Moving on....
I had a few plans for the Saturday this morning, I planned to go to my Dad's, buy some grocery there, and get some kibbeling (fish) on the market there aswell. I was up early, (Do I ever sleep out?) had a shower and prepaired my breakfast. Around 9:30 someone knocked on my door and that someone asked me if I was ready. I thought, "Ready, for what? Oh yeah! Totally forgot, I need to help someone this morning, with moving." It was a guy, who asked me for help with his moving, and I said, "Yes." He was early, and I told him that I will be there in 15 minutes. There was one guy more from Humanitas to help out, we jumped on our bikes and headed off where we had to be. It was the old house from the guy where he has been thrown out, 'that' house needed to be empty before Monday.
The house was dirty and most of the stuff was all junk, but some stuff needed to be moved to another house. It was quiet some work, thank god we had a little trailer, very little though. It was not the kinda moving I was used to, like in Canada. The car was small aswell, we needed to ride 7 or 8 times. But it was fun to do, and we had some laughs. A little after 2:00 pm we were done, and I headed of to the market here. One of my plans today was to get some kibbeling, (Kibbeling is a snack consisting of sliced Atlantic cod, and is dipped in a batter and then deep fried) It was pretty expensive though, I payed 3 Euro for a tiny small plastic container. Though I deserved a little tried, it's the weekend anyway. After the fish I bought some groceries and headed to Humanitas, I was exhausted but satisfied, it was time for a nap!
Yesterday I told you that a small family joined Humanitas, remember I told you about the Father and his two sons? I spoke to the Father last night while making my coffee, he's a nice guy. He told me his story why he and his wife and two sons are here, wow! He told that me that they were kinda been thrown out of their own house, cause the house needed to be fixed or something, right. The fixing will last more then nine months, actually, I think it's a weird story. Anyway, the shock came when the Father told me that they were living on the streets for 3 months after they been thrown out, imagine that! Living on the street with 2 little kids. The Father had a car though and has an income. But no house, they slept here and there and sometimes they slept in the car. I felt sorry for them, and specially for the 2 little boys. Can you imagine? They are happy now here at Humanitas.
Funny moment last night, while I was cooking the little boy from the Father came to me and had a peek what I was doing, and I spotted myself speaking English to him! Sometimes I spot myself more on speaking English, for example when I'm talking to fast or want to respond quickly. After my little nap once again someone knocked on my door, It was the same guy who I helped with moving. He offered me a nice dinner, what he made by himself. Rice, with a very good sauce and chicken breasts. Very nice of him, we sat together and ated 2 plates, it was good.
How am I doing comparing a month ago...
I'm sometimes surprised about my self how I am doing, I'm okay and things are going well, just as planned, I'm moving on slowly forward. Sometimes I just need that little kick in the butt, LOL! Sometimes Humanitas makes me nerves with little surprises, for example the project at Reha. Me and Humanitas worked hard on that project, just to get me there, and now I'm there. I was asking myself if I was actually ready to work, ready after all that I have been trough. My first thought was, "Oops, work, am I ready?" But slowly I get used to the idea and I think to myself, Yeah, let's go for it."
I still think off Saf and the kids, and that's normal.These thoughts will never disappear, I hope not. Cause the thoughts I have now are feeling a bit better and calmer, thoughts that I care about them and love them. It's easier now, I can look at pictures now and say, "Yeah, good memories." I will never forget these guys, even though it was tough and difficult to adjust without them. It was difficult when the three oldest came online, or when Saf came online. I just didn't know how to act, I didn't want to bombard them with talks or comments. But how to act then?
I just didn't know, I surely didn't want to ignore them, that would have been wrong aswell, right? I spend three years with them, and then suddenly not speak to them anymore? No. I hope Saf and the kids understand that I had some difficult months and still have. Would it hurt me if I would loose contact with them? Yes! I would like to keep contact, between the things I have to do to move on. Wouldn't it be nice when we both are super happy with our own life's, and that we still keep contact? I'm really hoping for that!
Your horoscope...
Don't be surprised if you're a little weepy today, Aquarius. The influence from planets can enhance your sensitivity to almost everything, including your own feelings. Take heart. It's bound to be short-lived. Cry if you need to, since it can be cleansing. Try not to wallow too much. Chances are good that things will look better tomorrow. Take care of yourself today.
