Spring is still struggling.
Tonight we will get some freezing temperatures, Saturday will be warmer but just not warm enough to be Spring. This morning I went out with a thinner coat, but I could have used my Winter jacket. It was a pretty cold wind, just like yesterday. I went out this morning for a blood test and to do a part of my groceries. Blood test went fine, only when the nurse comes with the needle .......... lol! I always look away and ask myself if the needle will hurt a bit or not. I always feel it, but sometimes it just hurts a bit more then other times. This morning went okay with the needle, lol. I will get my blood results next week. Just wanted to know how it is with my thyroid. Last time my results were very good.
Today was a day I started with cleaning and organizing my villa, this week I had the feeling that it's a mess there, lol. Probably it wasn't but I guess we all have sometimes that feeling, don't we? Cleaned a few windows and organized a few rooms, it sure gives a good feeling afterwards. Tomorrow will be a nice day, the weather will be good, sun and dry. I will be off to my Dad's village, just spending a little afternoon there. I will buy some plants for my Dad's grave and afterwards will enjoy myself in Nijverdal. (Dad's village) So now and then I think of my Dad, it realizes me then that his passing went all so fast. I'm still feel relaxed and calm about my Dad's passing, looking forward to visit Dad's grave.
I was worried about the grieving and me being sad after my Dad's passing. But I must say, I feel okay and calm, it';s kinda awkward to feel this way. It makes me think, 'what's going on? Why am I not tearing apart or be extreme sad?" I'm not complaining though, it just feel sometimes awkward when I think of it. Maybe it's my Dad himself making me not grieve or feel sad, he was always asking me if I was alright and if I was able to take care of myself. Just a worried Dad worrying about his Son, nothing wrong with Dad, I feel safe, and I'm not scared. He's up there, together with Mom, guiding over me. Probably that's why I'm feeling so relaxed and calm, I love you Mom and Dad.
