Looking for....

Looking for....

I'm looking again for 'new friends,' to achieve that I will have to start with finding perhaps volunteers work, join a club or sport, you name it. I have been writing about this probably more then twenty times I know. It's like every week I notice that it's really to get started with finding new friends. I have a few 'friends,' but I don't want to stuck myself on only those friends. These friends I have are not that trust worthy to say the least, plus you can't really count on them. And yet, it seems I can't do without them, I dislike that feeling, I want to get rid of that feeling.

The few friends I have are from Humanitas, I see them quit often during the free dinners in the week, and sometimes we have a coffee together. Sometimes aswell we make appointments, or we talk about going out. But mostly it just stays with the 'talking about it,' or with the making appointments. I think the first appointment still has to happen. Uhm, well, we had a few coffee moments together, but that was it. Tomorrow night there should be a 'visit' aswell at a friends house, but I almost bet that 'that' will be cancelled too, leaving me with a disappointed feeling.

I should not even be disappointed, but I am. I would love to have more opportunities, more friends to go out with or who I can visit. Ofcource they can visit me aswell, lol. This Friday has been okay, just did my things I had to do. Groceries and did my first load of laundry, tomorrow the last load. Tomorrow I will visit my Dad aswell, he needs new pants, so, that I will buy him tomorrow. Hopefully the coffee visit tomorrow in the evening will go trough, if not, well, then not. Disapointed then? 

Yeah, but, I think I will have to learn myself more that it's really okay to be on my own sometimes too, or go ourt on my own. Though it seems or it feels that I'm to much alone, but that's not true. My 'Buddy project' counselor wants to learn me that, I think that's a good thing. Ofcource I'm perfectly fine when I'm on my own sometimes, I love it, Even when I go out on my own I'm good, but just that sometimes going out with a group of people or going on a visit, feels pretty good too. I noticed that. I need more of that, then I'm complete, happier, lol.