"I want to ride my bicycle, I want to ride my bike."
I waited and thought to myself, "If I make the money over, it might be that they don't even bring the couch or worser I don't even get the couch." I emailed them back saying that I will think about it, and will let them know tomorrow afternoon, I have a appointment with Paula tomorrow and I will show her the email. It would be easier to pay the couch sellers by the delivery, right? It was time to get started with my full day, first I took my lunch and afterwards I went. First I had to mail a letter, it had to do with with my income, sigh! The mail will solve my little income problem. Second I went to my Doctor to ask if I can have a paper to do bloodwork for my thyroid, it has been three weeks already after I did my first bloodwork. Upcomming Friday I will get the needle at the Hospital. I was happy the Doctor was there, cause it could have been he was still on vacation, but he was back.
After the Doctor visit the trip went further, I wanted to visit my Dad, on the bike cause the weather was good and I would like to save money, so no train but bicycle. I had the wind against me, read, not in the back but in the front. But it went okay, I was half way and I even thought of 'why not go to my Aunt and Uncle aswell'? I thought I knew a shorther cut but failed big time, sweating and out of breath I ended up at my Aunt and Uncle. It's been a while since I saw them, they helped me alot while being in Canada and comming back from Canada to Holland. My Aunt opened the door and stared for 5 seconds and said, "Hey! It's the lost Son! Come on in! I noticed first that my Aunt and Uncle are getting older, I noticed the looks, there getting pale and thin. We talked alot about my new house and ofcource my Dad, "Dad is getting older," said my Uncle.
I knew this already but, my Uncle said that he's really getting older. Has difficculties with walking and moving,and if he tries to walk he can't walk straight. If he's sitting he has it difficult to get up again, he tries and tries many times, after trying 8 or 10 times he succeeds. Dad is getting difficult aswell in his behaviour, he's becomming rough and violent sometimes in his words. I know my Dad, he has a really good and small heart, in his youth he was rough aswell but with a very small heart. My Dad is the type of guy that would cry with a episode of Ophra Winfrey. My aunt talked further about my new house,she told me tobe carefull with my money. "It doesn't have to be all new and you don't have to buy everything, just start low with less furniture or other items,and then perhaps in a month you can buy more," my Aunt told me. She is right.
If I have a look in my room now I see a desk and chair and a bed plus closet, and with that I took care of myself for more then 6 months, so why not then when I have the new living? It was time to move on to my Dad, another long bike ride. I felt a bit exhausted but felt further okay. When I arrived at my Dad's place he was sitting outside as expected, I had two reasons why I wanted to visit my Dad today, congrate him with his 73th Birthday and (sigh!) asking him for a sum of money, wich I hate to ask but I really have to cause I'm helpless. I congrated him and he was happy to see me, and yes, he was looking older then I thought. I tried to talk to him about my new house, but it took him almost 20 minutes to get it all trough him. After our talk I wanted to ask him about the sum of money, but I decided not to, cause it was difficult to talk to Dad. I'm glad I made that decision, I would like to solve my problems all by myself. So,I can say in the end, I suffered but I crawled up and managed all of this all by myself.
I stayed at my Dad's for 45 minutes then I wanted to go, it was already late. I still need to buy some groceries aswell for my dinner tonight, it was time to go. This time I had the wind in the back (Yay!) Though the long bike ride made me tired, I bought when I got back my groceries, chicken tonight is on the menu! I made two portions when I started to made my dinner, one for now and one for tomorrow, handy. In the evening after my dinner I mentioned the idea to go for a walk after dinner while I had my dinner with a few other residents,they were okay with that. But I was tired though, but I went anyways, it was a nice out. While walking I started to think of the comming days and next week, I worries me that I still don't have any news about my loan. No loan means I can't buy anything yet, and tomorrow I planned to go to Ikea with some other residents, planning to buy or order some things aswell. Sigh!
I could wait till Friday or perhaps Saturday, but rather not. Humanitas wants me out of the building at the 1st of Sepetember, cause otherwise I would have to pay double rent, and I can't afford that. I still have a week and a half. Tomorrow the appointment with Paula, were going to visit a second hand store, they sell only fridges,washingmachines and stove's, with the appointment we will have a talk aswell. Paula works better under stress she told me, so I should not be worried. Bring it on!
