Waiting for 'that' phone call...

Waiting for 'that' phone call... 

It's 8:34 pm, my cell phone lays next to me, I'm expecting a phone call from my Aunt. I sometimes look at my cell phone like it's a ticking bomb, lol. I don't like it when my Aunt calls, knowing my Aunt she will call me cause she needs my help with Dad's moving, or she wants me to help. It's normal that she calls and that she wants me to help out, ofcource cause it's my Dad. Dad has still some of his belongings in his old room, some of those things he can't bring with him to his new room. That has to go, where? that will be probably my or my Dad's choice. I'm not looking forward to Aunt's call, cause she wants to get control over everyone, specially mine, cause she knows I'm weak and fragile. 

She has hars comments and commands, that's not my style. 8:40 pm, still no call, I'm nuts! If Aunt is going to call of message me I will be calm and straight to the point. When she wants my help I will tell her when, if she doesn't like that, well, then not. Geesh, I wish I could do my Dad's old room all by myself, I would be done in one day. Though my Aunt wouldn't let me. There has to be alot arranged though, the furniture what has to go can go from my part, perhaps to the Family or to me. I think I will take a few items with me, I will see. My Aunt told me that his new room is very small, hmm, I think I will see that upcoming Friday, that's my day off, then I'm available.

Decided over my US trip already? Well, I think I'm getting closer, lol. My doubts or the 'if that' or the 'if this,' or less. A few more fellow workers were telling me today, why not? Just go! That always gives me a boost, makes me wanna go right away, lol. I should go, the only barrier is money now, can I afford it? I think yes, but I really want to be sure. 1300 Euro is alot of money, though I saved money aswell. But with 1300 Euro I'm not there yet, I will need food, gifts for the kids, and perhaps a few extra things like always. So yeah, I really have to be sure I really can afford it. The excitement is growing though... that's a plus point!

8:54 pm, still no call. I think after 9:30 pm she won't call anymore.... Sometimes I think I think to much.

Expecting a call... no one calls!

Expecting a call... no one calls! 

I was expecting my Aunt would call but she didn't, she was expecting a E-mail from me but I couldn't, cause I deleted and blocked her on hotmail. I told my Aunt yesterday that I would ask Dad's nurse an update about Dad's moving. So yeah, Dad's nurse updated me. She told me Dad has moved to room 114, most important things were already moved by my other Uncle, the Uncle dropped all of a sudden by for a visit. He helped out. No update that my Aunt and Uncle helped out, hmm. Dad will get another nurse aswell, Dad's old nurse advised me to have a talk with her, a small introduction. I answered Dad's nurse back by saying that I would like a talk with Dad's new nurse. Further I told in the mail back that I'm able to help out with the rest of the moving on Friday afternoon, oh yes I have a full week, and it's not only work. This could be a stress and busy week, I will just let it all come over me. 

Yesterday I also sent a mail to the contact-person from 'Buddy wanted," I want to quit with that project and I told her why. I asked for other options too, who knows right?  I received a mail back from her, she would like to have a talk with me, I could choose what day. And so I did, I will get a mail back tomorrow, I'm sure. Actually curious what she has to say, lol, oh, and she's good looking, haha, always a nice visit! Kinda strange that my Aunt didn't call today, she asked (demanded) me to help out this week with Dad's moving, I told her that I will see if I have time. probably she will call me tomorrow. I'm ready! Made up my mind to travel to Atlanta already? No! I asked a few fellow workers and some of them told me to just go, you only live once! And some of them think I'm crazy to go. My opinion? I really would love to go! But..... But what? I don't know, lol. Still the, 'What if this and what if that.' The best line I heard today was,"Go without any worry and enjoy." Deciding Saturday!

What's the worst that can happen?

What's the worst that can happen? 

Today Jan messaged me that I was very welcome if or when I decide to visit here in Atlanta, Georgia. That did me good and made my doubts less. Though the amount of money and the huge airport from Atlanta still worries me, lol. Thinking to much of this trip makes the worries only worse, ofcource it's a long journey plus a big adventure. What's the worst that can happen? Well, listen up... 

-I might get lost in that huge airport from Atlanta. (hmm, naah!, You have a mouth you can talk.) 

-Customers might send me back. (Be a 100%  prepaired and they won't)

-Jan doesn't show up with the arrival. (Eek, yeah, worst nightmare!) 

-And further? Money? (Yeah, it's alot of money! See if you can afford it,otherwise next year.) 

This week I will figure out what to do, before upcoming Sunday I will make a decision. This week I will inform more travel stores in my city, there are two travel stores more. I probably could afford the 1300 Euro, but above that price? No! Skipping further vacations this year might help too, plus the money I have saved for this trip last year.  I think I'm ready! 

Surprise, surprise, my Aunt called today. She called before though a few weeks ago, but when I picked up my cell phone and saw her number I putted the cell phone back. This time I saw another number and picked it up, it was my Aunt! She just talked normal to me and asked a few questions, just like nothing has happened. I answered and talked normally aswell, I didn't like talking to her, but for the sake of my Dad I listened. 

My Aunt asked me if I received her e-mail, I told her no. (I blocked her on my Hotmail, she doesn't know) I explained her shortly that it might have something to do with her internet, lol. Aunt informed me about my Dad's moving, (most things I already knew) she had a whole story that they moved most of the important and needed things to Dad's new room. Dad doesn't like the room, it's very small and he shares the room with another elderly guy, according to my Aunt. 

When my Aunt talks you really have to believe half of it, she over reacts and tells only the things she wants to tell. But anyway, Aunt needed my help again, cause Dad needs his other stuff moved. I told her that I'm available on Friday and Saturday, Dad needs to have his old room empty within two weeks. Piece of cake, though most of his stuff he can't take with him, cause his new room is to small. Friday is my day off, then I will have a look at Dad's new room. 

My Aunt told me that Dad is going downhill fast with his health, I knew that already but Aunt over reacts her stories always. I messaged my Dad's nurse today to ask her about my Dad, and his moving. I will get a better answer tomorrow I'm sure. I'm surely not liking it that my Aunt is contacting me again, I liked it much more when she didn't call, freedom! I hope Aunt won't call me daily again, ugh!

Where to travel to...

Where to travel to... 

