I think I know now what has been bothering me the last several years, 'Cronice Hyperventilation.' Since I struggled with my sick thyroid in 2003 I have been producing these little worries, it's aswell a symptom of a sick thyroid, together with a huge wash list of other symptoms. I have been trough alot aswell the last thirteen years, Mom passed away, took care of my Dad, struggling to find work, the relationship with Saf, moving to Canada, a break up, homeless, building up my life, and recently Dad passed away. And here I am now, doing better, lots wiser, stronger, I feel like I'm living now, much more then before I went to Canada. Though these adventures and memories I went trough left marks into my body aswell, the marks slowly crawled in. I always thought that this little pressure on my chest, the sometimes stabs plus the tiredness was a symptom of my sick thyroid. Now ofcource a sick thyroid gives less energy, I knew that from the beginning. I learned to live with it, and with success! My Doctor always said to me, "Do what you can, and listen to your body." Nothing more and nothing less, a simple but good advice.
I'm not worried about the pressure on my chest, even the little stabs doesn't bother me that much. Knowing it's cronice hyperventilation it gives a kind of relief, though it's bloody annoying sometimes. When I'm at work I feel not that much, work distracts me, though again as always, I will, "Listen to my body and do what I can," always did and always will. I actually never thought about hyperventilation, when someone is mentioning it I see a person breathing heavily, or breathing heavily into a bag. I don't have that! Let's say I have been concerned and worried to long over the last several years, that it became this far, as a cronice hyperventilation. Hyperventilation can give alot more symptoms, but this is what I have, frequent sighing or yawning, chest pains, sometimes dizziness when I bend over to long, tiredness, yeah, that's about it. There are several therapies I can follow, for example breathing therapies.
Though, like I said, I'm not concerned or worried, I have been thinking about that I could have this cronice hyperventilation a week or two ago. I thought I'm gonna look it up online two weeks ago aswell, but I wasn't bothered, like I said, the pain isn't that much only sometimes bloody annoying. So I looked it up yesterday and it opened my eyes and felt relieved looking up some sites. Though it's not always wise to look up diseases or something like that on the net, don't search to deep, or, don't dig to much some say, lol. I probably will visit my Doctor maybe this week, to see what he has to say about it. I'm surely not taking medications, cause they won't cure the hyperventilation, they only give calmness perhaps for a short time. I have several other ideas and options what I can do, a breathing therapy sounds great. When I pay attention on my breathing I 'now' can see and feel that my breathing is somtimes to high. Im sometimes breathing trough my chest, the best way to breath is trough the stomach, yeah, I had lessons in that before, lol. Other options are the mindfulness cursus where I wrote about before, and perhaps counseling.
I'm taking this all not to serious, I'm not gonna bury or dig myself into this to deep aswell. This cronice hyperventilation is surely not dangerous, that's a relief. I'm gonna work on this with a smile, I'm actually looking forward to it, silly right? Though, I think it's the best way to go and do this with a positive vibe. I'm looking forward to do the cursus and the breathing therapy. I have a few other things infront of me, there's the "Visists" where I signed in for recently. Probably next week I will hear from them, then there's the trip to Atlanta in a few months, I'm well excited. And last but not least, Spring is on his was, I can feel it, there I'm looking forward to aswell. Enough with the snow and coldness, this coming week they forspelled fifteen degrees above zero, and lots of sunshine. Today I rested and took it easy, lol, as always on a Sunday. Cooking went well the last two days, veggies with potatoes. Tonight it's pasta with zucchini and mozzarella, it will be my first time with the mozzarella, fingers crossed. It will be good, I love cheese.
