"Don't let your dreams be dreams."

"Don't let your dreams be dreams."

It's been a nice day, with here and there some down moments. It just happens sometimes, and it's normal. I knew for myself that my first relationship would be difficult, just because it was my first relation. I dove into the deep, and I knew nothing what was comming towards me in a relationship. I never knew it would be that much that I had to learn, or what I experienced. Love was easy but it wasn't not only love each other, there was so much more, I keep saying it but I really learned alot. And it seems so easy now, sigh! What hurts the most is that I just blew it all in my first relation, I regretted every little argue and every little issue I made. We both ussualy solved things but in the end it was just, done! It became to much, I know so much better now, but it's to late, and that hurts when I think of it. I will take what I have learned with me...

What made this day so nice? Well, I had some nice conversations with the residents. Harry knocked on my door at 10:00, he told there was coffee downstairs. Harry is almost like furniture at Humanitas, he's been here quit a while. Harry is in his 50's and I really hope he get's a place for himself, he's stubborn and he's a tough guy, but a guy with a small heart. Downstairs there were more residents waiting for the coffee, a new lady joined us aswell, a new resident. Her name is Ina and she came here with her 11 year old daughter yesterday. Ina is nice and not afraid to talk, she really flips it all out while she talks. 

My Dad got feeded by a fisherman, the kinda fish was a new salt herring!

 She gets along quit well with the other residents, another resident asked me if Ina wasn't a nice lady for me. I told him that I'm not in a rush and that she is surely not my type. Ina is a nice lady and we get along well, we talk and we laugh, but that's it. She's the oppisite of me, hectic, talks fast, smokes, and she's still in conflicts with other exe's. So yeah, I'm good. Like we say in Holland, we will see where the ship harbors. We will see what happens, but I'm surely on my hood and carefull when it comes to relationships again.

I have been to my Dad today with a small gift, Fathersday today! He was happy to see me and very happy with the gift, I gave him a new pair of slippers. But he wanted to hold on to the old slippers though, it was a gift from Saf, slippers from Canada. He walks in them daily and he really loves them. I told him that if the old ones brake or get holes in them you can try the new ones. When the nurse came in she told my Dad to wear the new slippers, the nurse took the new ones and shoved them on my Dad's feet. My Dad can be stubborn when it comes to new things, he rather walks or wear the old 'comfy' clothing. The old slippers were laying in a corner next to the TV, I'm sure when the nurse is gone he will put the old slippers back on, I love you Dad! Dad can't walk that good anymore, he admits it when he told me, the new slippers will do him good. 

Dad really loved the salt Herring, here goes another one!

I didn't stay that long, I was tired and wanted badly a nap, it's quit a walk to from Dad's place to the trainstation. I stayed for an hour and left, it was all good. Arriving back at Humanitas, some residents told me there was free food for everyone, still I don't know why, but okay. They gave me 2 whole breads, 12 eggs, 2 apples and one pack of milk, I could have take more but I dont have a freezer and my fridge is mini-mini-mini-scule. I guess I will be eating bread alot this week. Like I said this day was nice, I would like to tell more of my thoughts, my sad moments, or my angry feelings and that I'm still not happy but I don't want to complain, I have sometimes my happy moments and things are going well and that should be enough, right? No one is happy 24 hours a day, I need to live towards my goals and that's what I'm gonna do.