Traveling these days is expensive, specially when you wanna fly. I'm still searching. I have been to a travel store too today, just asking for information for a flight to the US. US? Yeah, in 2012 I told myself that in 2013 I want to travel by plane again. US, Spain or Ireland are my most favourite places to travel to. I even thought about visiting a friend in the US, a Facebook friend. It's a woman called Jan, she's been a good supporting friend since Saf and I broke up. The awkwardest thing might be that she knew Saf already before I even came in the picture. She's a very nice woman, huge family and live in Atlanta, Georgia. Yep, quit a trip to go there, a huge adventure too. Am I crazy to travel all the way to Georgia? Maybe, but hold on, I haven't even booked yet. Jan always told me that I'm welcome, but now  when it might be the time for a visit, I want to know for sure. I already asked her.... 

The visit to the travel store was good and positive, though it's still a amount of money. A non-stop flight to Atlanta will cost me 1300 Euro if I book it now or this week, if I wait longer the prices might be going up. Though expensiver then 1300 Euro isn't quit what I want, my wallet is refusing aswell, lol. Ofcource I have other options where I can travel to, but let's just wait a little while what Jan has to say. I'm still having doubts to tavel to Atlanta, like I said it's a huge adventure, and it's no around the corner. I always want to be sure of things when I travel, things has to be 150% clear and settled. No obstacles in my way when I travel, specially not on a trip that far. Searching for a trip isn't that easy, otherwise I would have been done by now. 

Let's see if I get answers this coming week from Jan, and let's see if I change my mind or what my thoughts will say. Some other news today was that I had a mail yesterday from the elderly house where my Dad lives, he moved today to another section. I was surprised for sure, cause it went so fast. He has been moved today to another section cause of his Alzheimer disease, Dad was on a waiting list a long time already. Unfortunately I couldn't help out today with the moving, though the elderly house didn't ask me either, kinda awkward actually. Dad's nurse had vacation last week, another nurse informed me about the moving. Upcoming Monday I will inform my Dad's nurse about Dad's moving, I would like to know who helped with the moving. Kinda curious aswell, upcoming Wednesday I will visit Dad. 

 

The 822th post already...

The 822th post already...

Though it's not easy to write every day a piece, but once I start writing, I write constantly. Uhm, well, most of the time. Actually this post what I'm writing now should have been written yesterday, I forgot it again, guess it was to late in the evening. Maybe I should have a certain or permanent time when I write, after dinner is good I think. Or maybe I just should write less, I don't have to write everyday. Once a week, or perhaps once a month is good too. Once a week sounds good, this is the 822th post I think I should write once a week after my 1000th post. Yeah, perfect, deal!

Friday was okay, did a part of my weekly groceries and did one load of laundry. I'm glad Johan from 'Buddy wanted,' didn't show up, he will visit me once in two weeks he told me. From my part he doesn't come at all anymore, yeah I'm done with him. He isn't ANY help. The only thing he does is a bit of positive talk and that's it, he should advice me and help me searching for social contacts or activities. When I signed up for Buddy wanted I signed up for eight months, well, I almost positive I won't sit trough these eight months. I might sign off next week.

It seems I'm the only one who is searching for contacts or activities, just like I did before I signed up with this project. But enough about this project. There was more searching, cause I still don't know where to travel to this Summer. Will it be the US, Spain, Ireland? Or maybe another country, I don't know. I would love to try another travel company. Difficult decision, cause I'm used to 'Effe Weg,' that's the company where I travelled with to London, Berlin and Paris. Today/tomorrow I will visit a travel store here, to let me inform over a trip to the US, just inform.

Nothing much to write today...

Nothing much to write today...

Just a working day, it's still not that busy. I hope more orders or work will come, it keeps us busy. We recently got help from a bunch of other workers, I think I mentioned 'that' before. And the awkwardness about it is that these bunch of workers are coming from Reha, my old job before I joined my 'new' job. These bunch of workers are not in the same building with us, they are in a building next to us. They are helping us with making mats, they do the first stadium of the mat, very simple work. I don't really like it at the moment when these 'new' bunch of workers help us, that way we don't have much to do, specially when there's not much work. 

But anyway, I hope the amount of orders come soon, so we can be busy again. Plans for the weekend? Uhm, not really. Maybe visit my Dad, but I think I will do that during the week. I need to visit my old Doctor aswell soon, I called him yesterday to undo me as a patient, I was still registered as a patient with my old Doctor, but I got a new Doctor here in the city where I live, for a long time already. At my old Doctor I will pick up my dossier and hand it over to my new Doctor. Didn't know it would be that easy, nice. Will have to figure out what to eat during the weekend, yeah, it's really getting a hobby this cooking, I love it during the weekend.

A nice day off...

A nice day off...

The temperature is below zero, day and night. And these temperatures will stay below zero the upcoming days, perhaps weeks. The roads are icy and full of snow, Winter has finally arrived in Holland. I love it, though the cold is rough. Being outside is nice but covering up thick is a must, I think I need new gloves, gloves where you can make a fist inside the glove, how do you call such gloves? Mittens? I think it's called mittens, yes. I haven't been doing that much today, it's what I usually do on a day off, lol. Resting in the morning, take a nap, or maybe two naps. I took one good nap today, the second one didn't succeed. 

I felt for a second nap in the early but couldn't catch my sleep. I went out aswell for a little bit, staying to long in the house makes me lazy. Although the weather was cold, I took my cycle and onthe road I went. I don't mind icy or snowy roads, I'm a excellent cycler, lol. I had to do some groceries, searched for some nice spots to take Winter photo's and had a nice cuppa hot chocolate in a store. After that I went to the free dinner, I have been outside for 2 and a half hours and that's Long enough with being in this cold. I want to go early to bed to be fit for tomorrow's work, rest is good.

It snows!

It snows! 

Finally! It was expected yesterday, and today it came, snow! With amounts it came down today, in a no-time the streets were covered in white, such a nice view from out of the window from work. I didn't even stop snowing today, it continued until late in the evening. Though most of the media in Holland make such a drama about this snow, we had 22 cm of snow (lenght) and the media went wild. Road blocks in traffic, trains were not riding, delays at the airport. I watched many news reports on TV tonight, but everything had to do with this little bit of snow. Yes, it's dangerous on the road, people gotta be careful, elderly people rather stay at home. A fellow worker who always rides with me towards home fell of his bicycle, he wasn't hurt but, damn, it was quit a fall. He's a old man, though he was alright. Other news today is that my Dad is going to another section at the place where he lives now, Dad is living on the second floor, but now he moves to the first floor. 

