Just another day...

Just another day...

Another Wednesday, another day off. I didn't do that much today, I rested cause I had muscle pain, I guess I carried a bit to much weight with yesterday's work. The good news is that my monthly income from Gak will stay the same. They won't take any of my earned money from my new job. Meaning, I will get my normal loan from work every month, and I will get my normal loan every month from Gak, just like it always was. Kinda awkward though, I was so sure that Gak will lessen the money from what I get from them, but no. Still I'm waiting for a response from the social services from my city, I get monthly money from 'them' too. Social services filled up my loan from what I get monthly from Gak, I think it's called minimum wage.

Social services sent me a paper what I have to fill in, I asked for that paper cause 'they' have to know ofcource that I got a new job. On that paper I can fill in where I work now , and what I will earn from them in the month, I had to copy a few important papers, like for example my work contract and my work loan paper, (payroll?) I'm sure I will hear from them back, lol. So far I'm pretty excited and amazed aswell about my monthly loan from Gak, still I will take it easy with my wallet, though I don't want to make 'that' a habit. Cause my little villa could use some more items, like, decorations, paintings, some new plants or perhaps a little table, etc, etc. Ofcource there are a few items that I need more then those decorations, I need a vacuum cleaner, lol. 

And yeah, some nice curtains in the living and sleeping room would be nice too. Everything on time, they say, I agree with that. Recently I went trough my blog reading a few posts from way back, like for example from my time in Canada after the break up, or ofcource my time at Humanitas. I read them so now and then, but it seems that I'm realizing so much more now that 'that' period was really a disaster, specially the first two months after the break up. The time I still was in Canada searching for a place to stay, dealing with the break up, dealing with Saf after the break up, dealing with the kids and ofcource dealing with my horrible self, did I mention I was surrounded then with nine people for 24 hours a day in one huge house? 

I'm happy that I'm here 'now' and not in that time short after my break up, when I read most of these  posts I realize aswell that I wasn't myself sometimes. I was just floating, just letting it all happen, sometimes not even knowing what I was doing. I guess in the end I had sometimes  luck aswell,(read: and angel on my shoulder) just when I needed it the most. I can be proud of myself even though it was the thoughest period I ever witnessed. I made it safetly back, though it still feels here and there pity that the break up came, and that it went this and that way. I don't know how it would have been if the break up didn't came, and we just continued. I had to 'man up' said Saf, maybe she was right or maybe not. 

I really had to learn a million things in a short time, it sure wasn't easy. Oh well, I manned up after the break up that's for sure. I had to! I'm still suprised what I have done so far, and proud of what I have achieved in Canada from my first day when I arrived untill my very last day. Super proud actually, I'm amazed.