Friday, November 30, 2012

Looking for....

Looking for....

I'm looking again for 'new friends,' to achieve that I will have to start with finding perhaps volunteers work, join a club or sport, you name it. I have been writing about this probably more then twenty times I know. It's like every week I notice that it's really to get started with finding new friends. I have a few 'friends,' but I don't want to stuck myself on only those friends. These friends I have are not that trust worthy to say the least, plus you can't really count on them. And yet, it seems I can't do without them, I dislike that feeling, I want to get rid of that feeling.

The few friends I have are from Humanitas, I see them quit often during the free dinners in the week, and sometimes we have a coffee together. Sometimes aswell we make appointments, or we talk about going out. But mostly it just stays with the 'talking about it,' or with the making appointments. I think the first appointment still has to happen. Uhm, well, we had a few coffee moments together, but that was it. Tomorrow night there should be a 'visit' aswell at a friends house, but I almost bet that 'that' will be cancelled too, leaving me with a disappointed feeling.

I should not even be disappointed, but I am. I would love to have more opportunities, more friends to go out with or who I can visit. Ofcource they can visit me aswell, lol. This Friday has been okay, just did my things I had to do. Groceries and did my first load of laundry, tomorrow the last load. Tomorrow I will visit my Dad aswell, he needs new pants, so, that I will buy him tomorrow. Hopefully the coffee visit tomorrow in the evening will go trough, if not, well, then not. Disapointed then? 

Yeah, but, I think I will have to learn myself more that it's really okay to be on my own sometimes too, or go ourt on my own. Though it seems or it feels that I'm to much alone, but that's not true. My 'Buddy project' counselor wants to learn me that, I think that's a good thing. Ofcource I'm perfectly fine when I'm on my own sometimes, I love it, Even when I go out on my own I'm good, but just that sometimes going out with a group of people or going on a visit, feels pretty good too. I noticed that. I need more of that, then I'm complete, happier, lol.

Thursday, November 29, 2012

Hunting for warm sheets and perhaps warmer blankets tomorrow.

Hunting for warm sheets and perhaps warmer blankets tomorrow.

Just like last night and the night before I had it cold in bed, even with more then enough blankets. The thing is I don't like to get spoiled already with the warmth while laying in bed, I mean, last night it was minus one, and I was already covered with three thick blankets, what will happen when it will be minus 10 or minus 15? I asked today for advice at work, and yesterday on Facebook. 

Would like to know what kinda sheets or blankets to get, to get warm enough while sleeping. I don't have to swet during the night and I don't want to be covered with several blankets that it will become to heavy. Oh, I wish one blanket will do, imagine, one light blanket that's just warm enough, even with minus 15 or worser. Tomorrow I will search for some sheets and ask for advice for blankets. 

I know already a few stores where I can find some nice sheets in my city, actually looking forward to it. I think I will start of with buying flannel sheets, if I can find them. Today's work was fine, busy it was, but I managed as usual. Again I worked on another section. I missed a bit my own section, but oh well, perhaps next week. Tomorrow's a off day, not extra work, I'm happy with that.

Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Christmas blues?

Christmas blues?

Yeah I had them tonight, just that little sad or lonely feeling, I really hope my Christmas will be good. I hope the invites I had from my few Humanitas friends will go trough, they invited me to come dining with the first day of Christmas, perhaps the second day aswell. These friends want to go out before Christmas aswell, visiting a Christmas market or something like that. There is enough to do. I would be disappointed if the invites and suggestions are being cancelled, sure there can come reasons that they have to cancel it, but I hope it is a fair reason then. Yeah, those are my friends from Humanitas, you never know it with them. Oh well? Yeah, oh well. Today was actually a fun day, I rested in the morning, and in the afternoon I had plans to get me a Christmas tree and a few groceries, and then of to the free dinner. 

At the garden centre with Ina, she was the one who took the picture. Yeah it is a garden centre but as you can see they have a lot more. Love this store.
Though, right after my nap and lunch Ina messaged me, she wanted to drop by for a visit.That was okay, she lives near and yes, she is a old resident from Humanitas aswell. Ah, you know her. Always nice and fun to spend time with her, I told her what my plans were for this afternoon, she asked me if she could join me. Yes, sure, love it. Together we drove our bikes to the nearest garden centre, always handy when your almost neighbors with a garden centre. Now, I got me a nice tree, it is a fake one and the tree is not green, yeah I let you guess. Next week I will put up a picture or two, cause then I will put my fake brown tree up. I had fun with Ina at the garden centre, we grabbed a coffee with cake aswell, and talked alot. Good fun. More of such friends please, lots more.

Tuesday, November 27, 2012

Christmas tree tomorrow.

Christmas tree tomorrow. 

Yes, I'm getting a tree tomorrow, though I won't put it up yet. It's way to early for that. Two reasons I got for getting a Christmas tree already tomorrow, one, I'm buying one cause otherwise they might be sold out, and two, I'm just excited about getting one. I saw a nice one last week, it's a nice little one, it's white and has red lights. It's a fake tree, so once bought, I don't have to buy one the coming ten years or longer.

Nice day at work, it was the second day that I worked on a different section. It's okay though, I have been on this section already many times, it's not such heavy work as my own section. Though I missed my own section a bit today, but oh well, I had fun. They talked about extra works aswell, extra work on Friday again. It's fine with me, though only a half day, otherwise I will break in two, lol.

