Floating...
I had a nice sleep, and I woke up after I heard the kids downstairs. Time to get up and show some positive vibes towards the family. I made the kids some Lucky charms and made myself a bowl of Cheerios. My stomach was hurting so I thought a light breakfast would be good. The kids were being naughty, and I commented them with a loud voice, it's needed sometimes. Saf woke up to early after working a whole night, it was 10:30 am. She ignored me when I said 'Good morning.' I tried again 'Good morning' but nothing came out of her mouth. "Then not," I whispered, and went further on my laptop. Sigh! We were both in a mood from that incident what happened yesterday.
I decided to just continue with the things I used to do and just let her be. I did quiet alot this morning, I made a few phone calls, talked to two friends and asked them in a nice way if I can move in with them for a few months. (Yeah, how on earth do you ask that? ) They both answered "No." They felt guilty but they had enough 'things' on there own. These friends were almost my last options to stay over with. Sigh! I still get replies from the selling site ' Kijiji' but they don't buy my stuff.(another sigh!) I searched for hotels and rooms but it's hard to find them. I even placed a few adds saying 'I'm looking for a place to stay' on a dutch selling sites, one replied and told me he had a house for sale in my town, if I could buy it for a few million, sure I said! Nooot!
I even mailed the army of salvation in Holland to see what they could do. So, yeah I did alot and it gets tyring. I should ask my Aunt and Uncle for a place with them, but I'm afraid to ask, I should, but I'm waiting for the right time, she's could be my last option. Tomorrow I will look for more friends or Family where I can stay with. I wish Saf showed some more interest, in what I do. Just that she would come up to me and ask me how the things are going or how far are you with things. Maybe a bit to much to ask for someone who broke up with you. Today Saf asked me if I deleted some photo albums on Facebook. I said "Yes. I did, that was weeks ago." The first day we broke up, I got upset and went with a upset head upstairs on my computer and deleted some of my photo albums on Facebook. I shouldn't have done that, but me with my silly angry head I did. I regret it now cause such photos are always a good memory for later.
my Facebook status from last night:
The kids are fine and acting nice, at the moment I'm sitting on the couch with them, and it's cozy. I see a load of dishes in the kitchen. I'm planning to do them before I go to bed. Saf is slowly talking to me again, I mean she responses when I ask her something, still I'm laid back and a bit ignorant. Tomorrow another day!
