Am I ready?
Tonight I asked myself if I was ready for a relationship again, answer is, I don't know. But I thought about it, I asked myself just out of the blue. Why don't I know if I am not ready yet? Cause I just don't know. Am I willing to try a relationship? Hmm, I might. I think it's best to let God decide that, lol. When it happens it happens, and when it happens it's perhaps God's will. Yeah, that's it. If a relationship would happen could I handle it? I don't know, lol. I think I will be nervous, nervous to make mistakes, (again) But that's just my thinking, who knows it will go fine, I'm wiser, wiser after my first relationship. No offense to Saf, but I learned alot from my first relationship, that's a positive and a good thing. We will just see what's gonna happen in the future, if a relationship happens, I will embrace it with both hands.
My 'Buddy project' buddy Johan came to visit me this morning for a appointment, around 10:00 he came and we started to talk trough the things from this week. The conversation went fine, we talked about a few things and afterwards he gave me a few things to do for the next week. I was planning to visit a Christmas market next month with a friend, but I haven't had the guts to ask my friend or confirm the trip to the market. Johan asked me to do it next week, I will try, hehe! My friend has a low budget and the trip to that market is.. uhm.. payable but hmm... I don't know it's payable for her. I just don't wanna go alone, this time. I really like to do something with someone this Christmas.. Last year I was fine being alone with Christmas, but this year I want to spend time with people.
Worked a half day today, it was nice when I walked into the factory at 11:30, mostly everyone greeted me, nice. My second Boss greeted me already when I was putting my bicycle away, lol, he banged on the windows like a little child, "Hey Sjonnie, hey!!" Funny guy! We managed to finish that order from yesterday, lots of work and heavy lifting, but we did it. Now it's the weekend for me, my next working day will be on a Tuesday, we have the Monday off, yay!