Could you believe it's almost December? Time flies by so fast, within three weeks we already celebrate Christmas. I haven't got any settled plans yet, but there are plans to visit some friends I know from Humanitas. I can spend a whole day there they said. I will just see what comes, these friends have been inviting me lots of times, but then they cancel it again. So yeah, let's see what happens this time. I hope it goes trough, being alone with Christmas is never nice.

Monday, November 26, 2012

"Permanent contract."

"Permanent contract."



What a great day at work, in the early afternoon my Boss took me to her office, she smiled. Once a year every worker at our job get a little 'over hearing,' You get to hear what the 'staff' think of you, you can aswell say something, for example if you have any complains or what you like to see on the work floor, just anything what concerns work. It was my first over hearing, and I wasn't even worried, well, maybe a tiny bit then. I like such over hearings, It's nice that the workers and staff negotiate with each other sometimes.

I sat down in my Boss's office and we went trough a piece of papers together, it was actually a 'permanent contract' paper, what I didn't know off. She told me later, she told me that 'they' were very happy with me as a worker. I can work well together in a team, (that's new for me to hear) I'm motivated and I'm very willing to work, (that's new for me aswell to hear) what's going on with me. My Boss offered me a permanent contract, starting 1 January 2013!

I didn't know what to say, I really didn't expect this, honest! I was more thinking of another half year contract or a zero hour contract, that's a contract where 'they' can send you home when there's not much to do, and call you up again when it's busy again. But, no! A permanent contract, in your face, lol. Wow, what's going on? I changed so much in the last one and a half year. I wasn't like this before I went to Canada, work? Hmm, naah, I'm fine like this, those were my thoughts back then.

I love this job, I love the work I do, and it shows. It shows when I work, I work steady, firm, handy, and willing to learn alot. This permanent contract is such a relief, I was worried for a long time that I would be fired, just unsure how long this half year contract would last. And that's not a nice feeling, not a nice thought aswell. Though I want to learn more, but everything in time, hasting things is not working for me. That's what my Boss told me aswell, they want me to explore myself, try more difficult things, learn things. Yay!

Sunday, November 25, 2012

"Christmas mood."

"Christmas mood."

Not yet, but soon I will get in a Christmas mood. After the 5th of December I will put my tree up, I think I will buy one this week. I saw a nice one in the garden centre here in the city, the garden centre is near my home, not even a five minute bike ride. It's a white, kinda small tree with red lights in it. I think I will get it this week cause otherwise they will be sold out. Yeah, I want a awkward tree, cause I don't like a standard tree like everyone else is buying. Sometimes I like to be different, lol.

It's gonna be a busy week at work I think, there will be a huge order from 300 little mats. It is possible to make them in one week, but as usual the material is not done one time to make the mats, or a machine has a disturbing, or other orders have to go first. I feel a working a day extra is coming in the end of the week, I don't mind though. I haven't planned anything this up coming weekend. Though a visit to my Dad is needed, he needs new pants.

Last week I didn't had time, I excused myself to my Dad's nurse, and she told me that it's alright and that the pants can wait. Such a nice agreement with Dad's nurse and me, just like I want it. It's the total opposite with my Aunt. Yeah, my Aunt, I haven't heard from her since she tried to call two weeks ago. She mailed me a "silly" letter and I answered it firm and blocked her afterwards. Such a good feeling, it's been enough, I'm proud of myself.

Saturday, November 24, 2012

Picture time!

Picture time! 

A very nice day today at the collectors fair, it was grey, misty and later on rainy today, but inside the fair it was cozy, warm and nice. Perfect! I left early this morning, earlier then I planned. I'm glad I did cause the train was already packed with people, all headed out to the fair? Yes and no, most of them, yes. I arrived nicely on time in Utrecht, that's the city where I had to be. Utrecht is only a little 30 minutes away from Amsterdam. 

The fair was nice and interesting, usually I only visit the hal what is filled with cd's, lp's singles, dvd's and merchandising, but I decided to watch the other halls too. Antique, retro, collectors items, you name it, it was there. I bought a few cd's and one mug, yep a mug again, lol. Confession today: I felt happy and satisfied the whole day, and that's a nice feeling


A misty morning when I was on my way to the train station. Nice vieuw though.




Arrived at the biggest collectors fair in Europe, as they say. It was quit busy, I stood in line for a little 30 minutes.




A little rebuild car, it was actually rebuild into a juxebox.


Just look at it, they did such a good job. 

Beatles merchandising ofcource! 

A Marilyn Monroe doll on top of a stand. 


A huge wall made of only lp's, this wall was huge, on the otherside of the wall the same amount of lp's.





















 The only books I would like to read, music books.

Just one of the thousands stands on this fair, crats full of lp's and singles. 

I saw this guy listening to his just bought music, he has a little record player with him to listen to it. 


The amount of toys on this table was crazy, it couldn't even fit in the picture.

As everytime on this fair, there's a special Star Wars section, and ofcource there are Star Wars figures. 

Nice right? 

I like the girl in the brown outfit, I know, I'm not a fan, cause I don't even know the 'brown' caracter's name. 

 The whole Star Wars figures crew. 

 Time to leave the music hall, time for antique and retro.

I loved watching these itmes... some brought also memories back. Memories of my youth, cause I saw alot of itmes my Mom or Dad use to use. Or what we had as a decoration in our house.

Vroom, vroom! Look at the price of this beauty. 

 Collectors items! 

