Tuesday, September 4, 2012

"Venting."

"Venting."

How to delete or ban a Family member out of your mind! Yes, my Aunt called again, I didn't have to buy groceries anymore, she and her Son did all the groceries for Dad. Aunt was short in her sentences, she just wanted to announce that I didn't have to buy groceries, what I planned this weekend. Oh, before I forget, Aunt told aswell to one of Dad's nurses that she doesn't trust me anymore, for example with the visits. Yeah RUB it in Aunt, I'm done with her. The baddest part is that my Aunt will gossip this around in our Family. Making my feel bad and sad, and even don't feel like coming to my own Dad anymore, they all must think bad about me...sigh! Typical my Aunt! I'm done with her now, it's me and Dad now. 

My plan is to go every weekend to Dad for a visit, period! (Lol, I even marked my calendar) Tomorrow in the afternoon I will go aswell, I hope then that I can speak one of Dad's nurses. To see what I can do for Dad, maybe groceries, or even financial stuff, or something else. No I'm not overwhelmed with things. Maybe I'm a bit over reacting now, but talking with one of


Dad's nurses for changes in his needs is good. There has to be changes now, if it's possible I would like to let my Aunt totally out of this. I will find some solutions, cause this is breaking me. No wonder that I had tension or stress. She done it again, it's been enough now. If I don't stop her now then there will come a time that I'm gonna be ashamed of myself to visit my own Dad.

So, that's of my chest, do I feel better now? No. not really, not before I settled things with Dad. Though venting, clearing your heart out is good I reckon. Though, at one thing my Aunt could be right, I have to visit my Dad more often. But I don't know why I don't, sure I visit him, but not every week. I also have other things to do. Lack of energy is killing me sometimes, plus, I don't live five minutes away from Dad, like my Aunt and Uncle do. Though I will make time now, to make a statement? Yes and no, first of all to visit my Dad more often. Goodbye Aunt, hello Dad!