"On our knees and work."

"On our knees and work."

Another exhausting day, I could almost sleep writing this post. Today was the day of the 'laminate,' and I must say, Ikea laminate isn't the best. The laminate was thin and fragile, some layers peeled  of on the end,  but okay. Most of the laminate weas fine I guess, but if I had more money I would have bought a much more expensiver one. I'm happy though that two residents helped me out, Henkie and Harie were the best ones who I could ever wished for. Henkie is calm and knows how to lay laminate, it's the same with Harrie, only he's a hard worker and that's it. We started on a nice time in the morning, after the coffee break at Humanitas we took off. First we went to the store to buy some tools. We still needed some tools to lay the laminate. Quiet expensive though, but anyway, we needed it. 

The underfloor has been layed last night.

We started out but the laying looked easier then it was. It was quit alot work, three persons was enough aswell. Henkie and Harrie were laying the laminate and I saw the laminate when it was needed. I cleaned up aswell, and opened the packages with the laminate. I never layed laminate before so I looked aswell how they did it, it wasn't that easy though. Alot of hammering and ticking was needed to get every piece in place, but when we were half way the laying went faster. The day went fast aswell, around one 'o' clock  I brought the hard workers some food and drinks, cause they deserved it. When we were half way, we decided to go further tomorrow, we were exhausted. The living room is almost done and aswell the hallway. Tommorow we finnish it and then start and end the sleeping room.
 

The living room is almost done.

It's double feelings I have about the moving, when I'm in the new house I feel comfy and I like to be there. I like the rest and I like the being on my own. But when I'm at Humanitas I have the feeling that I will miss it too, miss the residents and even the staff, damn I will miss whole Humanitas. I have been trough alot when I think back of the last 8 months. Blimey 8 months! It feels I stepped into a new life, like I have been transformed. I'm not kidding, this is not the life I lived before I met Safa, oh no! There's a huge difference, I'm glad I went trough this all, I suffered at some points but I learned from it. But most of everything I can say I had a great time, a great time in Canada and a great time at Humanitas, and that great time will not stop but continue.

Ofcource a coffee!

"Reliefed and exhausted."

"Reliefed, and exhausted."

A bit of a exhausting day, but everything went well. I stood up very early this morning, it was 4 am and I sat at my desk surfing the net. I had this weird feeling inside of me and I felt nervous, I wasn't suprised though, cause today the planning was to get the laminate. I had to ask my Boss for a ride to Ikea, eeeek! She already confirmed though a few days ago, but still, will she have the time today?  When I arrived at work my first Boss was there, and the other Boss always comes a bit later. My first Boss asked me how I was, and I told him that I was nervous and feel overwhelmed, I explained why. "Marleen, (my second Boss) will arrive at 9:00, you can ask her then," my Boss told me. Yeah, that's easy, Mr. assertive will just do it like that, lol. I so dislike asking people to do something for me, it's hard for me.
 

When Marleen arrived I went on with my work and waited for the right time to ask her, and I waited and waited and waited. Just before our coffee break at 10:00 I (kinda) asked her, and she said, "Yes." After the coffee break we waited a while and we took off, Ikea here we come. It was already late tough, I had another appointment at 12:00, so there was a bit of a hurry. My appointment was with Paula and another staff member called Heidi, once in 3 months every resident gets a rapport about how the resident is doing. Today it was my time, with a few other residents. Marleen is a good driver I noticed, she had a big car and we were at Ikea before we knew it. It wasn't that busy so that was a good thing too. Parking the (long) car was a bit, hmm, a problem, lol. I had my shopping list what I needed and everything went well. 

The floor I bought.

I still had the measures from the laminate on a paper from when I was visiting Ikea the last time, Mark went with me then. On the shopping list stood aswell the name of the matress what I wanted, with the last visit at Ikea I did a matress test, so I was good. We weren't sure about the underfloor for the laminate, so we asked someone from a Ikea, piece of cake. After the asking it was time to get everything on a cart, 20 boxes of laminate, 3 big rolls of under floor and another 3 packages of underfloor, a matress and another thin matress, done! Funny how the matress was packed, lol Ikea packed the matress in like a carpet, they rolled it in. It was so easy to take with us. When you unpack the matress it has to lay for 24 hours, cause of the foam. 

The matress I bought.

It was time for the paying, the cart was pretty heavy to push forward with all that laminate. The price wasn't that bad, I thought it was much more, I used my new 'Ikea family card' aswell, to get a discount. When I recieved the receipt I knew something wasn't right, Marleen and I walked towards the parkinglot to pack everything in the car. I told Marleen that the cashier made a mistake, she forgot to count the second underfloor (for the laminate) That's alright," said Marleen, "That's your luck today." She was right, I was lucky. I couldn't believe that everything fitted in the car, the car was fully packed and we went back to Reha. It was 11:50 and I knew already I would be to late for the appointment. Marleen adviced me to call when we are back, that's the least I could do. It was a bit of a puzzle how I was gonna solve this day. 

This card saved me money.

The 12:00 'o' clock appointment couldn't go trough cause I was to late, and the next appointment was at 2:00 pm. A fridge will be delivered, strange time though cause the seller told me he will deliver the fridge between 2:00 and 4:00. A nice day to plan things, lol. Anyway, Marleen and I arrived back at work and we decided to leave the stuff in the car and I make a phonecall. After I told Paula that I couldn't make it, she told me that she will call back, well alright. It was a bit after 12:00 and it was lunch time at Reha, a nice time for a break. Planning and thinking made me quiet while having my lunch, My Boss told me that he will drive Marleen's car to my house at 1:30, then I will ride my bike to my house. 

After lunch I finnished what I started this morning, I worked on a wooden lounge seat. One thing I'm really glad off is that I still will be working at Reha, when I live in the my new house. It's all in the same city, here they will be looking for work for me aswell. I'm happy with that. It was 1:30 and I took off, my Boss followed in the car with a full car. It was such a lot of work getting the laminate into my place, ugh!! But we did it, well actually I did the most, cause my Boss had a weak back. (1) 20 Packages of laminate out of the car and into the hallway from the building where I live,(2)  from the hallway to the elevator, (3) in the elevator, (4) out of the elevator in the second hallway, and at last, (5) from the second hallway in my house, *faints*. I was exhausted, and was ready for a short sit down. 