One of my favorite stand was this African stand, this is all self made, by a African couple. I could tell they were proud. 


African self made masks, wow! 

African statues, aswell self made. 


Kinda creepy aswell, voodoo?! 

Cuteness 100%! Don't know why I like this, do I become a old fart? lol! 

I saw this potrait on a stand, and a guy came towards me and told me that the owner of this stand painted this potrait. I looked and I saw a young girl sitting there, I think she was not even 20 years old, wow! She does other potraits aswell. 

Dutch humor on the fair, dog with a cap. 

After the fair I decided to walk a bit trough the city of Utrecht, but not long cause it was rainy and grey, yuck! 


On my way to the train station I saw this tunnel for bicycles.

I could not resist, here's another Beatles cup!




















On my way back to Almelo I grabbed a donner kebab sandwich at the trainstation, just like I already had planned this morning. The sandwich filled my stomach, I wanted two at first but decided to take just one instead. I had a nice day, and it was aswell nice being back in my own place and villa.

Friday, November 23, 2012

"Grey day."

"Grey day."

No sunshine today, it was a grey day. The rain started just before lunch time, it was alright. While I write this I just woke up from a good nap, best naps are when you wake up and fall back to sleep again, and then wake up again and again fall asleep. I guess I was tired and needed a nap. Today was okay, in the morning I did my laundry and in the afternoon I did groceries. I walked towards the groceries shop, it's not even a 10 minute walk from my house. Today is prepair day for tomorrow's day out, I will be heading out tomorrow to the collectors fair, there's also a part that's filled with music items, such as cd's, singles, lp's and merchandising. 

The hall filled with music!

It's now still empty but have a look tomorrow, oh my!

This giant wall full with records will be hanged up high on to the ceiling.

First I wasn't that excited to go but today it's started. Even this morning I was thinking, "Shall I go or not?" Me being weird, lol. You know what, I like music and love to watch and listen to it. But recently I don't listen to the radio, my cd collection has been growing but I actually almost never put a cd on. Don't know why.When I'm cooking I turn on the radio mostly, but otherwise never. I think that has got to change, why do I own a radio for then? Why did I buy it? Silly goose, turn on your radio!  I need a new cable/antenne for my radio, so I can listen to more radiostations. That will bring a change to my 'I don't listen to the radio' feeling. Yeah!

Thursday, November 22, 2012

Finally...

Finally...

Finally my trip to France is booked and payed. When I got back from work and the free dinner I checked right away my emails, and yes. I received the email I was waiting for, it was a friendly email, I even get back a 209 Euro back cause the trip to France is cheaper then the trip to Copenhagen. The trip to Copenhagen has been cancelled, I booked another trip to Paris in France. Though to be really, really sure I will call the agency once more tomorrow, as the way I am, lol. I was kinda worried today, though the amount of work took my thoughts away. It was here and there busy, but I managed to get the orders done for today.


I'm actually excited to go to Paris, I never been there, so let's see what it is. I have been to Berlin, London, and now Paris, sounds nice. I'm still reaching for my goal to fly next year, I want to fly again next year, that's my goal. I miss it, I miss it terribly, lol. Plans for the weekend? I'm almost sure that I will go to Utrecht, there's a huge record fair event, actually it's a collectors fair, the record fair is a part of the collectors fair. Tomorrow will be a rest day, getting things done aswell, groceries, laundry and naps. I think a few naps tomorrow will do me good.

Wednesday, November 21, 2012

Going to Paris..... But not yet!

Going to Paris..... But not yet!

My trip to Copenhagen was cancelled last night, so I had the option to get my money back or book another trip on the same month and date, I wasn't that worried cause this happened to me before. Last Summer my trip to Prague was cancelled too, aswell then I had the option to get my money back or book another trip, I booked another trip to Berlin. The booking wasn't a problem, it took a phone call and a few emails if I remember.

This time the booking for another trip is going so, so. I wish it was done and settled, so I don't have to sit in worries. What happened? It took a while that I received the email with the 'other trips,' I waited a whole morning. Then I decided to email them, within thirty minutes I got a email back with the 'other trips.' These 'other trips' were all New Years Eve trips, London, Paris, Prague and Berlin. 

I didn't choose Berlin, cause I been there last Summer, also not London cause I was there last year with New Years, Prague? Nope, afraid that it will be cancelled, lol, just like last Summer. So, Paris it was. I went to the site and booked the trip. The booking was simple, I did many times already. After the booking I received the confirming mail, as usual I will get another mail with the final confirming and the paying options. 


I sent a email to the agency to tell them that I booked an 'other trip, and asked them aswell how it will go with the paying now. Will I first get my money back from the cancelled trip from Copenhagen? Or will 'they' put that money in the trip to Paris, if that's so then I will get money back, cause the trip to Paris is cheaper then the trip to Copenhagen. Fair questions, right?

Though it took to long that I got an answer back from the agency, I decided to call them. A friendly man answered the phone, it took a while when he understood what we both were talking about. The friendly man saw in the computer that I had a phone call about the cancelled Copenhagen trip last night, he saw aswell that I booked an 'other' trip to Paris today. But 'that' trip has been taken out of the system, why? I don't know, the friendly guy didn't know either. 

Because he wasn't working on this item, the woman on the phone last night was working on this item, she aswell answered my email this morning, probably she wasn't done yet. The friendly guy told me that Alinna (the woman's name) will call or email me tomorrow with answers, Well, alright, sigh! I dislike it that it all goes so slow, why didn't she gave me right away clear answers? I would like to know what to do right away...