This first floor is specialized in special occasions when it comes to diseases with elderly, my Dad is going to this section cause he sufferers from Alzheimer. Dad was on a waiting list for this section for almost a year, now it's time, there was a room free. Dad's nurse emailed me and told me that Dad took the (good) news calm. He's used to his room as it is now, he likes his daily things. He doesn't like changes that much. But he has to move, it's better for him, the getting used will take time. The moving is not actually a thing what I'm looking forward to, I might face my Aunt again... I haven't seen her since my Dad's birthday in August, and I haven't spoken to her since September. I told Dad's nurse that I'm not looking forward to Dad's moving and why, Dad's nurse knows about my Aunt and me, I will get a answer from the nurse tomorrow I guess. I'm not worried.

"Cold!"

"Cold!"

Thick sweater on, heater on, and still cold. It's typical Dutch weather, it's all or nothing. I will leave my heater on tonight, it will automatically turn of at 00:30 am anyway. Gotta love central heating in flats, my heater always turns off automatically at 00:30 am. around 5:00 or 6:00 am I can turn the heater on again. It's automatically setted this way, don't know why, but it's fine with me. I don't like it when the heating is on during the night or any other kind of electric machine, or how you call it.

Work was tough, no heavy lifting but just rough work. Making mats with recycled rubber and steal pins. My fingers are still hurting, though I had some laughs aswell, just making funny jokes and noises. I was exhausted after work from the rough work and laughs, lol. Work is not that busy the last few weeks, and upcoming weeks will be un-busy aswell. I hope it will be busy again soon, cause that's what I like. I guess it's normal for the time of year.

Totally forgot!

Totally forgot!

I forgot to write a post yesterday, tsk, tsk, tsk. With so much time on my hands and still forgetting it, lol. Though Sunday was pleasant, the new cooking pan is a huge success. I made risotto, and it was good. Everything in just one pan, chicken breast slices first, then cut up mushrooms and zucchini. Then add some water plus the sauce, and then the rice. Wait until the water is mostly steamed up and tadaaa! Done! Never knew it was that easy, dishes were done in a no-time, I used only a cutting board, knife, spoon, one plate and the new pan, lol. Further this Sunday I didn't do that much. I been on a coffee visit though after my dinner and shower. 

I had a coffee with Ina, Ina is my buddy, can females be buddies? I think she's the only person I can count on and trust as a friend, and that gives a good feeling. We talk alot, and laugh alot. No, I'm not in love and no there won't come a relationship, lol. Just good friends. More of such friends please, I'm still looking and searching. That's though in a city what's nearly dead. Though I might have found something to do during the weekends, there's a little theatre here in the city called Hof 88. They are playing all kinda movies for cheap, there's cabaret, concerts, etc, etc. All that in a small area, I might check it out this coming weekend.

Where to go to....

Where to go to....

I just watch a 50 minute video of a guy filming short little scenes of his trip in Paris, France, it was great! I saw many spots where I have been too, a nice flashback. Watching the video reminded me aswell that my five days in Paris was hectic, we had a full schedule those five days, the days flashed by just like that. Perhaps ten days would have been better instead of five days. The Paris video made me want to travel again, I'm still searching where to go, it's like a maze going trough all the travel sites. I just don't know where to search or where to start. My favorite countries to visit this year with Summer are Ireland, Spain or USA. 

I have been thinking of Canada aswell, exploring Mississauga once again. But the last two countries are expensive to travel too. I want to travel by plane, this year I don't want to travel by bus. I have been traveling three times now with the same company, now it's time for something else. Though, I must say traveling with the same company is more trustworthy, you just know what to expect from them. But this company does only Europe trips, and uses only busses. I think it's a good idea to get informed by a travel store here in my city, we have a few. Some say it's even cheaper to book at a travel store then trough the internet.I will try to book a trip before March. 

The cooking's pan I always wanted, but bought it today.

Nice day today, there was a tiny bit of snow when I woke up. But later today it was gone, it sure wasn't much. This morning I took it easy, later on after my nap and lunch I took off to a second hand store in another village. The village was only 2 km's away from my home, though there's always that hill I have to get over getting there. It was cold but the sun was there aswell, the second hand store was fun, I scored a nice blue jeans for work, only 10 Euro! I still needed to do my last part of my groceries, but first I had to buy a cooking pan, I knew a store where I can buy the pan I needed in the same village. Though the store was closed, sigh. 

I really needed a pan for tomorrow's cooking, tomorrow I will cook risotto, that's why the new cooking pan. I have a few cooking pans, but I needed one with a deeper bottom. I decided to go back to my own city, sigh, that was a pretty rough and far ride, and again over that hill. I was out of breath but it felt good, healthy weather, lol. I scored a nice cooking's pan for again a nice price, I have seen pans for 40 or 60 Euro, the one I bought costed 12 Euro. Did my last grocery after that and went home, then a well deserved nap.

What to do? What to do....

What to do? What to do....

I have written about this subject before, but there's absolutely nothing to do what actually interests me when it comes to volunteer work or any kind of 'thing' what can help me build up 'new' social contacts. Or how you call such a thing? New relatives? I'm still looking for new or other contacts, other people around me, perhaps new friends. But where to start in a city where there's not much to do? Recently I started with searching again, but I had aswell times that I nearly gave it up, or putted the searching in a pause mode. I really don't want to make the 'searching' a obsession, or a 'must!' I MUST find something or otherwise I get lonely or whatever. That's not what I want, that's not the thought that will help me, I might end up somewhere where I don't even want to be, just because I HAD to find something.

Writing about 'this' or thinking about 'this' makes my brain become in a knot, like I'm in a maze, I just can't find a solution then. This 'searching for (new) social contacts' is what I want, but I'm not daily busy with it. Fun in the searching or not get hopeless is a must, if that's not happening, I'll stop searching for a little time, and pick it up later again. 

Tonight I have been searching aswell on the internet, I found a few things but I have doubts. It was something with yoga, badminton, helping children with a handicap, and a few more. I saved the links in my favorites, I will have a look at them again tomorrow. It has to be something what interests me, otherwise it won't work. This morning my 'buddy contact' (counselor) came for a visit aswell. I'm not looking forward to his visits.

I don't know, I just don't like him that much. He should help me with finding social contacts, but he doesn't really come with ideas or tips, or help me searching. He pushed me today to come up with something (social contacts) within two weeks. Johan comes once a week, but today he told me that he will come once in two weeks now. I was glad to hear that, cause his visits aren't that help full, or that's his strategy, that might be the way he works, I don't know. That I have to come up with 'something' within two weeks made me a bit upset, "Help me then?" I thought. But maybe he's right, I only talk alot about finding new social contacts, but I don't take steps, or I don't take action. Well, almost not. I'm sure I will succeed within two weeks! But I'm not happy with the way Johan works.

Colder weather!

Colder weather!

