"Looking forward to tomorrow............ A day off."
When I will be fully hired for this job there will have to be some changes with me, I will have to take it easy more , aswell with the things I do while working. Sometimes I get to enthusiastic and then I work to fast with result that I'm out of breath and tired. Sleeping a bit longer in the morning is a good idea too, I don't have to get up at 4:00 am or 4:15 am. I like getting up early though, I don't know why.Sometimes when I wake up at 4:00 I'm nerves I will oversleep myself and I will have to haste to get on time for work, dislike. Maybe a alarmclock will help.
Even though the work can be sometimes heavy and though I like the work aswell. My Boss told me today that he was happy with me, "You pick up things quit easy and you do your duties well, from my part you can stay," he said. With 'picking up things quit easy, 'he meant that if someone explain me something I get it quit easy. That suprises me though, in the past I always answered 'yes,' but actually meant no if someone would would ask me 'do you understand?' LOL. I have learned that if you don't understand something it's okay to ask or tell that you don't understand. Communicate! I'm doing so well, lol!
Happy Birthday to you!
It's Saf's birthday today, I didn't sent her a gift or a card, although I thought of sending a card, but in the end I didn't. I thought it would be just to much after I sent all her five kids a present with there birthday, I don't know, I guess for her kids it's quit normal. But sent a present to your ex? Hmm, yes and no, I don't know. I sent her a giftcard trough e-mail. It gave me a good feeling that I did something. Happy Birthday Saf!!
And now it's time to relax, flat on the couch, TV on, laptop on my lap. On the table a waffle with cheese and a nice cuppa tea with honey, easy to reach That's one of my favorite relaxing.
And tomorrow? I don't know, sleep out? Yes! I might go to the libary and borrow some books, just to have a peek there if they have nice books. I don't have a free membership for nothing, right?
One more thing. I went to work this morning with a rotten feeling a bit, I had these lonely feelings again, so akward that I don't have them now. The only thing I could think of this morning is that I would like to have a Family around me, akward cause I have so now and then many people around me, that should be enough. But it's different, yes I have so now and then people around me, but after that I will return home an empty home. That's why a Family would be nice, comming home from work and the kids come towards you screaming "Daddyyy!" I'm thinking out loud at the moment, sometimes these thoughts come like a flash and it sticks around untill my mind leads to something or somewhere else.
2 comments:
hey thats great that the boss thinks youre great!! i know you get tired so easily but God willing that will get better and improve in time. yeah, its lonely out there in the world. even if you have people around you, you still feel lonely if you dont have that special someone with you. most everyone wants a family. i hope you get one soon sjon. do you realize soon it will be a year since you left canada? just a couple of more months. look how much youve achieved and how strong you are! let me tell you something. when something bad happens in your life, you always get sad feelings when you get to anniversaries that meant something. so when the birthdays come, you think wow this time last year i was there. it will be hard when december comes and you pass that one year mark. it gets better with time though. but i know how it feels
Yeah it's been a year, I tell ya. I can be proud of myself, and very thankfull for my friends on Facebook, I couldn't have done it without the support of some friends. And you are deffo one of them!
I realize already a few months that it's been almost a year since Saf and I broke up.And I realize aswell that it sure could get lonely this Christmas, or New years eve, that's why I'm searching for something to do, just looking without any pressure, like I HAVE to go.
But it is as it is some say, Like you said it will get better in time, and it will. These ups and downs are just a part of me now I guess, everyone has them, and everyone has there own reasons to have them. Only time can heal such things.
Thanks Jana your so sweet!
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