Wednesday, March 13, 2013

"That went okay."

"That went okay." 

This morning was suppose to be hectic but, that went okay. One appointment, a visit and a few groceries. First I picked up the 'therapist' card (what still had to be printed, but okay.) and asked for another card for the mindful training what I (might)  follow. This other card I didn't get cause first I had to make another appointment whit my Doctor first for that card, another sigh. This mindfulcursus needs to have a 'agreement' from my Doctor. I thought, "But I haven't even said 'yes' to the minfulness training. I told the Doctor assistance to let it be for now, I will first have my appointment with the mindfulness trainer. I was perfectly on time at my 'mindfulness' appointment, it was 9:45 I still had fifteen minutes left, all good. 

My city has some nice statues, you only have to find them.
 A lady called me in her office fifteen minutes past ten, she introduced herself and told me about the training. She asked me to tell about myself aswell, and why I would like to follow this mindfulness training. I had alot to tell, I told her aswell about my time in Canada and the time I became homeless. Aswell I told about my Dad, and my sick thyroid. The lady told me that she totally understood that I worry sometimes, worry about becoming homeless again, worrying about having less money to come around. I guess I'm still adjusting having a home again and having a permanent job, though there's no need to worry, though I still do so now and then. But much less then let's say one year ago, oh yes. 

Such a cold day today, we had snow in the afternoon. As you can see the ice on the pond weren't much fun for the birds.
 Now about the mindfulness cursus. The lady offered me another training, a training about "positive thinking." Twisting a negative thought into a positive thought, there's  actually more, but that's difficult to explain. I skipped the mindfulness training, cause that training was more into meditation and finding your rest again, uhm, yeah, lol. The mindfulness can give me rest but doesn't work much on my problem. This positive thinking training does that.  Though I will be put on a waiting list, perhaps in May I can start. Another though, though these trainings sure aren't free, the lady told me that this positive training (6 lessons) will cost 600 Euro, hello? My health insurance will pay for that. 
Stting there, waiting for the other ducks.
Well, actually, in this case, I pay half and my insurance pay half. Because our goverment decided two years ago that they take 350 Euro from your loan/income, that amount of money has to be spent on every healthcare what is not covered by your health insurance. Yup, sure not everything is free when it comes to healthcare here in Holland. When the 350 Euro has been spent then the health insurance will cover most of the healthcare again. This disicion by our goverment is called "Own risk." Small example: The mindfulness training cost 600 Euro, I have still 338 Euro left from my "Own risk." I pay the 338 Euro, but I still have to pay 262 Euro to get to 600 Euro, that money will be payed by my healt insurance.

This used to be a old facrtory hence the huge pipe, they left the pipe but underneath the pipe is a fancy restaurant.
 (You still there?) Because I just spend all my "Own risk" money. (338 Euro) For the same reason I had 25 Euro cent "Own risk," then my healt insurance would have payed 599 Euro. Confussing right? Now, I will just see what I do, first of all I'm gonna start with the 'breathing therapy. Upcoming Friday I will introduce myself at the therapy, they will make a appointment with me and I'll start. First I will ask if this therapy will cost me, if it does then I'm not sure if I start with the mindfulness training. Both things will cost me to much then, and besides the breathing therapy is more important. Yeah, money, money is sure important nowadays, who said money doesn't make people happy? It surely does me.