It's quiet in the house now

It's quiet in the house.


Quiet without the kids but still it felt busy. Tam and her daughter woke up first, and she was making the chocolates for work. They look so nice. Today we had the crazy idea to clean up the garage, Dako, Tam and me. In less in a hour we were done with cleaning and stacking the stuff. Finally the car fitted in the garage, but we still had to get rid of lots of stuff, it's all stuff from the last owner who lived in this house. While we were working in the garage, Tam corrected me with a few things, I don't like that, cause she's always annoying right, LOL! She means it good but it makes me feel dumb and it's annoying!


There was definitely something in the air today, something bad I think, moods came over me and I thought they were making a fool of me. For example I was asking Saf where the phone was, "Are you asking me"? Saf responded with a annoying tone, "No, I'm asking the chair" I said! Everyone laughed softly. why was Saf like that? She never response like that. So aswell in the garage while we were cleaning, Tam commented a few times on my work. (what I don't like) For example, if I would put a box on that side, then she would say, "it's better to put that box in that side, cause, blah, blah," etc, etc. I know she meant it with the best intentions but, aargghh, you know.


Later on Dako brought the matres and the boxspring upstairs for the single-bed in my computer room, the room  where I sleep now. I knew that Saf and I talked about the bed, but I still felt embarrassed and disappointed. I went to Saf and asked her "What are we gonna do about the bed, cause Tam told me the bed frame  is broken" Saf responded "What can I do about that? Then you ask Tam or someone else to fix that." I went mad and responded with a loud voice "I'm not gonna sleep without a bed-frame, why don't you just throw me on the street then." I was mad.


I had a little burst out again, and I was acting silly. The garage incidents with Tam and the way Saf was acting this morning didn't make me happy, I felt like a loser, and I knew it would end up in a bad day. "I can't do things right here, being in this crowded house is not good for me at the moment", I thought. I just can't find the right words for it. I realized today if I stay longer it will get worse and worse, I need to go home after New Years and I'm actually looking forward to it. Sigh! But I knew aswell that I will have it hard without them.


Things were getting on my nerves, I like that Dako is here now, we walk together alot, this evening we walked to BMO and to Tim Hortons. I bought him a hot chocolate, it was nice with him. We talked about everything and just nothing.