Looking back with good memories!

Looking back with good memories! 

I think I have a little confession to make today, or? This morning I suddenly felt  the urge to read a little piece of a blog, Saf's blog. I don't know why,  I just felt the urge. I just wanted to look or read back when Saf and I first met, just bringing back memories. It's okay though, her blog isn't private, she can and is reading my blog aswell. Akward? naah. So, I have been reading a few posts, and it felt good, I had no 'cry or bad feelings.' I don't know why I bring this all up, and write about it. Maybe I just want to share after reading some posts that I changed alot from feeling sad and confussed back in January  till feeling much better now. Or maybe I want to share that even though Saf and I broke up, that we sure aswell had a good time, it's been quit a few years, I tell you. 

Spending a long afternoon with Mar, what a adventurous girl this is, bless her!

Reading back the period from March 2009 till November 2010, bring back loads of memories and lots of thoughts aswell. Thoughts like, "Oh yeah, I remember that," or, "Oh that was a disaster!" I must say Saf is a good writer, she says it like it is and she's so good with words. Saf is not standing still it seems, she's always on the go, there's no stopping. One of the reason I fell in love with her was that I wanted to take care of her and her kids after I red and heared from her her life story. How did I know it would be so tough, I keep saying that 'we' talked and thought about it along time that we should meet back in March 2009. But I guess 'then' love had no boundaries. We (just) went for it.  

Ab loved my bike, we both spended many times on it. Child seats rules!

Saf had a rough time behind her and I sort off had aswell, I sure was in need for some companion, oh yeah. I guess we were both looking for companions. In need for a crying shoulder perhaps, looking for love, a arm around ourselves, someone beside you. Can we say we were easy targets for each other? We fell in love, but, didn't we go to fast? I must say, in a few things we did, yes. But the break up happened, we both tried many times. I'm not gonna bother myself now with saying things like, "I had to do it this or that way, maybe then...," no! I had a good time, and looking back at that time does me good, not to long looking back though, otherwise I might get those 'January thoughts' again.It's all good. 


Do I still have feelings for Saf? No. Uhm, I love her yes but not in 'that' way,  if you know what I mean. Just as I still love her kids, If something would happen to them, I would feel concerned and worried. Even though we don't have much contact, I hope we still can be friends even though the distance. I would like that, and so far it seems okay. I really hope there doing good, Saf and the kids! I know they been trough alot and I'm pleased and blessed that I was a part of Saf's Family.I hope one day that they can find the rest and peace, specially Saf. And me? I'm here now in Holland and it feels good, I'm proud of what I have achieved, and THAT feels good too. 


Back to this day, Wednesday, could you believe I had my pyamapants on till 3:30pm? Yes, no lies! I totally rested out today, reading, Cityvilling, eating, napping, it felt good. It was cold this morning, no wonder cause it freezed 1 degree, there was ice in the garden and on the cars. Tonight it will freeze again, minus 3! I have been looking for some decent gloves but couldn't find them yet, I'm sure I will find them this comming weekend. Still I'm taking care of my money, saving up for my London trip. I must say, it's going well. I buy only the things I really need. Just a few grocery I bought this afternoon, it feels good saving some money.