Then the bell ranged, I guessed that was the fridge, and yes it was! I had to go downstairs again to help out, I saw twwo old men with a fridge. One guy looked like he was in his 60's and the older in his 70's, the older man wanted to help, but I told him that I will help out, "You can hold the door," I said. It's an old looking fridge and it sure needs a clean up, but now now, I was exhausted. I payed the two old men, and they took off, and that was actually it for this day. 'Here' for I made myself nerves, there was no need to, but it's normal. Being nerves for a moving sure goes automaticly, and don't say it's not true, lol. I went back to Humanitas for my deserved rest, I planned to go back to the house tonight with a resident, to lay the underfloor for the laminate, then that's done. 

Paula stopped me, when she saw me. She asked me how my day went and I told her how it was, I also appoligized for the chancelled appointment. Paula told me that it wasn't that important, she wrote already the rapport with another staff member, "We can look it in in our next appointment," paula told me. That was alright with me, still felt a bit pitty though that I couldn't make it. Pity for myself cause I really like the staff members here, I want to spend my last days with them, make them laugh or have a nice talk. Paula told me that when I am ready with my house, like you are able to live there, you can deliver the keys and inform the receptionist, then she will write you out and help you further with the money and other stuff, hmm! 

That was not what I actually had planned, there won't be anyone in the weekend at Humanitas, and that's not really a nice goodbye then. Just deliver the keys to a staffmember and then sign a paper and that's it? Au revoir? No, I won't do that. I know why Paula says that though, everyday more here cost me money, 28 Euro a day. I have the money for it, but I can save money when I leave earlier. But still no, I will leave Monday morning when most of the staff members are there. Sunday night will be my last night at Humanitas, am I ready? Emotionally? No, but I will be upcomming Monday, I'm sure. I will prepair myself these last comming days. One last thing I did with Henkie this evening was laying the underfloor, Henkie is a nice guy, tons of tattoo's, wears a cap most of the time but most off all, he's funny, gentle and calm. 

We were done in a hour, it went pretty easy. I never layed laminate in my life, I will learn that tomorrow. So far I have 3 people who will help me out, I hope the laying goes well, yeah I'm a bit of a perfectionist. That's why the nerves a bit for tomorrow's laying, oh well we just will see it. It was a long day, time to relax!

"Taking it easy, as far as it's possible."

"Taking it easy, as far as it's possible."

Almost just a day like yesterday, only the tempature is a bit warmer, it feels alot nicer. I still have the same plan for my moving, I'm taking it easy and do not rush things. I will buy the laminate tomorrow at Ikea, then prolly make a little start the same day, and then Friday the rest. I have people enough to help me out, only I have to ask if my Boss has the time to drive with me to Ikea. Mark is one of the guys who's gonna help me out, yesterday I was thinking about him, cause his girlfriend is not with him at Humanitas. Like I said yesterday, Mark's girlfriend (Margareth) has been throwen out of Humanitas, because of some silly reasons. Margareth is now sleeping at a friends house, and she's not feeling well about the whole sittuation. 

Mark is mad aswell, he has to move to another room, he goes from section red, to section green. This morning he asked me to help him out  with moving his stuff from his old room to his new room, ofcource I helped. I talked with him a bit, I told him that if he's not able to help me out that I'll be fine with it.  He replied that he likes to help out, "It keeps my mind of things, don't worry," well okay. Still if he's to busy with other things then I will tell him again. He had so much stuff in his room, it's almost unbelievable. I guess it will take him a few days to organize his new room, there's so much stuff, he must be  worried about Margareth too.

Prolly, this Saturday I will be moving over.

After I helped Mark I took a nap, I was exhausted. After that it was time for my lunch and then I went to my house, like I had planned today. I took some stuff with me what I didn't need anymore here, clothing, and some photoframes. I barried away the stuff I took with me when I arrived, clothing in the closet, soap and toiletpaper in the bathroom, I putted the new watercooker on his place and as last the kitchen tools in the kitchen drawers. I liked doing that, lol, it's like getting presents. There will be more buying in the next few months, and there all my little gifts to myself, lol! Second thing I did was cleaning the rest of the windows, heck! What a work!

First I scratched all the paint in the corner of the window off, and then I whiped the windows. So many windows in the house, sigh! But nice, cause then I can see so much more. I swiped the floors with a soft broom afterwards, cause the laminate will prolly come tomorrow. To be honest, I will be glad when the floor has been layed in a few days, I'm just a tiny bit worried about it. Further I wish it was next week, cause it sure is alot of a stress and nerves all the arranging and organizing. I guess I will be resting alot when I'm in my new house, if it's possible though. Cause I'm still not done, yeah most of it is done, the important stuff is all there. I can eat, sleep and wash my clothes, I hope everything works, lol.
 

And then I ask myself, how will it be without Humanitas? Or how will it be without the residents who I spent my time with almost 24 hours a day? Maybe they will visit me, do I want that? Sure they can visit me so now and then, but not 24 hours a day and not even everyday. Honestly I hope that they will vanish in the comming years. Well, some of them can stay friends, the calm ones, lol. I know a few residents who I can trust and like to hang out with, there kinda a bit my type. It's hard though, cause most of the residents helped me out many times, and then saying 'au revoir?' just like that?  Hmm, that's not really my style, but allthough I think it's better. There just not my kinda people, I'm way different then them.

Funny note last night: I was walking with Henkie (resident) to the grocery store, and I saw six or seven homeless people drinking alcohol and making loud noises. I told Henkie, "You see those homeless people? And do you know what bothers me? I know all of them by face." Henkie laughed. I said, "When I will walk up to them, they will greet me and will say hi to me, cause I know them. But I dislike them, and I feel ashamed knowing them." Henkie agreed with me, and said, "You can blame Humanitas, you stayed to long here." 

As the days go by.......

As the days go by..... 

I feel calmer as the days go by, it seems most of the things fall in place now, slowly though, bit by bit. Sure it's hectic and I try to plan as much as I can, but it seems when I have a plan it always changes cause of silly situations. Today at work Paula called me to tell me that the money has arrived, but, (there's a but again, lol) the money stood on the Humanitas bank account on not on my own. (ING) Since I have been at Humanitas I have two bank accounts, I have ING and Humanitas's account. The Humanitas account was specially to take care of my money and my montly money. In that way I wouldn't spend my money just like that, paying my guilts and saving my money for when I would left Humanitas was there goal. Anyway, the loan money has to go to my own account and that takes a day said Paula. Well alright, I'm happy the money arrived. 

