Earthquake and Tsunami...

Earthquake and Tsunami...

Another Earthquake and a following tsunami hitted Japan, more then 90 people have been confirmed dead. And there will be lots more, it's unreal if you think about it. It's unreal aswell if you see the scary pictures or movies taken by cell phone or camera. What an incredible power has our nature, and then you ask yourself why this, what have they done to deserve this? At the time when I'm writting this there are still aftershocks in Japan, and the tsunami is hitting Hawaii, Australia, New Zealand, Hawaii, Guam, the Philippines, the Marshall Islands, Indonesia, Papua New Guinea, Nauru and Micronesia. May God be with them!

While I'm sitting here writting this post, there are people trying to save there own lives or other lives in Japan, can you imagine that? I'm trying to switch over from this tragic news to how my day went today, well, I have been following this horrible news and (here comes the switch, ready?) I have been eating pancakes. Some guys here at Humanitas organized a 'pancake afternoon dinner,' everyone one had to fill in on a paper how many they want and what kind. There were panckes with cheese, bacon, or apple, but aswell just plain ones. I had the plain ones and added syrup or jam on it.

The pancakes were thin so, I ated 7 of them, they were nice. But again, they were all sitting in the smoking area, cooking and eating while some others were smoking. Thank god some windows were open, I guess it will always a bit of an issue with me that smoking. I'm not complaining to them though, only in my thoughts, LOL! It was a nice day, not cold and sunshine, I did my grocery later on and took another 15 Euro of my weekly money. (40 Euro) I'm saving money for myself. And as last, I signed in at another Housing Corporation in Almelo, that's my third one. These corporation will also help me find a house for rent, I have to call them back next week Friday. 


How are my thoughts lately? My thoughts about Canada, Saf and her kids. Sometimes I don't even think of them, or I don't have the time to think of them. I'm busy and do alot of things at the moment, and now when I have this work 3 days a week, it's even more bussier. This 'not thinking of them' is good for me right now, it keeps me going what I have to do. Ofcource I will never forget them, and ofcource I have my moments sometime when I think of the kids and Saf. But it does hurt less now,I  still feel a bit pain of missing them. 


When I think back at the three years I was in Canada, it looks like the three years are getting shorter. Or is it that I'm so busy with things that I forget the time I was there? It's an akward feeling, but deep in my heart I will never forget Saf and her kids, cause I spent many time with them and most of that time was good. And when it happens again  when I get that akward feeling, I just remind myself the first week I was in Missisauga until the last week in Barrie. While writting this, I get flashbacks, flashbacks of the first week I was with Saf and the kids. 


I still remember the first week I was in Canada, one day in the late afternoon Saf sent Mar, Tasn and me to the nearest gasstation, to buy a huge box of donuts and timbits. It was raining softly and Tasn was running and not listening, Mar walked beside me and talked with me, I was still a bit quiet and in my 'getting used to the family' mood. But it was a nice feeling walking with them and them accepting me. They will be never forgotten. When I think of them now it goes alot easier, it's without less pain in missing them. One day I will think of them and say to myself, "Yeah, that were nice  days." 


I'm feeling good and okay, and I will be feeling better and better when the time is right. When that time is there, I will try to search contact again with Saf and the kids. Ofcource whenever they are ready, just plain friendship. There is nothing wrong or creepy with that. We will see  how it goes, at the moment I would like to settle my life first. It might take a while cause I'm a perfectionist, LOL!  Love you guys!!