But it seems this takes time, me dislike, me want it settled right away after a phone call or an email. So far I didn't pay anything, but I have still payed for the cancelled Copenhagen trip, what's gonna happen with my money? That I want a answer on, plus I want my trip to Paris confirmed, that's all. Thank you.

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

Again!?

Again!? 

I got home after work, I putted my comfy clothes on and grabbed my food out of the fridge to cool it down a bit. I grabbed my laptop, sat down and turned it on, then my phone went off. Always before I grab it I'm always guessing who it might be, my Aunt? Dad's nurse? Work? I checked the number and it wasn't my Aunt, pffeeww, I was save and I answered it. It was the travel agency, and I started already guessing what they would say, trip cancelled perhaps? And yes, my trip to Copenhagen on the 28th December was cancelled. Why did I guessed this? Well, the cancelling happened to me before, remember Berlin last Summer? I booked a excursion trip to Prague and ended up in Berlin, the trip to Prague was cancelled too. 

The agency where I'm traveling with cancels excursion trips when there's not enough people for that trip, the amount of people have to be atleast more then 50 people, otherwise there will be a cancell. While the agency called me I already was thinking ahead what to say next and what to do, I want to know what to do to book a new trip, 



cause I will not stay home once I have it planned to go on a trip on a certain date. The lady helped me well and told me the options, she can send me a mail with new 'New Years' excursion trips, plus tips of what to do, how to book, etc, etc.  on other option was to just get my money back, but no, I didn't want that.

What bothers me most is that I want this 'little problem' settled as soon as possible, just to get it over with. I dislike that I have to call them over and over again, or mail them a ten times, just to get it done. I was happy with my settled trip to Copenhagen, glad it was done, it's been booked and payed. Now I have to start all over, pick a trip, look if the trip is not to expensive or to long, cause I have to be back on the 3th of January, my work starts then. I didn't receive the email yet from the travel agency, I will probably get it tomorrow. Hopefully. My goal is that I want it done by the end of the week, sounds good to me.

Monday, November 19, 2012

Laughs at work!

Laughs at work! 

I worked on another section today at work, I have worked there before so it was not strange. The fore man on that section is quit younger then me, and he's funny, I had many laughs with him. It was aloud today because our two Bosses our on a business trip to England. We looked for a good music channel on the radio and started working, oldies, pop, rock it was. The work on that section isn't that heavy, though we make mats aswell. We sang, made fun, and worked hard at the same time. I was exhausted afterwards, but I didn't know where from, from the laughs or from the work, or a bit of both.

The free dinner in the late afternoon was fun aswell, a nice bunch of people together. One of Janine's children celebrated his birthday today, (Janine is a friend of mine, I know her from other friends, who come from Humanitas) Last Saturday I bought Janine's Son a little gift, (as I do) though it was so difficult to get a nice present for him, what on earth do you buy a 11 year old? I bought a nice funny card with some candy. He was happy with it, and thanked me, aaaww, did me good! Beside it was Monday, it was a fun day!

Sunday, November 18, 2012

Full week ahead!

Full week ahead! 

I hope work this week will be gentle on me this coming week, cause Saturday I will (probably) be heading of to the record fair in Utrecht. Utrecht is a city near Amsterdam, Amsterdam is the capitol of Holland, Utrecht lays just beside it. I said record fair but it's aswell a huge collectors fair, anything what you can collect you can find it there. Old toys, old stamps, coins, collectors items, movies, antique and ofcource a huge extra hall full with cd's, lp's, singles, merchandise,  you name it. Though I'm not that excited to go as I use to was when I went there, I have been there several times. It's fun, exciting and nice, but if I have to skip it cause of work or something else, it will be fine too. I don't mind.

I don't know what work brings me this week, will it be busy or not busy? If I go to the collectors fair, I will need the Friday off, and not work a day extra. I need my rest before the fair, cause it's going to be a full day of traveling, walking, and looking around. I need to go to my Dad aswell this week or probably in the weekend, my plan is to go Wednesday. Dad needs more of the trousers I recently bought him, they are comfy and handy to put on. He has two of them now, Dad's nurse asked me if I could buy a few more. I told her yes, but it will be probably next week. Well this week is the 'next week.'

I could have gone this weekend, but this weekend I already spent quit some money. And those comfy trousers what my Dad needs aren't for free. The expensive month December is coming up to, Christmas, New Years, and the end of the year bills, (electricity, water, gas.) Although I'm having a job, that doesn't mean I'm filthy rich now, I come around and I like to keep some money behind for emergencies. So yeah, I think Wednesday will be the day I visit Dad, if possible. And Saturday probably the collectors fair, if possible. I will just see what happens this week, one thing for sure is that I won't be bored, lol.

Saturday, November 17, 2012

"A tree or not a tree, that's the question."

"A tree or not a tree, that's the question." 

Last year I didn't feel to put up Christmas decorations with Christmas, this year I might. Last year I wasn't in the mood to do it, it was totally different being on your own with no Family members celebrating Christmas then celebrating Christmas with friends and Family in Canada. In Canada with Saf and her kids celebrated Christmas huge, buying each other gifts, decorating the house and putting up the tree, it made me think and feel like a ol' fashion good Christmas celebration. The ones we had while I was still a kid, I loved it. Last year I was alone, though I didn't mind it that much. I just didn't feel like putting a tree up or decorate the house while just being on my own. 