Mark (who will help me) and his girlfriend confirmed with me last night, Mark told me, "When the money is there, then give me a sign and were off." Nice, of him, but (another but) something happened today. Mark and his girlfriend Margareth are living aswell at Humanitas, Margareth had two appointments last week in the office, (the usually once a week  meeting with a counselor for every resident) but she didn't go, and that's sure not a thing to do at Humanitas. Second, Margareth went out to another city for a long weekend at her friends house, but she didn't inform this at the office. Humanitas wasn't happy, and Margareth had a 'time out' for two days. Meaning she can't get in the building for two days.  Mark wasn't happy with it aswell, but still I didn't had to worry about my laminate, he told me

When Margareth came back after two days she had a meeting with a staff member from Humanitas and her counselor. The meeting was about if she could stay at Humanitas or if she had to go, in other words, homeless. Yeah Humanitas is though lately, there are more people who perhaps have to go for silly reasons. I'm so glad I have a house. After the meeting Margareth's eyes were red from crying, she has to go. And she sure wasn't happy with that, and Mark wasn't either ofcource. The silly thing is Mark can stay but Margareth has to go, seperated like Margareth said. Margareth is a really nice girl, most of the residents call her Mother Humanitas, she's always there for another, she offers help everywhere. And now she has to go. 

I felt bad for her, and hugged her a few times. I left Mark for a bit though just to have a 'his' time, to let him calm down. I won't talk or mention anything about' Ikea,' besides he told me after Margareth's news that he wasn't sure that he will come with me to Ikea and help with the laminate. I told him, "That's alright and understandable, we will see." Sure it sucks, but there were more people offering help so, I'm good. But still, sigh! One guy at work offered help with laying the laminate, and two of my Bosses at work offered me to drive with me to Ikea. The offers are nice but it's not what I had planned, slowly I'm getting used to new plan.

Tomorrow is a day off work, I was planning to buy the laminate tomorrow when the money is there. And then lay it the next day, Mark told me that If he was able to help out he will help Thursday eve.' Mark is working Tursday and so do I, but I asked a day off. I can't ask him to take a day of for me, that's to much. So my plan was to go to Ikea tomorrow and then lay the laminate Tursday eve.' If Mark isn't able to help out, I will go to Ikea prolly Thursday with my Boss from Reha, and then discuss things with Henkie (from Humanitas) and Rob (from Reah) when were going to laythe laminate. I have the time untill next Monday, it would be better If I move over Thursday or Friday though, cause everyday extra after Thursday costs me money. 


I said I took a day off from work this comming Thursday, but I will work in the morning. Cause I can't ask anyone aswell to take a day off for me at work. Working on Thursday means I can prolly ask if the Boss can drive to Ikea with me, and I can arrange a few tools aswell what will come in handy with the laying. Plus I can discuss whit Rob and Henk when they have time for me. A bit of a hectic week but I'm good and calmer. I even went this morning early to my new house before I went to work, I had a few boxes with clothing, I thought I can bring it there already, lol talking about excitment. A little note, I saw early in the morning (when I was on my way to the house) some Arabic people walking to the little mosque. That's normal though but this time there were so many. 


There were more Men then Womenwalking, a fewf men  I saw walking with there sons. Two little boys were so cute to see with there tiny grey suites with a ty. It was interesting to see, and I know now why there were so many Arabic/Islamatic people, it's the sugarfest today as we call it here. It's the end of the Ramadan, "Happy Eid"! We have tons of Turkish and Egyptians living here, I guess they like the city. Anyway, I'm happy how things are going with the moving , I can slowly take it easy a bit. I'm relaxing while I'm writting this post, I will be much more relaxed when I have it all behind me. It sure takes alot off energy out of me, But I can be proud, I did most of it all by myself.

"First (exhausted) day at work."

"First (exhausted) day at work."

What  a cold day today, specially this morning. I didn't sleep so well either, I woke up at 3:45 am and I couldn't sleep anymore. I got up and got on the laptop, I sure noticed that it's gonna be a hectic, nervous week. Today could be the day of picking up the laminate or not, it all depended if the loan money was added on my bank account or not. Although all the nerves I had today, the work I did took some of the nerves away. We even danced and sung on some old disco songs from the radio, that was fun!! It wasn't a easy start though the first day at work. But I guess that's normal after 4 weeks of vacation.

Ofcource I spoke about my new house, and ofcource some were making fun and jokes about it, I laughed about it aswell. One guy was telling me that I looked so bad all day and that I didn't do my work well, causeI was to busy in my head with the house and the laminate. It was all jokes, I was nervous about the drive to Ikea to pick up the stuff I need, and the laying of the laminate. I knew who will help me with the laying, and I knew who's gonna help me with picking up the stuff at Ikea. But still the nerves, lol, will he help me? (He is Mark) I still had doubts. Two residents from Humanitas will help out , Mark and Henki., Mark is the only one who has a driving licence and a car. They both offered me, and I kinda asked too though.

Yeah 'kinda', damn, I'm just not assertive enough to go right to a person and ask him or her right away what I want or need. I should actually learn that, or just do it, be assertive! For example I asked Mark to drive with me to Ikea, and I need his help with laying the laminate. When I ask him he has to be in a good mood, and he has to be a bit enthusiastic, otherwise I'm not daring enough to ask him. Mark and his girlfriend do alot for another without sometimess taking care of themselves, there counselor told them that they should first take care of themselves and when they have time then they might be a helping hand. Not a good timing to say that now, right? Cause I need there help. Though they overreact sometimes with helping another one out.

Back to work, like I said it was a nice day, exhausting but nice,even though the nerves. I ask my Boss a few times that I could have a peek on his computer, to check out my bankaccount if my money was there. He was fine with it, he even offered if he could help out with anything. I could get two days of for the moving and the Boss even offered to drive with me to Ikea, nice! My boss has a way bigger car then Mark, but I stay with Mark cause I asked him first and in a kinda way he offered also first. But if Mark is okay with my Boss's offer, then perhaps I will take that offer. 

The day went on and I checked my bankaccount 3 times, but nothing. Even Paula called at work to ask about the money, but I had bad news. After work I drove to Humanitas with Henki, and when we arrived Paula asked us for a coffee with her, cause she was bored. Paula found a nice watercooker for me at her house, but I told her that I already bought one yesterday, it was only 10 Euro. Nice of her to think of me though.  After my dinner I didn't do much, just sometimes checking my mail on the computer. There is still a couch waiting for me, but the seller told me there are first one other buyer perhaps, but they wanted to  have a look first. If they don't want the couch, then the couch will be mine. 

