Fathers day!
Before my Father passed away, we as a Family didn't do that much with Father's day, or Mother's day. As a child I wouldn't find it fair either, lol, I mostly mentioned to my parents that they have double birthdays and I don't. There should have been a child day aswell, lol. Later when I grew up I realized that Father's day and Mother's day is about appreciation. Appreciate for what your Father or Mother do. Still as a Family we didn't celebrate those special parent days that much, birthday's were more special.
Today with Father's I stood still for a few hours thinking and remembering my Dad, life and time passes by so fast. We sometimes don't even realize what we have been trough, in the years, months and sometimes days. I was reading posts back on FB, posts from the time when my Dad passed away, it was like I was throwed back at that time while reading it, re feeling the thoughts, sadness, and the carings. It was quit a impact that week from 30 January until 7 February, when Dad got sick, and within three or four days passed away.
And then the funeral... I stood trough it, firm, calm but sad aswell, with many thoughts, though aswell memories. You know, although my Dad passed away, for me he's not gone. Yeah, he's gone, I can't see him, visit him nor touch him, etc, etc. Though in my eyes he's above looking down on me, guiding me in some sort of way. No, I'm not nuts, for me it's reality in a way, it calms me aswell. The good things I achieved recently I can probably thank my Dad for, he's my guiding angel in some sort of way...
Together with my Mom. They make a good team together.I don't have to worry about a thing anymore, it's all good. And as a last thing, I want to make them proud aswell, I'm ready to make a blast, the best is yet to come!
