I lost my 'radio' skills, where are they?

I lost my 'radio' skills, where are they? 

I might quit the 'radio' job, I don't know. I know I'm still learning and I know it's way to early to think about quiting but, I just don't know. It's nerve wracking work, it's not just a radio program with just playing songs over and over. It's so much more. In the six hours we have were broadcasting 'live' with many items, we have recorded intervieuws, a new recorded weather report, live intervieuws and ofcource music. I have to keep an eye on everything, specially the time plus the many buttons on the keyboard. It is so much, what makes it nerve wracking is the fact that the program is live, you can't screw up. I have to know what comes next after a song, for example, is the DJ gonna anounce a live intervieuw or does he introduce the weather, if he does then I have to get these items ready. And when I have them ready I will have to click on them when the DJ gives a sign.

It seems easy but it's not. Pushing a button when you really know it's the right button you need is easy, lol. Mostly we use the computer to pick a radio- jingle, a song, or a recorded intervieuw, it's not that easy sometimes to use a computer mouse to pick a song or a jingle. Sometimes you have to double click, or right click, ect. Confussing sometimes, I made a few mistakes this afternoon cause I double clicked on a song while the DJ gave me a sign to play the song. When he raizes his hand after he said something to the listeners, then that's my sign to play a song when his 'finger' is in the air. I double clicked the song and the computer asked me what to do with the song, ugh! I was to late, a silince of five seconds followed, five seconds is long when your 'live.' I had another song ready though, but the five seconds of silince.. we can't turn that back. 

I also double clicked on a recorded intervieuw, lol, the beginning of the intervieuw sounded like a 80's rap, lol and sigh!. But further it went well, it wasn't all mistaskes this afternoon. I got there early and when I arrived the DJ and the program maker were already there. The technician who helped me the last time was there aswell, but he had to go in a hour, I had to do it alone this afternoon, eek! "The program maker will help you here and there and aswell the DJ," the technician told me. I thought the program maker would sit next to me, to give me advice so here and there, but she didn't, she had other things to do. It was just the DJ and me, the DJ in one little studio and I'm in a other little studio, with a desk with lots of buttons and two computers screens and lot's lot's more. I can see the DJ though trough thick glas, we both can communicate with each other trough a microphone and headphones.

Evertime I had a question for the Dj or the DJ had to say something to me he clicked on a button or I did, then we can hear each other trough the headphones. I like radio work but this all is in my eyes just a bit to much, this afternoon we had a live football mach too in our program, we had a reporter reporting live at the match. When it was time to go live with the reporter's report, I had to call him and ask him to get ready, eek! So, when the reporter came in live I had to get the right button open, otherwise the listeners can't hear him. When he was done with the first report I had to get a song ready, after the song it was time for the reporter's report again. And so on and on. Paying attention is a must, it's a live program. Like I said, I like radio work but, ugh. It's aswell not really what I had in mind while searching for vollunteers work.

I would like to have more people around me, working with a group of people. helping people. For example, a vollunteers job whit lots of people, where I'm surrounded by people, like when I walk in, I can say "Hi." or start a conversation or have a laugh with or work with. I do that at the radio aswell but not that much, cause I'm in a studio for six hours communicating trough glass, lol. That sounds a bit overreacting, ofcource when there's a long song on the radio I can walk to the DJ or program maker to have a quick talk, but... I don't know. I have been twice at the radio now and everytime while I was working I thought, "This is the last time."  But still I have doubts, lol. It's a great oppurtunity to grow further with radio work aswell, but still. The nerve wracking during the six hours plus the feeling of being locked up in a studio makes me think twice. 

Now this post sounds like I dislike the radio work, but it ain't that bad though. I didn't even want to write a long about this, lol. I just don't have a good feeling about this job while I'm there, like,something isn't feeling good or fine while I'm there, it's stressy and not that relaxing. The funny thing is, when I get home I'm thinking, "It ain't that bad." But I will keep on going to the radio, untill I find something new, something much more relaxter, with more people. The first week of Frebruary, on a Friday I have a appointment at the vollunteers vacancy, I look forward to that appointment.