Yes, I had a few Christmas dinners and I had my gifts from my both jobs, that was all okay. Plus the excitement I had that I would celebrate New Years eve in London. It was all good, though it was not yippee, yippee, yeah it's Christmas in my house. Plus add a bit that 'lonely' feeling what I had during Christmas, you know what I mean. This year I will probably put up a tree I think, just a little one, and perhaps a few decorations. They have to be funny, they have to be crazy and make a smile on my face or another, lol. I'm planning a Christmas out aswell, perhaps a Christmas market with a few friends or alone. We have also plans to have dinner on the first days of Christmas, 'we' are a few 'friends' of Humanitas.

Plans can always change, I know, specially with the 'friends' I have, I'm actually keeping a eye on that, just getting no TO excited about it. I will be in Copenhagen celebrating New Years, no one is going to take that from me, it's booked, I'm only waiting for the original travel documents. That will be send to me a week before the take off, gosh, why not earlier? Today was a okay day, just being on my own and do the things what had to be done. My last little groceries, and I bought new hair clippers. The old one was not cutting my hair properly short, lol. I will go balder with the new one, time for a new look, yay!

Friday, November 16, 2012

TGIF?

TGIF? 

Yes and no, three days off is quit alot. But the rest is needed after a week of working and other bussy-ness. I'm actually a bit bored while I'm writing this, I think it's time to start again with looking for volunteers work or any other activities what I can pick up during the weekends, just to be around people and have something to do. The 'Buddy project' guy has been again today, (Johan) it was his third visit today at my house. And I must say, so far it has not been a success yet. Yeah, he's a very nice guy and wise aswell, he's a counselor aswell.Though,to be honest, I thought he would come with more ideas or give me 'things to do' what actually gets me started with activities or volunteers work, but no. Maybe I'm just being to un patience, I don't know.

 It's me actually who has to come up with activities, I will have to search them and look out for them. And Johan will support me with that, give me tips or guide me. In the first months I lived here in this house I did alot of searching for activities or volunteers work, week in and week out I searched, and even tried out things, (remember the radio work?) Though the last 5 or 6 months the searching took slowly  off, I think I was to busy with other things, like with my work for instance. I aswell gave it up I guess, I have been so busy with the searching that in the end I found out that there's not much to do in this city. Maybe I have to be lucky aswell, being on the right spot on the right time. 

Today I did my weekly grocerie shopping aswell, full bag this time, I don't mind. I will cycle anyway, even if it was two bags, lol.
As of today I will do my 'searching' again, looking for activities and volunteers work, just to get in touch with people, being around people. Maybe in the end I can make a few friends out of that, though that's not my goal, (hmm) no wait, that should not be my goal. The goal should be that I want to be happy with what I have, and what I do, or what I want. A house, work, money to come around with, a few friends (or alot, lol) and being social active during the week and weekends. Though it should be okay when I'm out on my own aswell, time for myself a 'me' time. Today has been okay, in the afternoon I went for a coffee visit to Janine, she's a 'friend.' A so called 'Humanitas' friend.

Yeah I have friends but there not actually the friends I want, or, I don't know. It's fun being around them, but it's aswell the only friends or relatives I have, maybe that's why it's fun to be around them. Cause I don't have anyone else, yeah, fellow workers perhaps, but, I don't know that either, lol. That's why the searching again, though it's fun being on my own aswell sometimes, like it should be. I noticed that it gives me a boost when I'm around people who I see weekly or daily. Let the search begin!

Thursday, November 15, 2012

Fails, I hate them, but it's okay.

Fails, I hate them, but it's okay. 


Making little mistakes at work, I dislike it THAT much, lol. Though it's okay I'm still learning. This week we had to make a huge mat, when we have a huge mat we devide the mat in parts, otherwise it's just to heavy to lift or to transport. This 'huge'mat had several different measures, so it was quit a bit of a work to start with this mat for me. I usually start with a mat, I connect the mat to each other, measure it and nail it together. Now the measuring is quit a job, the measuring has to be done perfect aswell. I started with this 'huge' mat Tuesday, I connected it, measure it and nailed it. Today I found out that the measuring I did wasn't good, though I measured it quit often, just to not make a mistake. But still... 

Just that sometimes I make that mistake, measuring is not always that easy. Today I just didn't understand how I made 'this' mistake, the mat was to short. It's easy to fix though, it's easy to make a mat bigger. It's just extra work, that's all. But I didn't get it, lol. I always say to myself when I make a mistake with the measuring, "Never again, I will measure it more often!" And so I did last Tuesday, I measured the mat several times, I was so positive that this was the right measure. So yeah, I was pretty surprised that the mat was to short, I was stunned and felt disappointed. Again I screwed up, lol. Now my second Boss comments me after making a mistake...

He does that on a way like he's being all funny with it, but aswell serious. It's quit confusing, in the end he's always saying, "I'm just kidding, it's alright, I can fix it. Ugh, be serious now, Boss, lol! I truly dislike making mistakes, though I learn from them.But really, the measuring has to be better. I'm not always mess up with the measuring, but when I do, ugh!! Other work I did went pretty well, no wait! Other work went damn good! lol, I did alot, I managed to finish alot of orders. There weren't many orders this week, but as always in the end of the week, surprise! Always a few orders more to finish them this week.

Lazy day...

Lazy day...

