"I get up, I fall down. But I just keep dancing!"

"I get up, I fall down. But I just keep dancing!"

A nice day, work was nice, it was busy but it went fine. I'm actually thinking to get me some work in the wood section. Me with a metal background and some welding diploma's? Yeah,why not? It will be a bit tough though in the hay fever season, but still, why not? I think I will ask my Boss up comming Monday what he thinks about it, I think? I will! Alot was going on at work today, there was this argue going on with two workers and the one who started the argue throwed his tools on the floor and left. I'm sure he will be back Monday. Sometimes there acting just like kids, one worker had to go to another section in the factory, moving from his section to another section. He could do the same work, but only to another hall, he refused! I really didn't see the problem why he didn't want to move, but okay.

Sometimes a worker doesn't want to work together with another worker, or a worker doesn't want to this or that kinda work, they then come with really louzy comments. Some workers who work at Reha need guidings in there lifes, like taking care of themselves. They really look healthy and can cope many things, but sometimes they just need that extra little help or that extraa little push. But not all workers are like that at Reha, some workers like me have been out off rotation a long time, they need to get used to that routine again. Early up and get ready for work, go to work and get back that routine. I'm still amazed that I like my work, and like my routine. I had that routine for years while I still had jobs, it was kinda boring after so many years always the same routine, untill I became jobless in 2003.

The first five months was nice being jobless, cause I had my thyroid issues, I became sick and the docters were trying to help me getting my thyroid better. But without succes, my thyroid isn't working anymore, the medication I had then and still have take over the work what a thyroid should do. I will never get a 100% good working (fake) thyroid because of the medication. And that's fine, I'm feeling okay but I just have not much energy, I get tired sooner and faster then other people. After the five months I was getting another routine, a so called 'taking it easy' routine. Cause I really needed to take it easy with things. I had my householdings and I had other things to do, I was pretty sick that time aswell. I learned that I had to write my chores  down what needed to be done and ofcource other things like for example appointments. 

I wrote them all down and spreaded them over the week. "Monday I will do this and then the Tuesday I will be doing that. And on Thursday I can do perhaps that, oh wait! I have a appointment on Thursday! Then I will do that on a Friday." I was pretty serious writting these chores down, it may sound silly, but it really helped. It helped me aswell clear my busy head, like getting things in order, or when you think you have SO much to do, but if you write them all down it didn't even seem so much. After I felt a bit better the writting became a bit less, still now I do some writting sometimes but not as much as then. It can become a pretty mess sometimes in my head, specially now with all the mail and what all has to be arranged. Then it's easy to write my chores or other important things down. 

Further with this wet Thursday, yeah it rained pretty hard this day. It's nice though to watch the rain, and even sometimes to go trough it. Jump on your bike and get wet! Or just walk, you might even dance in the rain. I really gonna do that one day, here in this street where Humanitas stands is a perfect place to dance in the rain like Gene Kelly did in the movie 'Singing in the rain.'  A nice long street with on the left side and aswell right side antique house, or how do you call them. 

I'm singing in the rain, just singing in the rain. What a glorious feelin' I'm happy again. I'm laughing at clouds so dark up above, The sun's in my heart and I'm ready for love, 

Let the stormy clouds chase, Everyone from the place come on with the rain. I've a smile on my face, I walk down the lane, with a happy refrain. Just singin', singin' in the rain. Dancin' in the rain, dee-ah dee-ah dee-ah dee-ah dee-ah dee-ah. I'm happy again! I'm singin' and dancin' in the rain!

Alright I'm drifting of here! After my work I went straight to the free dinner, it took a while till we got served cause the brocoli wasn't ready to eat yet. There were fresh from the store and they had to be cooked, nothing better then fresh food. The brocoli got served with potatoes and a sausage, It was quit a plate full but I finnished it. Ricardo was standing outside on his socks waiting for someone when I arrived at the Humanitas gate, He told me there is this girl comming for his Dad and he had to guide her to her Dad's room. (hmm, sounds a bit...akward) I told him okay, and I hugged him. Then he told me just before I wanted to go inside that he was sorry about yesterday. I went to him again and hugged him again and kissed his head, "It's alright," I told him.

Knowing Ricardo and his behaviour it means alot if he say's sorry to someone. It's actually the third time he said sorry to me, and every time he said it after a day he been naughty or bad to me. Bless him! I really hope there's a bright and nice future ahead of him. I went upstairs and took a shower with the last energy I had left from this day, it felt good and then it was time to do some relaxing with a nice cuppa coffee! When it started to rain again, I thought, "Ah, nice rain, perfect timing, when you don't have to go anywhere." I thought of singing in the rain but I just sung in the shower, maybe next time!