Second, a fridge is aswell waiting for me, the seller told me that he will bring it one of the following days. Were getting there, but slowly. I keep my fingers crossed for my loan, it should be there cause my loan is confirmed. Tomorrow another day with nerves perhaps, but I guess they will be a bit less, cause Mark told me after dinner that if I get the money he has to get a sign and then we will drive to Ikea. Aswell the Reah staff wants to help out, and I got enough people to help me with the laying of the laminate. Roll on week! 

"Confirmed!"

"Confirmed!" 

I didn't check my mail yesterday in the mailboxes, but there was a mail, Paula came with my mail this morning. Recently it can happen that I forget something when it's hectic with the moving, I forgot to check the mailbox yesterday, cause the whole week my mailbox was empty, and post on Saturday is rare. Anyway, the mail, the mail was from my loan and it said that my loan is confirmed! Yay!! Eeeek! I will have to check my bank account tomorrow at work if they made the money over, I will have to ask permission at my Boss to have a peek on the computer for my (online) account.  If/when the money is there, then I need to have a plan what to do next, what is wise? I think the best plan is to go right after work to Ikea and buy the laminate and perhaps the matrass. And then maybe the day after laying the laminate or Wednesday, decisions, desicisions.

It can also be that I will get the money on Tuesday, then it will be the same thing, buying the laminate after work and laying it the next day. It would have be alot easier that I didn't had to go to work but, it is like it is. Maybe Reha can come in handy aswell, cause they have tools there and I might get the chance to borrow a van or a little bus. It's gonna be a hectic week, I'm excited, tiny bit nerves ofcource and a bit un-patienced, lol. Tough I had a good sleep last night, I woke up at 8:00, where I thought it was 7:00. Sigh, I hope I won't wake up at 8:00 tomorrow morning, or else I'm gonna be late at work. I need my time in the morning, not only for the waking up but aswellfor  putting my clothes on and making lunch for work. Usually I wake up at 5:30, then I can take it easy and take my time. It's been four weeks since I worked, time to get busy again.

I had a appointment with Paula this morning at 11:00, she was nice and was proud what I all achieved so far. She had good news and bad news, the good news was that someone will guide me after I have been moved from Humanitas to the new house, and the guiding will be on the 7th from September. The bad news was that that someone won't be Paula, it will be a guy, but until the 7th of September I will still have Paula to help me out and guide me. The help from the 'guy' will be that he will help me if I need something, for example with paperwork or other important stuff. Anything what will help me to get settled again with living on my own, anything what will help me to get right on track. Nice! 

Such a rainy day today, I had a nice shower this morning, and I went out for shopping with three other residents in the afternoon. Sometimes there's a special Sunday offer here in the city, most of the stores are open then. It rained hard but we didn't mind, I bought a few things for the house, what made me happy. A water cooker for only 10 Euro's and a few other things, like clothing hangers. There was aswell a beachvolley tournement but the rain was a disaster for the game, but it was nice to watch though. I had a pleasant Sunday. 

This week will be hectic like I said, I will try to keep on writing posts everyday in my blog. That's a must, and I will. It will be different maybe when I'm out of Humanitas, cause of the internet connection. I will have to wait untill my new connection arrives at the new house, the only option will be the libeary. There they have free internet, with lots of computers. I can write my post on wordpad and send it then to my hotmail, and then later on (in the libeary) get the post of my hotmail and copy and paste it to my blog. Good option!

"Can't do much without the internet."

"Can't do much without the internet."

WOW, how internet can be so needed sometimes, it's almost scary. We had no internet the whole afternoon, just when I sent a message back to a guy who was interested at my bid to his fridge. I bidded 60 Euro on his fridge if he would bring it to my house, and he was fine with it. I wanted to send him my adress and a thank you, but then the internet went off. I couldn't reach the guy cause I forgot his phonenumber, I thought I will write that down later after I send him the message. Later on the internet came back on again, and the guy wrote me a message back, telling me that he will E-mail me in a couple of days, then he will bring the fridge.

It felt again like a day off, just like yesterday. Cause off the no internet, I couldn't do much. I counted my saved money from the last month and the rest of the money of the last week,and  it was pretty much. My thoughts were that I could buy already alot of little things what I need, but it's better to keep my money in my wallet. I decided to have a peek at some second hand stores or cheap shops in town, Some stores had some pretty good prices, but some were just expensive. Then I think twice, do I really need it? Will it come in handy? That's what I ask myself when I look at stuff. I should make a list again what I really need.

After peeking at cheap stores, I went back to Humanitas to have lunch and a nap. There was still no internet, so no use in trying that again. After my nap I took Henkie with me for grocery shopping, and I wanted to go back to that store what I saw this morning. The shop is called 'Action,' it's like the Dollarstore but then a bit bigger, they have really nice stuff for a good price. I bought a few little things what I needed or could come in handy at the house. Like a broom, a bucket and a few kitchen tools. I have a feeling it's gonna be a busy week, cause Monday starts work again, back to the wood. In the meanwhile I have to keep an eye on my loan, does it come or not?

When the loan gets on my bank account I will have to drive to Ikea, to buy the laminate and the matras. For the same reason I will get my money on Monday or Tuesday while I'm working, then will have to drive in the evening to Ikea. And perhaps laying the laminate the next day. I have a good feeling that I can arrange something with my boss, for example a few free days plus lending a electric saw, lol. Deadline is the first of September, I think it will go well. Please be with me lord, I have suffered enough the last few weeks! I'm ready for this week, let's get this thing started! Amen.

After the shopping I did my cleaning chores, the livingroom in section red. It was not really my job but okay, usually I clean in section green. But the staff had other plans with the cleaning chores. Although that, I looked forward to the cleaning, how weird am I? It was a hard job though cause I did more that was planned, I cleaned the kitchen in 'red' aswell plus the little hall. When I was done I turned the furniture a bit around, to make it look a bit nicer. I was exhausted but satisfied. I made my dinner, and had a little rest. Tomorrow another day, Sunday. I really look forward to this week, I hope everything turns out well.

"Positive thinking evokes more energy, more initiative and more happiness."

"Positive thinking evokes more energy, more initiative and more happiness."