Waiting for a phone call is what I mostly did today, oh and I tumbled dry a wash and corrected some wires behind the TV. The phone call I waited for was from Social Services, they wanted to call me and explain the letter I received last week about a payment I have to do. Social Services never called... ofcource. I have to do a payment, that's easy, just fill in my bank number and my autograph and send it. I have to pay a sum of money back, the positive side is that I can pay in terms, every month a sum of money. Though the first term was pretty much, I don't why. 

That's why the phone call, though I sent the first term already this afternoon, I figured that they will pay me back if they made a mistake, otherwise I will let them pay.
That's why I don't like such letters, there's mostly something wrong with it, and mostly I have to go after it again. To set it straight or ask for more information, well, I have better things to do. Weather was nice today, lol, but I didn't get out much, yeah, the free dinner, and that was it.I'm not looking forward to tomorrow's work actually, I might get throwen for that 'mean machinee,' again, which I do not like. But oh well, let's just try it once more.

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

"Fail."

"Fail." 

This morning I was first placed on a machine I don't really like, ugh! It's a machine what makes mats automatically, uhm, well, not really automatically, you need to program the machine, push some buttons and a whole lot more. It's sure not heavy work, but my brain had to work overtime. I needed many things to remember, what to do when there's a disturbing, or what to do when the mat is done, etc, etc, etc, and etc. Before I was standing at the machine I told myself, "This is not gonna work, I can't do this." The fellow worker who helped me and explained me how this machine works told me, that 'that' is not a positive beginning, not the right attitude. "I know," I told him. Further I told him that I will try it and that I will see how it goes. 

"Relax and take it easy," the fellow worker told me, "It's quit easy when you know it, you'll have to get the know the machine, then it will go fluently." After a few disturbing (The machine got some starting problems) the machine did his job, then I stood alone behind the machine. After 20 minutes things were going wrong, many things. I didn't know what to do, yeah I stopped the machine, but how to fix this and continue? I didn't know, I tried, but without success. I knew myself, and I knew that this is going to be a awful day when they gonna let me stand behind this machine, lol. Disturbing after disturbing.

This is the kind of machine that you actually have to learn how to control it, or how to work with it. Some people are easy with this machine and get it right away after explaining, but there are aswell people who don't get it right away. There's to many handling's on this machine, to many things to remember, I could work with this machine, if someone stood beside me for a few days or perhaps a week. Just to see what I'm doing wrong or good, explain me things. But there isn't time for that, anyway. I went to the office and asked if I could do my own work again, that was alright. 

Though I had to debate this with a few other fellow workers, who was willing to take my work over... After a slightly heavy debate, (I guess the two workers who I had to debate with weren't in the mood for this 'machine,' lol) one worker went behind 'this' machine. I was relieved, but aswell I felt I failed, in my eyes I gave up to soon, lol. I stood before behind this machine and that was really not a success. Actually this morning went a tiny bit better. Though I gave up, it's not gonna work was my motto. Thursday I will stand again behind this machine says the schedule, I wanna try it again, trying not to give up, lol.

I did my own work today, the work what I always do, that went so much better. I'm actually getting better and better at 'that' work, I'm growing! Not looking forward to Thursday, but willing to try it, once again.

Monday, November 12, 2012

Day off....

Day off...

Awkward day today, well, a bit then, usually I work on Monday's but today was a 'free' day. Our Boss gave us all a day off cause it was his birthday. Though I didn't sit still today, I went to social services, sigh, and washed some windows outside, ouch! Social services sent me a mail with a message that my paying had started. I still had to pay a sum of money after social services  stopped the monthly paying when I signed my working contract. First I made a 'objection' on the paying, cause it wasn't my fault I had to pay this sum of money back, social services payed me this sum of money by mistake. I already had the 'objection/hearing,' but didn't hear the outcome yet. But outcome or not I still have to pay the sum of money back, and today the paying had started. 

I will probably hear the outcome Wednesday, then a person from social services will call me. Weird and awkward that the outcome didn't arrived yet, they told me at the hearing that it will take 6 days, but it's been already 3 weeks later. Sigh. I need a window cleaner, a window cleaner who will wash my windows twice or perhaps 3 times a year. The outside windows is a hell of a job to wash, specially when you live two high, lol. Though I managed the washing, don't ask how but I did it. With here and there a few stripes still left, but hey, I'm glad it's done. Tomorrow working again, wow, only two days working this week. Hmm, and hmm, I rather work then having a day off. Though today's been good. Had Kale with the free dinner, fresh kale with a huge meatball, really loved it. Monday's free dinner is the best.

Sunday, November 11, 2012

Tuned her out!

Tuned her out! 

Like I wrote yesterday about my Aunt, that she called again twice, once last week and once yesterday, I didn't answer both times. I didn't feel for arguing or even just talking to her, she probably forgot what has happened the last time when we spoke or write to each other. Or she didn't forgot but just wanted to ignore it and continue with me on her level. Yeah, right! All though it makes me angry or sad, I always try to give it a chance to solve it aswell, just like I tried last night. I wrote her back after she wrote me a email, she was asking me why I won't pick up the phone, and telling me all silly and awkward things about Dad or my Dad's nurse, just to get in touch with me or continue with me. Like nothing has happened. 

