"If you do not hope, you will not find what is beyond your hopes".

"If you do not hope, you will not find what is beyond your hopes".

I have slightly good news. A few days ago I putted an add on a Dutch selling site, asking for a place to stay in my hometown. And 1 guy responded on that add. He was short in his sentence, he told me "When are you coming to Holland"? And that was it. I thought it was someone who arranges rooms for students or other people who are looking for rooms. So, I told him my story, knowing he was someone who can be trusted.

 A few days later, he replied back and said only "keep me informed". I thought "Who is this guy"? I decided to ask him friendly who he was. He replied back with a story saying, he was divorced last November, and lived in Hellendoorn (that's 10 min. from my hometown) He wants to move by the end of  January to my Hometown. He told me I could stay for a few months at his place then. He told me about himself and he's a nice guy.

I will keep contact with the guy, and inform my Aunt about him. I told the news to Saf aswell and she was happy for me. She told me "you should ask the guy when he wants you, cause 15 January my Daughter comes back to live with us". I knew this already, but the so called 'deadline' makes me worried and sad. Saf is nice to me, but it feels like fake. I'm thinking "Saf wants me out before the 15th of January". I'm worried.

But let's not talk to fast, first I want to see what happens with my place to stay. I will do my best to go earlier, but I'm NOT gonna push myself just because she wants me out of that room before the 15th. I got to think of myself awell, the guy who's offering me a place to stay could be my last chance. If he refuses then I'm more further in deep trouble. I know that Saf's children come first for her, and I respect that, but she can't throw me out just like that when her Daughter comes.


So, many things to arrange. It feels like I have a deadline!


I made a plan. (1) This week I will try to confirm with the 'guy' who has a place for me. (2) I want to collect all my belongings and decide what to do with it. Perhaps sell some stuff and the rest ship it overseas. Saf was willing to do that.(3) Get cheap suitcases and start packing. (4) getting my money together and book a flight. Easy right? LOL!


Saf went for a ride to Hamilton to pick up the kids from her ex. Mar went with her. They had a nice afternoon and came back late. Saf did some grocery aswell and some shopping when she was on her way back. Tam was apparently happy to see Saf and went to her for a talk, and another talk, and another talk. It's getting annoying. But I shouldn't be bothered about it cause I'm going home, but I bother, Sigh! I just got to let them be, and I will!  I have other things on my mind.


Funny thing is, I know that Noor, Saf's 15 year old daughter is coming the 15th of January and then I have to go cause her room (the one I sleep now) has to be empty and ready for her. I'm worried about myself, but I'm also concerned  about Saf and her Daughter, concerned that I wont be out of there before the 15th for her Daughter. I should be more worried about me, worried about my own things. It's all so double.


One thing at the time please...