It seems this week has been a full week for me, and yeah it was. It took alot of energy all the flying from here to there, all the worries and nerves. Today I decided to have a 'day off,' meaning taking my head off the worries and nerves from the moving. Everything what included moving was forbidden. It started out not the way I had planned but later on it went better. 

I had a nice sleep but although the nice sleep, I just wish I could sleep a bit longer. Blame the warm nights, it makes my room to hot to sleep. There was a 'meeting' this morning at Humanitas with a few staff members and all the residents, the meeting was was about the cleaning chores in the building. The staff said there was to much mess and it's not clean, how we gonna solve that? I knew already the meeting would be a disaster, cause cleaning chores is always a problem around here, and it's always the same people who cleanb things up. I'm not afraid of cleaning, sometimes I even likedoing  it. For example when I walk to the washroom and I see it's a mess, I will clean it if I have the time and the energy for it. It's the same with the kitchen and living room in section 'green.' Chores or no chores, when I see something is dirty I will clean it, even when it's not in my section. 

The meeting was not really organized, like ussual. Cleaning here is always a subject, but it can be so easy, clean up after yourself, it takes only a few minutes and it saves a lot of work later. At the end of the meeting every resident were getting a cleaning job, I had to clean the kitchen and big livingroom in section red. I wasn't happy with it though, cause I always clean my own section, green. But anyway, I told the staff that I will do it after I did my other important stuff first. First things first, the staff was fine with it. I had other things to do first, and perhaps after that I will rest, it's needed, I planned a day off. After the meeting I took my neighbor resident with me to my house, I wanted to look at the gasmeter, cause I'm sure there isn't one. It was nice having my neighbor with me, he's a nice guy. He's the same guy who always join me when I ride to work. His name is Henki. 


When we arrived Henki told me that I have a really nice place, "This place will suit you well," he said, nice of him. Together we searched for the gasmeter, but there just was not a gasmeter, we looked everywhere. We even asked the neighbor, and he told us that in every house here there isn't a gasmeter. There is one, yes, but it's in one place. That place, automaticly measures the gas volume to the 'technical staff' of the housing corporation. (Horrible explaining, lol) In the end of the year every owner of the 'building' will get a (end) bill. (You still there?) I was kinda lost and Henkiand I  took off, Henki went back to Humanitas, I went to the housing corporation for some explaining. The same lady who I spoke with the last time was there again, I asked her, "Remember me?"  Yeah, she did remember me. I explained her about the gasmeter and she felt sorry for me. 


She called the technical staff for some further explaining, and yes, again she explained me, there isn't a gas meter, I didn't have to sign up for gas, electricity and not for water. It's all included with the rent, I asked her with a smile, "Honest?" She told me, "You heard the technical staff." It was clear for me, and I didn't want to hear a thing about it anymore. No gasmeter! LOL! The only thing I have to do is sign up for cabel television, and that's easy. I went back to Humanitas for a rest, but first lunch.Peanutbutter/honey sandwisches this time. While having lunch another neighbor knocked on my door and asked me to come with him to a huge store, they sell everything what has to do with electronics. I was eating, but I told him that after my meal I will come with him. This guy is gonna help me with the laminate, just like Henki. His name is Mark. 


When we walked to his (little) car a huge rain storm was aproaching us, wow, the sky went black. We were just on time in the car when the rain and thunder bursted loose.It was a 15 minute drive, we looked a bit around, and I saw some tv's that were not even expensive. Mark  a cable for his laptop and we took off again. When we got back I took my well deserved nap, I was exhausted. After my nap I didn't do much, only after dinner I went to a event in towwn with a few other residents. The event was a tour of bikes, with music bands later on in the evening. I didn't make it that late, I wanted to be alone for a while, a 'just me' time. I do sometimes miss that around here, just being alone for a little while. Sure it fun having people around me, I even look up for them when I feel alone. But yeah, just that sometimes alone, isn't bad either. 


Tomorrow I will brainstorm again on my moving, what is needed? What do I still have to do? Etc, etc. having a day off off the moving means also that I was out of focus, meaning I forgot what I still have to do or what I still need to do. There is so much to keep in mind and what I have to remember, it's alsmost crazy, thank god for pens and notes, lol. Mostly I write everything down, what I had done and what still need to be done, what I still need and what I already have. Writing things dowwn keeps my head empty aswell, it's all good. My worries? There becomming less.

"Dissapointment."

"Dissapointment."

This morning started out okay, like ussual. It were the normal little bits of nerves and the little bits of excitment what went trough me, although I felt a bit like I had a bit more nerves then ussual. The first of September is getting closer, and then it's better for me to leave Humanitas, otherwise I have to pay double rent. Still I haven't heard from my "So needed loan," I can't do a thing about it. This morning with the coffeebreak, Paula came up to me and asked right away if I had already heard from my loan, I told her, "Nothing yet." She told me to come with me, straight away to the office, Paula was short in her answers. Was it about my loan? Or didn't she slept well? I didn't know, anyway, in the office Paula called with Elize Wolters who arranges my loan.

I thought, that's no use, cause Elize was still on vacation. Wrong! She was back and she told trough the phone, that my loan will have a extra 'As soon as possible' sign. Perhaps this week or for sure upcomming Monday or Thursday I will have the money. Yeah, I heard that before, I will see. I felt a dissapointment and so did Paula, I could have a extra 300 Euro aswell from 'them' if I didn't have payed for my first month rent at the housing corporation last monday. If I could have showen that I didn't had enough money to pay the first month rent 'they' would have helped me with paying the half of the rent. If, if, if, sigh. Anyway, it's been a long day. I felt down after the short appointment with Paula, I felt lost and a bit anger aswell. 


I didn't feel like doing much today, cause I felt tired and there wasn't much that I could do. The deadline is the 1st of September, then it's better for me to leave Humanitas. If I stay, let's say a few days more, then I will have to pay each day 29 Euro for renting (again) my room at Humanitas. I hope I will get my money tomorrow or the following two days, so I can buy my laminate and matrass, it's a start. Two residents offered me to help putting in the laminate, cause I never did such a thing. They told me that when I buy the laminate, the laminate has to breath for 24 hours, so in short, I will buy the laminate and then wait a day with laying it.

