Switching the radio off....

Switching the radio off.... 

I'm quiting the 'radio' job... I just don't know, all the time these nerves before going to radio and while I'm at the radio, it's just to much. Last night the radio crew sent me new schedule fort the weekend, when I saw my name on Saturday the nerves began again, I didn't looking forward to Saturday. I don't like that feeling! Though I asked myself today, 'Why not just stay a little longer? Is it really that bad and sressfull?' Yes and no! But yeah, I'm quiting... sure I could stay a little longer, but the nerves will stay, I know that, cause I know myself. This radiostation, or these  programs in the weekends is not my thing. I have to pay attention on so, so  many things, and the nerves for screwing up. ugh! Damn, 80% in my head says, 'quit,' and 20% says, 'stay.' Decisions, decisions! Though, if I will quit, there will be a relief.

I will make a decision tonight, I will have to cause the radio crew will have to find a replacer for me for the Saturday. Anyway... Work was good again, lol, I really love it there. I should start saing prayers if they gonna hire me for good, right? I fit there a 100%, work is easy and it's nice, the fellow workers are nice aswell and they like me. Tomorrow my fellow workers want to make a birthday hat for me onThursday, I will have to wear it, I'm sure I will. Yeah, tomorrow's my Birthday, 44 years old, geesh, I'm getting old. I won't celebrate my birthday tomorrow though, just taking it easy and do the things I need to be doing. Relaxing is a must, cause I worked hard today. Though a few residents from Humanitas want to visit me tomorrow night, I like that. And perhaps my Aunt and Uncle will drop by by suprise, hmm, I'm not really looking forward to that...

My Aunt will prolly 'nag, nag and nag, nag,' again. I was planning to go to my Dad tomorrow aswell actually, but it's so cold out, and I'm tired, I would like to rest tomorrow and take a few'me' times. Yes, it's cold in Holland people, minus 10 this comming night. Last night it was minus 5, thank god it's not raining. I had to go out twice last night, sigh, bathroom visits, and it was so cold. When I go to bed cold, it might take a few hours when I will be warm again. My heating system in my body is slow, lol. I should start planning to go to sauna's again, it's sure been a while, there is no sauna in this city so I should seacrch a bit further. A sauna with this cold weather is SO nice! Sauna's are expensive though, in the past I went every weekend, I met always the same people there, that was a good time.

P.s: I made the desicion, I sent the 'radio' just a mail, telling them I quited. Wow, that was pretty difficult and a though job to do. I felt bad writting the mail, I explained why I quited, and I appoligized a few times. They so need more people at the radio, and there I was telling that I'm quiting. Well... I did it.. relieved? Yes, but, I'm not looking forward to there reaction, I hope they understand why I quited. lol, even when I quit the radio I still have nerves about it. Anyway...