"Let's work."

"Let's work." 

I'm exhausted and starting to feel a bit heavy on my chest while writing this post, it's been a full day. Maybe this day I did a bit to much, or is it the after pain from the nerves what has been hidding? Sometimes I have that, when I come to rest after a few days of nerves, (or stress) the nerves want to come out and then I feel the pain. I feel a bit out of breath, like someone is  pushing my chest. Rest is needed. But funny enough I can't say, "I worked so hard today, ofcource I'm out of breath." Yes, I have been working all day, and did quit alot. This morning I left to my job at 7:15 am, and arrived at 7:30 am, nice on time. It was cold this monring, oh yeah, it felt like winter was peeking around the corner. Only 4 degrees it was. When I arrived my Boss guided me inside, and offered me a coffee. She explained to me a few things about where I put my coat and my bike and ofcource where the cantine is and how the coffee machine works.

Then the Boss introduced me to the another Boss who will help me and guide me on the work floor, he will be the one who tells me what to do and gives out orders, he will also show me around and answer all my questions. I felt a bit like 'Remi,' cause I was the only one without a working overal. All the other workers were wearing the same darkblue shirt and overal, I was wearing the same outfit what I wear when I'm at Reha. Blue jeans from Levis and a Tommy Hilfiger sweater (with stripes ofcource, lol) Working shoes? No not yet, I have working shoes from Reha but Reha wanted them back. As soon as I get a contract then I will get the same outfit as the other workers and shoes. For now I will have to take care of my own working clothes, it's fine. Alright, it was time to get working, first I needed to get used to the work I had to do but later on it went fine. Slowly but steady.

I had to make 'the mats,' (Oh how do I explain this in english,lol) I'm sure pictures will help...

As you see the on the above picture, this is the mat where I have been working on, you see the aluminium? These aluminium rods has to be attatched to each other, and the use there for special rubber ropes. The mats come in different sizes, they told me that every ING bank has a a math like these. Now the attatching, to attatch the aluminium rods I needed a special tool, it was a little hook with a grip. You could almost see it as a screwdriver, same size and same grip. At the beginning of the aluminium rods there were special slots where the rubber rope has to go into, just shove it in. Well, just... in the beginning it wasn't that easy but slowly on I got handy in it, once I shoved the rubber rope into the aluminium rod, you take the hook tool and pull the rubber rope further in the rod, all the way to the end. Then cut the rope off at the start of the rod. And that's it. I made 12 mats of different sizes this morning. Pretty good, my Boss was happy with it, "Good job." The kinda work I did is just a beginning, the plan is to let me try other work activites aswell. I'm still learning.

 

The atmosphere there is nice, but so much different then Reha.Much more workers and it's a real factory with real products, serious stuff. Reha you can see as a learing school, they teach you or they prepair you for the real work in a factory, a real job. Ofcource at Reha we sell and produce furniture and other stuff but still it's different. The other fellow workers where I worked today are different aswell then the workers at Reha, most of the workers at Reha have a dissabillity to work, or have no abillity to work. They are still learning, or some workers see Reha as a day activity. Anyway, I must say I had a nice morning while working there, I was a bit exhausted, but further then that everything went fine. I only have to get used to the workers a bit there all strangers to me, and there so many of them, lol. They all know each other and I'm a stranger for them aswell. That will take time, I'm not that a communicater, specially not in this case. But I'm 100% sure that that will change, oh yeah! I'm not that a communicater but I communicate more then two or three years ago.

Many things has changed in the last three years with me and whitin me, first negative, but I can say and it's going positive aswell. Hail, hail here I come. At 12:30 I was free to go, the other workers had lunch and I went to.... Reha! Yeah, I promised them that I would work a half day and tell them how it went this morning. Funny that I saw suddenly a secondhand store on my way to Reha, I had time so I went in. There were lots of tools suprisingly, I didn't expect that. I saw aswell big coffee mugs, they were only 10 cents each. I reminded that my Boss at Reha needed coffee mugs in the cantine, silly and kind as I am, I bought ten mugs for the cantine, I thought it would be a nice suprise for them. And they were happy with it for sure, nice, big and all different kind of mugs. They were cleaning a bit up at Reha, so I joined them. It was nice being back for a little while. 

Next Monday I will start again with the new job, I will have to see how to divide my energy in the next comming weeks, I have to think of myself first. I will have to take it easy when I'm tired. I will work three half days first in the morning. If that goes well, I will start with four half days. The limit will ba five half days. I will keep contact with Reha, cause that's a must, I got my working counselors there too, they will have to be informed how it goes with my new job. I will try to work  Reha aswell, just to build it slowly off, lovely furniture I will miss you! Working at Reha will be Tuesday and Thursday in the afternoon, I will see how that goes, I'm sure I won't be doing that long, cause of my energy. Now I need to focus on my new job, divide my energy and do my best. If I don't succeed in the comming weeks, (months, cause it can happen that this job is just to much and isn't my thing), then I can always go back to Reha, and there they will look for another job for me.

Alright, time to end this post, Tommorow I will be a bit busy, I will have to meet my counselor for a appointment, were going to buy a TV! woot, WOOT!