Today I found out that I DO have to sign up for gas (Electrabel) and water (Vitens), the housing corporation told me that everything (gas, electricty, water, etc) was on one bill, the montly rent I pay includeS aswell the gas price, electricy price, water price, etc. I told this aswell to Paula but she had doubts about it and decided to call the corporation, and yes, Paula was right. The montly rent included electricity and a few things more, but not gas and water. So I have to sign up for the missed items, gas, water and cabel for if I want to watch TV. Sigh, it wasn't that easy the signing up, actually I'm still working on it. But I had enough of it, tomorrow another day. 

There was a couch for free that I found on a second hand selling site, I called the seller and asked if I could have a look first, that was alright with him. The guy gave me the adress, but I couldn't find the "#*^%&" adress! It was a bit of a ride though, lovely weather aswell. I was searching and searching and even asked a few people where 'Weilre nr. 19' was, (the street where I looked for) After 30 minutes of searching I gave up, sorry seller. I decided to ride to my new house, another long bike ride, but still good weather, it felt nice. How am I doing under all this? It's hectic and sometimes the nerves are getting to me, but I take my rest aswell, IF that's possible. They say sometimes that things happen for a reason, still though I can't find a reason why most of the things go wrong at the moment or take so long.


Why does it go so difficult? It only gives you nerves and worries, I don't want that. Ofcource when you start with almost nothing, you will appreciate the little things later so much more. I think I will be very happy when I can buy the laminate and the matras at Ikea, I think? I'm sure. That's also a thought to look out to, right? And even the thought of living on myself and have enough money again to decorate the house. I will have to struggle trough this moving proces, and I will. I never worked so hard to get this moving all straight, allthough I learn from this aswell. I will be rewarded for sure.

"Waiting and cleaning today."

"Waiting and cleaning today."

There's enough to do today, it seems everyday I come a little bit further, just tiny little bits. I guess it's better then nothing, right? Today I planned another full day, searching for items on the internet, searching for cheap items what I really need. The couch didn't show up yesterday, although it was confirmned, so I'm looking for another couch. I saw alot of them though, I can bid on some of them and I saw one for  free. I messaged the seller for the 'free' couch, and he messaged back telling me I should call him tomorrow morning. Further I saved in my 'favorites' seven couches, way to many I know, it's so harder to choose then. Funny that most of the couch for sale are blue, I so don't want a blue couch, it doesn't match with a red wall. Still I need a fridge, a few lamps, screens or curtains, and yeah, money!


I had a appointment with Melissa this morning at 11:00, she wanted to call 'Elize Wolters' for my loan yesterday. But she was to busy yesterday, Melissa said "Sorry," and she grabbed the phone to make a phonecall right away. After ten minutes she hanged up the phone, and she told me that the woman (Elize Wolters) who arranged my loan, is still on vacation. Great! The 'file' for my loan lays on Elize's desk ' ready to be judged, but she's on vacation. My 'file' has a not on written on it saying, emergency. I will have to wait, perhaps someone else will judge it, or not. You know what? I'm not worried and not even in panic, it is as it is, I can jump high or low or go mad, but it won't help a thing. Things will be fine in the end I guess. 
 

I planned to go cleanall  my windows in the house like I said yesterday, but there are so many windows in the house, I love it though. Before my appointment with Melissa I already went to the shop to buy a few things for the window cleaning, but first I took some rest, lunch and then a nap, it was needed. After my nap I went on the laptop for a few hours, then I took off to the house, I had everything with me what I needed, plus a few things more. I even did NOT  forget my wallet this time. When I arrived at the house I first measured all the windows and wrote IT ALL  down on a paper. Like I mentioned before, so many windows I have. The decisions will be difficult to make with some of the windows, will it be blinds or curtains? Or perhaps both?


There are so many windows decarations, it's almost to hard to make a decision. I think some windows don't even need decoration,  not every window has to be covered. Alright, the windows were waiting for cleaning, firs I cleaned them at the sides where the windows stays in, (English word) There was all paint and dirt, afterwards I used a sponge to clean the rest of the window. Then on to the next window, same procedure. Lots of work but I like to have it clean and perfect, and I had all the time to do it, so. It was 2:00 pm when I started, and between 5:00 and 5:30 a guy will come to bring the gasstove, so time was on my side. At 4:50 I stopped with the cleaning and made myself ready for the delivery guy, first I checked my wallet and....


...I had no money in my wallet!!! What the...?! This time I didn't forgot my wallet, no, but put money in it would be handy, right? It was 5:05 pm and I couldn't go back to Humanitas to get the 60 Euro for the stove, I decided to stay, what else could I do? Maybe the seller will go with me and drive to Humanitas, or I have to go by myself. Within ten minutes the seller arrived and I told him that I was sorry cause I needed to get some money, it was alright with him, he waited in the car with the stove. I jumped on my bike and drove to Humanitas to get the money, it went pretty fast, it was a 20 minute ride back and forth. I payed the seller and he helped me to get the stove to the first door, job done! I have a stove. I was exhausted though and hungry. Some residents at Humanitas were cooking when I arrived, and they asked me if I want some too, so that we could eat together, I told them, "Sure."


Sometimes it's handy when they ask you things like that, next time I will cook. My next appointment was already arrived, at 7:00 someone would intervieuw me. It's a normal procedure when someone is leaving Humanitas, they will get intervieuwed by a company called 'Cito.' Cito is a company who will collect most of your information and answers after the intervieuw, and they will see how your doing outside Humanitas. Do you manage outside Humanitas?  Can you take care of yourself after Humanitas? Do you need help or not now that you live on your own. What does Cito do with all the information? They want to see if people can handle there selves after Humanitas, if you can't, then Cito even can send someone to help you out. They want to look if Humanitas does a good job or not aswell, Cito can see if there has to be changes inside of Humanitas or not, etc, etc.


My intervieuwer was nice on time, it was a pretty young girl, I guess her age wasn't older then 22. I sure didn't expect that. t. She asked my question about entire life, (my background) and aswell about my situation now, and what I have been true the last nine months. "The intervieuw will take two hours atleast," said the girl, I didn't mind though. I like to be questioned and I like the attention at the moment. Some questions were personal, and some were not, although the intervieuw took long I had a nice time. We started at seven and at nine we were done, I thanked her and she gave me a note and a envelope. On the note stood the date for the next intervieuw, and in the envelope was money! Woot!!

Just like promised trough the phone, I will get payed for the intervieuw, first I thought it was a joke, but no! In the envelope were laying 20 Euro, the next intervieuw will be held in November, then aswell an envelope.  It was a long day, and I was exhausted. Tomorrow another day, busy days ahead. I like it.

"All by myself."