Waiting for the train this Sunday, I planned a visit to my Dad.
I explained her again in a email why I wasn't picking up the phone and explained her why I was mad. It was a good email I must say, firm written, clear words and right to the point. I was even friendly with her, trying to somehow stop this argue/fight. But, no, that's impossible with my Aunt. She's just twisted my clear words and gave me her own explanation, giving me the fault. (1) I HAD to message her when I buy something for Dad, (No! Cause that's a thing now between my Dad's nurse and me) She always wants to know 'things' when it comes to me and my Dad. Yes, she really takes care of my Dad, and yes, she arranges most of the things for my Dad, I'm  really thank full for that... 

The colors of the tree's were so nice today...
And I don't want to change that either. Though I don't like the way how she involves me in this process. (2) She told me aswell that it was to easy to talk about what was happened with the bad and insulting mail my Cousin (my Aunts Son) sent me a few months ago.  (Yeah, that mail hurted me, and Aunt just ignored it and accused me of something totally different) (3) She accused me that I didn't know how sick my Uncle was (my Aunt's Husband) while having my Dad's birthday in August, ( I wasn't blind or deaf Aunt, I really could see that my Uncle was sick, you called me a thousand times to make that clear) I replied to her email shortly, explained her again firm and wise, but, no success.


She mailed me once again with her saying, "Thanks for the mail. I never lie,we  think you are weird, and everyone in our Family are thinking the same, you probably don't think so, but it's the true. You live your life as you wish." She sounded childish, even Google translate couldn't make a word of it. I replied one more time back and then I blocked her from my Hot mail. I told her, "About me being weird, the Family has probably heard that from you gossiping THAT  around, without talking to me first, have a nice Sunday." I'm tuning her out. It might worry me a bit in the first place, but I will get over that. Today's Dad's visit was short. Just like I had planned yesterday, today was a visit day to Dad. 

Waiting for the bus towards home...
It was a nice trip, I had to take the train and the bus, cause at some place there weren't riding any trains. I actually was looking forward to this short trip, lol. Train trip and bus trip in one, yay! The weather was gorgeous, sunny weather and not even cold, see the pictures. On my way I bought flowers for Dad, and I had my lunch with me. Dad always has his dinner around 12:00, that's the time I always visit him. So that we can eat and chit chat with each other, aswell 12:00 is a very nice time to avoid my Aunt. When I arrive I always look at the parking lot, to see if my Uncle's car is there. Just to be save, ugh! It was a nice day but aswell a bit of a sad  and awkward day, I need more friend or relatives around me for sure.

Saturday, November 10, 2012

To answer or not to answer...

To answer or not to answer...

Last week on a Saturday night my cell phone went over, I grabbed it and saw the phone number who was calling, my Aunt! Wow, that's been a while, yeah it was the 'grumpy' Aunt. My first reaction when I saw my Aunt's number was, "Nope, I'm not gonna answer." I layed down the phone and continued what I was doing, relaxing on the couch. Ofcource I start to think, "Maybe somethings wrong with my Dad." Or, "Why would she suddenly call again?" Or, "I'm sure that my Aunt would talk like nothing has happened, ugh!" I didn't was in the mood for talking to her, like nothing has happened, I'm sure I would get a speech again, if I would bring up what happened a few months ago. (I was done with my Aunt commanding me what to do if it comes to my own Dad, I couldn't even visit him whenever "I" want or could. So I said something about it in a mail and sent it to my Aunt, my Cousin responded not very polite...

He insulted me badly and in the end he considered me as a no-Cousin anymore) Tonight my cell phone went again, same number, it was my Aunt, again I didn't respond. She called once again and again I didn't respond. For the same reason, I didn't want to speak to her. Just knowing her that she will talk like nothing has happened, and that we just continue on the same level? Naah, I'm perfectly fine the way I am now with Dad, way better then before. Tomorrow I will visit my Dad, I think it's the first time in a long time I visit him on a Sunday. About my Aunt, I know there will be a time that I will have to pick up the phone and talk to her, I think it's better to not wait to long with that. If I wait to long the talking will only get worse or more difficult. I can hear my Aunt already calling, "Why don't you answer the phone?" Well, think a bit harder Aunt! 

Today was a so so day, I wanted to go on a coffee visit to a friend, but she cancelled it. She went to the hospital yesterday and today she was in pain, bless her. I took it easy in the morning, just before lunch I did a quick wash up and took off. I decided to have a lunch in the city, Subway was on my mind. Subway recently opened a store here in Almelo, yes! I loved Subway in Canada, footlong sandwiches. I ordered a 'beef half foot sandwich, no spicey items, veggies plus honey mustard sauce and a coffee aside. Then to the market for beets, I wanted to try fresh beets, and you can't buy them here in a store, so. Oh the beets were so cheap, I bought 3 huge ones for only 70 Euro cents, woot! I want to make it a standard now to have fresh veggies or fruit at the market. Cooking the beets was new for me, I looked up a recipe and started.  
  
The beets needed 45 minutes for cooking, damn! And I didn't have a decent pan aswell, the only big pan I had I needed for the potatoes. The cooking although went fine in a bit smaller pan. As a first time 'beets cooker' I forgot the vinegar, so the beets tasted a bit to sweet, I like them more sauer.But I didn't do bad as a first timer, the second time will be better. These beets were huge, better to get smaller ones next time.

Friday, November 9, 2012

Am I ready?

Am I ready? 

