Tuesday, December 18, 2012

"Butterflies?"

"Butterflies?" 

Felt a tiny bitty better today, though it was a rough busy day at work. So, the exhausted feeling was easy to blame just on that. Still I want to get a blood test for my thyroid tomorrow morning, even though I need my rest aswell. the 400 mats we have to finish in one week is actually crazy, but hey, let's see how far we come. Sometimes we get more of such huge orders, though we get the orders delivered half done or just a bit done. This week, we only got delivered the material, we have to make the complete 400 mats out of the delivered material, and that's alot of work. We have 4 people working on the order, sometimes 5.

I think we will get the order done, if/when it will go like it goes now. Though work, but we do our best. The blood test tomorrow , I decided to do 'that' in the late morning. the thyroid blood test I can do without being sober. Why late in the morning?  So I can sleep in and take it easy aswell. It's been two rough days at work, rest is needed. I woke up last night around 2:00 am, I needed a bathroom visit, I couldn't get to sleep again, sigh. Though I felt good the entire day, meaning, I didn't felt sleepy. Butterflies? Yeah, hmm, I saw 'Janine' posting on Facebook that she felt she had butterflies in her belly. 


So I assume she has them from me, cause I can't think of anyone else, really. I have been struggling a bit what my feelings were or are for Janine, why do I like her attention that much? What is it that feeling I like being around her? Is it cause I searched for attention that much that I actually am glad I found it now? Or is it that I like company around me to much? Do I actually feel for her? Am I in love? Well, last this morning when I red her 'butterfly' status, I got my answer. I'm not in love, cause her 'butterfly' status scared me a bit, I didn't want that, no! . Meaning, I don't want a relationship with her.

I just want a good buddy where I can be friends with and have a jolly good time. Janine didn't respond that much on her status, I didn't comment either. She just continued her friendship with me, chatting a bit and commenting on some of my statuses. I think time will tell, when Janine will talk about her butterflies, or maybe not even. Though I'm curious, lol. I'm sure we can talk about this, this 'butterfly' subject.