Within a few days the cold Winter days will start, finally, I'm actually looking forward to some snow. The last few days we only had rain, and rain and rain. And it's not even cold, that's not Winter. Today I got pretty wet too, when I got back from the free dinner I got soaked. It's been a nice day at work, worked hard and it felt good. Though 'they' should stop serving cream cake or any kind of cake, lol. Every time when it's some one's birthday there's cake or cookies, we have more then 40 people working in the factory. Only this week I had two times cake, and it look so yummy!

I felt tired after work, I'm looking forward to the three days of. I will take it easy I think, I will surely take it easy with my wallet. December has been an expensive month , I think it's then good to save some money this month. Sure I could still use some things for myself, like a two persons bed, or a few more decorations in my house, or maybe some new clothes. But, 'that' can wait. We get a a few extra free days off from works too, just because it's not that busy, funny that those free days are on a Friday, Friday is actually oficially always my day off, lol!

Resting day...

Resting day...

Wednesday, resting and napping, though I had only one nap. While I'm writing this post in the evening I feel sleepy aswell, it's gonna be a early night for sure. Today was easy, I mean the things I had to do today went easy. The taxes office helped me with the 'changes of my new income of 2013' very smoothly, we were done in not even 10 minutes. I was kinda worried about it, and see, there was nothing to worry about. Right after 'taxes' I went to my pharmacy to pick up my medication, they were laying ready, so no waiting there. I couldn't reach my old Doctor though, I tried many times to call but they put me on hold several times. That's expensive when you have a cellphone, I will call tomorrow or Friday then. 

For the first this this year I went to the 'free dinner' again, it wasn't so busy there. Probably cause of the bad weather, it rained pretty much the whole day today. The video I posted I just watched by accident, I stumbled trough my own made videos, and saw this video aswell. It's an oldie, it's a little movie I made while I was in Canada, it was the summer of 2009. I couldn't watch this video for a long time, it's a 'touching' song, (Saf's favorite song) and the pictures I putted in the video were taken in the summer of 2009. On purpose I didn't put much faces in this video, just (summer) objects. It let's the viewers guess what the video is about or it makes the video more attractive. 

Seeing this video back now, it still hurts a bit, yes, do I miss that time? Uhm yes and no. Yes, because as you can see in the video we really had a good time, and no, because, I can't go back. I'm having my life here now. I changed alot while being back in Holland, stronger and enjoy things more, I travel, got a job, etc, etc. Seeing this video back made me also ask the question, "Could I manage or handle it if I could turn back the time two years from now and start the relationship with Saf over? With  being the person who I am now? Oh yes, easy! Do I want that if it would be possible? Uhm, yes and no, you know turn back time doesn't exist. Time goes forward, so are people, and so do I.

Finally...

Finally... 

That was alot of work writing those extra posts over my trip to Paris, I'm actually glad it's finally done. Back to the normal writing, lol. I had alot to write about, it sure was a big adventure the whole Paris trip. Tomorrow a day off, though I have some things to do. I guess it will go fine, though slightly a bit nerves about it. I'm gonna do the 'taxes changing' tomorrow plus getting my 'new medications.' They are the same medications like the old ones, but just I was out of them. Probably I will call my old Doctor in Nijverdal aswell, I'm still registered there said my new Doctor. 

So let's see if that's right. I don't like phone calls, I hope my phone doesn't dy in the middle of the phone call, lol. Should I charge it just a bit more? naah! Today's work went just a as last Monday, everything went fine. My chest pain is so so, let's say it's not as pain full that I think that I really need to see my Doctor. Let's see how it goes until next week, when I don't think about my chest pain the pain is less, probably a hint. They for spelled rain tomorrow aswell, me don't like that. In the weekend we get colder weather, I hope we get some snow too.

Let the Monday begin...

Let the Monday begin...

Today's work went better then last Friday, still a bit of a chest pain but it felt better to work with it. I was kinda worried that I would get more pain during work, but no. Though it's a strange thing, if it is worries or stress, why does it go badder then? I have to release the stress, but I can't think of a thing what would stress me. Yeah, I worry so now and then, but to say I have stress? No, or maybe un-known. Time will tell, that's what I always tell myself, "Time will tell." Worry less, and continue with what your doing. I'm happy I have work, I notice that I talk alot more then I used to did. I noticed this when I got back from Paris.

I feel comfy with the talking, I guess the Paris trip did me good. I wasn't quiet either with the trip, I even searched for passengers to talk with, it went so easy. Yeah, work was good today. We did alot and got much done. I like when my team leader comes to me and tells me what to do and I get it right away, just a "Okay," and I do what I have to do. I wonder what this year wil bring me, I started searching for a flying trip. But nothing found yet, I have no clue where I wanna fly too, flying is expensiver then with a bus. Oh, I will see. This month or next month I will make a decision.

Trip to Paris - day 5. 

I slept well, I went to bed early last night. The bus returned at 8:00/8:15 pm last night, I went straight to my room and finished packing my suitcase. It wasn't that much work, most of it wasn't even un-packed. I took out what I needed and putted it back when used. After packing I put everything ready for tomorrow's last day,  phone alarm 6:00 am, medication, etc, etc.  I went to bed at 8:45 pm, at 6:00 am I got up and 30 minutes later I went to get breakfast. I was ready to go home, it's been a adventure the last four days. I made a huge breakfast, including lunch aswell, it's free and it's handy while I'm in the bus traveling home. I was almost first with breakfast, when I had my serving plate full of what I needed more passengers were coming. Wow, it seemed everyone came down, the little restaurant was packed. Our group is a mix of almost any age, I could get along with almost everyone. Nice people, though there are always some people who are not that open, and like to be more on their own, that's alright, I respect that. I ated my breakfast and grabbed my ready made lunch and went to my room. My suitcase was already packed. 

At the Eiffel Tower, early in the morning.

I grabbed my last things and went downstairs once again, I checked right away out at the hotel lobby. After that I went outside with my bag and suitcase and waited for our bus driver, more passengers were coming with me.My suitcase was packed and I searched for a decent seat in the back of the bus, the back in the bus is my favorite place, long legs, well, you know. But the back seats were already taken, I sat almost for five days in the back, and now all of a sudden the seats were taken. Some friends wanted to sit with each other and they were just a bit not that polite, but oh well. I complained just a bit, but understood 'them' aswell, I didn't wanna argue, these guys were nice people all the way trough this trip. As long as I can stretch my legs every seat is fine, I choose to sit somewhere else where I could stretch my legs. All was good. The bus took of for one last adventure, "The Eiffel Tower." Eek, I'm gonna do it! It was early, (7:30 am) the bus driver told us that the morning traffic would be very busy this morning.

