Maybe I shouldn't had written that email to my Aunt yesterday, I got a email back and it's not a nice one. Actually it was my Cousin who wrote back (My Aunt's Son) The words he wrote is typical him and typical my Aunt'aswell.
"Nice email you wrote Sjon, I'm glad I still have my father and am very PROUD of him, I can not stand this. But hey you do not care obliviously, you're probably raized by someone else. I'm proud of your dad because I see him more often than you do, you think you know your father but I know him better than you and that will always remain so. Sjon you're my cousin off.
Sincerely your ex cousin marco!
Yeah, that hurted. And now!? How to go further now?! I don't know... I wrote a email back telling I was sorry in a way, but I told aswell that I wrote down my feelings and thoughts what's been bothering me for several months. And that I stayed firm with my sayings. This hurts in the first place, not the fact that it seems that I lost my cousin and probably also my Aunt and uncle, but just the fact that I hope I'm able to visit my Dad weekly plus without bumping into them, I will have to find a solution to avoid my Aunt, Uncle, and Cousin. Like I said, maybe I shouldn't have written that email, but I was tired of them, so tired. I will have to find a solution. Does this fight has to be solved? Or shall I just let it be and keep continuing what I do, keep visiting Dad, and see what I can do for him. I'm still not able to visit him weekly, and it seems no one understands this in the Family. Heck, my Family keeps bugging me with this, just as long I aswell think I'm able to visit Dad every week.
These were my thoughts when I went to work, though I had a nice chat with a friend on Facebook, that did me good. She had a brother who had the same, Family bothering him. Work did me good aswell, it was busy at work. So many orders we have and so much we have to do in one day, it's almost ridiculous. I always do what I can do, plus sometimes just a bit extra. Though I always keep my health in mind, tomorrow I will work a half day again, just like last week. They asked me, and I was expecting it. Though I don't hope it's getting a habit working every Friday a extra half day. Or? Naah, I have to keep an eye on my health, when they are gonna ask me to work a half day extra again, I will skip it (for once) After work there was the free dinner, I had a good appetite, it was yummy. I felt easy, easier then this morning after the free dinner and work. Ofcource sometimes my thoughts of this morning's mail flashed trough my mind, but work and my fellow workers kept me busy and laughing.
And now? What are my thoughts now about my Dad, Cousin, Aunt and Uncle? Well, I will keep visiting my Dad when I'm able of. I'm really gonna try to do that weekly, I will have to avoid my Aunt, Uncle and Cousin. The afternoon is a good time to visit my Dad, or perhaps in the early evening, my Aunt, Uncle and Cousin mostly visit Dad in the morning. It's crazy I know but it's a must, "They" are stubborn and don't want to listen. I will choose for my Dad and myself, and the rest? What rest? If they need me they know to find me. I will get used to this. Dad's nurse is still gonna call me tomorrow morning for a appointment, she and I will have a talk about Dad and me. I wanted to be more involved when I comes to Dad, perhaps doing groceries or other stuff, I also want a better contact with Dad's nurses, a better way to message them or call them. I hope that my Aunt didn't had a talk with my Dad's nurse, she's would be determine to get me of Dad's caring list.
