"Rain, rain go away, please come back another day!"

"Rain, rain go away, please come back another day!"

Ofcource every Summer needs a bit of rain, but it's been rainy, windy and cold now for four days, I feel a bit of a cold comming up aswell. Hurting troath and a full nose, A warm tea beside me at the moment, while I'm writting this post. Green tea with a bit of cranberry said the package, smells good and it's good for me. I should drink more often tea like I use to did in the early days, I started to drink more coffee while I was in Canada, yes! You can blame Tim Hortons! The coffee was good there, French vanilla, double double, extra large! Usually I spoil myself in the evening with a "good" cuppa coffee, not a regular but a nice cappucino in a large cup, yum! 

Again I went trough the rain this morning just like last Monday morning, not that nice, but okay. I had a nice working day, I finnished (almost) one wooden lounge two sitter. I worked with another fellow worker, he's a nice chap and gpood towork with. There were alot of women today on our work floor, they were all from Humanitas from all over Holland and they needed to do a cource. Some of them were looking really nice, hehe (blush) woot! No, I didn't had a conversation with one of the ladies. While I'm writting this, I start to think, and ask myself if I would be ready for a date. The answer is "No, not yet," I'm not ready yet. The feelings are over though for Saf, perhaps just  tiny, tiny bit, but it's more a feeling of, "Ah, it's a pity it didn't work out." 


Life goes on, and I'm moving along with it. Sometimes I have these thoughts flashing trough my mind of, hey it's not that bad being single. But yeah, the longing for having a family again is strong, I hope the longing will be answered. I'm not so much going to look for it, I'm going to enjoy myself and my goal is to feel happy. Perhaps then the women will notice it and ...who knows? Right? After work I was tired and layed myself on the bed, I had a good rest before I made ssome dinner. Actually I was expecting Ricardo to knock on my door but he didn't show up. *Sigh!*  Maybe I see him a bit later, I thought. Am I getting attatched to him? Maybe just a bit, maybe it's because I'm missing the two little ones from Canada, Ab and Tasn, and Ricardo makes me think of them while being with him.

Yeah I need a family, LOL! It's needed! And yes, I saw Ricardo later on together with his little brother and Johannus. The two little kids started a pillow fight and I joined in, cause they wanted that I joined in. It was fun and we had laughs, but aswell exhausted. Johannus asked me to go with him one day to go fishing, I said sure, that's alright. Perhaps this weekend we go, if the weather is good. Finally, finally. I have found me a Doctor last week, yay me! Tomorrow I will meet him at 3:00pm, I will meet him for a talk, getting to know each other talk. I'm excited, and not even nervous. I have aswell an appointment with Paula tomorrow, I want to ask her about my Holiday-money what I got from 'Gak.'  If I can get a part of it, I could use some of it. I need clothing and towels, and soon it's Mar's birthday.

I have no clue what to get her though, I will see tomorrow. I'm 100% sure I will come up with something good!