Cause it's just a normal regular working day again for Paris, France. The Eiffel will go open at 9:30 am, And guess what? We were way to early, the bus driver was surprised aswell. We got out of the bus and the Eiffel was huge, wow, I never been that close! I thought, "Should I really even go up there?" Yes, I will, I promised! There was already a little line, I stood with some other passengers in that line and waited. 70 minutes to go, then the gates will open. It was cold, must have been the early dawn. Though the time past well quickly, the sun came up aswell, nice. I looked several times up to the Eiffel Tower, it's so frigging high. I already deiced while looking up the Tower that I won't go to the third stage, that's the highest. the second stage is aswell just a bit to high for me, the first stage is perfect. Yep, first stage is good. 9:30 am, the gates went open and my nerves began. We were in a no-time inside, the way to the lift took a bit long, but once in the lift everything went fast. We had to buy our own tickets though.... 

Here we go!

Third stage costed 14 Euro, second and (I think) first stage costed 8 Euro en 50 Euro cent.8 Euro en 50 Euro cent is perfect, I had to take care of my money aswell after the 'New Years taxi!' Damn! Anyway, the lift went up and there we went. Damn, the lift went straight to the second stage, there wasn't even a first stage, ugh! Though the elevator I could see how high we went, and that wasn't a pleasant vieuw. I just wanted to get out as soon as possible, just to get it over with. The doors of the lift went open and there I was, second stage. Being on the second stage wasn't that scary as being in the lift, but don't look down. I never knew there was so much space to walk on the second stage, there's asfalt on the ground, in the middle are shops, bathrooms and litlle rest areas. I surely didn't look down and didn't come to close to the edge, though it looked solid. After taking some pictures and talking to a couple of passengers it was time to go down again, our bus will leave at 11:00 am. It was a bit of a awkward feeling going home again, kinda looking forward to it aswell. 

Once out of the lift I was happy I stood on the ground again, but happy aswell that I did it, oh yeah! Our journey back to Holland had a bit of a difficult start, lol. Some of the passengers were doing awkward and difficult over their seats, sigh. Most of our passengers do have (automaticly) their own seats during the last four days, (I had too, lol) This morning was a bit different as you noticed, I had to pick another seat too. When we went in the bus after the Eiffel Tower visit it all started again, some passengers had to changed seats again, cause some 'other' passengers decided to sit somewhere else. The passengers who had to 'changed seats' got shouted at by other passengers who were actually sitting there. Our bus is full, when you sit down as we take of, then that's actually automaticly 'your' seat. The argue began and it escalated, there wasn't a solution it seemed, not even after twenty minutes. Though it were all words, no violence. The bus driver had enough and ordered everyone to get out of the bus. 

Everyone out of the bus!!

While everyone stood outside our bus driver told everyone to get in the bus again when he told us to, we had to get in the bus two by two, or actually couple by couple. Fair enough, though I was alone, so I could pick a seat last. Sigh, ofcource my second seat from this morning would be already taken, I didn't even look for it. Some other passengers told me that I could sit here, so I did, nice of them. I t was a nice seat, and I could stretch my legs. I sat next to a guy who wasn't that much of a talker, he was reading his e-reader and took so now and then a nap. I knew that it would be a long journey, so I tried to have a nap too, or just close my eyes, it makes the journey much more shorter. We stopped two times on our way back, for a wee wee or a snack. Just before 6:00 pm we arrived in the south of Holland, we were going to have a sort of 'goodby dinner,' just like last year. We stopped at a place called, uhm, I forgot where it was, but I knew it was in the south of Holland. More then three hours still away from Almelo, my city. Where our bus stopped, more other busses came back from their trip. It's a meeting point from all busses from the company where I travelled with. 

All the six busses who took of to several countries five days ago returned. Dinner was nice, the restaurant was packed with lots of passengers. All passengers from the other busses sat here, nice, flashback from last year. The food was food and alot, I sat next to a very nice lady who was sweet and talkable, she was with her girlfriend. It was a nice talk, awkward was that she was also part of our group who traveled to Paris, though I couldn't remember I saw her. At 8:00 pm it was time to head to another bus, before dinner every passenger has got a number of a bus where they have to go to, if they wanna go to home, lol. I had bus number 11, this was the same bus was going to the middle and east of Holland, I live in the east. It took a while to get in bus number 11, cause we had to get our suitcases first from our first bus, the bus what took us to Paris. I wasn't expecting to be early at home, though I wished it. But as usual with this company, something will happen and I will be much later home. And yes, I almost thought, "Hey, I'm nice one time, this time." 

But no, the bus driver drove past my home  and drove first to another city. A so called detour, sigh! More passengers weren't happy with this. But ah! At 00:20 am I was home, instead of 23:00 pm. I went on the computer, downloaded my Paris pictures before I went to bed, lol. I couldn't wait. This whole trip got me exhausted and tired, I really needed to have a few days rest. This trip to Paris was a busy one, but I wouldn't wanna have missed it in the world. Paris is nice, the group where I travelled with was maybe the best group where I travelled with. Yeah, a nice trip, a real adventure!

Living healhty but where to start and when...

Living healthy but where to start and when... 

I have been searching a bit to find out what's going on with my chest pain, I didn't even want to cause the internet makes it mostly worse then it is. I looked for five minutes and what I saw satisfied me. When I have to sneeze there's a little stabbing pain going trough my chest. It turns out that that's my chest muscle being silly. I red that on a forum, I googled sneezing/stabbing/chest/pain and found the forum, lol. What I red satisfied me enough to stop searching further. I probably have to move more, perhaps a little more stretching in the morning or during the day. During work I work sometimes a bit hard, heavy lifting or a awkward holding while working isn't that healthy. It could also be stress, it makes the muscles more tight up.

Stress? Stress from what? It's easy to worry for me, small things is where it starts with. Sometimes things where I don't even have to worry about. Then when I think about it more  the nerves begin. I have to loosen those little worries, that ofcource is easier said then done. Last week I thought that it would be easier to get used to those worries, it's just a part of me, it's in me. I can't get rid of it just like that. Once I get used to those thoughts and worries, it might be going easier then to live with it or perhaps even get rid of it. Perhaps the worries or stress will vanish then. Living healthy might help too, eat healthier work healthier, etc, etc. Let's see how my chest is holding this week.

