"So many people, so less time."
I could use a cuppa so I came with him, Ricardo had his plan spending time with me already planned. I promised him to have a bike ride with him and doing some grocery yesterday. After the coffee Ricardo had to go for a bit with his Mom and Dad, that gave me the oppertunity to have a good rest, in other words a nap. Around 12:00 I had a appointment with Paula, (counseler) we talked for a while but didn't had much news. Only I had a mail from Gak, and it told me that I had a appointment with them, it was about re-integration. Gak wants to look together with me what the possibillities are for re-integration/work. Well, I am already working at Reha and Reha is a kind of a re-integration project, this project will see what I'm able of to do and from there Reha will look for a job for me.
The funniest thing is now, I recently are in contact with a lady from Gak who does work together with Reha. (I told about this before)This lady wants to look for me for a certain kinda job what will be good for me and suits me, I talked with her already what my abillities are and what I'm able of. Now in the mail I got from Gak is written that I have a appointment with a lady who I don't know. Funny is that these two ladies, the one from Reha/Gak and the one from Gak are working for the same company Gak. Akward, and I don't need another re-integration company/factory, I'm good with Reha. But I will go to that appointment just to tell them I'm already taken.
The day went on and after my appointment with Paula I asked for a key to unlock the shed where Ricardo's bike was in, he has a really nice looking BMX bike. I used Paula's key and I saw Johannus standing by the door without Ricardo, he might be searching for me. I gave the key back to Paula and Paula said that the shed will be locked again by the night-guard. I went upstairs to look for bmx-Ricardo, I had my Ricardo/schedule/plan ready. Ricardo stood at my door and he asked me where I was, he knocked so many times on my door. I told him that I unlocked the shed where his bike was in, he was happy and we took off. He had money with him for the drink what we will buy, lol! I explained to him what he has to do while were riding the bike.
"Don't go ahead of me, always stay beside me on the right side, and don't take of," he understood it all and we took of. The riding went well and we drove quit a while, I was aware that we drove in the city on a saturday afternoon and that's a busy day with lots of traffic. But it went well, Ricardo asked me many time what WE are going to eat tonight, "WE, can buy that kinda food or that kinda food," he's was clever in his askings, so he could spend more and more time with me. But I longed for a evening for myself tonight, but we will see what happens. I had a good time with him though, even though he was hectic. After our drive we went to the grocery store, I needed my weekly food.
Ricardo wanted to buy drinks and I had to help him as usual, it was alright. We had a good time in the store, only he ask sometimes for some candy or free drinks, I have to refuse that sometimes, otherwise he will be asking it all the time. He bought a bottle od Sissi, and 4 cans of juice. While I payed my grocery I bought 2 Snickers aswell, he was a nice boy while ridding his bike, so yeah, deserved. Back at Humanitas I wanted to prepair my food but Ricardo offered me (again) to eat with him or his parents, I told him that tonight I will eat by myself, he can help me or eat with me with his parents food, but that's it. He wanted to help me but later on he took of, he started to go hectic, prolly his medication for his adhd was worked out.
I cooked alone and ated alone, Ricardo was playing everywhere, he seemed alright. Later on he went a bit naughty and his parents went mad. That's always the time when he goes bananas, (adhd-time) he curses and uses bad, bad language, and wants to throw things. Result? Angry parents and angry Ricardo. Within 20 minutes the storm was past and everything seemed normal. I went upstairs to sneak out for my "me" time, but 10 minutes later Ricardo knocked on my door. It was 8:00pm, he was sweating and breathing heavy, "I'm hungry and Mom doesn't want to make me any food cause I was naughty, and Dad is angry at me," he said, he cried a bit. Sigh! "I can't alway be there for him," I thought. I went with him to his Mom and she told me he was naughty and that he has to listen, she wasn't mad at him.
Ricardo insisted food, then he took off again with a hectic head. Sigh I decided to go to my room, knowing he would be there, and he was. I took him with me and layed on my bed for a while, I talked with him and we played some games. I told him that he can stay till 9:00 then I will bring him back. I letted him make some homework, the "Name 3 things what you want to change about yourself, " game. We made it a funny game, and it went alright. He calmed down and then I brought him upstairs. Ricardo has to listen to his Mom and Dad, and stop the bad language, I wish I could help him but it's tough sometimes, I have respect though for his Mom and Dad. This week I want to work on myself and Ricardo, he can't be with me all the time. I need aswell time for me and my important things.
I will be with him, but less, when I'm with him I will give him attention and will spend time with him, but less. I still love him, and I'm sure that this upcomming week will be better for me and Ricardo, I had a chaotic day but it was alright.
