Wednesday boost!
My full agenda today went pretty good, two appointments spread over the day. In the early morning there was the 'breathing' therapy, the therapy goes well. Thought it's mostly the same over and over. We (my therapist and I) practice together my/our exercises it's mostly breathing exercises. Breath in and breath out, sometimes trough my stomach or sometimes trying to create more space for my breathing while I breath. Today we did the shoulders, it's actually quit interesting that when you tilt your shoulders a bit more backwards, you can create more space for the breathing. Wisest lesson today was that I have to create more space in my upper body for my breathing, stomach, shoulders, inhale properly and breath OUT! I wrote out in cap locks cause breathing out has to be huge, let it all out.
Second appointment today was counseling, four
days after my Dad passed away I felt confused, sad and lost, didn't
know what to do or felt a bit anxious of what comes next. Then I went to 'counseling,' for
help, I thought, "Why not? I could use some help." Though the counselor
told me that I was way to early,they told me "Ofcource you feel sad, confused and lost, your Dad just passed away, he's not even buried yet." My grieving hasn't
even started yet back then. The counselor told me that he or another
counselor will get in contact with me in about six weeks. Those six weeks has already been passed along time, and I had that contact already six weeks ago, that contact with the counselor gave me a boost, it was a very
uplifting and positive appointment!
Today was the third appointment, it was the same as the second, uplifting and positive. This counselor can give you a boost, he's very interesting when he talks, he calms you. In the end I saw myself worrying about nothing much, it's normal to worry, everyone does. I
also brought up again the part of my social life and friends, just like I did with the last appointment, I'm just not that happy with
it. I really could use some 'new' friends, new social contacts. The
counselor told me to be patient, that will come. Don't force such things, he's right. He told me again, "I
see you as a very calm person." He told me aswell
that I can enjoy so easily the little things around me, not many people do that." "Hearing you saying that your going out on your own and have
fun on your own made me decide to say that."
After the appointment he wished me a success with the trip to Atlanta, and he wants to see me once again for a appointment in August. Not for counselling though, but he was curious about how it went in Atlanta, wow, what a guy!