As you know I don't do that much on Sunday's, so, yeah, today was the same. Resting and enjoying my staying inside. One load of laundry, a shower, and preparing a dinner is all I did today. This week I will have to do some important things, my Doctor told me two weeks ago that I'm still registered with my old Doctor. He could see that in his computer, so this week I will have to call my old Doctor and tell him that he has to un-register me as a patient. Aswell since I have a permanent working contract I will have to visit the taxes office and Gak, Gak is a welfare company who gives me half of my whole income, the other half I get from my Boss. 

My handicap is that I can only work for three days in the week,that's why I have welfare. Gak has to know that I earn a little bit more now that I have a permanent contract, Gak will lessen their half income, just so I get the right minimum wage. Taxes has to know too that I earn a bit more now, every time my income changes, taxes has to know, that's the law. I have a little income from taxes aswell, that's why. I have 'housing and health benefit' from taxes. Enough to do this week, I will be sure to take it easy aswell, I promises.

Trip to Paris - day 4. 

What a day yesterday, my clothes were still wet when I got up this morning. 9:00 am I got up, my shoes were the worst, wet and dirty. I planned not to do anything today, I felt exhausted and tired last night. It's better for me to have a good long rest, I need it. At 9:30 am I went down for breakfast, it wasn't even busy in the tiny little restaurant. I think I was the  first one of our group. I was surprised I was that hungry, I never ated that much as this morning. Four sandwiches, a yogurt and a cup of orange juice. More people of our group came down for breakfast, aswell a couple where I was with last night. She was one of the girls who was wearing high heels, they both asked me how I got to the hotel, and I asked them the same. There were laughs and there was lots to tell, they were aswell tired and told they got a taxi last night just as me and the 'deaf' couple took off. "It was a horror night," the guy told me. And we knew both that we had to split up anyway, cause with seven people in one taxi is not possible. 

They are nice people, and fun to talk with. Funny aswell that I didn't spoke to them earlier when I saw them, "Not my type of people," I thought. I asked them if they are gonna stay inside and do nothing aswell, they told me that they will go out today and join the activity, "We payed for it, lol," I payed for it aswell, but I didn't care last night, I was so tired. But, after this morning breakfast I decided to go anyway, I feel okay. And it's only a short afternoon. Early to bed tonight!!  More people of our group were asking how I got to the hotel last night, gosh, it's the talk of the day it seemed. In the end we all could laugh about it, sure it was horror, but hey, it was a adventure aswell. At 12:00 the bus took of again, with me in it, the couple where I spoke with this morning, and the 'deaf' couple! Wow, surprise. I felt okay, I was tired but it went, just taking it easy this afternoon, I thought. On our way we dropped of some people who wanted to do other things then today's activities. The rest of us went to 'Mont Parnasse.' 

The Mont Parnasse!

Vieuw from the Mont Parnasse.

That's a huge skyscraper where you can have a panorama view over whole Paris. There was a long line waiting for us when we got out of the bus, there was a cold streaming wind aswell. I could feel slowly the less hours of sleep from last night plus last nights adventure coming in, I tried to take it easy as much as possible. We stood in line for more then a hour in the cold and hard wind, once when it was our time to get in everything went pretty fast, show the ticket, in the elevator, elevator up, and there we were on the 56th floor. What a amazing view, it reminded me of the CN tower in Canada. Ofcource I took several photo's, though we couldn't stay long cause our other activity was waiting. Our second 'City walk,' waited for us, it was the same guide where I sneaked out with a couple of days ago, wonder if she recognize me and dislike me, lol. But I guess she didn't the 'City walk,' was nice but in the end to long, the tiredness kicked in of all of us. The 'walk' was to long, the tour guide stopped several times by a monument of other object to do her story, for us it was resting time, lol.

Our little group walking the city walk.

Beautifull scenery!

Finally after three hours walking the 'tour' ended, there was one little nice gesture our guide offered me. On the first day of our trip I bought some cards to send to people I know, yesterday it was my luck that I finally found a tobacco shop where I finally could buy some stamps, sigh! Now I only had to post them, but a mailbox was no where to find in Paris, I thought, maybe the 'guide' could help me out. I asked her after our walk, her response? "I will take care of that, no worries." I didn't even ask her to post it, that was really nice of her. wow! I thanked her two times I think. Next activity was a calm one, dinner! This activity costed 20 Euro, just like every other extra activity where I had to pay for. Dinner was good, tastefull and cozy. This cheap restaurant had even a piano player, lol, one of the waitresses sat all of a sudden down behind the piano and started playing. after dinner back to the hotel for a long, long rest. I started with packing already, it wasn't that much. The only things I left out were the things I needed in the morning.

Writing, writing, writing

 Writing, writing, writing.

It's quiet a work to write these 'paris trip posts,' while being in Paris I had a little note book, and wrote all of my daily adventures down. Sometimes some passengers saw me and told me, "Are you writing everything down?" I told them, "Yes, just a little diary." Every time I had a little time over I wrote, mostly in the bus, or I just sat down somewhere on a bench outside. Once I got back in Holland I write them over in this blog. Alright, on with this day, well, not much to say actually. Resting and staying inside the house, around 4:00 pm I went for a quick groceries shopping. The store here is walking distance.

When I got back from Paris a 'friend' of mine wanted to drop by for a coffee, we planned it on a Saturday. It was Janine, I didn't ask her, she wanted to drop by for a coffee. And yeah, she cancelled it again. I lost count with Janine's changelings, and you know what? It doesn't bother me at all, the trip to Paris did me good and made me think aswell. The time before I went to Paris I was kinda addicted to have or get friends, no matter what kind it seemed. I was probably thinking, "The so called 'friends' are the only ones I have, I really have to do my best to stick with them, no matter what." 

While enjoyning my Paris trip I thought to myself, "What on earth was I thinking?" Why did I overwhelm myself with this silly addiction? If these so called 'friends' need me they will come, let them. If they wanna visit, fine, if not, fine aswell. It's not that important for me anymore. I did sometimes silly things just to hold on to those so called 'friends,' it's a relief now I feel or think that 'that' is not important anymore. It's time aswell to get some new contacts, but everything on time. Perhaps my 'Buddy wanted' contact Johan was right, 'First be happy with doing things on your own, first you need to get that feeling of that it's really okay being alone."

Busy week ahead, I had my rest hopefully, let's see how it goes at work upcoming Monday. The pain on my chest is still there, though it comes and goes. When I worry about it, it goes worse, ofcource. If the pain still bugs me then upcoming Friday I will see my Doctor. Tomorrow one more day of rest, ofcource Sunday is always my resting day. Janine canchelled yesterday's coffee visit, but wanted to call me later in the evening aswell, what she didn't do. She told me aswell that she wanted to do the coffee visit tomorrow.... yeah,yeah! Wi'll see, like I said before, if they wanna visit, fine, if not, fine aswell. Really.


