Ups and downs...
This morning I felt awful, I really needed a little talk with Saf, (yes, again) cause I don't like her behaviour towards me lately. She's short in answer, ignores me, and sometimes yells at me. Or is it my imagination, I don't know. Either way, I got to see if I can find some time with her for a little short talk. Silly me! I know we broke up but I think we both can try to act normal, right? I feel pressure, because of the things I still have to do. I need to book a flight, pack my stuff, and I need to find a place to stay when I arrive in Holland. Like I said yesterday, I posted a few items on Kijiji and Craigslist, with success, cause I had so many responses, specially on the speakers.
The people who responded on the speakers asked alot of questions, but all I wanted is that people just bought the damn speakers. (LOL) Most people want to know what model they were and if there in a good condition. I had one guy who came and had a look at them, very nice guy but he didn't bought them. He wanted to hear them but that wasn't possible. I didn't have a receiver. Still I get responses and get the same questions. The pressure of getting money together was getting to much this morning, I went upstairs and downstairs again. Once I went upstairs and I actually cried a bit. The pressure of getting not the money together and the thought of "I need a talk with someone" was getting to much.
For the (I think) two hundred and third time I tried to call my friend in Holland. This time I called the place where he usually eats his dinner and a worker there answered the phone and told me "Call back in a hour then he will be here." And so I did and Finally, there he was. It was good to hear his voice, and he apologized for the missed phone-calls when I tried to phone him. He had some slightly good news, he told me he will get in contact with the 'group' where he usually is and lives, and talk to them about my situation.
*My friend lives on his own but is in contact with a group called 'Aveleijn', they help you on your way if you want to live on your own, and you have a problem or disability*
My friend will aswell get in contact with my Uncle and Aunt, he will call them and tell them about 'Aveleijn'. It's all good. I didn't had a chance to talk to Saf today, but she was in a good mood, and was slightly friendly. I thought, "Okay, never mind," but if she's acting cold again, then I will tell her. Today when she came back from Mississauga (to pick up some of her daughters) she listened to me and responded, when I talked about selling my stuff and the contact with my friend. It felt good, and made me happy. This is the way I want it, for everyone to be nice and friendly, cause It's better for everyone. Four more day until Christmas.