Tonight I asked myself if I was ready for a relationship again, answer is, I don't know. But I thought about it, I asked myself just out of the blue. Why don't I know if I am not ready yet? Cause I just don't know. Am I willing to try a relationship? Hmm, I might. I think it's best to let God decide that, lol. When it happens it happens, and when it happens it's perhaps God's will. Yeah, that's it. If a relationship would happen could I handle it? I don't know, lol. I think I will be nervous, nervous to make mistakes, (again) But that's just my thinking, who knows it will go fine, I'm wiser, wiser after my first relationship. No offense to Saf, but I learned alot from my first relationship, that's a positive and a good thing. We will just see what's gonna happen in the future, if a relationship happens, I will embrace it with both hands.

My 'Buddy project' buddy Johan came to visit me this morning for a appointment, around 10:00 he came and we started to talk trough the things from this week. The conversation went fine, we talked about a few things and afterwards he gave me a few things to do for the next week. I was planning to visit a Christmas market next month with a friend, but I haven't had the guts to ask my friend or confirm the trip to the market. Johan asked me to do it next week, I will try, hehe! My friend has a low budget and the trip to that market is.. uhm.. payable but hmm... I don't know it's payable for her. I just don't wanna go alone, this time. I really like to do something with someone this Christmas.. Last year I was fine being alone with Christmas, but this year I want to spend time with people.

Worked a half day today, it was nice when I walked into the factory at 11:30, mostly everyone greeted me, nice. My second Boss greeted me already when I was putting my bicycle away, lol, he banged on the windows like a little child, "Hey Sjonnie, hey!!" Funny guy! We managed to finish that order from yesterday, lots of work and heavy lifting, but we did it. Now it's the weekend for me, my next working day will be on a Tuesday, we have the Monday off, yay!

Thursday, November 8, 2012

Tired and in need of rest this weekend.

Tired and in need of rest this weekend. 

Worked hard today, and I was already feeling sleepy in thee morning. I got up this morning just a bit to early, it was 4:30 am, I setted my alarm at 5:15 am. I figured, I might get up now, I'm totally awake. But, within 30 minutes I felt sleepy again. I couldn't go back to sleep then, it was already late to do that. There was alot to do at work on our own section, working on another section has made that 'we' left our own orders that had be done this week or next week. I knew that this would happen, but oh well.

I managed almost to finish a order half  today, if I would have worked harder then usual, it would have been done. But, hey, I'm not able to. If I would have worked harder then I would have been in pain, and not able to work tomorrow aswell,it's just a half day but still. Yeah, I'm working a half day tomorrow, just to finish a order. That means I will have to change a few things on my schedule this up coming weekend. I was about to go to my Dad this Saturday, that I will do on a Sunday now. 

Why? Jut that I need a resting day after a working day, let's say a day that I won't do that much. Saturday will be that resting day, Tomorrow, (Friday) I will get my 'Buddy contact' Johan in the morning, he will come around 10:00. When he's done with the visit I will slowly take of to work, probably, maybe I will do a little groceries shopping aswell, I need food/dinner for Friday eve'. Saturday I will do the 'major' groceries shopping, it'll be easy. I'm happy with the Monday of day, our Boss celebrates his birthday, so he gave us all a day off. 

That's perfect. Not everyone was happy with the day of on a Monday, like, what is there actually to do on a Monday? They would rather have the day of on a Friday, oh well. My planning/schedule is complete for the weekend, it will be a 'easy going' weekend. Maybe a little more house holdings between the free hours, I will see.

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

Re-elected and relieved!

Two Posts in one...

I totally forgot to write a post yesterday, so here it is... 


Elections! 


I'm actually quit excited about the US elections today, very curious who's gonna win. Not that I follow it every second or minute, but just the excitement around it. People who vote and the reasons why they vote, or people who don't vote, and their reasons why. I hope the man on the picture above wins, he's calm and brings rest upon people. He loos laid back but aswell firm with his words, he hasn't finished his job yet, he just started. He may finish his job from my part, he has my vote. Though I think it will be a close finish between Romney and Obama, let's see what happens tomorrow.

Today was a day you can compare with yesterday, worked at the same section, same bussyness. Wow we made alot of mats today, good job on us. I noticed that I talk alot more then I use to did these last two days, I like that. It gives a good feeling, yeah, I think I said that aswell yesterday, I think. But oh well, I'm at the right place, with a bunch of nice people. Tomorrow's a day off, a resting day. It's surely a must, oh yes. Sleep in and here and there a few house holdings. I might go out again for lunch again, just like I did last week in the garden centre. 

Though I won't go to the garden centre again, perhaps a little restaurant or a little pub, I'll see. 

Re-elected and relieved!


I'm happy and relieved that Obama won the elections, he hasn't finished his job yet, now he can. I'm excited and curious how the next four years with Mr. Obama will go, I'm sure it will be a tough job with uphills and downhills. But more then the half of the American citizens are having his back, let's do it America, show the world you can!

What a busy day today, not!! Yeah, I really didn't do much today. I washed one wash and that was actually it, most of this Wednesday I rested. In the late afternoon I went out to a few 'friends' of mine who recently have a new house. They lived for many, many months at Humanitas, now there finally on their own. Though it will be tough for them, it's a couple and they lived separated at Humanitas. 

Almost without help from Humanitas 'them being stubborn!`they managed to find a place to live, and now being back together without any counseling and other help it will be tough. But anyway, they had it nice where they live. It is a flat and they live on the second floor. After the visit we both went to the free dinner for a nice meal, afterwards it was heading home again. Work is calling tomorrow, gotta be full of energy and well rested.