What can I say about this day? I was looking a bit forward to it, but it ended not so, hmm, nice? The weather looked good inside from the window, but when I got outside there was a cold wind. I planned to go to the free markets in the centre of Almelo, it's only a five minute walk. I had shorths on and a t-shirt and the cold wind blowed, it was colder then I thought. The market was very nice, it made me think of the Canadian Goodwill store but then outside. People just sit on the pavement with a huge blanket on the ground, selling there stuff what they don't need anymore. It's all second hand, and what I all saw wasn't bad, it was actually nice stuff. I enjoyed it alot.
But it was cold and I walked a bit faster, I planned to buy some grocery aswell. I thought, I will come back in the afternoon and take then my time looking at the second hand stuff. It was busy already and it will get much bussier later today. After I did my grocery and walked in my room I felt I needed a nap, and so I did. I was exhausted and slept for an hour, I didn't got up cause I still felt tired and felt I could sleep the rest of the afternoon, I turned around and slept for another hour. (Wow!) I think I broke my own personal record taking a nap, usually I sleep for 15 maybe 10 minutes, and that's it.
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| People sell there personal belongings on the street. |
Angry faces from Frank followed ofcource, but anyway, at 9:00 he was brought home by Johannus. (hehehe!) So, yeah I was suprised to see him again today. Johannus picked him up this morning and now Frank asked me to come with them to the canal, just to sit by the water and have a few drinks. I though, ugh! I planned to go to the market again aswell, and like Johannus told me yesterday, he and his family would come too. "We already went to the market and now it's way to busy," said Frank, after I asked him, "Lets go to the market instead." "Oh well, let's go," I thought, so there were six of us, and it was okay.
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| Everything is orange decorated. |
The talks were getting opener, or how do you say that, when alcohol is in the body... ah! I think you know the saying, right? I don't like drunk people, and certainly not drunk, agresive people I know and where I live with. I heard a few things what suprised me, what I certainly didn't know of. It was not a thing to worry about though, it perhaps makes clear why some people here act the way they act. I noticed that most of the people here have a 'not so nice' background, or a 'not so' nice past. Maybe it's the fact how they grew up, or in what kinda atmosphere they grew up. Bad parents? Bad Mother or bad Father? Abused? Father drunk, or Mother drunk? I don't know, but to me what I all have heard saying these last 3 months from some of the residents, knowing all that, there behaviour makes alot of sence to me now.
I don't know if I should feel pity for them or not, I mean there all nice guys, but I can't change there behaviour. Or can I? Ineed to keep my distance aswell sometimes when I am near or with them, I don't want to get in trouble. I really blame the alcohol, it's like poison for them. Some of the guys where I was with this afternoon work with me aswell at Reha. You see totally different guys then, there funny and friendly. After 3 hours the crat with beer was empty and were heading back to Humanitas, it was only a 10 minute walk. Johannus invited us for a small dinner, french fries with burgers, nice of him. The plan was to go eat first dinner and then back to the canal, and drink some more, Frank's idea, sigh!
I knew already then that I'm not going, cause I know how it will end. I rather be somewhere else then, somewhere quiet with a cup of coffee, my room! And I'm staying with that. While having dinner we had laughs, talks and the kids played football, Frank was drunk (ugh!) and I so don't like him then, agressive, macho behaviour and loud. I started to know Frank two months ago and he was then a nice guy to everyone, where you could relay on. But now, I don't know, he changed, that's for sure, or is it that I'm now starting to know the 'real' Frank. Dislike! Blame the alcohol! The kids were still playing football but hitted a few times a window, and the staff came outside to have a little talk with Johannus, telling him that there kids have to be a little quiet while playing.
Johannus understood and was okay with that, Frank was sure not okay with that and went mad. The staff was gone, and Frank began to talk with Johannus, he disagreed and was shouting and putted his angry face on. Oh dear, his language! Later on just for fun he broke a lamp, and kicked a chair. Blame the alcohol, even the other people who were with us disliked his behaviour it seemed. Why can't we have a good time and have laughs without alcohol? After dinner I stayed with them until they were (planning) heading of again, but now they were not so sure that they would go again. Frank didn't had a place to sleep (cause he can't stay with Johannus) Johannus can't bring him that late if the plan was to have a drink again. Frank calmed down and called his friends on his phone, maybe they can bring him home after midnight.
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| More personal belongings to sell. |
I went later on to my room, and Johannus joined me with his family, they were going to there room. "I'm sneaking of again," I said, Johannus laughed. An hour later Frank was brought home by Johannus. I felt a bit of a relief, I think I need to stand up more for myself and be tougher towards the guys. I'm a good guy where you can have laughs with, they can take me as I am. I don't drink (that much) I'm not agressive and I like to be on my own so now and then. But being with the guys I like too, although if it's getting nasty or I feel it's going to get nasty then I'm sneaking off. I know what I'm doing and I will never get in trouble (knock on wood) I will be always on my hood.
This day wasn't that bad as it seemed, I had a nice time, but next year I will be going to the second hand market like I planned. I really saw some nice things.
