I could spend each Mother's day in sorrow.
Crying and wishing you were here,
But instead I choose to celebrate your life.
I know you'd rather see me smile,
Then stand here with tears in my eyes.
So I'll do my best to honour your memory,
And you'll live as long as I am alive.
And that's the true, it's been almost 13 years since my Mom passed away, the mourning has gone, the missing has taken a place. Sure I miss my Mom, but to weep and be sad doesn't bring my Mom back. She rather see me be happy and be successful. Everyone passes away sometimes, everyone gets their turn. My Mom passed away young as I may say, she was 67, she was healthy and was mostly busy with being a house wife and a tremendous Mother. Mom was always there, Dad was working during the week. Weekends we mostly went out, to the market or just buying groceries.
I spent more time with my Mom then my Dad, ofcource, my Mom was always there, 24 hours a day. Like I said, Dad worked during the week. Dad was a hard working man, and need his rest afterwards. So is it a sad day for me when it's Mother's day? Not really, yes I miss her, but there's no pain inside, today I thought about her, thinking of the memories. Not a tear or sad face, just thinking. It will be otherwise when it's Father's day, Dad passed away recently. The missing and sadness is still there, though much less then let's say a month ago. Just like with my Mom, 'that' will get a place aswell.
Still it's quit a awkward feeling having no parents, when I think of it it's pretty... uhm, shocking(?) It's aswell quit normal, right? I'm surely not the only one without parents! Though I guess I still have to get used to the idea. I'm good though, and it's all okay. I want to make them proud, it's like when I do something what makes me proud, I have the feeling I did it also for my parents, to make them proud. It gives me a boost!
