Sunday's!

Sunday's!

Yep, another Sunday, time to relax and prepairing for the next working day. Yesterday I was busy with the flea-market, so, what I didn't do yesterday I will do today. I cleaned up a little bit, checked my mail and I ironed, My God, I ironed, that's been a while. No, I didn't dance, lol or make funny faces, I just ironed. And further, well further not much, I cooked dinner, and that was it. I think I will go to bed early tonight, I'm tired and sleepy, although I took two naps.

Looking back... 

I shouldn't look back, but sometimes I do, it goes automaticly. Looking back at my time at Humanitas and my time in Canada. About my time in Canada I can say, reminding myself of that time does hurt me much less. I can look at pictures and think, yeah that was a nice time, I can look at statuses or comments on Facebook from the kids and just think, oh, nice. It hurts me less, I can take things easier. And that does me good. Once Noor asked me for my cell-phone number, but I told her that I had to charge my phone first. I wasn't ready for a phonecall, and still I'm not. Noor is a nice girl and doesn't hold back on anything, I care about her and ofcource the other kids too. Tasn, Ab, Mar and Cle.

Would I ever go back to Canada for a short vacation? Yeah I surely would/will! But not to visit Saf and the kids, I will be to nerves, or I think I will be to nerves to see 'them' again, specially the kids. Nerves of there reaction, will they be excited? Or won't they be excited? The  won't makes me nerves, that's why I rather not visit them. But perhaps time can change things, I would love to see them once again. Let's say for a visit of a week or a few days and then return. It's all fine with me. Will I be sad when I will leave again then? Naah, I don't think that. When I'm thinking now of planning a little trip to Canada, I'm thinking to have a short vacation in Mississauga, I really liked being in Canada, it's a great country with friendly people. 

Perhaps visiting some friends. For the same reason visiting Canada will bring me back memories, and perhaps I will get sad feelings again. Uhm, yeah, cause there will be loads of memories for sure, every street, shop, you name it, ah, I will see. I guess I'm not ready yet when I'm thinking now of traveling to Canada. Pity though, oh well, maybe next year I will have different thoughts of traveling to Canada. Thinking back of my time at Humanitas, I can say that Humanitas was a part that changed my life aswell, just as my time in Canada. At Humanitas I didn't had much time for privacy, I was almost forced to communicate, what was good for me. And almost no time for privacy, that was good for me aswell kinda, cause I had enough privacy when I lived on my own.

Still I see the old residents from Humanitas, I see some of them at work every Monday, Tuesday, and Thursday. I see some of them aswell at the 'free dinner,' every Monday, Wednesday and Thursday. Do I like that? Yeah I do, thinking of living in this city makes me glad aswell. I lived here now for eight months and I see the ins and outs of Almelo. It was better to live here then to live in another city where I would not know a thing. I like it here. Wow, this post gives me aswell a bit sad thoughts and feelings, not that much from Humanitas, but from Canada. Although it was a overwhelminmg time, I had a great time aswell. Still I miss the kids sometimes, and sometimes Saf. I spend alot time with the kids, specially the two young ones.

As the days weeks, months and years go by, I guess there will always be a time that I think of them and miss them. And as the days, weeks, months and years go by I will always love them and care about them! Even though I'm far away, no matter what! Sniff...........