The spirit of Easter is all about Hope, love, and joyful living.

The spirit of Easter is all about Hope, love, and joyful living. 

Just had some spare time to make a start with today's post, soon I'm going to make some dinner after my writting. Another hot, warm day, and opening a window is out of the question in my room.  It's possible though but I have to put up then with the musquitos. I will think of a solution these comming days.I went out for a little bit last night, me, Johannus and his 7 year old son and another guy. we went to a little children's farm. Across the farm is a park where you can sit and ofcource play football, otherwise the 7 year old wouldn't come, lol!

It was nice sitting there, we played some football and had a few drinks. After that Johannus bought shoarma-sandwisches for us, 6 huge sandwisches for 15 Euro is not bad. Although I have a hot room, I slept good and I slept a bit in. I was tired today though, felt exhausted and sleepy. I had 2 naps, and while waking up after the second nap I thought, I'm gonna sleep further till the rest of the day. But I got up cause duty was calling, the second half of the grocery had to be bought and I was in need of an icecream. The icecream was good but way to much money for such a little cup.

I had a tiny little dream last night, I dream weird and short, lol! There like 5 minute movies, and sometimes I can't even remember what I dreamed about. So, last night I dreamed about Tasn, I played with a ball with her, and later on I realized why she was here. She was on a short visit to see me, but I didn't saw Saf though. While playing with her I kept thinking that I have to hold her or hug her before she will go back again. I miss hugging or hold her. I didn't got the chance to hug her cause I woke up before I wanted to do that. Sigh! Today I miss you a bit more Tasn, mwah, I love you! I wish I could hug her one more time.


I totally forgot to say what happend to me a few days ago. While I was on my way to the grocery shop and past the libary, I saw someone formaliar, it was Arie! Remember him? The second day when I was back in Holland, (January) after I have been throwen out of the house from Jo and his wife. Jo and his wife were the ones who wanted to give me a place to stay for three months, but after one day they already threw me out. (remember?) Anyway, the second day I was at my Dad's place and was trying to find a place for my own. While doing that I was visiting some friends I didn't see in a long time, Arie was the first to visit. 


Arie wasn't home but his parents were, it was nice to see them again, but at the end of the visit they were a tiny bit rude, "It's better for you to come here not that often," said Arie's Mom. "You have choosen to go to Canada, and now you have problems, and we can't help you with that," she continued. I wasn't even asking for help, I just wanted to show my face. I used the computer there for a bit, not even 5 minutes, just to message Saf and other friends what happend after my plane landing. "it's time to go now," said Arie's Mom. 


And I went and decided not to come back. They were rude and unkind, I wasn't even planning to come that much. Now after almost 3 months not have showing my face, I saw suddenly Arie! My first thought was "hide." Then I thought, Where to? Ah, never mind." I spoke to him for a while, explaining him what all happened. He was okay, and I confronted him aswell about his Mom. Not that much, but I felt I had to mention something about it. Arie took it well, and the talk continued. Still I'm not planning to visit him and his parents, maybe in the near future. I will see, first I got other things to do. 


Again I went out for a little bit, this time with Johannus, and his Son, and Frank. We went to a friend of Johannus who likes to go fishing. We all sat at the water and Johannus's Son had his new fishing gear with him. A present from his Dad. Ofcource we had a few drinks with us, after 2 bottles I stopped with drinking. Watching fishing was fun, I had a nice time. Afterwards we went to Johannus's room, his youngest kid was sleeping and the other one was about to go to bed. Another drink was offered and Johannus's girlfriend was obliviously not amused  about it. 


Frank was more then tipsy and was talking bollocks, some other guys who were with us were loud aswell. I wanted to go cause I was tired and disliked some people's behaviour. Johannus offered me another drink and I said, "I had really enough, thanks." Still they put the bottle of beer infront of me, I drunk half of it, and toldd them all, Im going, I need my sleep. Another guy was going aswell, my luck. I dislike drunk people, and I'm actually starting to dislike that 'though/macho' behaviour aswell. 

Tomorrow I might take things on another level, I'm so not like these guys here, I wish they could change there behaviour. Being with alone, I mean under four eyes, man to man, there really friendly. But if there under each other they all start to act tough and macho. Ugh! But anyway! If I really one to be a good friend with these guys,I need to act with a different pose, and change my behaviour. Act totally differnt then I'm actually am, and I'm sure NOT gonna do that!