Trip to Paris - Day 3. 

Day 3 already, time flies here in Paris. This is going to be a long post, I think the longest post I ever written. Soon it will be 2013! You know, being here I sometimes ask myself what day it is. It's so confusing having not my daily things or my daily rhythm, I think that makes it so confusing. Anyway, today the planning was a city tour with the bus at 12:00 noon, after that a city walk, then at 6:00 pm back to the hotel for a few hours rest, and then at 9:00 pm we will leave the hotel for celebrating New Years in the centre of the city. At 2:00 am our bus will take us back to the hotel, looooong day. What I noticed the last three days that the day activities can always change during the days, or takes longer then they usually should. I didn't feel much for the 'bus city tour,' Hmm I perhaps rather go for a walk in the centre again, I don't know, doubts! I still feel a bit of a chest pain and stomach pain, I felt a tiny bit better when I got up this morning. But after my breakfast the pain returned, I hope it's not the thyroid. 

The beautiful Arc!

Could it be nerves or stress? But why nerves or stress? I'm in Paris having a holiday, there's nothing to be stressed or nervous about. I had breakfast, had my rest afterwards, and at 11:30 I went downstairs for the start of the day. I always make my lunch while having breakfast in our hotel, it's easy and cheaper ofcource. Plus, there's enough to grab. At 12:00 we all hopped in the bus and took off, the 'bus city tour' has started. The bus will take us first to "La Defence," a huge area full of skyscrapers, monuments and shops. Our bus driver told us that you can compare La Defence with Manhattan. The bus stopped for a hour, so we could explore this lovely area. What a amazing place that was, the skyscrapers were huge, I took several pictures, I loved it! After La Defence the bus took of to the centre of Paris, while on our way we passed several sight seeings and our bus driver told stories about them. Though, I wished he would stop sometimes, so I could take pictures. But that's sometimes not to do, cause of the busy traffic here. 

Huge skyscrapers at the La Defence.

I have been thinking this morning that I would rather go for a walk in the city, but naah, I decided to stay in the bus. I didn't wanna miss La Defence either, lol. On our way we stopped a few times to let passengers out, so that they could do other things. Everyone is free to do what they want, you can be a part of the activities or you can go out by yourself. The tour ended in a huge underground parking lot in the middle of the centre of Paris, wow! This parking lot was huge, Though I think this parking lot is only for tour busses, cause that's the only vehicles I saw. Hundred busses were parked here, amazing to see. Above this parking lot there's a huge shopping mall, there we could spend several hours. At 6:30 pm our bus will pick us up at the same meeting point as yesterday, 'Cource de la Reine.' I sure knew now where that was! The shopping mall was nice and crowded, though I didn't stay long. I grabbed a coffee at Starbucks, (yay, Starbucks) I ordered a hazelnut flavoured coffee, large one. Ordering there was fun...

Starbucks, yay!!

Behind the desk are three people, one takes your order, the other one let you pay for it and the last one serves you. Funny was that in the end I had my hazelnut in a cup with my name on it, "John." LOL! I left then the mall, cause I had other plans, I still had three hours to enjoy myself. Three hours is more then enough, I was in a no-time out of the mall, the Starbucks coffee gave me a boost. Being outside felt so much better, the mall was to crowded with shopping people.As I was walking I saw several nice things, I came so close to the Eiffel Tower aswell, but didn't went there. It still was a bit to far, so the closeness to the Eiffel seemed to trick my eyes. I could feel my legs and I still had to eat aswell, time sure flies while your in Paris. And in the back of my head I thought, "I have to save some energy for tonight's New Years eve too." While I was searching for food I saw only expensive restaurants and brasseries, I walked towards our bus meeting point and searched further. I saw food stands and markets with food as I walked further. 

Oh the Eiffel was so close by this day.

I crossed the Seine and saw more food stands and markets with food, there was a long street with typical Christmas stands. This whole street was covered with Christmas decorations and lots of people. I dashed trough the crowd and it was actually quit a nice area, I saw food stands aswell. I ordered a Donner kebab at the first stand, oh fattening stuff! On my next coming trip I really, really, really want only healthy food and healthy living. This Donner kebab was filled with onions, shoarma, peppers and some french fries. I was stuffed afterwards, I didn't ordered the 'kebab' with sauce, but maybe I should have to just get it down easier. I felt cramps coming as I was walking towards our bus meeting point. Poor stomach needs a vacation too, lol. When I arrived I sat down at the park near by the meeting point, it was dark and in the back ground I still could see the Christmas market. I was nice on time, I still had thirty minutes. The bus came a bit earlier then expected and I went in and sat down, more passengers came aswell. 

The huge tourist boats, waiting for passengers.

The bus waited until 6:30 pm and took of to our hotel. I still didn't realize that much that it's the last day of the year, it's so awkward such days while your traveling between Christmas and New Year's. Again I had to ask myself what day it actually is. At the hotel we could have a rest until 9:00 pm, it was just a few minutes past 7:00 pm. Perfect! I rested and tried to sleep but I guess I was a bit excited to have a little nap, the rest was good. At 9:00 pm we took off once again to the 'centre,' this time the bus parked near the Arc de Triumph.' I thought, "That's a long walk towards the Eiffel Tower," cause that was my plan to go to, or near the Eiffel Tower. I would love to see the countdown to a new year ofcource, I already had a plan I went in the bus. I will stay with a few people of our passengers group, I already had a few people in mind. There were two things I really wanted this evening, see the countdown for the new year, and be on time back at the bus. I had already flashbacks from last New Year's fest in London. 

On our way to the Eiffel, it's almost New Year.

It sure will be crowded and you really have to be back on time at the bus. The couple I had in mind to stay with this evening were a little anxious aswell for the fest. They are a nice couple, I already talked to them several times. So all good! As we got out of the bus I couldn't find the 'couple' I had in mind, they disappeared just like that, and so fast. I thought already where they were, what happened? I searched for a bit but couldn't find them, I decided to find another few people of our passengers group, and even that was hard to find. I could aswell go on my own, and stay near the bus. Or try to. But I found a bunch of people, in the end we were with seven of us. They were, a Sister and his younger Brother and two couples, both young at age. One of the couples were having a handicap, they were both deaf and used mostly hand signals, or how you call it. This deaf couple I tried to talk to before in the bus, that went pretty well, there nice and so not used to such fest I noticed. It started to rain and we decided we all take the subway to the Eiffel Tower, it was all fine with me, "Stick with them," I thought. 

Ready for the countdown!