'All by myself."

Still no sign of my loan this morning, I decided to go after it myself. With the coffee break this morning Mellisa came up to me and told me that 'we' have a appointment this morning, but she was to busy with other things for that appointment. She asked me if it was okay that we can shove the appointment to tomorrow, I thought, "Grrrr," but said, "Okay, alright." In the appointment she would have helped me with calling after my loan and second she would have helped  me for signing up for gas and water in my new house (Vitens for water and Electrabel for gas) I thought I'm not gonna wait till tomorrow, I will go after it myself. And so I did, after the coffee break I washed my face, washed my hair, putted my shoes on and off I went. It looked like it would rain, grey clouds came rollin in. But it stayed dry, first off to the housing corporation.(Beter wonen) When I got there a nice (looking) lady helped me right away, I told her that I would like to sign up for water and gas but I needed some 'numbers' what was missing on the 'moving'papers. 

A rainstorm at Humanitas.

After searching for the right 'numbers' the lady told me that I don't have to sign up for gas and water, 'they' already had that arranged. It's all in one "package," she told me. The water, gas,electricity and rent is all in one. when I pay my rent every month I pay right away for the gas, water and electricity. That saves me money whaT I didn't know off, I don't have to pay an extra sum of money on top of the monthly rent. I went on to the City hall, there I will have to ask where my loan is. I was already worried that they would send me from here to there, I needed to stay foccused. I knew where to go, desk 14, it wasn't busy and they aswell helped me right away. After I asked what happened to my loan the lady behind the desk told me that I will have to call and ask for 'Elize Wolters,' (she's the woman who helped me with the loan) "You can call here if you want to," said the lady. There's a local phone in the building, only thing you have to do is pick up the phone and tell the one who's picking up the phone who you want to speak to.

What a huge rainstorm can do....

Ofcource I couldn't find the 'local phone,' so I asked someone, a guy helped me out. He guided me to the phone. When I picked up the phone they putted me on hold for like twenty minutes, after that I hanged up. I had enough for a while, I needed some rest, for my sake I did enough. I will try again later on, and actually, Melissa wanted to call after my loan today, so klet her do it. I was tired after I did a few groceries, the groceries were needed. After my lunch I tried to take a nap but I couldn't sleep, I don't know why. It was alright, I didn't mind. At 1:30 a huge rainstorm bursted loose above the city, before that the sky was extremly dark. It rained so hard that some of the living rooms and hallways here were flooded cause of the rain, even the big boss came to have a look. The rain came out of the ceiling andwas  crawling down the walls. A few residents helped out to get the water out of the rooms and hall ways, I helped aswell. 

It even came down the stairs.

It was alot of work cause there weren't much tools to get all the water out, we used mobs and towels and that was it. I hoped it stayed dry to my next appointment. I planned a early dinner cause between five and seven the washing machine, gasstove and couch will be delivered at the house.  I made a easy pasta dinner, just from a package. It was nice though and it tasted good. At 4:30 I took of with a few bags what I already had packed, just some stuff I didn't need anymore here. First off to the bank to get some money for the gasstove, washing machine and perhaps couch. Ofcource I forgot something, like my cellphone and my wallet. Ugh! Don't you just hate it when your halfway and you forget something you really need. I thought for a few seconds, "Do I really have to go back,?  Yes I did. When I arrived at the house I felt comfy, I putted the keys in the lock in the first door and went inside, then three steps up and trough the hallway looking for number 25. Found it! I went inside and started with unpacking. Feels good.

Don't ask, hahaha!

I found a little bucket where I could sit on and wait, and have a little rest, the waiting took long, and I didn't know what time it was. I had to look trough the window if someone was comming with a washing machine or stove, etc. I don't have a front door, and not a doorbell, so I had to guess when someone would come with something for me. I'm good time guesser though, I can tell time without a clock. While waiting I got a bit bored and looked trough the house, I saw that the windows could use some cleaning, I will do that tomorrow.  Painting was not really needed, perhaps the kitchen walls, hmm, it can wait. The walls in the living room and sleeping room are okay, the red walls are fine, only the otherside I don't know yet. Still I was waiting for the people to show up, the gasstove won't show up anymore, I knew that for sure cause it was already late. The gasstove seller told me he would come between 5:00 and 5:30. I knew it was much later then that.

I decided to go outside when I saw a car driving around slowly, when I went downstairs an old lady walked in front of me and I asked her what time it was. She told me it was seven o'clock, wow! I couldn't believe I waited that long. I was right though with the slow driving car, it was the seller with the washing machine. The guy was friendly and helped me to get it out of the car, it machine had to go upstairs aswell, thank god for elevators! The washing machine was standing in my room within ten minutes, perfect. I payed the guy and thanked him, I grabbed my coath and headed of to Humanitas. Strange though going back there, comparing my home and the area with Humanitas is a huge difference. A positive difference, but I will miss the people there and there noises and voices. 

Later when I got back the guy with the gasstove E-mailed me saying he was on time but he was at number 24 instead of 25, my fault though cause I told him it was number 24, sigh, hectic times. I mailed him back for a solution, wi'll see what happens tomorrow. He can bring the stove though, cause I will be cleaning there most of the day. It's nice being in the new house even though it's empty.

A busy but wonderfull day, we have a lift off in 3, 2, 1, zero, excitment has started!

 Busy but wonderfull day, we have a lift off in 3, 2, 1, zero, excitment has started!

Wonderfull day with loads of sunshine, the morning started with a nice shower, getting dressed, breakfast, getting nervous & excited and the coffee break. While sitting outside drinking coffee the sun was shining in my face and it felt good, I had everything ready for picking up the keys and signing the contract. Within 30 minutes me and Nicole (staff member Humanitas) are taking off to the housing corporation, I was getting excited and nervous, I wanted to go already. Me and the residents were having a little conversation about getting a house with the coffee break, some residents are still searching for a house. I waited and searched aswell, some residents have luck and some don't, I know a resident who has been searching and waiting for more then 18 months, sigh. I hope he gets a house as soon as possible, he deserves it!

Living room.

