Happy Christmas!

Happy Christmas!

I slept only 4 hours and I was tired, the kids were still sleeping surprisingly. It was 9: 30 and we all decided to wake up. We woke up the kids and we wished everyone a happy Christmas. I wished Saf a happy Christmas aswell in her bedroom, Mar was with her. I apologized for last night, and she said, "Oh yeah, that was rude, I'm so gonna get you back on that, prepair for it". Saf responded it with a smiling face and I thought "It will be okay, and anyway, I deserve it" The kids woke up and were excited about the many, many presents. We gathered all around and started with unwrapping the gifts. Everyone was nice and it was good, everyone was happy with the gifts, Saf was nice and she thanked me for the gifts, she seemed to forgot the incident from last night. 

After a few hours the gifts were unpacked and the kids were playing with there toys. Saf went to bed cause she needed it, to much red wine last night? Lol! Tam, me and Dako played Monopoly. It was a long play but fun and so different then the Dutch Monopoly. It was a good day and we played a few games more. Saf woke up at 3:00 pm and we were still playing. There was not much going on and Saf seemed to forgot the incident from last night, she mentioned it as few times but was quiet in getting revenge. A little incident happened with Tam and me while were playing Monopoly for the second time. 

There was a thing (don't know how you call it) where you put your drinking glasses on so that it won't scratch the table. And that thing was turned around and it had metal, so it could scratch the (antique) table. Tam asked me "Did you put that thing the wrong way? you know you get scratches like that, right"!? I responded, "No,I didn't" (or I think I did, I can't remember.) "Yes you did" she responded, and she explained why and what can happen when you do such a thing. I got annoyed and told her "Okay, okay, I know it now. She went on and tried to made a point. (like she always does) I said sorry, but she went on, and then I said "Sorry" with a louder voice, and after that a bit more louder. 

Then she told me "Don't yell at me, I don't like when people do that". I said again "Sorry", but she wouldn't listen. I tried to talk with her but she just wouldn't stop. I walked away and said "Whatever." I sat somewhere else and let them play the game further. I was maybe annoyed because I wasn't winning the game so well, and the fact that Tam wanted to make such a point. Later on Saf asked me what happened, apparently Saf and Tam spoke to each other about the little incident. Saf was nice and I was surprised that she asked. I explained my side of the story and she responded wisely. She told me "Okay,that's another side of the story". Later on Tam and I both cooled down and were good again. We all went to bed early, we were tired and knew that tomorrow will be a long day...

Christmas is knocking on our door!

Christmas is knocking on our door!

Today the presents will be put under the tree, that will happen when the kids are in bed sleeping. Today was a normal but long day, Saf was nice and I like that, it's better then being ignorant and short, both of us. It makes me feel better aswell, I guess this situation is just awkward for both of us. Today Dako and me planned to go for a walk, and Mar will come with us. When we were on our way Mar wasn't planning to go for a long walk and complained a bit. But she did well and just followed us, we had a good time. We went first to the BMO bank and then to Tim Hortons for a 'Candy cane hot chocolate', Dako bought me one. There so good!

We decided to move on to another store after our hot chocolate's, we knew a short cut. On our way we cut trough a little forest that went downhill. Very downhill! There were sticks and fallen down tree's. On the end of the downhill was someone's backyard. It was such an adventure to go downhill, we had laughs and fun. When we arrived in the backyard we had to run cause we heard a dog barking. It was hilarious, then we headed on to the store, we bought some stuff and went home. I actually didn't wanna go home, it was fun being outside and I didn't feel the pressure from being inside of the house. It's not that easy to have fun and act like nothing has happened or is happening.

The evening arrived and Saf wasn't home cause she was shopping with Tam. (the last Christmas shopping's) When they came back they both started wrapping the last gifts and after that it was time to put them under the tree. Everything went well and everyone was nice. It was a nice day.We all sat down by the tree and Tam and Saf were drinking red wine, they were giggling and had alot of fun. Nothing the matter with that, we all had fun. I was a bit quiet and felt awkward but it was okay. Saf got a bit drunk and started to be annoying and I thought "Oh well". It was 2:30 am and we all decided to go to bed, cause the kids will be up early in the morning for the presents.

When we were about to go to bed, Saf was tipsy and loud. She had to much wine. I was annoyed but I thought "Just let her be". When Saf was in her bedroom with Mar she was talking louder, and laughed hard. The two little ones were sleeping and I wanted to go to sleep aswell. After waiting thirty minutes I decided to go to her room and tell her to be quiet. But it went a bit different then I expected, I asked her to be quiet, but it came out differently, I told her to "Shut the f#ck up". (Oops!) I was suprised I said it, but I couldn't turn my words back, it was just to much I could handle. I guess I was to much annoyed plus the stressed feelings I had in me from the last few weeks. I let the time pass and letted it just be for now. I shouldn't have said it, I felt guilty and sorry.

Saf went on with laughing harder cause she felt insulted, she was right! I said it cause I was annoyed and I thought about the kids and others who wanted to go to sleep plus I was tired and wanted to go to sleep. It was a short night with not much sleep. Sigh! I screwed up again.