Is caring to much about another really to much? Without bragging about myself I would like to say that I care a bit to much, I just can't see a friend or collega or whatever suffer. Or better, I can't see people cry, I will get weak and I want to take care of them. This can stress myself out if it's getting to much, the involving is getting to much for me then. Why am I writting about this? The last two weeks alot happend here at Humanitas, divorce problems, a friendship/relationship died, residents were leaving cause they had to or they wanted to. It was all here, at the moment I can all handle this very well, but yeah, it does something to me aswell. It touches me, but I'm not complaining. I'm good and if I can help or take care I will, but there is a line ofcource. If it's really getting to much then I take a few steps back. At the moment I feel bad for Ina and her divorce problems, now it's not that I feel sorry or pity for everyone who has divorce problems, but the people who are close to me, yeah.
It's not only the divorce problems Ina deals with but other things aswell, Daniel has been suffering for a week cause of a realtion problem with Ina, and now he has left for a 'time out.' Ina feels or thinks that it's her fault and feels guilty, plus the divorce problems she and her ex have and the ex being a pain does her not well. Ina and her ex have two kids and there standing in the middle off the two divorced parents. Problems like this is quit normal these days, Ina is sure not the only one, I'm aware of that. But seeing her so many times cry breaks me so now and then, I don't want to get involved and I surely wont get involved. Again I know where my line is, cause I have to think of myself aswell. Offcource. But, I would like to cheer her up, and I will. If she needs a hug or a crying shoulder I will be there, sometimes I give her advice or listen so now and then to her stories if it makes her feel better. I like to make her laugh or cheer her up, cause I can't see her cry, she doesn't deserve this. I dislike crying!
Bloodwork~
This morning after my appointment I went over to the hospital to do some bloodwork, and this time it went much easier then last time. I knew the way, and the waiting room wasn't packed for a change. There were only three people, only this time the needle hurted a bit more then the last time. I guess every nurse has a different way to take blood, now it's five days to wait for the results, I'm curious. The appointment with Paula went well, she was a bit in a hurry but that was okay cause I was too, I wanted to get the blood done. There wasn't much to talk about cause everything is going well, "Go out a bit more, you deserve it and you have the money for it," said Paula. I'm on my hood a bit for my money, funny though, now that I have more money I'm being more easier with it. Prolly a good thing, right?
These comming days I have two appointments comming up, one with Paula, I had to make a list what I all need when I'm going to live on my own. Furniture, fridge, couch, bed, etc, etc, Paula and I will have a look at the list I made. The next appointment is with Sandra, we will be looking at houses online and react on them. Were going to look at houses in Enschede, Sandra lives in Enschede, so that's handy. Paula told me that Sandra lives in Enschede, so Paula told me to make an appointment one day with Sandra to have a look at houses, and so I did. It's going smoothly around here, there's a nice atmosphere. Although all that I need to get used or better prepair myself to be living on my own. Like taking care of my bussines/paperwork, making phonecalls, see what there is needed to be on my own again or what I need to get used to. I'm not worried.