Hey, I'm in Paris on New Year's, I'm going to have a great time, enjoy! The Sister of the young Brother guided us trough the subway, she knew a bit of Paris and aswell of the French subways. She warned us to stick together once we were in the train, people seem to push and pull alot here. Beware of rude people, it gave me already then a bit of anxious feeling. But either way, fun being here was the main thing. Once we got out of the subway station I was glad I didn't had to walk the whole piece, I noticed aswell while walking to the 'Eiffel' that most of the crowd during this evening aren't so nice. Beggars, thief's, being rude and loud, I surely didn't trust some of these people, I was on my hood. I felt sorry for the 'deaf couple' aswell, they sure weren't use to this, I stick with them to give them a safe feeling. Once we arrived at the Eiffel we found a place where we could hide for the rain, looking at the huge crowd of people it reminded me of last year with New Year, London was crowded aswell but friendlier. That should have been my warning to stay a bit closer to our bus, just like I did last year. 

It rained, and the place was packed with people.

I must say, I never been so close to the 'Eiffel' before, it's really huge, and a beautiful construction. Our little group of seven stayed together tight, the amount of people at the 'Eiffel' was enormous! It was easy to get lost or loose a member of one of our group. And the rain didn't stop, it went on and on. I bought something to drink aswell, a hot chocolate to stay warm. Then just before 12:00 I grabbed my camera and started filming, I didn't care about the rain. It sure was a happening to be here! At 12:00 the Eiffel lighted up and the whole crowd was cheering and clapping, and that was actually it. No fireworks and no light shows. We decided to go back to the subway to get ahead of this enormous crowd, but we weren't the only one who had the same idea. 10:000 people or even more turned around and went everywhere, most of them straight to the subway. I saw even parents with their kids. The adventure began, we tried to get to the subway station and we succeeded, but don't ask how. Some people were pushing, yelling, and were violent. 

Happy New Year!!

There was even a fight just before the subway station. We managed to get to the spot where the train would stop, oh man, it was crowded with yelling people, mostly youngsters. The train came but was packed with people, so the train drove on. More trains passed us packed with people, and more people came waiting for a train. We decided to turn around and walk to the next subway station, and 'that' wasn't even easy. It was a struggle to get out of this station but we got out, pffeeww! I was getting pretty wet because of the rain, but we went on to the next subway station. Two girls from our group were wearing high heels, ugh, ofcource there feet began to hurt after a hour walking. They slowed down, and with them a few others. Me and the 'deaf' couple were walking a bit ahead, cause we thought we might get on time for the bus. But it was already late, it was 1:45 am. I was pretty sure that we wouldn't make it on time, the distance was just to far. Arrived at the next subway station we saw the same thing, a crowd of people, yelling and shouting. We had to find another option, a taxi was my idea.. 

Subway station, packed with people.

Or trying to get on time at our bus, perhaps the bus driver was waiting for us. The two girls with the high heals couldn't walk anymore, they stopped at a taxi stand and just waited for a taxi who hopefully showed up. But that wasn't easy, ofcource there were hundred of taxi's, but none stopped for us. Our group splitted up, I was with the 'deaf' couple, they still tried to be on time for the bus, I figured that I couldn't leave them on their own. The others were hiding for the rain under a taxi stand, hoping and praying for a taxi. Me and the deaf couple went to the Arc de Triumph, the place where our bus still will be, we hoped. It was already way passed 2:00 am, we even called our bus driver a few times, but he told us that he won't pick us up. Awkward and rude? Awkward yes, but not rude, I guess the bus driver has been there before. We arrived at the 'Arc,' it was 2:45, we were wet until our undies, no bus ofcource. I felt sorry for the deaf couple, they can't hear me, and they can talk yes, but not clearly. We were lost what to do, we stand in the rain waiting for taxi's, but none stopped. 

Look at that crowd!

Yes, one stopped but it took to long for the taxi driver. We had to explain where we wanted to go, but it was hard to find the adres of the hotel. The deaf girl had the adres in her purse, but was to late to hand it over to the taxi driver, he took of. Sigh! We stood in the rain for more then 90 minutes, the deaf guy wanted to walk to the hotel, but that's way to far. I started to feel lost aswell, the taxi's just didn't stop, I just had to trust on my luck that I sometimes have, but, sigh! The deaf girl came quit often to me for asking for options, the deaf guy didn't like that in the end and told her, that he was here also. I really had to do with these two people, this whole New Years night was such a huge test on their relationship. It almost looked like a romantic movie. Finally, out of no where a car stopped and the driver opened his window, "Taxi?" he yelled! We all said, "Yes!" It was just a car, no taxi, this was just a bit suspicious. I didn't trust it at first. The deaf girl tried to grab as fast as she can for the adres where we wanted to go to, the so called taxi driver was patient. 

Clothes hanging to dry.

He showed us the price we had to pay, "100 Euro!" He told us with a loud voice, "It's not 10 Euro, it's 100, you see?" He yelled. Later on he told us 150 Euro, cause he didn't know we were with the three of us. It was all fine with us, bummer for the 50 Euro each but we were lost, cold and soaking wet, and tired. As we sat in the taxi a breath of relief followed, the taxi was warm and the chairs were comfy. The taxi driver was nervous but patient aswell, though I didn't trust him the whole ride. Finally he putted the right adres in his navigation system and we took of in the way to busy traffic headed to our hotel, I hoped. I could tell the driver was a bit hyper, I was thinking the whole way that he all of a sudden could get fed up with all of it and throw us out. I was calm and quiet, being friendly and give short answers might help was my strategy. The taxi driver kept asking as a few times if I loved Paris, I answered him many times with yes. He asked me aswell where I came from, I told him Holland, then he started about Amsterdam. The deaf couple was quiet, ofcource, they can't hear. 

Ah! Bed, I missed you!!

I explained shortly to the driver that the couple in the back was deaf, he responded short with a "Ah." Finally we were getting closer to the hotel, with here and there a few miss leading roads we arrived at the hotel. What a relief, and here I was not trusting this driver, I thought the baddest things about him, he could easily pull a gun or rob us when we arrive at the hotel or somewhere else. "Your are our hero," the deaf people try to shout out, I thanked him an shook hands. We got out of the taxi and hugged each other, the deaf couple and me, we been trough this night trough thick and thin. It was already 4:30 am, and I had already a plan for tomorrow, nothing! I'm gonna do nothing tomorrow, I thought, staying inside and not do any activity. I was tired and soaked to the bone, I hanged my wet clothes to dry in the shower/bathroom and pulled a extra blanket out. Nice and warm. I slept in five minutes.