Sunday!

Sunday! 

What to write on a Sunday? Not much, not much has happened this Sunday. I did the things I had to do, the usual things I do every Sunday. Ironing, making dinner, resting, getting things ready for tomorrow's work. Those are the most important things, I finished them all.

Lately I notice that I can become slightly addicted to people who gives me more attention then usual. If someone invites me for a coffee, compliments me or has a good conversation with me, I want to hang around with that person more and more. Since I noticed 'that' I am aware that I have to keep my distance aswell. Now, it's not that a huge problem, though I ask myself, 'why do I act like this?' Have I become that addicted to get new friends? 

Saturday's dinner, cooked and then baked potatoes, chopped chicken breast and cauliflower, yum!

I'm not annoying anyone though , I don't see it as a annoying addiction either, (yet) I'm aware what I'm doing, I just noticed this little (akward) behaviour. For example, I recently have contact with a woman, who I know from another friend from Humanitas. She comes often to the 'free dinners' just like me. I'm sure I wrote about her before, she has two grown up kids and her name is Janine. She lives aswell in Almelo.

Now, I shouldn't actually say this but, she's far from someone I would date, or start a relation with. Why? She's just not my type, I just don't fall for her. And yet, I want to spend time with her so now and then since our contact. I get excited when she is involved, I once said to her that I'm looking for a good buddy, and that was all. She often starts to chat to me on FB, just like I start to chat with her.

Sunday's dinner, chopped chicken breast, with Indian sauce and rice!

Remember Ina? Same thing, she's a buddy of mine too. I get jolly when she's around, we have laughs and good conversation, but to start a relationship? No! Far from that, just good friends. I think it's just a wound or scarf inside of me what I have left over from leaving Canada, I have been taken out off a Family, a full house where I got attention and love, and been thrown to be on my own again, starting all over. 

Looking for new friends, attention and love. I'll have to be aware that I have to keep my distance aswell, that I don't become addicted to find friends cause I must. The 'buddy project' I asked for came on a good time, my new 'buddy' told me aswell last week, don't go searching for friends as a need or a must, be happy with going out with yourself too.