Good, better, best; never let it rest till your good is better and your better is best.

Good, better, best, never let it rest till your good is better and your better is best. 

Ah! Another resting day on the way, I like Wednesdays. It feels like a little pauze while working three days in the week, I'm just taking my time then that day, and do wha tever I like. There still need to be done things finacially the comming months, so tomorrow I will pick up a few things what needs to be done. I finally settled my monthly income, it hopefully will arrive now on my ING account and not on the account from Humanitas. Humanitas made the money this morning over to my account. Humanitas recieved from Gak last Friday my money what suppose had to go to my ING account. Gak is the company who is responsible for my monthly money. I'm glad that is finally settled, that's the most important income for now.

This working day went fine, Turbo Mark was sick, so he didn't shop up (ppffeeww) Mark is the guy who likes everything to go fast and rough, I really wish he would calm down, it's so much nicer working. I guess were not all the same, it's not that easy to change a habbit sometimes. Today I finally worked with wood again together with a new fellow worker, I was a bit worried working with him, lol but it went fine. I dislike giving orders to someone,I'm not assertive enough andI'm to kind. The new worker has worked with wood before, he has his diplomas. Working with him was a bless actually, giving (on my way) orders went smooth, I only had to explain him orders once and he knew right away what to do. Blame the diplomas he had, he knew right away what I ment and went to work.

He's a calm and a nice guy to work with, he will only work on Monday's and Tuesdays though because of his school work. His name is Jeffrey and he told me he likes to travel too, Jeffrey went to Japan once, a 12 hours flight, I wanted to know every detail while we worked on a couch set. Me and Jeffery made a tiny little mistake (Bummer!) We messed up a little bit with the measures, but when we finnish the couch set, no one will notice, hopefully. I dislike it though, it gives me a bothered feeling. It seems easy a couch set but... yeah, I guess we messed up a tiny bit with the sawing, keeping the wood staight is a much while sawing. A lesson for next time. Today my Boss suddenly shoved a phone in my hand, my counselor at work found perhaps a job for me. 

I'm guessing 70% this job will go trough. It's a family company and there making brushes, the company is in the same city where I live. It's not really a heavy job but I have to work steady, and I heard something with 'heavy lifting,' I dislike phone conversations, lol. It's everytime a suprise with what kinda job there comming up with. It seems they always come up with a job with one or tow little negative sides, or it's the way I think about it, worry thoughts, afraid to take the step to a new factory, new inviroment, new fellow workers thoughts. My counselor at work (Agnes) knows how I am and she confronted me with it today, lol. She means it good though, I understand that I can not always say no, and I admited that to Agnes aswell. One day I will have to take that step, and I will.

About the job, Agnes will look for some more information about the 'brushes'company, and will keep contact with me. If Agnes contacts me and tells me I can come to that company for a meeting, I will go! Still it's the question if that company take workers who can only work 50% a week. (Half days) First there will be a meeting with a look around in the factory, and then I can say yes or no. I can always try it and if I then not like it I can go back to Reha, I know aswell that I can't say no right away, I have to adjust and will try my very best to adjust, and then we will see. Just that little bit of a 'eek' feeling when a new company offers a job. Many things I went trough these last 10 months with succes, I'm sure with this I will come trough too, right?

It seems I can visit a old resident in a few weeks, the guy added me on Hyves, Hyves is like Facebook but then in Dutch. Hyves is kinda boring, Facebook is much better! Anyway, the guy's name is Johannus, remember him? The guy who got seperated while living with his girlfriend at Humanitas, with two kids, Dylano and Ricardo. Sigh, Ricardo, how much time did I spent with him, wow, bless him. He seems to be getting the victim of seperated parents, poor little guy. Eveyone on my Hyves friendlist hates Johannus, not that strange though cause he lied to everyone at Humanitas, making his girlfirend seemed to be the bad girl, stole everything from her, betrayed her, you name it.Revenge? Maybe. Johannus was a nice guy though, but he has his strange habbits what he couldn't control, further then that he's a nice guy. I get mixed feelings when I think of him.

Now I got the chance to meet him again, hmm, I don't know yet. He would like to drop by at my house with the kids, I told him that I want to meet him first cause my house isn't ready yet, (snort!) Still Johannus hasn't respond, so nothing is confirmed. I would LOVE  to see Ricardo again, perhaps spent a day or a afternoon with the little guy. But Johannus, hmm, sure I had good times with Johannus too, but still, what he did to his girlfriend, bad! It's best to stay out of the whole situation Johannus, just continue my live and forget the past. But Ricardo, yeah, thinking of him pulls me towards him. Time will tell, I will coinsider the meeting wisely and decides what's best for me. Maybe Johannus can bring Ricardo for a day, that's an option I have to think of too. Like I said I will decide wisely.