If I wasn't being overwhelmed with so much love and kindness back then, I would have never had made the decision to go to Canada.

If I wasn't being overwhelmed with so much love and kindness back then, I would have never had made the decision to go to Canada.

Reading posts back in my blog can be fun and bring back good memories, but aswell bad memories. Specially the first few months... ofcource, cause of the break up. There was a line in one of my posts that bothered me, "You loved me more then I did." I know after a break up you get those missleading talks from exes, I should just ignore it, though it isn't that easy sometimes. About her saying 'You loved me more then I did,' when Saf and I first met online I was carefull and took it very easy, the kind words and love from her were ofcource nice but I was on my hood. I been hurted and been let down a few times, and that isn't fun. But Saf was serious... And slowly, step by step I felt for her too. "She fell in love with me," I couldn't believe it! This is serious, it's a 100%, I knew it. I could tell by every detail, every word and every action she did towards me. Long chats, everyday emails, her kids on the phone, wake up calls, every day phone calls from her, day in day out. 

And then the big step towards Canada, we were serious, "This woman loves me, and I feel great." I was scared falling in love though, Saf was my very first love , my very first relationship. I knew for sure that it would be difficult, I hoped I could handle myself. I told Saf already before my first meeting, "I have been waiting so long for this, I'm a ticking lovebomb!" And the bomb went off, I have been spoiled with love, kindness, gifts, and lots of attention. We were both happy and in love. Though as the months past by the so called ups and downs came along. I really had to get used to this new life, it was here and there quit overwhelming. Everything went by so, so fast, no time for thinking, just go, go, go! But this realtionship was really what I wanted, I went for it, fought for it. Then the break up in December 2010, I was done, I was exhausted. The love, kindness and attention were getting less and less, "You loved me more then I did," yes, untill the end........

Those missleading sayings or words are not hurting anymore, it's fine, it's been good, I learned from my time in Canada. I became stronger and wiser, it's been a far away trip but it was surely worth it! Oh yes!! I can close it now and see it as a good memory and a great adventure. Alright, on with this day. It's been a calm day, I rested and did here and there a few things. I bought a hoover today, lol, or a vacuum cleaner, so many ways to call it. They were on sale for a nice price, I bought a nice red one.It's so cute and small, tomorrow Iwill try it out. My second time cooking fresh beans went well,this time it was even better I must say. I didn't add onions and tomato sauce like last time, I didn't like that. I cooked the beans for 5 minutes, then throwed them in a pan where I already added butter. Heated them up on a low fire and then added a bit of oregano. Yum!