfort desk chairs. I would like my furniture to be good and not half good, but aswell for a nice price. Some furniture I don't mind but a bed and a couch must be comfy and suitable. It's gotta be cheap, but comfy. Today I totally forgot my appointment with Paula, I was cooking and while I was cooking my delicious dinner a resident came up to me and informed me about the appointment. Strange though cause I asked yesterday the secetary when I had a next appointment with Paula, and she told me Thursday. 

I stopped my cooking for a while and went to her, she told me that I could finnish my dinner first and then afterwards we can have a 30 minute talk, cause her next appointment was at seven. It was already late, so. I finnished my dinner and went to my appointment, I informed her what I have been doing the last few days and told her the latest news. Paula was worried about my 'list,' it was all to expensive. It made me worried aswell, I told her that I  have been really busy with searching for the cheapest of the cheapest stuff. Together we searched for cheaper stuff and second hand stores, we found one second hand store what we will visit together upcomming Thursday. 

Paula told me aswell to buy just a matras to sleep on, just for the very first month. She was worried I won't come around with my money. I told her that is an idea but things like a second hand washing machine or a oven is in my eyes not a good option to buy, if I would buy a second hand washing machine and it will break in a month or sooner, then I would have to buy a new one again. Then it's better to buy a cheap 'new' one, rigth? I understand Paula's worries but I'm really carefull if it comes to buying things, specially now! I wont walk in a store and just buy, buy and buy, oh no. I'm already a bit worried about ordering or buying the things I need, "Do I really need it?" I think then.

I will search further these comming days, and Thursday visiting Ikea. I will have a list ready then. Paula wasn't to worried though, she told me we can start actually next week when I got the keys, then I have to get busy. The first week of September Paula wants me to get out of Humanitas, cause otherwise I will have to pay double rent. Tomorrow I'm planning to visit my Dad, last Sunday was his birthday but I didn't visit him then. I had my reasons for that, all Uncles and Aunts would have been there and would have been asking about Canada, and why this and why that. I know I should have go and should have stand up for myself, but I wasn't ready for them. 


They wouldn't have stop talking about the item 'Canada,' and even though they wouldn't have talked about it, they still would have give me the 'eye.' So yeah, better and good that I didn't went, I know my family. My Dad knows already that I have a new house, he will be excited to see me.

"I will continue my path, but I will keep a memory always."

"I will continue my path, but I will keep a memory always."

Again the same waking up as ussual, nerves and nerves. This morning I was nerves about the loan I have to ask for this morning, sometimes I ask myself why I have these nerves. I should not worry, it goes as it goes, right? This morning I went with Nicole to the cityhall for the asking for my loan, (Nicole is another staff member from Humanitas, Paula had a long weekend off) I had everything what I needed with me, and there we went. It was a ten minutes walking distance, and while walking Nicole and I talked about my plans these comming months. I told her that I would like to have people around me, just like I had in Canada and Humanitas. "You should join a sport or start a hobby, there are lots of oppertunities in this city," said Nicole. "I know," I told her, "Once I'm settled in my house I will start with something."

I see this aswell as a new start, a new living, a new city, new people, everything is new, I kinda like that. We were good on time for our appointment, eleven am correct. A woman named Elize guided us to her office and asked us to sit down, I handed in the papers and other stuff she needed. Elize asked a few questions about the house, and about the list what I made. (The list off  stuff what I need for the house) "That's quit alot," she told me. "I have totally nothing, and I can't help it," I replied. As the conversation continued I had a good feeling about the loan, let's say 75% is in the pocket. Elize made alot of copies, and she told us that these papers will be send to the citybank jury, then it's a yes or a no. I will hear from them in a couple of days by mail. I'll keepmy fingers crossed. I'm 80% sure I will get the loan.

If/when the loan goes trough I will get a extra sum of money on top of the loan for 'opknapkosten' (Dutch) refurbishment costs (English) It's extra money if I need to fix the walls or paint or whatever to fix the house. Nicole asked for this, Nicole knows such things, handy right? I don't know much about these 'free' things, some off them I know but I guess alot has changed in Holland when I was over seas. After the appointment Nicole and I went back to Humanitas to do one more thing, taking care off 'housing benefit.' That's a allowance for people who pay to much rent in relation to there income, and I am one off them. Nicole and I took care of the allowance online, she needed information and I looked trough my papers for that information. She filled everything in online and we were done in fifteen minutes.

I saw right away the sum of money I will be getting extra, and I was happy with it. Extra's are always nice. As the day went on I felt a bit better, I hope the nerves will not get to me to much though, my stomach hurted bad this morning. I hope everyday I will come a bit further with the moving, it relaxes me. Let me put some things in order, the things I already had done and the things what still need to be done. The loan has been asked for, I will hear from it the following days, the keys I can pick up the 22th of August, aswell I have to pay for my first rent money then. Buy the furniture, carpet, fridge, etc, etc, I will do that maybe this week or next week. I will have to make a few lists, cause I saw already a few cheap shops where I can but my stuff. Ikea is one of them. I must not rush things cause Paula will help me with handy things. 


Like, she knows about things what I don't know off, she might can get things for free, while I pay for them instead. I can ask anything when I have a problem downstairs at the Humanitas staff, that's good to know. But aswell I want to try to do as much as possible myself, I want to learn these things again. I noticed that I'm a person who would like to have things in order, thinking ahead, or working ahead. And that's not really possible right now, that can be annoying sometimes. This comming Thursday I will be going to Ikea with two other residents, I will have to make a list what I all need from Ikea. If I'm satisfied with what I want I will order it right away. I'm not worried, everyday I will come a bit further knowing what to do and what not to do. *Insert smile.*