I wonder if this month is gonna be a good festive month for me or not, ofcource it's all in my hands, I know. It's all up to me to make it a month that I never will forget. On New Years eve I'm good, I will be in Paris then. Excited? Uhm, yes, just as excited as I went on my trip to Berlin, I really don't know what to expect. Last year with New Years I went to London, I was pretty excited about that, cause I knew it would be a great trip, but Paris? Yeah, it's gonna be good. And with Christmas? With Christmas I will be out aswell, I will spend time with a few 'friends' from Humanitas. "If!" it's going trough, cause these friends have been promising things and invited me many times the last two months, but in the end it mostly ended up being cancelled.I almost got used to it.
I should search for alternative things to do with Christmas, last year I didn't do a thing, and I was fine with that. So why am I excited and kinda worried about it now? Cause there are plans with other people, and I hope that 'that's' going trough. I should relax about it, and just let it go as it goes. If it's not going trough, well? Then not. I noticed that I more worried about things then let's say last year, just little things. I should stop that and just relax about those things. Easier said then done, I know. It's gonna be a great festive month, so there! I will be sure to make it festive. Will try to be not festive on my own, but with others. Though on your own should be fine too. I need to learn that more, being on your own and having that 'It's okay' feeling about it.
