"Your doing well, I think it's time to look for a place for yourself," said my counselor Linda this early afternoon. I had a little meeting with her today in the office. I was suprised to hear what she said, and I wasn't expecting it to hear that. I'm busy with the things I need to do and in the mean time many things are happening around me here , I'm like a old train that goes on and on. Sometimes I stop to have a look how far I am, but not so often. I'm able now to start with looking for a place for myself, I should be dancing and be happy, happy that I have achieve things, I can be proud of myself. And, I am proud, and most proud I am that I stood trough these last five months and how. But happy? Hmm, yes I am, but aswell I feel these akward nerves. When Linda told me that It's time to look for a house, I asked myself, "Am I ready for that? Can I handle things alone?"
I think it's also the fact that I'm adjusted here at Humanitas, I like it here . And maybe I'm a little bit afraid of letting go, I'm picturing myself already sitting in my own house being alone again. I know, it's not a positive thought, it's not that I don't want to have a place for myself, I guess Linda just suprised me with her saying. The time went so fast, and I was getting used to that time, and now it's time perhaps for another time, another step forward to my journey. Linda told me that I can do it, I can do the things I need to do, I was ready, she told me. What seemed to me that I have a bunch of huge problems wasn't maybe not even that huge. I solved it, I got my unsurances, I got my income, I'm progressing with my way to a payed job, the bills are starting to get payed. It's all going good. I can even save some money, Linda told me. Still that akward nerves feeling though, oh well, another level higher I suppose, I will get used to that.
Today was a nice day, the weather was good with alot of sunshine and not that cold. Around 11:00 am I heard someone whisteling loud, I thought it was a teenager being childish. But when I looked trough my windown I saw it was Frank, he must have spent the night somewhere where I don't know where. He wanted to get in the building to speak to Johannus, prolly asking him to bring him back home. I letted him in and he told me he spend the whole night with a friend here in this city, he haven't slept the whole night. Johannus came downstairs too and asked me to come with them while driving Frank home, "Sure," I thought. So, I went with them, and it was a nice ride. When I got back I took a long nap, a well needed nap.
Today was 'tosti' time aswell, me and Linda made slightly a appointment to make tosti's for every resisdent present this Sunday. I said slightly cause we both didn't know for sure if we get trough with the tosti's. But we did, and it was nice. I sliced the cheeze, prepaired the ham and made the sandwisches and Linda helped here and there and served the residents. We had ourselves some tosti's too ofcource, they were nice with cheece and ham. After the tosti's me and Linda had the talk on the office. "My goal is to have a doctor here in Almelo within two weeks," I told Linda. it's about time, cause the difficulty with the medications for my thyroid is a pain. It's so much handier to have a doctor close near.
While I start this week with searching for a house, I thought of another thing too, I still have some stuff in Canada, ugh! I will have to ask Saf if she will ship it these coming months, sigh. It's not a pleasant thing to ask , but I really have too. We both agreed that my personal belongings will be shipped by her, and I know she will. I miss some clothing, I miss my music, most of my music I prolly will sell. I wanted to sell it in Canada, but that was suprisingly hard to do, maybe Canadians have another taste of music. Anyway, I need to get prepaired for tomorrow's work. (yay!) Putting my clothes ready and some lunch. Check!
