It's not easy to realize that you had a entire family and then all of a sudden there gone and your alone.... 'The word 'homeless' scares me'.
I had a good sleep, I woke up and saw sunlight trough the curtains. I looked at the clock and it was 9:30. (woot!) I had no plans for today only doing some grocery. I wish I had no complains and I wish I could see everything from the bright side, I sure need something positive. My head is mush and I need sleep. I will take it easy today, and tomorrow maybe to the sauna.
My Aunt is sending me E-mails quit alot this week, telling me what to do, (wich I already know) and keeps pushing me in things that is just impossible. Today she sent me a message telling me to go to the Goverment, and tell them about a house my Aunt saw in a newspaper. Well, it's Saturday and the Goverment is closed, and even though, you just can't go just like that and say "Hey, I found a house, can I live there?" My Aunt means it good but, aargghh! sometimes.
A little update about the things I have settled and not setlled:
I needed a Social Incurance, Well, that is settled, I filled in the papers and the lady sent in the mail. I think I will get a mail back saying it's confirmed.
I needed to become a citizen of Nijverdal, That is (I think) settled, they needed the letter from the owner from where I'm staying to improve that I'm really here. That letter I putted in the mail.
My monthly income, pffeeww, that was something. I wrote the letter with the story what happened in Canada what they wanted and mailed it 5 minutes ago. They told me that it might take a few weeks.
A place to stay, so far no succes, I keep on searching on internet and have called brokers, but, it's difficult. This morning I looked again for cheap summerhouses and mailed a few companies. I'm waiting for response. Monday I have an appointment with a lady who's a member of the Public Housing. I have asked for 'urgenty' (people who are homeless or who are mental sick get usually a house faster) and the lady wants to see if I can get urgenty. Second, the owner of the house (where I am now) left the date when I have to leave open, when I filled in the papers. Maybe I can stay a bit longer.
I want counceling, I found some counceling and it's free, upcomming Monday is my first appointment.
Looking for a job, to be honest, I looked for it, but my body and mind is saying wait, I'm not ready yet. I'm not able to work yet. First I want to settle down and find a place to stay. If I would work now, I will end up getting depressed and have a huge breakdown, so, NO, to work. (Sorry Aunt)
Like I said, I didn't plan much today, My Aunt messaged me, if I could come there Sunday morning, so we can talk about my situation, and then later I could go to my Dad to have lunch. Well, I was planning to go to the sauna aswell. My Aunt lives 10 km from my place, if I go from my Aunt's place to my Dad that's another 6 km. from my Dad's to the sauna is another 6 km. That's alot of km's on a bike. I'm tired aswell, these last few months have been heavy on my heart.
I sended a message back to my Aunt telling them to come here. And they agreed. Let's see what they have to say.