It was time to go to 'Beter wonen,' the name of the housing corporation. Me and Nicole jumped on our bikes and we were heading off, the sun was shinning and I was more then ready. When we arrived there was a nice lady asking us to wait, we will be picked up by another lady. The other lady picked us up and guided us to her office, she congrated me with the new house and shooked my hand, and I thanked her. The ussual paper work and signing the papers I regonized from the last time I was getting a house, I thought, "Hey, I known this from the last time." I thought it would be difficult to understand all the explaining, but it was quit understandable, easy! After the explaining and signing the lady overhanded me the (many) keys, she shook my hand again and wished me good luck with the new house. Sigh, wonderfull! I felt good! Next thing to do was paying the first rent, I have to pay for the first month and a few weeks, it's quit alot money but that's normal the first time. 

Build in closets in the livingroom and aswell the kitchen.

I had the keys and I wanted to have another look in my house, it was okay with Nicole. I really have to get used to the many keys, there's so many of them. While entering the house I had a good feeling cause the rooms were looking so nice, and they seemed much bigger. To be honest, I like the house even more then when I visited it the first time. And the rooms are still empty and not decorated, I saw a few things what I didn't saw the first time with visiting. I have a electric sunscreen ,(woot) I found another build in closet in the halway and above where the gas stove comes to stand hangs a extractor hood, (google translate?) it keeps the smoke from the cooking and heat away. The paying from my rent I will do automaticly, it's much more handier, I will do it aswell with the other stuff what I have to pay, all automaticly. 

Sleeping room.

The second appointment I had was at 2:00 pm, the furniture project, where you can get anything for free! Last time I went there I was a bit to hectic, and I was soked wet from the rain. Now I took my time and looked at anything what I can possibly need, sometimes you feel a little bit of pressure walking there, like you have a time limit to have a look around. This time I felt no rush, it was actualy nice looking around. The furniture wasn't that nice, I saw one round dinning table but it was to big and the chairs with it were rubbish. Withing 30 minutes I was done with peeking around, I found a few things where I was happy with,  a microwave, three dinning plates, six glasses and three mugs, a ironboard with iron, and a table with two chairs. The little things I took right away with me, but the other stuff will be delivered in September.  

A small balcony

I haven't had time for a deserved nap, but alright, the third appointment was with Paula. I informed her about my first and second appointment from this morning, she was happy how it went. Paula looked trough the papers what I have been giving from the housing corporation and saw there was something missing, I still needed some off the numbers from the gasmeter but the ones I needed were missing on the paper. It was the gas and the water what was missing, I need them to ask for a electric utility (Hope I said it right) I need 'Electrabel for energy, and 'Vitens,' for water. both are companies for electric utility. I will have to call the housing corporation tomorrow between 8:00 and 9:00 and ask for the gas and water numbers, (Or is it volume... Horrible explaining, lol) If I have those numbers then I can sign up for a contract with Vitens and Electrabel. Pfffeeww! 

The bathroom and shower.

After all the excitment from signing the contract and getting the keys the worries started a bit, I need money as soon as possible! Even Paula was worried, she called a few times to the company asking where my money is, but they didn't know. They said, call back in the morning. Me and Mellisa (another staff member) will call tomorrow and hopefullywe  will get things started. The first of September I need to get out of the house otherwise I will have to pay double rent, and that will be impossible. Before next Thursday I will have to have the money where I asked for, then I can lay laminate and buy other stuff I need to get me started, for example a matras.It worries me, I need money for not only this week but aswell for the next month. 

The storage room, nice and big.

I will get aswell have to get used to living on my own again, I mean getting used of the paperwork, the bills, my ussurances,do I have to fill this in or fill that in, take care of this, take care of that. Living on my own and taking care of myself like making food and on time to bed is easy, but I have to take care of my paperwork aswell. I think it's time to make another list, a paperwork list, for example who do I have to pay for my water or my energy? Or where comes my intyernet from? Or how much money do I have to pay for my rent? All these things I should write down, only to get used to these things and learn from it. Aswell I have to get things in order for this week, I already have someone who's gonna come with me to pick up the laminate and other stuff, but how we gonna do that? That someone has a real small car. 

I like the big window between the hallway and the kitchen.

Guess it's gonna be a busy week.... It's all gonna be good, I'm sure. I'm ready!

Oh sleep, sweet sleep."

"Oh sleep, sweet sleep."

I think the nerves are getting a bit on me, I'm feeling tired and have a hearting stomach sometimes . Weird though, cause I have the feeling I don't have nerves, I mean I'm not really worried. Things are going well, maybe there are some invisible worries what I'm not aware off. (uhm) Although I wish I had the moving behind me, I guess two more weeks from now. I have taken three naps today cause I felt tired, and I slept quit long. Everytime I woke up I had that weird feeling in my stomach, they felt like cramps. Maybe I have eaten something weird or it's the nerves, or a bit of both.

I know from myself that when I'm worried I don't show it, I mean you can't see it. I'm not shaking my hands or have big eyes or I feel hyper. But inside I feel sometimes the pain, pain on my chest, or extreme tired. But anyway, on with this day. I didn't do much today, mostly resting and looking on the internet for cheap second hand stuff. I messaged some people who had gas stoves or fridges, some responded back but there's no confirming yet. Aswell today I decided to sign up for a internet-connection in my new house, I think they call it providers? I found a nice cheap one, the first 12 month I will pay 18 Euro in the month and after that I will pay 25 Euro in the month, sounds good to me. 

Within five weeks from now I will have internet on my new adress, I will get a (internet) package with a modem, what I have to install myself, (eek!) I will see how that goes. I can't do without internet, in these five weeks without internet, (I guess the first two weeks I will still be at Humanitas, using the internet) I will have to go to the libary if I want to use the internet. It's free there and they have a bunch a computers there, I think twelve atleast. I'm not worried, but only  a bit, (lol) Such a strange weather today, first there was a nice and cold breeze in the morning. The residents complained already cause the weatherforecast forspelled 30 degrees, but it was way to cold for 30 degrees. I was cold aswell, later on they forspelled a thunderstorm and it became warmer and warmer. 


I changed many times my clothes, shorts on, shorts off. While I'm writing the weather is grey and it looks again like a thunderstorm. By the way, speaking about writing, I'm writing on my new laptop, finally! I hear in the background) My old laptop started to become really annoying! It crashed over and over, not fun while I was writing a post. This new laptop is a relief, but I'm not gonna throw the old laptop out though, maybe I will need it again. I surely have no regrets buying this new laptop, I bought it 2 weeks before I got the news that I had a new house. If I would had already the news of the new house I wouldn't have bought the new pc, I'm  actually happy I bought it before the 'good news.' 


Tomorrow a long day ahead, I'm keeping my fingers crossed for the loan.