A well deserved day off!
Oh yeah! It's been two good but busy days at work, but I managed. Now I'm sore and tired out, lol. I couldn't make another day, that's okay cause I don't have too. I'm actually working over my energy limit, according the thyroid results from my Doctor in 2003. Way back I know, but back in 2003 the Doctor and the hospital tested me and they both came with the results that I can't full fill whole days at work. I can only work 20 hours in the week. That will be two whole days and one half day. I'm now trying to work three whole days, that's 24 hours a week, four hours more.
I will be fine, I'm sure. I found out that I can do so much more then I thought I could, When I didn't had work and sat at home being sick, I only could think of getting rest and not allow myself to get tired, be very carefull with your energy! I was overreacting, and I became more and more tired. Later on when I really had to do something, (think of Candada and the time after Canada) I could! And now I'm working, almost can't believe it, lol. Ofcource I'm tired while working and I have sore muscles, but the tiredness feels a bit different. I'm used to the tired feeling now, I know what I can do and what I'm acapable off. I know when I have to take a step back and when I have to take rest. It's okay to get over my limits, but I'm aware that I will take it easy aswell.
Lately I'm thinking of dating again, but I'm not taking it that serious. I'm still thinking that the best way to find someone is to be going out, explore, enjoy yourself. I wont be searching for someone, ermm, well, maybe a bit then. But I wont be finding the searching that important, most important for me is to enjoy myself and be happy. Maybe then before I know someone will cross my path, who knows. Maybe I'm not even ready for dating, maybe still afraid to mess up and have that pain again, suffering, grieving. That's why I throw the searching for a date on a lower pit. Ofcource it can happen that someone will cross my path, and then? Then we will just see how it goes. I know I changed and I know I learned alot, I will be sure fine and okay. I will be ready then.
