Slow start this morning...

Slow start this morning... 

I surely didn't feel that well this morning, short breathed, a bit dizzy, and it felt like my stomach was in a knot. Stress? Nerves? Or something else? I don't know. The dizzy feeling I had last week aswell, not much but it was there. When I stood in rare position a bit to long, or sat to long and then suddenly got up, I had to hold myself. I have to take it easy these days, like my old Doctor always said, "Do what you can, and listen to your body." Sometimes the problem is... when I work I feel good, I feel satisfied, I like the things I do while working. I feel a achievements, and sometimes I over react while working. 'Taking to much hay on my fork,' as we Dutch people say, doing just a bit to much what I'm actually able of. I won't notice the pain though or that exhausted feeling, 'that' I will feel afterwards. But then it's to late.

Later today I felt a bit better, I felt relieved. Listening to your body is surely not that easy, when I feel not well, yeah, THEN it's easier, like this morning. I need my rest, I need to plan my rest on my 'off' days. Maybe I should start with yoga lessons, lol. It's busy at work, I like it though, though 'taking it easy' is a must aswell. Today I had to explain some work activities to a new worker, *Insert proud feeling, lol* The explaining went well, and easy. It made me think of the time when I had the same activity, and someone else explained it to me. I love my job, though sometimes it worries me, like today. I know we have it busy, and I know that sometimes some fellow workers are working over time. Though I really hope that the Boss won't ask me, cause I can't. Not with my sickness, I already work three days in the week, and that's all I'm able off.

The Boss asked me (when I signed the contract) if I was flexible while working, meaning, if they are really busy that they could ask me for an extra day. I told them, 'Yes, sure.' The Boss told me aswell that they will keep in mind that I'm only able off working three days only. So if I work a extra day, then I will be a day off the next week. Example, if I work four days in the week, (just for once a extra day) then I will be working the next week only two days. Last week I had a etra day, but this week I work three day, instead of two days. The extra day from last week was though, I needed fully rest. There will come a time (maybe this week) that I will have to refuse if they gonna ask me for a extra day, or perhaps working over time. Cause I'm just not able to do it, what worries me is that if I keep refusing that they perhaps will fire me.

Okay, when it's really busy, THEN I will think about it to work a extra day, but I hope it's not every week then. Sigh, so far so good, listen to your body Sjon! And stop worrying!