"Horoscopes."

Here is your Today's Aquarius Horoscope:

All the good work you've been doing hasn't gone unnoticed. You'll find that out soon. In the meantime, keep on plugging. The worst that can happen is that you'll overindulge this weekend. Imagine that -- you, doing such a thing?

No not really, anyway, on with this day. 32 days already after our break up, I think it's time to go back, back to Holland. Am I ready? Yes and no, I would like to have a few days before I actually leave. I think ít's called prepairing yourself. I think next week on this time I will be flying. Almost sure. How do I feel at the moment? well, a bit better then yesterday, yesterday was a bad day. It's still though and hard suffering with a break up and I'm longing for some love. This week I will prepair myself, I would love a nice goodbye, not a goodbye like, "Well, thanks for all, and bye then." Someone had a little karaoke party for me in mind, I hope that goes trough. 

It's almost unbelievable how many friends Saf and I made here in Canada. The people are extreme nice here and friendly, what a difference with Holland. In Holland there not that open. I learned alot here. I had a good sleep and woke up at 9:00, I made myself breakfast and took it upstairs. Went on the computer and checked my mails.  A surprising email from the guy who had a place for me in my hometown, (woot) I had not heard from him for a few weeks, I almost gave up on him. He told in his mail, that he still hasn't moved from his ex, that will happen in February hopefully. I told him I found a couple somewhere else but....

...I asked him to keep me informed. I would like to have more options to stay with someone, my hometown is closer to me and I know what's going on there. I have so much to arrange when I go back. Maybe it's a good thing aswell, cause it will keep my mind of Saf and the kids for a while, but I will sure not forget them, they have a place in my heart! My plan was today to do some stuff and not just sit around and feel or think bad. After my Lunch I went for a long walk to the beach, the weather was nice, cold but sunny. It was a long walk and I was tired afterwards. When I came home Saf was up aswell, she was busy with hanging some racks. 

Cleo had some friends over and were laughing and dancing. Saf talked to me and asked for some help. All was good. Although it's all good, I still have that love/hate feeling towards Saf, I'm sure that will vanish soon. I need to be positive, and move on. A friend on Facebook commented on one of my statuses, she said "Onward and upward". First I didn't know what it meant but after asking her I knew. It means, move forward in life and to a higher/better place. Sounds positive, right?  I will keep it in mind! I'm getting alot of nice messages, it's a nice feeling that they care. In time I will get through this and will be able to look back and appreciate the lessons I  have learned. 

It will make me  a better person with more to offer in another relationship when the time comes. It will be a long path, but I will walk it, step by step. The girls had planned a movie afternoon today, some girls are actually going to the movies and some are just going to watch a video. I took a shower and felt fresh and shiny. Did some dishes, and made myself dinner. One more thing, Celery does not go in the fridge, at least not in our fridge. We have two fridges, one in the kitchen and one in the garage. The fridge in the garage is double so cold, and yeah if you put celery in that fridge, the celery will freeze. Why am I telling this? cause I screwed up again, I putted the new just bought celery in that fridge, and Saf went mad. 

My bad! Sigh! I feel bad! will I ever learn. I will make it up with her tomorrow...