I'm less eeking then yesterday, Actually I'm ot really looking forward to go upcomming Thursday. But either way, I will go. What is it what makes me feel not looking forward to go? I don't know, it's not that I'm nervous, it's not that I have to say goodbye to Reha and all the people there, but there's this bothering feeling I have about this. It bothers me that the counselors who came with me for the 'applying' and the meeting yesterday were more enthusiastic about the job then I was. I feel like I have been pushed towards this job,the counselors were overreacting. They were telling me that I could do it, and that I was the perfect guy for this job, and so on and on. I already had these feelings of '"Hmm, I don't know about this," when I passed the machines on the work floor. I didn't had a good feeling about the job, my intuitions weren't so good. But even though the work is aswell TOTALLY different then what I was doing at Reha, I will go and I just will see. Still ...The bothered feeling makes me not jump for joy to go to 'this' job.
I had a nice day at work today, I finnished the wooden couch lounge set. But still when I thought about my upcomming next job, that bothered feeling came again, just like I have now. But like I said I will go. Maybe I will like it, who knows, pity though that I learned to work with wood these last seven months andthat it went so well. Okay, alright, enough about these bothered feelings. I will go Thursday, and I will give it a 100%, if I don't succeed or if I have the feeling that it's not my kinda work, I can always come back to Reha. The new factory will test me first for three months, in these three months I won't earn money, but when everything goes well in these three months I can get a contract for half a year and earn money. When everything will still go okay in that half year then I will get a contract till I'm 65! Though in the three months of testing I'm allowed to say, "Hey, it's really not my kinda work, I tried my best, I'm going." But I'm looking ahead already, I will let it just come over me and I just will see.
Got a few things to do tomorrow, first a need a rain coat and trouser. It rained so much today, it's almost unbelievable. It started around 8:00 am and it's now 7:30 pm, it just stopped raining. When I got back from work I was soked, I hadn't had a umbrella and not having a rain suite. The thought of going home, and realizing that I will put the comfiest clothing on and make the delicioust food ever after this, made me notn even aware of the rain. Just kidding, I even had my socks and sweater wet. Yeah I need a rain suite, tomorrow first thing on the list. Next, the housing corporation, they need to fix my window what I... I mean my neighbor broke (remember that I locked myself out last Friday?) under my allowence. I have a glass ussurance, but breaking into your own house and brake a window cause of that? Hmm, I hope I will get a new window for free. But hey I can atleast say my neighgbor broke it. Or? naah, maybe the neighbor has to pay for that window, that isn't nice, right?
Tomorrow aswell I will ride my bike to the job where I will start Thursday, to find out what is the shortest route. Clever right? After Thursday's work I can go aswell to Reha and work there in the afternoon. Or just for a visit, "Your welcome to have a coffee and perhaps some work," said my Boss. So. I will just see. Nervous about Thursday? Just a little bit, it's the bothered feeling that's eating me, still I'm thinking, "It's not the right job for me, I don't see a future in the job." Perhaps I will think about it totally different after Thursday morning. I will just see how it goes, I promised myself I will do my best. So, and now a coffee!
P.s. Friday I will write my 350th post, Oh my!
