''A change is gonna come."

''A change is gonna come."

Last night my Aunt called again, and you prolly know how that went, 'nag, nag and nag.' Though she liked it that I have a working contract. But further it went like this, 'We are the only ones who visit your Dad.' 'You and Dad were never great talkers.' 'Going to Canada was really stupid, your Dad was so sad about it, it really hurted him.' 'We are the only ones who help Dad out.' ect, ect, and ect. Not really a nice conversation trough the phone just before bedtime. My Dad had a few appointments with his counselor and his Doctor, cause Dad will prolly be moving to another area in the place where he lives. In that place he will get more care, but what worries me a bit is that that place is awell a place for disabled people. People who need more care, people who are slightly a bit crazy or demend. It's sure is not a happy place to be for my Dad.Ofcource my Aunt was at the appointment aswell. 


I have to say though that it's written in my Dad's "contract," that my Aunt and Uncle decide what to do if it comes to Dad. For example, if Dad need new clothing my Aunt and Uncle will buy them for him, or when somethinmg happened with Dad then my Aunt and Uncle will get a call or message from the eldery place first, my Aunt will inform me then. Another example, when now my Dad prolly goes to that 'other' area my Aunt and Uncle will decide together with my Dad's counselor and doctor if that's good for him yes or no. Now, I actually made a agreement that my Aunt and Uncle make these decisions just before I went to Canada, cause someone from the Family had to do it. The agreement was a relief so I wouldn't have to worry about my Dad while I was in Canada, I planned to stay for a very long time in Canada. Trust me, THAT was a hard desicion aswell, to leave my Dad for such a long time. That was a though time................

Now I'm back from Canada, and the 'agreement' still counts, my Aunt and Uncle make the desicions over my Dad when it's needed. And now THAT I would love to change a bit, why? Cause I don't like the 'nagging'of my Aunt anymore, it's more then enough, I'm so done with her. She talks alot of  b@llsh!t towards me, and not only me, she sometimes gossips this b@llsh!t aswell to the family and to my Dad's counselor and Dad's docter. I see it all infront of me now when I write about it. Ofcource I get sometimes these strange looks from the nurses at Dad's place, they know me now, thanks Aunt. If you have a question over my Family, ask my Aunt she knows all and she wants to know all, plus they tell her all aswell cause she's so caring and nice. I'm not gonna fall for it again, I'm not gonna let her talk down on me again. I want to change a few things, and I'm gonna work on it.

If there's something going on with Dad, I would like to know or hear it from the eldery place, straight to me. If there has to be made a decision about Dad, I want to be a part of the desicion aswell, I want to sit around that table too to talk and decide aswell. I will visit my Dad once a week, I will show my face weekly. Fact: When I visit my Dad the staff from Dad's eldery place writes it down according to my Aunt! Do they keep a score aswell? Or was it a idea or desicion from my Aunt? I would like to change a few things, I already sent a e-mail to the eldery place. First I want a talk with the sister who takes care of my Dad, or the one who goes about my Dad in that eldery place. I will talk with her or him and tell him my story and tell him or her what I would like. A change! My Dad is getting old, he might not be here any longer. That's ONE of the reason I'm doing this. On one thing I agree with my Aunt, I have to visit him more often. 

Though the reason why I can't visit him that often is because I'm busy with alot of things, I work aswell. Me getting a real job was one of my Dad's wishes for such a long , long time. I'm still suffering from my visit to Canada, with suffering I mean, the payments and the 'building up my life,' I had a very busy year behind me. I was homeless , there werel lots of arrangements, I was searching for a roof over my head, I needed to get a house, getting usurances, getting money and a job, ect, ect. Most of this is almost done, but were not there yet. So when there asking my Dad where Sjon is, he tells them, he doesn't have time for me. That's what I meant with the gossiping and b@llsh!tting from my Aunt, she doesnt tell the truth. That's gonna change now. It will be my Dad, me and the people from the eldery place in my eyes now. Sure the desiccions will still be made by my Aunt and Uncle, that's fine, but includding me alot more!